#this referencing my alcoholic era. worst time of my life. i hate who i was. i hate how i hurt good people around me | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

arthur-kingsmen · 7 months

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i know when recovering you’re supposed to take solace in the fact that you’re a better person and you are no longer who you used to be. this does not stop me from wanting to time travel back several years and kick younger me’s teeth in and tell them to get their shit together

#im going to be okay. im taking comfort in the fact that i know itll never be that bad again #but someone mentioned how awful i used to be and man. the fuckin guilt and shame never eases #thats good tho i think. the guilt helps me to never be like that again #in five years i wanna look back and think that rn i was trying my hardest. so i AM trying my hardest #some days tho. some days that guilt genuinely just consumes you.#this referencing my alcoholic era. worst time of my life. i hate who i was. i hate how i hurt good people around me #but all i can do is try to be better. i havent been drunk in over a year or two now?#and its always going to be a struggle. but i am very proud of my sobriety and how i dug myself out of that #but some days all you can do is mourn i think. it feels awful. but its a good reminder to never let myself get to that point again.#personal #alcoholism tw

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