#throwback to the time that stereotypical therapy advice is to stop and listen to yourself and | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

syrinq · 2 years

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spending more time forming active coherent thoughts in my brain like "how am i feeling right now?" like i'm my own therapist to gauge how the current meds are affecting me, teaching myself the habit to actually stop and think before i say or act on shit

versus just blurting out whatever comes to mind first now, because i also am getting more aware of how much thought traffic there is and i want to talk about whatever car crash occurred, resulting in more brain farts than i'd like to admit

#and then you also add a sprinkle of doubt because it's like 'am i just mimicking the symptoms or is this me becoming more... me'#does that make any fucking sense. probably not but it does to me #more or less #sy.txt #throwback to the time that stereotypical therapy advice is to stop and listen to yourself and #you nod along thinking that's the basic bitch procedure you can do for yourself but then you.#you don't. actually do it. or you don't do it in an aware fashion. i don't know LMAO #there's a difference in knowing and it just goes one ear in the other out and then. having a realisation that hits you in the core because #you're aware it's actually happening.... ? i dont even. know how to word it #it's like three levels. knowing is the 1st one and you nod and you're like 'i may or may not forget about this subconsciously. but i know'#and understanding is knowing the ins and outs of a foreign concept like feelings. you can view it from someone else's perspective and #get why they think a certain way about said thing. or something #and then realisation stops your thought process and you stare into nothing as it hits your entire body like every cell is told the reveal??

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