#this was silly and self indulgent. idk if ill return to it lol

[faerieorbitars]

ph also while i was drafting that last post i found this in my drafts and idk i’m feeling a little goofy silly funny. so. heres some thoughts on my self indulgent princes tutu/disney classic fairytales (really though just peter pan) story idea . i’m just gonna post whatever this says mostly unedited

idk if ill actually post this or keep it in my drafts but probably i will post it bc i like when people read my things and give me feedback even if its just for my own enjoyment :) (i did post it teehee)

for anyone whos never watched princess tutu heres the Quickest possible plot summary without spoiling it bc you Should watch it: its abt a town where fairytales come to life, because of a man who died while writing his last book, trapping the hero (the prince) and villain (the raven) in their final battle without an end, so they break out into the town and the prince shatters his heart into pieces to seal the raven away, but losing all his emotions in the process

the story is abt a duck (named duck) who is turned into a girl by the man (drosselmeyer) so that she can turn into princess tutu, a heroine from his story, and find the shards of the prince's shattered heart and return them to him. there are other characters in town who take on roles from the story but most people (duck included) dont seem to realize there even Is a story or that their town is taking part in it- except for those that know the prince (fakir and rue) and very much Dont want the story to continue. thats abt as much as i can say without spoilering the twists but its very good and you should watch it. thank u

anyways . now time to put funny guy in here for no reason . one of the other important story points in pt is that drosselmeyer Loves tragedies. so that combined with this idea that some of the ppl of the town are inadvertently becoming characters In the story gave me this idea that like. the peter and co in the story (slightly more book accurate just way edgy for reasons i will get into in 2 seconds) are completely different from the ones running around gold crown town (basically the disney versions) . and peter from the story is more like some dudes 'dark' version of peter pan where hes malicious or whatever and doesnt actually care abt people . and the tragedy of his story is eventually the lost boys all either grow up or die, tink dies, hook dies (idk what im even gonna do with him LOL), but peter forgets all abt them bc hes so selfish and obsessed with not growing up he never even feels sorrow over losing them so he doesnt even know he should be lonely and sad

but i know my boy so like. hes not like that. he genuinely cares for tink, and the lost boys, thats his family even if he never like says it. which is part of the problem cause like, while the prince has no heart the story has stalled, so everyone is just stuck in the same place in the story, otherwise living out their lives. the raven cannot get out and nobody can meet ill fates bc the story has stopped. but duck/princess tutu returning the prince's heart shards is causing the story to progress . plot points from the story begin to occur and they are quickly hurtling toward the return of the raven and the end of the tale- which btw is ALSO a tragedy. its always going to be a tragedy. things dont end well in the ending drosselmeyer had planned. but bc duck is a good person even once she realizes this she knows that the prince deserves to have his heart back so she keeps looking for the shards

anwyays this is rambling as hell but the idea i had was that at some point while duck is looking for more heart shards, she runs into peter who is, despite being forever an immature obnoxious boy , like genuinely a good kid who tries to do the right thing, so of course even if he doesnt like. know whats going on hes gonna help out! he doesnt know duck is tutu bc thats a secret identity magical girl thing but like, if she ever asks for help he does and they get along very well . he also gets along with tutu who he just thinks is a different person . he has No Idea that gold crown town is trapped in a story or that the story doesnt end well for him Or duck (tutu's fate is that she'll turn into a speck of light and vanish if she confesses her feelings for the prince so. lol)

UNTIL. he meets another character named princess kraehe, a crow prima ballerina, who tells him to stop helping tutu and that theyre all better off if the prince stays heartless forever. she casually drops that tutu is fated to die if the story goes as it is, and hes fated to lose everyone he cares about and be alone forever, and if he doesnt believe her he should seek out the story of the prince and the raven and read it for himself. which he does. and yeah shes right. and when she finds him again and is like hey like even IF nothing happens, wont you have to grow up if the story ends? so arent you in a lose/lose situation here no matter what if you help tutu? hes like yeah ok maybe everything IS better if the story stalls and nothing progresses . i happen to like things exactly as they are

so from that point on hes actively stopping tutu from finding the shards of the prince's heart as much as he can. hes still friendly with duck bc shes great and as far as hes concerned shes basically a lost girl even if she goes to school instead of running away into the woods with him (which is fine but lame) but that also gives him more reason to oppose tutu . whcih is conflicting for duck bc She Is Tutu. he never directly allies himself with kraehe bc shes obviously evil but its still like a mess

and then later on character development happens n blah blah he goes back to helping tutu but like ill save that bc im lazy and also i would have to spoil the twists of the story to get into that so maybe another time. lol

[beelas-bees-art]

tcoh minecraft au but i lost steam after drawing trixie

[cielospeaks]

imean i feeeeel like all my self insert ship based scenarios are wildly specific depending on the character? but i wonder if theres some overlaps?

obviously a lil basing it off appearance i guess? theres three i like that all are suit wearing glove wearing pretty boys but their personalities are like so wildly different? then theres moz i guess his musik is a suit????? idk

i guess in general i usually see it not being a really hateful/spiteful relationship. constantly roasting someone would be so tiring and make me so anxious i dont think id enjoy it very much. thats not to say theres no tsun tsun and slow burn bc that i can definitely see, esp on my part lol. and also on the opposite end its not mushy gooshy lovey dovey all the time. its not i think ever that sorta “everyone loves me im so perfect” sorta thing, where either of us think of everything revolving around us and continuously boosting our own egoes. i mean tbh moz is an egotist but hes also super sweet and caring towards others which ppl tend to forget bc he acts self centered and childish? but its moz what do u expect lol. anyways what i mean to say is its not gonna be all cutesy and self obsessed, even moz whos definitely the most egotistical of the bunch isnt the type thatd wait on my every move trying to please me, hed do what he likes and try to make me happy w it without compromising himself. and the others too. none of us are and should be “serving” the others, its not a sort of instantly falling in love and devoting ourself to that person sorta thing. i mean tbh hans might try that and im like “sweaty no ur important too”

nooooow that thats out of the way the more positive things? i think all of us in different aspects and to different degrees have stuff were struggling w emotionally, some the same as me and some different, and it makes me happy to think of myself helping them. after all they help me w my struggles and id like to return the favor. so like i guess i like em a lil angsty? but like at the same time i dont think its a necessity. like moz for instance, tons of the fanbase turned on him in s2 when he was more cheery and happy go lucky, but idk it never felt like he changed that much? or at least not unexpectedly? hes mozart hes gonna make fart jokes whaddya expect. like angst and problems is definitely something that draws me to these guys but i dont want them to be consumed by them. i want them to get better from them and live their lives happily.

i guess physically theres not much besides the aformentioned suits and gloves thing lol. and moz is proof its not a requirement for me to thirst after u. you can dress like a fashion disaster gremlin and ill still want ur cutie bootie. i mightve said i dont like to have my faves doting on me mindlessly but i like to think theyd all at least be a lil supportive about my hair. like its silly but ive gotten attacked and shamed by so many different ppl bc of it that im not rlly insecure? but i do definitely kinda crave being said nice things to about it i guess?

idk on a tangent bc i feel like indulging moz for sure knocks off any doubts and loves playing w it. he does that silly thing where he sticks my hair on his mouth like a mustache and were both cracking up. sacchan is more elegant about it, but he looks serious and is like “who do i need to kill” and im like “sacchan no!” we definitely wear matching half ponytails tho its cute af. and sometimes we mess w each others’ bangs. like when theres a leaf in our hair and stuff. schuu is super sweet and is shook af that anyone would be that mean. like boi ppl are way worse to u all the time ur too nice. but yea hed probably be too self conscious to do too much w my hair but maybe if i play w his hair enough he gets a bit more confident. idk if its cold ill put it around him like a scarf lol. hans at first is like “um... its nice” in regards when i ask him what he thinks of it? but eventually if i reveal my past w it and stuff he feels genuinely kinda bad, and this time his compliments dont seem as forced to him.

also for the sake of it past trauma if any of them found out about how i bleed a lot on my back. i feel like most all of them would be shocked at first tbh? but then try and help somehow. hans and schuu would be more sublte and shy about it, schuu just being really gentle whenever he has a hand on my shoulder and offering to carry backpacks n stuff, and hans would always be sure to give super genuine compliments when i wear anything showing my shoulders. the other two would be more forward, both moz and sacchan just like kissing the spots gently and massaging my shoulders. im like blushing like crazy at first but its so relaxing and it feels nice and i probably eventually start crying. at least w sacchan i want to do the same thing to him w his old scars so we can share in this sorta situation.

so yea fancy ish boys (or gremlin disasters) who have some angst but whatever extent or however often doesnt affect or change how much i love em. i think all of them are all in the side of “a genuinely nice person but bc of the writing/fanbase/actual hecked up rumors n shit irl they are disliked/the antagonist/’just a villain u cant like them!!1!!!11!!!’“ which rlly stinks but it doesnt change my feelings. and tbh i think theyre all kind people despite that theyre not perfect saint angles all the time. moz can be insensitive even if he doesnt mean it, and selfish, and not care about others (but at the same time he cares so hecking strongly for others, even strangers and animals hes just met, and he throws himself wholeheartedly into helping them, and hes emphatic as heck, even to ppl he dislikes), sacchan has done some hecked up stuff, especially in the fiction side of history (but his story is literally this fake fictional persona thats like a murder obsessed grim reaper being forced into the consciousness of an innocent person who was actually a kind and generous person and a good friend, and in like the shitty afterlife bc of this hes had to think of that person as dying when he did first, even tho hes been shown to still care deeply about others even as the grim reaper persona, like staying behind in lb1 rather than go w the protag, in order to bring music to an entire world of people that were going to die and be deleted from history and the multiverse itself basically), hans is literally the “villain u cant like him”, tries to decapitate the “protagonist” and according to the perspective of the protagonist and the spinoff works is incapable of love and outright lied to and manipulated her (despite the fact he never directly lied and instead said vague statements that she interpreted as him wanting to smash bc she cared only about smashing him and not his actual personality or life or anything, despite the fact the “protagonist” was responsible for possible murder and definitely sabotage of an entire like prolly at least 1000 people, and left them to die in a complete and unexpected climate change that could have easily led to more death and hindrance if he wasnt there to do something, despite the fact he gives a damn about the people and animals of this goshforsaken city when literally no one else does, especially not the main characters we’re supposed to root for), and schuu is hated for his rap outfit and for being clingy and getting in the way of ships (which can u blame the man for wanting a lil bit of companionship its basically a frankenstinian story of the creator abandoning the creation but the icing on the cake is said creator abandoned him while leaving w two of his peers, and even the others that were created w him all ignore him 90 percent of the time and treat him like shit 99 percent of the time, and whats more is hes got not just that rejection but the memory of being rejected in a past life 200 yrs ago by his teacher he admired in regards to his predecessor he admired, and yet he still manages to be so hecking positive about everything, seeing good in even super mundane things like the sounds of pot stickers frying, he praises people genuinely about even those mundane things, hes super down to befriend like anyone even tho hes super awkward at it, absolutely loves and throws himself into wholeheartedly new music genres and fashion and tries his damndest even if he sucks at it, he even finally gets the courage up to tell his now rival that he admires the painful reasons hes been agonizing on this for so long, and hes super willing to help others even at the expense of himself)

sooooo tldr i like these disliked/antagonistic boys bc i feel like treating em like how theyre treated by the fandom mostly is super unfair.

i feel like theyre all the sorts id love to open up about myself with, in return if theyre comfortable w it id like to hear about them too. theyre the sorts id wanna plan outings to do shit they like, or show them shit i like.

like can u imagine if sacchan was hyped as heck to go to a tour of a sweets factory? or even just the cafe of it? hes so surprised hearing about all these different desserts and we get a big sample platter or something and he just looks so wide eyed and happy trying each of them. maybe marie and/or bunyan and/or ibaraki go along to help w the sweets. and theres a piano there and i ask someone in the staff if sacchan can play it, and maybe he does and its a total hit. everyones listening so happily and enthusiastically. or going w schuu to a big concert festival in the summer? ive only been to bluegrass ones but hed probably love going to a rap or reggae one and id love to go to it w him. i bet itd be crowded and filled w music everywhere, and itd be so much fun exploring it w him. wed probably end up jamming somewhere. schuu is smiling and looks so intently at every performance and its just such a beautiful look i love my bestie. hans and i go to a museum and its super quiet and stuff, im not completely sure if hes enjoying it and am so nervous but then he asks what im listening to and we do the cliche earbud sharing shit. when we get to the swords and armor section both of our faces light up and we both rush forward, breaking out of the earbuds and both get super embarassed by it. scooter from the corner guard post: just kiss already! or like modern au and hans has a fencing match or something i go to it and cheer him on so much! he shows me the moves afterwards. and then he wants to go to one of my concerts or something. its cute af. or like not modern au and i go to his fancy prince meetings n stuff, and if any of his family talk shit i show up and intervene in a subtle way. we go on a day off to explore the town, and theres a concert and im hyped as heck so hans just smiles and says we can go to it. its cute af too i hope hed enjoy it too. and gosh moz where to even begin w fartman bestboy. we go on all the best dates even something as mundane as going and doing errands on a weekend afternoon is a date bc moz has no impulse control and an hr in we’re at a fancy cafe bc moz was chatting w one of the waitresses and somehow got us reservations. even tho hes flirty af hes really cheery and is like “this is my cute gf!” to everyone about me and im just like blushing like crazy. we eventually finish the errands, idk maybe he keeps getting distracted and im like “moz if you can make it through all the errands today on your own ill give you a kiss” and like its not even a first kiss weve kissed before right but hes still so hyped for it, his eyes get all alert and his face gets serious and we finish all the chores quickly, then its early evening and were in a quiet park gazebo or something and he leans in w a flirty look under those long eyelashes like “did i do good? can i have that reward now?” im blushing like crazy but i give him a kiss, hes earned it, hes rlly gentle and sweet, cupping my face w his hands as mine run to his back and its a really sweet kiss? idk ive never really kissed much if at all so i dont rlly know how it works lol