#this thing is SO STUPIDDDD<3

[asordidbarwere]

15-foot home depot Boiled One $129.99

[dizzy-daizey]

sorry all this egg discourse bullshit is particularly frustrating to me as someone whos cracked like 3 eggs just by existing in proximity to my friends and at least one more by sitting down and talking it through with them. its all so stupidddd how do you think people learn things without talking to other peopleee aaaaghhhhh blow upppp

[marsbotz]

hello I keep seeing u talk ab loving skybound but I'm curious as to why u love it, and would LOVE to read a super in-depth explanation bc im kinda a skybound notliker and ik uve changed my mind on certain thigns ab this show b4, and I was hoping u cld do it again !!! :DDD /gen

YEAH. OKAY !!! sorry this is super long and rambly i already had to rewrite it once cus tumblr ate it lol... and also sorry its all basically abt jay (running away embarrassed)

first of all let me say i do think skybound is a BAD season. having the characters suddenly all be sexist out of nowhere to drive plot is stupidddd and so is having a retcon ending that makes it all redundant except for Jaya Canon Now. i think thats mostly what makes the fandom not like it. BUT. i think its sooo interesting for like so many reasons also

i think s8 is considered the darkest season which is fair. but skybound also has a crazyyy amount of dark and DEEPLY interesting things it touches on. the ninja disappearing one by one. jays birth father being his favourite actor. jay torture. jaya actually being interesting!! lets talk abt these.

having the ninja slowly be cut out of the season is GREAT for not only building tension but also being able to more deeply build upon jay and nyas characters (and their relationship). the 22 min format means that some characters (like wu and kai) are gone for AGES. which is sad for kai fans but greatttt for the season. it rlly makes u feel their absence, and some of their disappearances are scary!! zane trying to outsmart nadakhan but realising too late hes been tricked... AHH!!!

if you compare this to how they did it in s12 its a lot more impactful as theres more time for the characters to... be gone. and the videogame nature rlly does take away a lot of the tension IMO. if jays mothers had been in prime empire like planned.... it would have been a GREAT parallel i think but as it is its just kind of odd. thats another convo tho lol (altho there issss the mention of jay being adopted at the end. very interesting [it goes nowhere])

i literally think abt jay adoption arc every god damn day of my life. ill try to explain this without getting too deep into my personal sicko hcs lol. first you get a rlly nice callback to s1 w jay being ashamed of his parents and living in a junkyard only to realise how litte he cares once theyre threatened. thennn you have the whole situation at cliffs house. jay finds out the man who abandoned him at birth (possibly? we dont know details) is the actor for fritz donnegan. the same character who jay imitated and aspired to be like. and then he realises his father felt the same admiration towards jay!! and they both never knew!!!

i think this twist is what makes a lot of jays behaviour in s6.... not excusable... but understandable. jay is shown to be insecure and have weird fucking ways of coping with this (lying. lying lying all the time) and so it kinda feels natural that his way of coping with this information would be to 1. hide the fact he made wishes 2. try to imitate his father through his book and 3. Never Speak Of This Again.

speaking of that lets talk about jay being tortured. can we talk about that?? they FUCKED him up. but the most important part out of allll of it is a character trait i rarely see ppl attribute to jay even though its like... pretty consistent for him. is his willpower!! hes able to endure days of torture to the point where he can barely walk and talk at the end of it just to stop nadakhan from gaining more power

nadakhan also directly points out jays insecurities and how they make him lie to his friends... and jays able to show some of his smarts thru trying to get flintlocke to stage a mutiny! honestly the whole episode is so damn interesting it makes me SEETHE its not more talked abt LOL

i wont get into my insanely complex jaya opinions rn but i will say s6 has one of the most interesting depictions of the ship to me. nya being reluctant to date jay due to being seen simply as his girlfriend is soooo interesting and fits well w her arc of not wanting to give up her own deal w sam x to become a ninja. its just a shame they had to retroactively make everyone misogynistic to do so lolol... and the ending w jays wish Potentially forcing them together is soooo odd and kinda goes what the rest of the season was setting up for them. THIS IS MAINLY why i think ppl hate this season. cus it sets up SOOO much cool stuff and then drops it all last second

i think the things that could have saved skybound from being so hated would be

1. do the same plotpoints w nya but dont drag the ninja AND DARETH into it ..... make them supportive of her!

2. makes jays final wish have some FUCKING consequence! you could do a LOT with how he worded it to twist it badly (im a nadakhan return truther for life)

3. not dropping every single intersting character trait ever. and also not dropping the GOD DAMN ADOPTION ARCCCCCC and also not revealing jay to be so crushingly insecure he physically cannot stop himself from lying to ppl and putting on a happy mask and then turn him into a one note comic relief character. [becoming a soulless husk]

LOL i realise this sounds now like i hate skybound I DONT i just think its very flawed. BUT thats whyyyy i love it... because its so interesting! its flawed in a way like "there is soooo much i cld do w this" and not like "i dont care about any of this its so bad". w ninjago my fav parts have always been the weird icky edgy parts that are almost too much for what it is... which is a childrens lego show. ik they cld never have done most of the interesting stuff i imagine coming out of skybound and thats ok! bc i get to think abt it evilly.

heres some assorted things i love and think are fun in skybound

kai and zane banter at the repo yard

ronin capturing the ninja!! specifically him shutting down zane from the inside is super scary and cool

NINJA IN PRISON!!!!! i almost threw up when they went to jail in crystallised its so fuckign fun. SKYBOUND 2!!!

zane playing chess against nadakahn. another scary zane moment

jay trusting only cole w the truth abt his wishes (HELL YES BROTHER)

clanceeeeee <3 him being like one sided friends w jay and standing up to nadakhan at the end of it all... wahhh

NINJA REPLACEMENTS. so fucking funny i love jay and his assortment of old guys And Skylor

everytime i watch it i cant stop thinking of this ytp and it makes me cry. its not even that funny i just have watched it like 50 times

its dungeon media. this is smth i made up and only i know abt . dont worry abt it but its true

ok my brain is mush HOPE THIS MAKES. some sort of sense . bascially trying to condense 6 years of Thoughts into coherent analysis is impossible for me LOL

[mothslimes]

cd burning foolproof tutorial by an idiot

disclaimer: i haven't done this in ages and just finished my first cd in like 10 years 5 mins ago so i am not an expert also, using very bad translations for specifics words because i'm not american soooooo.... you got caught up in the whole physical media hype and now you want a piece of the cake! or you looked online and turns out, your favorite artist doesn't sell that awesome album as a CD anymore... OR you just saw one too many posts about how fuckable CDs are (agree!). either way, you're here now, and i WILL teach you how to steal songs from the internet and make them into a real boy (disc) strap in tumblrinas, this will be a long ride! (because i can never stop rambling) (click hereeee for step by step vvvvvv)

0. gather supplies you will need a cd/dvd drive (either built in or u can also get external ones for really cheap online), blank cds (i'm using cd-rs with 700mb because that's what my mom had in her closet, but there's a wide variety for sale and i'm not a tech pro), and probably a permanent marker (like a sharpie) for labelling your cds. you might also want to invest in empty jewel cases or a cd wallet to store them so they don't get scratched!! there's no store links because i just used all my mom's old supplies...sowwy... 1. pirate download your music this can be from anywhere! theres sites that let you download entire playlists from youtube/spotify so that's probably the quickest way. but it doesn't have to be an album, you can also download a bunch of different tracks from different artists to put on one cd :3 important thing is that you have all your tracks as individual audio files so that the cd player recognizes them as separate songs and you can skip around! to make sure they're in the right order, it's also a good idea to give all the files a name and a number and put them in one folder you can use cobalt, or just google '(insert name of your preferred music website) downloader' and pick the least sketchy looking website. i also recommend a vpn and an antivirus for this step because...well, i recommend them for everything you do online, anyway 2. download your software many people here recommend vlc media player. i tried it and it kind of hated me :/ so i went with CDBurnerXP, which worked flawlessly and was INCREDIBLY easy to use. (and, ofc, free. do NOT pay for CD burning programs, or i will call you stupidddd) 3. burn it babyyyyy! (this is a tutorial for CDBurnerXP, idk about anything else) a) on the start menu, select audio disc!

b) select the right folder (where all your songs are in)

c) pick all the songs you want to burn using the + Add and x Remove buttons. make sure they're in the correct order, because they'll end up in this order on the CD! also, the program will use the files' metadata here for titles, artist and album information, so don't be surprised when the track name isn't the same as your file name. you can edit the track and artist names in the next step! d) click CD-Text (under Disc) to edit the CD title as well as individual track titles and gaps in between them (i just leave them at 0). use the arrows to navigate through your playlist

e) click this little button that says Burn. make sure your drive is connected and there's a blank CD inside!

f) wait <3 i would put screenshots here but I don't want to burn another one just for demonstration, so trust in yourself... you don't really have to do anything from this point on though 4. test drive! once finished, put your CD into your preferred CD player and check if all the tracks are there, in the right order, and sound right! 5. label label label unlabelled, your CDs will all look the same! to avoid confusion, make sure to take your permanent marker and write the title and artist (or whatever else you want, maybe a picture of a little cat?) on the UPPER side of the CD. not the shiny side!!! that's the one with all the songs on it!! your blank CD will probably already have designated lines for where your writing goes, but feel free to get creative <3 if it's a mixtape, you might want to note down all the song titles and artists with numbers, so whoever gets it knows what they're listening to! if you're feeling extra creative, you can also design a cute little cover for your jewel box. CDBurnerXP actually has a button to print one out!

(the little printer) i didn't try this one yet, though, cuz no printer, so i can't tell you how it works :'D 6. make a bunch of shitty CDs and give them to all your friends to subject them to your horrible music taste (and force them into buying a CD player) this is tjhe most important step. do NOT skip this!!!!

okay dats all thank you for reading my gay tutorial :3 if i got anything wrong or you're smarter than me, feel free to add stuff in reblogs or replies, i do not care, i have no idea what i'm doing but it worked for me teehee ALSO!!!!!!! if you can and have the money for it and it's available, PLEASE buy the actual CD from the actual artist!! in the streaming age, especially small artists are not compensated enough for their work, so please make sure to send them all your appreciation by buying from their store !!<3 official CDs (and their cases) are often really really pretty, too! (you can also buy used CDs, there's probably a lot of them going around now that everyone hates them.... sob sob... all my cds come straight from 2000s emo kids who are now adults)

[jenanddomo]

6.28.23

11:39pm

hey, its been a long time since i actually put something!

lets start w love life

so i got w my bf lol in early april! he so sweet n cute. he fr has the best version of me he so lucky

the reason y i say he so lucky bc i fr try my hardest not to be ugly or mean to me, he doesn’t deserve that. me n him r doin well :) prob bc it jst the beginning still but even then i tell him everything lol , i told him my darkest secrets n stuff (i thought he was gon be a stranger) but we always havin convos. i sleep w him once a week sometimes two, he so comfortable to sleep with.! i love to be ard him, we do little cute dates n i drove us to the movies to watch elemental it was so cute! so rn thats good

i treat him super good, im super honest w him n i jst cant lie to him:( i tell him the truth eventually. i only lie to him to mes w him like sum stupidddd

but thats that

mentally

i have been doin great actually! i dont feel miserable or depressed, empty, like im so happy now! life is great, i love everyone ard me :) every1 so great their hasnt been anyone so negative uk? im also very real to myself i accepted n jst found peace within myself

so thats good

pets

my two og cats died my spooky n kingking:(

i miss them very much i miss my black n orange cat they were like ying n yang . i miss their cute little personalities they were the best

but now a general

post

lets talk abt what i think and stuff

so i moved on lol as i said i found peace within myself , lookin at the old posts,, gosh who let me cook,,, i saw old posts, messages, and everything n its so crazy how much i changed in 5 months really. lookin at how immature i was , i was so clueless and stupid and lookin back at it now it likes been there uk? it was never a good thing from the get go:) i accepted that, i also accepted i used to be a bad person to but ik i got so much better, the guy im w he makes me want to be a better person.

eating? i dont eat anymore lol, i still eat below like 1000 cals , like every 2 weeks i will eat above it butttt idk! honestly in only this month i lost 8-9 lbs:) so now im 142 yippe yayayay my goal weight is 120-130 so in total i lost 38 lbs which is crazy. when my bf met me i was above 155 so im pretty happy w that

my life been so peaceful and im jst so glad alot of ppl left my life this year before i graduated, n im thankful for those ppl too without yall i wouldnt be who i am today uk? yes i was mad, childish and everything, that part it jst sum i still need to work on bc i do have anger issues. but even then i dont like arguing anymore or jst fightin in general, yea thats what i learned what to do but its not worth it uk? on my insta reels i see some relatable posts that i relate to so much im jst like awh:3

im glad im jst not how i was before uk? rn im jst so calm, i dont feel empty no more , i actually starting to feel motivation to do sum, i want to do sum w my life and i want to help others ard me.

when it was my last day of school, it was supposed to be “sad” but i was so happy bc i donated blood n my blood helped someone:D i was so happyyy like jst helpin other ppl makes me ecstatic.

i also quit smoking so im proud of myself for that:) i do have moments where i wan do it n stuff but im like no drugs bad n the only bad thing i do is drink, but even then im trying to stop that too bc their was one week were i drank everyday but i told myself i dont wan be like my dad so i kind of stopped.

my music taste is different then it was 5 months ago.

i have 2 new cats gizmo n walter.

im jst so happy rn lol i dont know what to say:3

but im glad for what happened to me , im glad i went through stuff when i was a kid, im glad i finally even opened up abt it to someone im jst so glad everything happened bc i jst wouldnt be who i am now

i guess

im just tryin to be a bigger better person

i dont want to be childish no more i dont want to fight i dont want to hit or argue or cause shit on purpose

lately i been emotional but i think

i jst need it bc im jst so glad how open i am w all that stuff rn

i also finished king of the hill lol i dont know if i put that

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary243

5/17-18/24

friday - saturday

one more day then one day off.

worked on 3 songs today! very happy with that and the pace i'm on rn for completion. everything is sounding a lot better and the snares + bass and guitar-y sounds + synths are all really cooperating now. i think finally the "sound" of the record is like, becoming coherent, getting put down, the atmosphere and location has finally appeared in a way it hadn't before. so that is super awesome and cool. very happy about that.

that is 13 out of 32. gosh!!!

too tired to write a lot, unfortunately, or maybe fortunately. keep my thoughts to myself a bit, see what comes out later.

but i do need to write. i need to get to work on finding shorter poem-ish things i've written, or fragments i like, and work them out into something to submit to my friend, beside that longer stranger thing i did, which i really do like but it could be too long or something.

one thing, is that reading the impossible at work, this book is so strange, very odd feeling for bataille, it is maybe the most indebted to de sade his writing has ever felt to me, though also written in such odd fragments, as if at the limit (lol) of illness and consciousness, which feels like the point, very important point to reach and evoke, the characters are all in funny relation and at blurry distances, love animates and desire too, but it's all in this void, this constant rattling in the chest, reaching and failing and expecting, and by expecting something surfaces or one de-surfaces, one plunges, the plunge here is accurate but only in small measure i think, or odd measure would be the better word, it is never full, complete, it is always in progress and progress is... to what, it's mounting and falling apart, consummation is instead redirected, wolves chase their tales in medieval forests in the 20th century, history haunts and is dissolved by the bile of the mad.

which is to say i am liking it a lot, curiously written thing though, the oscillation between the philosophical - thought-forming moments and the plot, or rather, each abandons itself to the other, the story does move and there is a story, the story though is almost non-narrative, beyond delivery even, the protagonist for the first section of this book (i cannot tell if this character remains the center or not honestly, entering certain later chapters (perhaps i am stupidddd)), is so bedridden and away from action, that you get his fantasies of what takes place which is truthfully not what occurs, and upon uncovering what occurs, he is still bedridden. this is so curious, he is so ill, the novel's existence is some kind of sputum almost.

anyhow, i am glad to get thoughts out on this book, helps solidify it in memory. i am about half of the way through the book, it will end and then what... maybe i stick with bataille, bring his essays to work next. or do i got back to gary indiana?? who knowsss. i know i will quit soon. worried about the potential for my reading to dissipate. would be sad for me. but i can't keep myself there, it wears on me horribly, honest. i do not like psychology as an apparatus, and i think the way health is spoken of generally can be freaky, if one thinks about all the assumptions it develops (though, it is hard to discard it. i feel guilty for that) and with the admission of guilt, i will say, a rather obvious thing i guess, but i really have not been doing well with this job, i am doing well at it but my internal life is getting to be a fucking mess and i hate it. i don't know how it does this to me but it's really hellish spending a lot of my days in an actual state of being triggered by the insects at home and then at work barely existing at all. i snuff myself and when i return to, i am just frazzled and maybe even losing it a little more than i know.

the other day, i swear, i saw a couple ants in the bedroom, i killed them, on the wall in their place, there were over 10!! i killed them all. 2 returned. i killed them. i have seen no ants since, it resembled a dream, where you look away, and see your object of horror returned multifold. it was too narrative, it really does not feel real though maybe insects just have that about them. they are occasionally, or frequently maybe, holes in the 'real' we imagine. especially regarding cleanliness.

i wonder about if i have ocd somewhat often these days. though, do i even believe that these diagnoses should be treated as real and that any pathologizing of myself can do me any good? obviously not, but... it remains inside me. horrible.

anyway, anyway, anyway what. i dunno, i really just nneed to sleep so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[6ad6ro]

okay so i just saw another post about how "gamecube has objectively best controller" so here we go...

1. horrible rigid dpad. bad placement. tiny. hurts to use.

2. facebutton layout is actually stupid. really really stupid. so awful. buttons all dif sizes and shapes like the rectangular buttons were the WORST. even spacing between buttons so it's easy to find em without looking??? NO THANKYOU! having big a button for resting is fine and all, but too bad most games aren't based on one button! so we deal w tiny little shitty b button. great...

3. click clack goddamn awful l/r triggers! fucking stupidddd! a single TINY r1 button called... z? suck my fucking dick dude. no the triggers are awful tho like dreamcast were way better HELL n64 were better w easy to press buttons.

fludd was dumb just scrap fludd too.

4. c stick kinda dumb. analog stick nothing special. it was okay i guess and at least it didn't break instantly like n64s? but it was really shallow with stupid circle pattern like calm down junji ito...

5. ergonomics OUT THE WINDOW!

no it was rly bad for ppl with big hands tho.

6. listen it was fine. i like gamecube a lot. i'm a bigger nintendo fan than any other game company 4 sure. but... you guys are losin ur minds here. there's a reason nintendo dropped the design. have you USED the pro controller? god it's this lovely combo of snes/ps2/xbox360 controllers. it's great.

i mean i get it i understand... i love the objectively awful n64 controller. because i love things like mario64. great games were based around silly controllers. just bc a few specific games worked well with em, that doesn't suddenly change them into good all around controllers? and...

7. u guys just love smash melee. you love smash melee. you keep playing fucking smash melee. nonstop. smash melee. you know it had sequels, right? you just suck and suck and suck that smash melee dick for 20 years? and it gives you brain rot.

the controller is "just whatever" at best and u guys just love smash melee.

[kunaiwithgun]

My washington dc trip

When last i left off from kakao, Ethan and i had gone back to his place to sleep for 4 hours so we can catch our plane. I went to sleep but Ethan did not. He stayed up all night. I generally think he is stupid. Anyway we got up in time and beat the morning rush hour traffic in Atlanta. We went to the airport to get our tickets. Ethan was complaining how i chose a sucky airline. But there were almost no lines and our flight was on time and did everything an airplane was supposed to do, what more could he want? Im too used to international travel, they allow for one large checked bag free. For traveling around the usa, there is a $25 fee ;c i had 20 bucks, ethan paid 10. This will be important later. We arrived at Dulles Airport in Virginia, and got our luggage. Ethan's friend Sam Russell was waiting for us. This Sam had lived in georgia, in the town i was born and where my grandma lived (neither were dalton). Ethan said he was very smart and kind, with a masters degree. He is unable to find work in D.C tho. The first thing we did was get lunch, we went to a a shwarma place (ethnic fastfood) and sam wanted to know who i was and what i was about. I told him about Dalton, my ambitions for korea and how it started, and i told him about you c: but i did it very shortly and without detail or flair because i was tired physically and tired of telling the story kkkk After lunch, ethan wanted to sleep. We only had two days in D.C. including the day im describing. So i wanted to visit the monuments. I saw the Lincoln Memorial, the Jefferson Memorial, the Washington Monument, the ww2 memorial, and the korean war memorial. My feet felt broken and bruised from all that. Unfortunately i was only impressed with the Washington Monument, which is strange because i thought it would be the least. All the other memorials were portrayed to me exactly as they are in size and shape throughout my entire life, so there was no pizzazz or pop. No yaps of magic being there :c While we were walking i spoke with Sam, i wanted to know about him. He is stupiddd like reallllyyy stupidddd. He majored in Philosophy for his BA, and then majored in Library Science (organizing library books) for grad school. No professional work experience, and he is 30. He is very nationalistic. Voted for trump, hates immigrants and blames them for the bad economy. And all else. 98% of washington D.C voted against trump, but not sam. After we walked around the monuments, Sam, Ethan, and i went to an authentic irish pub owned by an irish family who can play music and sing songs. It was reallyy fun. Im glad i had alcohol in me cuz it was painful to be part of ethan and sams conversation. We went home to sleep, sam refused to blow an airbed because he didnt want to wake his roomie. Ethan slept on the floor with a pillow and blanket. i slept on the couch with a coat. One of us was supposed to have all 3. It suckeddd i was cold the whole night. The next Day, i went to the FBI to get a background check. It was very fast and quick, i paid my money and left. Sam and ethan wanted to see the LDS Temple, i said we probably shouldn't. None of us are allowed in inside and they dont care for religion anyway. They kept asking me questions about the mormons and my church, but with thise two they, were not in a good setting. They would have poked fun or not appreciated my answers so i didnt want to talk about it but agreed that qe could drive by the temple. We got there, and ethan noticed a visitors center. He kept saying to sam that the mormons have secrets that they didnt want to give so thats why we were nit allowed in. I rolled my eyes. We went inside the visitors center, i identified as a member but that the other two were not. Two missionaries from spain, women, gave us a tour. There were full scale models of the temple, including what was inside and exactly what we did. The center had a complete history of the church along with videos, private booths for reading, lots of reading material that we could keep, a portrait gallery we could walk through, and plenty of missionaries to ask questions. I actually really loved this part of the trip because it crushed sam and ethans stupidness and were brought into my world. They asked me real questions about the church and i felt comfortable answering for once. For lunch we had Korean Barbeque yayyyyyy! I missed that T.T i wore my dongguk uni coat and people recognized it and i had the best of time talking c: After lunch we went to the smithsonian for American history. They recently opened the First Lady exhibit, michelle Obamas dress was there along with all the other dresses of the past president's wives. You could actually fit in most of them, a lot of them were dwarves kkkkkk Aftrr the smithsonian we went home to sams place and played board games with dinner and alcohol c: it was lovely. This time the airbed was up and i had an extra blanket so we all slept comfortably. The next day, it was time to go. Ethan and i packed our luggage and left. We were on two seperate flights at two different airports, sam was kind enough to drop us off. Sam forgot to give me money for the luggage fee. It was such a critical helpless moment. I brought most of my clothes with me, so if i couldnt pay the fee i suppose i had to leave my closet behind. My flight was coming very soon, so i got what i could, put my suitcase by the trash, and started to walk away to my gate. The employees saw what i did and stopped me, they didnt think i would actually have the balls to leave all my clothes. The manager waived the fee and i got to go with all my clothes. The trip back was amazing, i had no seatmate and so much room to stretch outt my legs were not cramped at all. I listened to music the whole way. Waiting at the airport was fucking awfull. I knew mom was going to be 5 hours late, i knew she was too dumb and too scared to notice the airports free wifi (mom said she had no plan) and i knew mom would forget i told her to meet me in the lobbyy. I was still upset. Mom got caught in rush hour traffic cuz she left late. And she thought that since couldn't contact me on her phone i would get a ride from someone else (i was really tempted but did not) i wish she had remembered to log on to the Wi-Fi but that was the first time in her life she heard of the concept. Anyway, she picked me up and we went home. I hadn't eaten all day, so we quickly got chicken sandwiches. I was so tired when i got home. It really isnt fair that i called ethan and sam stupid because they paid for all. They both volunteered to make my trip a success, and they did, feeding me good food and driving me around. but their conversations and who they are as people dont have my respect. Am i wrong to dislike them?