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Feelings as of Late

I was fighting myself ... lately I’ve realized I’ve been lying to myself majority of my life . As a man it’s hard to find yourself versus trying to be a man that everybody likes . I always thought being the highest ( smoking weed lol) and being the rudest , gangsta nigga walking was the cool thing to do . Womanizing without regard for any feelings and respect for the integrity of the opposite sex and bragging about it , not really caring about my appearance , not caring about anything but myself . When in reality I really mourned for education and being able to lead a people . I mourned to be a gentleman and somebody who loves and teaches in his community . I was tired of selling weed and talkiniig sht it left me feeling empty because there is no substance or stability in that lifestyle ... I want to give it up and start over .. I want to go get and education I want to be the man I was born to be and the man my now girlfriend can depend on and respect as one day leader of her household , I hope she is iwilling to stay with me through my transformation and growth and still love me for who I wiilil become and not just who I once was ..