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[asparrowonthewind-blog]

The hardest part of life is living...

So here I am on day one of trying to "get it together" for what it feels if the billionth time.  Is there ever a first step that doesn't feel like a cement shoe?! Good lord...  How am I supposed to "live, laugh, love" my way into being "that gurl" while working a full time job, being a full time mom, and a full time passenger princess... errr, i mean partner.  In the word of the throw away midwestern character on family guy "there is no waaaay..."  It's days like this where I feel that one of those Dr Octopus rigs would be a god send. The hardest lesson I've had to learn is "if you want it, then go get it."  I can guarantee you that there are at least 3 hours in each day where I do absolutely nothing and to be honest I love those 3 hours but they are definitely not fulfilling.  While it's easy to write them off as "self care" or "recharging," it may be better for me to call them what they are, "lazy time."  That needs to be the first thing that changes.  I need to encourage an actual productive schedule that provides for the many facets of who I want to be. I feel like this is why I need a goal driven plan of attack to maximize my days as I work to building the life that I deserve.   It's not about an incentive, it has to be working for the things I want that can not be purchased.  I have absolutely no control will always buy myself the gift before the work.  I think I need to sit with myself this weekend and work through how this plan is supposed to work...

[hollyboy562]

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[affieqahmalik]

You seriously have no idea what people are dealing with in their personal lives so just be nice. It’s that simple 😉😊🌹 . #quoteoftheday #selfreminder #simplyliveyourlife #quotes #flowers #roses #googlepicture #love #bersangkabaik #husnudzon #tryingtochangemylife