#this wasn't a choice either it just killed everyone else he has the most health

[x-letsbreaksomerules-x]

yeah okay fenris. sure. just say things.

[zaenaris]

I always thought that the confrontation between Koko, Inupi and Taiju in Manilla timeline was interesting and show the slight difference between Excecutives Timelines and Manilla!Timeline.

First in Manilla, Inupi has been took in Tenjiku after Koko

either at the moment of the blackmail because Takemichi was not here and Koko said "i go if he goes"

or after Toman's defeat against Tenjiku (that, or Inupi didn't feel in debt with Takemichi so accepted Koko's deal)

Its very likely that Inupi is used as blackmail material against Koko if Izana and Kisaki knows that Inupi is Koko's weakness and they must know that they will lose Koko if they kill Inupi; so they must be careful but they can threatened Koko like "if you don't do that, we'll give him that mission, it will be so hard for him, and for his mental health!"

And here, Taiju knows perfectly where to hit.

Koko? He implies that he is just the money guy and nothing else, and it's truth, he's in this life and situation BECAUSE of his capacities with money and he has take Inupi with him in this hell.

And Inupi? If he didn't want that much to revive Black Dragon....maybe he think that it would have been different if he has gave up this plan. But i doubt it. Izana knew about Koko's money capacities, he would have tried to find him anyway.

Taiju knows them so well that he knew what do say to hit where it hurts the most.

@naehja

yeah, it is a vey interesting interaction; for sure Taiju's behaviour in Manila TL is very different from the way he acts in the BLACK DRAGON arc and also in the final arc where he calls them his "inuneko"duo.

In Manila TL, Taiju really "trauma-shamed" Koko and Inupi, he surely knows to hit where it hurts, Inupi with his attachment to the idea of BLACK DRAGON, the "found family", sharing memories of the past once you're older, and Koko with his money obsession.

For sure the "past" that created the Manila TL was different from the one that created Bonten TL, and we know that Toman and Tenjiku at some point merged in a single group, the "second bad Toman" of the Manlina TL. Maybe the timeline changed immediately the moment Takemichi went back to the past, so maybe in the original Manile TL, 14!year old Takemichi didn't act the way "our" Takemichi did when he was ambushed with Koko and Inupi, therefore Inupi (especially) and Koko had no reason to trust/believe in him, and joined Tenjiku together immediately.

Or maybe they fought in different gangs, but they merged and reconciled later. Or maybe the ambush never happened in the first place, (probably unlikely, but getting Koko in that moment when they just had to fight it wasn't necessary, Tenjiku needed Koko in "time of peace", when he could have raised money for the organization. So maybe in the main story Wakui introduced that because he had to talk about Koko and Inupi's past and, within the story, maybe it was just Izana being Izana and fucking with people); unfortunately, there's no way to know exactly when the timeline started chancing. But for simplicity's sake, let's talk about the situations you mentioned

Izana knew very well (this is a flashback, before Shinishiro's death i believe) what Koko was able to do, everyone knew it, it wasn't not a secret, and Koko himself was aware of that

and we know that Koko only listen to Inupi so of course "using" Inupi against Koko makes sense. But regardless the first moment, if they joined Tenjiku together immediately after being ambushed, I believe that, at that point, Inupi just stopped caring about recreating a new BD: Taiju's generation didn't work and his hopes for Takemichi to be the "heir" of Shinichiro's ideal were destroyed, so I guess he just resigned to Tenjiku since, as Koko would have said, was the safest/smarter choice. I guess it would be the same regardless the dynamics that brought them together in the new Toman merged with Tenjiku actually. Inupi lost every reason to fight at that point, her tried and never worked. That's how we see Koko and Inupi once again criminals as adults.

Se yeah, tldr probably Inupi (and Koko) are both wary of Izana, but i feel that, at that point, there was no need to blackmail Koko any further; imho Inupi at that point had lost every hope to recreate a new "original spirited Black Dragon" , so he just does his work and doesn't questions things anymore. And Koko always had his money obsession, one way or another he needed to create money to placate his demons. He always acted illegally to create money, back in Tenjiku, knowing that he and Inupi were safe, would have been no different from before

Also we know that Koko and Kisaki gets along -at least in the final TL- so I like to think that they get along also in both the executive and Manilaa TL, maybe he's a little frightened by Kisaki since he saw what he's capable to do, but I guess they''d get along (just headcanon of course, since there's really nothing in the story that can confirm/deny anything, just a gut feeling).

[justanothersyscourse]

Im sorry I dont support driving drunk but that reblog kinda showed that you dont know what its like to be an addict?

Alcoholism can literally get to the point of if you stop drinking suddenly the withdrawals could KILL YOU. yeah they should plan ahead for rides but your whole attitude of “they choose to drink!” Was lowkey shitty and borderline blaming addicts for their addiction. Its not always as simple as “just dont drink” if a buddy whips out some alcohol or whatever.

If drug addiction was that simple to just stop and never relapse ever I wouldve been sober years ago. Drunk driving is bad but you really didnt have to do what op said and demonize addicts in the process. You made it to be like being an addict is because were too selfish to try to get sober. Thats not how it works.

Bitch, I am Newfie and the child of addicts, not just biologically but environmentally. My entire life has revolved around my own and my famiy's addictions. I have been around heavy drugs since I was a child. Three or four years ago I was heavily addicted to alcohol, and was hospitalized, which is when I was forced to quit drinking. Not chose to, forced to.

Trust me, I know what is like, and it's not demonization to admit that there is a level of selfishness involved in addiction, but that's also not what I said.

Also, how are you really going to come in here, comparing who has the high ground? "If they DON'T drink they could die, so them getting behind the wheel is justified, and if they just so happen to kill people in the process, it's not their fault ): it was their life or the other person's life, because buddy whipped out alcohol."

It's literally not like that. That's the stupidest thing I've ever read. Go sit in the corner and think about what you said.

Don't come back.

Addiction is not the START of the choices. You don't choose to be addicted to something, it's the result of a million smaller choices, and it could have been stopped or changed at ANY point. There are choices that lead up to addiction, and if you're not doing anything to try to make yourself better, me calling you selfish isn't demonization.

Addiction isn't as simple as choices and selfishness, either. Most addicts have a dual diagnosis-- that is, another mental health problem driving them to seek some kind of solace in impairment. There are biological and neurological predispositions that make it easier for some to become addicted to something.

Let's put it in simpler terms.

My step father is a heavy alcoholic. The type that, my entire life, spent birthday, rent or food money on alcohol, that was hardly ever home because he was at the bar buying rounds for everyone. The type that made stupid financial decision after stupid financial decision that drove his family into the ground. He CANNOT stop drinking at this point-- not because he's incapable, but because when he's not drinking, he has seizures now.

That wasn't true twenty years ago, though.

He reached that point because of one million smaller, more selfish decisions that lead him there, and that's not demonization. He was still a good person, he had good intentions, he always wanted everyone to be happy and have a good time. He had trauma and wanted to be liked by people. Unfortunately, he thought the only way to have a good time was to be intoxicated, and in the process of trying to keep everyone else in his life happy, he hurt and alienated his wife and children, and now he has no one. I haven't spoken to him in almost five years.

He hasn't killed anyone yet, but he might, and my mom and I know that all too well.

You can't talk about drunk driving without talking about addiction, and you're acting like that entire conversation is demonization, rather than constructive discussion about the how, why, and possible steps and outcomes.

You're acting like even talking about an addicts' decisions is demonization. Or are you saying they're not capable of making decisions and we should just... Accept that, and whatever dumbass decisions they make on the basis that they're being driven to make those decisions by addiction and could die otherwise? Even if they might kill other people?

Like, what are you even saying?

Don't answer that, I don't actually care.

People are allowed to call addicts fools for their decisions and are allowed to cut those people out of their life for their own mental health, and are allowed to choose not to be involved in whatever shitty outcome they find themselves in (up to and including accidentally killing people while under the influence), and that's not fucking demonization.

Being an addict is not an unchangeable part of them, it's not something they're born with but it's also not something they actively choose, either.

It is very much a changeable thing, provided they're willing and want to change. The longer they wait, the harder it is. Many of these people are given chance after chance, warning after warning. They can see the consequences coming, clearly, and continue to choose to feed the addiction rather than the health of their loved ones and strangers.

I know this, because I had to make the choice. My husband, or drinking. My mental health, or drinking.

By the time they're in a full-blown addiction, people on the outside forget that there was an entire journey up to that moment. That there WERE other options, in the past.

Addicts are very much victims of circumstances and biology, but the discussion around the effects and consequences of those addictions are not demonization. They're not inherently bad people, the discussions aren't bad, leaving a situation isn't bad.

What's bad is, using your example, choosing to pick up the bottle without a ride home, and without considering the harm that could be done to others because satiating your addiction is now more important than the innocent lives of others.

Talking about my biological father's death and the deaths he caused and how he ended up there isn't demonization.

It's a horrible true story that should serve as a reminder when people have to make their own decisions.

[dnalkaline]

I don't even know why the fuck I try anymore.

It feels like everything important to me always feels the need to be ripped out in the worst way possible.

Every time I try saving up for a vacation or to go to an event I've always wanted to go to, I end up having some kind of freak accident or health issue that makes me pay out the ass from the money I saved up and then if I can still go I basically have to walk around broke.

And the worst part is, after I nearly died because my dad refuses to ever do checkups on his car and assured me the brakes etc. were completely fine (despite that thing being a death trap), he keeps refusing responsibility and keeps going "it was fine :/// idk what happened" despite literally everyone who looked at the car report said that if I tried to drive home that night, my car WOULD have had the tie rod snap and the rusted breaks would have immediately caused me to spin out of control on the highway and probably kill me. It's like he doesn't even care. He didn't have any reaction when he was told about this. I almost started crying because he's supposed to be the "good" parent but... idk. It always feels like people SAY they care about me just to make themselves feel better but people rarely actually SHOW they do.

Being in poverty would be enough but my life just feels the need to be gut punch after gut punch. I lose inheritance that was promised to me that would immediately make my life insanely easier at the drop of a hat just bc the person (has repeatedly) decided to change their mind and sell it for themself or give it to someone else. Everyone I've ever truly loved IRL as family has been taken from me and released from this mortal coil. And now with my brain disease I'm starting to lose the only thing I ever really prided myself on- my mind.

After the pandemic made everyone's finances eat shit, nobody wants my art anymore (right when I was starting to gain some traction!) and I have to spend my time bending over backwards for a bunch of really demanding gig work that I didn't even really have a choice in doing.

I'm too disabled to work a "real" job but too mentally competent that I got denied and even if I do EVENTUALLY win it could take years to get SSI and my rights as a human being will be limited. I used to try to put my foot in the door for like webcomic startups and shit like that as a contracted worker and every single time I get hired the company goes under and I barely have anything to show for it. I want to submit to the local art gallery to maybe get my works out there and possibly find someone who wants to buy them but there's a fee to it and I just. idk.

I keep trying to make myself feel better and less "useless" by donating old stuff or giving it to friends who might need it. And usually this helps but. I don't know. I don't even know how to talk to people about this because to be honest my therapist is kind of stumped on how to help me now. Like she's trying her best and she does have good advice it's just there's only so much you can do when there are circumstances out of your control beating the shit out of you constantly. And I can't afford to be sent to the mental hospital and even if I WAS, the last time I was there was so traumatizing due to the racism and negligence that I don't want to go back.

Maybe it would be better if I had some IRL friends to hang out with more but most of the guys I would hang out with either committed suicide or I stopped talking to them because I realized that I wasn't being treated very well. I don't know what to do. My therapist assures me I'm constantly just being dealt a bad hand of cards and I'm doing my best but I don't care anymore. I hate being alive. I hate my life so much.

I don't even know why the fuck I'm writing this. I guess I just want it to be known *somewhere* that I haven't been very well for a very long time and if I just randomly disappear one day you can all probably guess what happened. I'm not going to do anything stupid tonight but I've been fighting the urge near-daily for the past few months while trying to pretend I can keep making it through. I don't know. I just want everything to stop I wish miracles were real. I hate how you can fight depression and suicide ideation for over a decade and it feels like it's never gets much better.

It doesn't help I keep having this OCD fear that I'm going to die before my next birthday and all the stuff lately is freaking me out.

I'm crying too hard to keep typing and looking at what im typing so idk if you read all this thanks ill probably feel better after a nap or something but everything just feles so fucking exhausting

[eppysboys]

I really hate May for selling the bullshit idea that the lost weekend was a good thing for John. He was killing himself with booze and drugs that year. His name was dragged on the mud after being kicked out of the Troubadour and the Beverly Hills Hotel for unruly behavior. Have people actually listened to Walls and Bridges? That's the music a man who wants to kill himself makes, don't let the cheery saxophone fool you. You know it's bad when Paul went out of his way to send him back to Yoko.

Do people really believe John would be happy and able to control his worst instincts living with a doormat? He could've stayed with Cynthia then, at least she wasn't on his payroll.

I wish John had a better alternative but in the end, Yoko was the only person in the world who could save him from himself. I mean, Paul technically could but he wouldn't. He made his choice back in 1969. It's just really unfortunate someone else didn't came along.

Hi anon, I don’t think it’s quite fair to file 18 months as purely negative or purely positive either. That period of time contained...so much. He definitely spiralled out of control and indulged in things he shouldn’t have and he was depressed and disillusioned and scared. There were also really wonderful things that happened during that period as well, which I make a brief list of in one of the previous answers. 

I really hate May for selling the bullshit idea that the lost weekend was a good thing for John. There’s a wide range of opinions of how the women in the Beatles’ lives should/shouldn’t approach telling their story. I think May’s case is slightly unique in the sense that John spent the months/years after his time with her telling blatant lies about his time with her. Go onto a variety of beatles forums or comment sections discussing the ‘long weekend’ and you’ll find the general consensus seems to be along the lines of ‘yeah he missed yoko and used may to pass the time, it was good that he bonded with julian but it’s obvious he needed his soulmate yoko’. Beyond that, do you really think May has significantly reshaped the story into one of John being happy and healthy for that time? Everyone calls it ‘the lost weekend’ because that’s what they think it is, because John said so. I don’t really think she’s selling that idea anyway? She is frank about how fucked up John was, but she also makes a point that that wasn’t all there was to it. And that’s fair. The people around them noticed it too, it’s not like she’s lying. If you’re mad she got money at all by telling her side of the story, that’s another thing entirely. 

That's the music a man who wants to kill himself makes, don't let the cheery saxophone fool you. I’ve said there’s a definitely warmth and vibrancy to it that his other albums did not have, and I stand by that. But....I’m not stupid. I know it’s not all cheery. We all know literally a beloved John Lennon trope is tortured lamenting self-reflective lyrics often set to an upbeat or lively melody. Again, who is saying it was a 100% happy time for him, or that John was ‘healed’? There is plenty of evidence that he was making steps in the right direction - Independence, self-sufficiency and taking responsibility were all steps in the right direction. That’s not worth nothing. 

Yoko was the only person in the world who could save him from himself. Yikes! No! It should not have been her responsibility and it’s totally unfair to put that all on her! Being ‘saved’ by someone is not what John needed, it’s not realistic either. In most cases of severe mental health problems and trauma, it takes a village and it takes /you/ to make things better. Handing over all control and responsibility to someone does not help. Plain and simple. It wasn’t going to come from just Yoko or just Paul or just May. 

He made his choice in 1969. Um? Ok? And if that choice wasn’t working out he was perfectly within his rights to move on. He didn’t want to because he felt safer the way things were, he wanted someone to take care of him, to mother/father/be a God for him. 

I don’t understand why the enthusiasm for things like......a great album and John growing the fuck up and building a relationship with his son amongst other things is somehow offensive. And it’s a bit bold to assume that people responding cheerfully to the positive aspects of that time are totally ignorant of the negatives. 

And by the way, May was not a doormat. She was a young woman thrown into absolute chaos who actually did manage to get John Lennon to do a few things he was scared/initially unwilling to do. That’s not the main point, but I just think it’s silly and borderline offensive to just label her as weak because she couldn’t ‘win’ against her millionaire older bosses. She’s not a perfect angel woman and I don’t idolise her or pit her against Yoko, because once again, these are people, not pawns in a game to get John Lennon to be a functioning person.

tl;dr: stream walls and bridges! 🥰

[mellometal]

Hey, everyone.

If you saw the post from earlier, I had to delete it. There were things I forgot to discuss and things that didn't get saved into my drafts. Sorry if you have to see this again.

I've been WAITING to talk about Glee. Not in the good way either. There's so much wrong with the show, and it's sickening. Yes, I've watched the show last year. Against my will, but that's because of other people refusing to put on anything else besides Glee. I can say that I hate Glee with my entire being. (My initial reason for hating it was because they covered "SING" by My Chemical Romance and turned it into a slow, patriotic song when it's a song about rebellion. NOTHING about "SING" is patriotic. I hated the show since I first heard about it...for that very reason. I was like thirteen or so at the time when I first heard about Glee? Despite it being out since 2009.

Though it's been over for several years now, it's a show that many people have mixed feelings about. From what I've seen, you either love Glee or you absolutely hate it. There's no in-between that I've seen. (If you can't already tell, I hate the show.)

The show is a literal dumpster fire, the characters are all fucking awful people and all of them are poorly written, the script pisses me off, it literally makes me feel disgusting, and don't even get me started on the covers. Most of the covers aren't that good. A lot of them sound like nails on a chalkboard to me. The pacing of the show makes NO sense in certain areas (like when Blaine was initially made to be a grade above Kurt, but was then changed to be like the same grade as him so he'd stay). It just feels like everyone in the show is either a Mary Sue, a Gary Stu, their whole personality is just that they're from a minority group or they're EDGY AND HARDCORE DELINQUENTS BLEEEEHHHHH, creepy as fuck, bigoted as all hell, or they're just background characters who occasionally have the spotlight.

TW: The following post and any other posts that I'll make about this show contains subject matter that may be triggering for some audiences. It will go into subjects like racism, homophobia, ableism, outing of a person in the LGBT community, bigotry in general, statutory r@pe (between teachers and students), teachers being creepy towards students, mentioned past child m0l3stati0n and invalidation of the victim's trauma, making fun of su1c1d3, making fun of overdose, making fun of drug addiction....a lot of fucked up things.

If anything mentioned above is triggering for you, please feel free to scroll and consume safe media instead. I'd rather have you be safe than to be triggered by anything I'm gonna talk about.

Let's start off easy. The characters. It's easy to tear them apart. At least the most problematic ones.

Rachel, the Main Character™️, is textbook definition of a Mary Sue. Instead of calling her Rachel, I'm gonna call her Mary Sue for the whole post. She's almost completely perfect (like too perfect), her flaws are minor if anything, she gets all the special treatment....you get the picture. When Mary Sue does anything fucked up or she says anything fucked up, it either goes unnoticed, people make up excuses for her being a shitty person, or it gets twisted so it looks like Mary Sue is the hero! (I hate her. So much. I cannot stand her.)

Aaawwww, Mary Sue didn't want some OTHER GIRL (Sunshine) to steal HER spotlight, so she SENT THIS GIRL TO A CRACK HOUSE. A FUCKING CRACK HOUSE, OF ALL PLACES. A PLACE WHERE THIS GIRL COULD HAVE BEEN PUT IN SERIOUS DANGER. THIS GIRL COULD HAVE BEEN SERIOUSLY INJURED AT BEST AND KILLED AT WORST. Yes, I'm aware not all drug houses are the same, but still. It doesn't matter what this girl did. What Sunshine did is irrelevant. It's not okay to send people to strange places where they don't know anyone, and are put in danger, even to the point of either getting injured or killed. But it's okay, because at least it's not an "active" crack house you sent Sunshine to, RIGHT, Mary Sue? You still sent some poor girl to a place where she could have been put in serious danger, even to possibly get injured or killed, all because you didn't want her to steal YOUR spotlight. You fucking disgusting, entitled, bratty cunt. You don't need the spotlight all the time anyway. THAT'S HOW THEATRE WORKS. YOU DON'T ALWAYS GET THE LEAD ROLE. YOU DON'T ALWAYS GET THE ROLE YOU WANT. AND THAT'S OKAY. YOU WORK WITH WHAT YOU GOT. Sincerely, a theatre kid.

There are other fucked up things Mary Sue has done, but this is the one thing I could find anyone talking about. If I remember correctly, she hurt her Gay Best Friend™️ Kurt in some way. All I remember is that Kurt was mad at Mary Sue about something. Mary Sue is annoying as fuck. What else can I say about her?

Next, we have Finn, who's textbook definition of a Gary Stu. I'll call him Gary Stu throughout this post. I hate this fucker too. He's the Main Character's Boyfriend™️, the Hot Quarterback™️, and The Good Guy™️. Yet....he's not a good person. He's treated like he's a good person, but he's really not. His flaws are fairly minor and excused (and any major flaws aren't even talked about much), he's almost completely perfect, and every fucked up thing he does is ignored or is justified in some way. Like how he outed Santana as lesbian in the hallway WITHIN EARSHOT OF EVERYONE. HE DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE FOR THIS.

As a woman who has struggled with her sexuality growing up, this really brought back shit I went through. I "dated" boys when I was younger to cover up the fact that I'm only attracted to other women. I wasn't happy with these guys at all. I acted like I did so nobody would suspect anything. I felt nothing for them, except for in a platonic way. I've been outed twice. Once when I thought I was bisexual with a strong preference for other women (by my dad's girlfriend at the time), and when I came out as lesbian (by my brother). It sucks to be outed. The people who outed me in real life could have put me in danger. They could have made it so I had no place to go back to. They could have had me get hurt. It's a scary feeling. Like, it doesn't matter if you're supportive or if you're in the LGBT community. You don't fucking out people without their explicit permission. You especially don't out people to their abusers or to people they don't trust, let alone out them publicly. That's what happened to me. I don't wish this on anyone.

***By the way, for anyone who's closeted, you're valid, I love you, and I know how it feels to be stuck in the closet. You don't have to come out right now. Come out whenever you're ready to. Whenever it's safe for you to do so.***

Or how about the fact that Gary Stu made fun of Kurt's voice because he's gay? Gary Stu apparently has ✨anger issues✨ and that's pretty much the excuse they use to justify him doing fucked up shit to people.

They treat the characters who are from minority groups (i.e., BIPOC, AAPI, LGBT community, disabled people) like absolute garbage, put them through all this horrific shit, or they put them on a pedestal simply for being in a minority group. The teachers and other school staff are either written to be total bigots (Sue), or they're total pr3dators (Mr. Schue, the school nurse, and another teacher who I can't remember her name off the top of my head).

Sue pretty much only exists to be a poorly written villain who's a bigoted bitch just to be a bigoted bitch. Yes, there were some things she WAS right about (like how "Blurred Lines" wasn't an appropriate song choice for the Glee Club™️, but Mr. Schue The Pr3dator™️ downplayed it). Other than that...that's all I can think of. Because everything else that came out of her mouth was bigoted bullshit. Like these right here, for example:

Or how she drugged the principal, date r@ped him, and blackmailed him?

How about them making a tasteless joke about Sue committing su1c1d3 and having her "overdose" on multivitamin gummies?

DO I NEED TO EXPLAIN HOW FUCKED UP ALL OF THIS IS? I do? Well, first of all, she called people racist, homophobic, ableist, and otherwise disgusting names. She boiled them down to their race, sexual orientation, their disability, and their appearance in general. Second, SHE DRUGGED, BLACKMAILED, AND DATE R@PED SOMEBODY. I don't think I need to explain how that's bad. The evidence is right there. Third, she said she was committing "sue-icide" by overdosing on multivitamin gummies. (Yes, you actually can OD on vitamins in supplement form, and it can cause serious symptoms and even death. Specifically with vitamins A, D, E, and K, and Iron. Vitamins A, D, E, and K are fat-soluble. They're a lot harder to remove from the body. The B vitamins and vitamin C aren't as severe if you do OD on them because they're water-soluble, but still be careful. You can't OD on vitamins and minerals you find in food. If you take supplements, vitamins, etc., only take what's on the bottle.) As someone who has su1c1d@l thoughts on and off, this is extremely insulting. Yes, I do use humor and I joke about my own experiences to cope, but this? Nah. Nothing about this is funny or cute in the slightest. Enough said.

Do I need to explain how fucking terrible it is to make light of a serious topic like this? It was never funny to see Britney Spears' mental health be at that low of a point in 2007. It was never funny to see the abuse the paparazzi inflicted on her. How the fuck was this ever okay? You can dislike Britney Spears all you want, but this was never it.

This is all I have for now. I'll probably make a part two because there are way too many things to talk about.