#turns out.. its probably a deep fear in all the pple who base their self identity and confidence on “being the absolute best/kindest” etc | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

waluijoe · 4 months

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third person to tell me they're deeply afraid of making me angry, not because i would be scary (which i thought, and didnt understand) or because i would yell or be terrible etc.. (cause i'm not im very patient and never yell and i don't like to be angry at people). but because i would say "the truth exactly as it is and that just feels worse". fascinating

#i find that SO fascinating #im really so.. aware of my flaws and whats wrong w me and how i act #and whats hypocritical abt me etc #i see it #and i accept it #if someone told me their honest thoughts i wouldnt be phased liek i would be hurt yea but it doesnt Scare me #cause like im obviously MY worst migraine lmao #pple can betray me and hurt me but the truth of me isnt that scary its like yeah.. sure #i know what i am #i know my curse and i know my good and i know my shitty #its fine #but pple .. are so TERRIFIED of their truth #that the feeling of me telling them exactly whats wrong w them is somehow.. scary ?? even tho im.. kind #why is it scary #theyre so afraid of being bad or shitty or not being seen as good or losing faith in themselves #exactly my theory of pple going mad at me when i look at them like “youre not perfect actually and thats ok” and theyre like SHUT up you fu #(happened before lmao my bff got so ANGRY and i was so confused)#turns out.. its probably a deep fear in all the pple who base their self identity and confidence on “being the absolute best/kindest” etc #thats so whacky #i mean its great to wanna be good but its so.. unsolid to base everything arnd being picture perfect and hating flaws idk #thats not realistic #you are a person #if someone telling you “you lie sometimes” shatters you or “youre selfish a lot” etc #how are u gonna live #but im even more fascinated that pple trust me SO much and rely on me sooo much if a part of them is also scared of me being too honest #in my anger #its kinda funny #its like my anger scares them the most but also im the one they trust the most lmao #maybe thats why tho #the closer someone is the sharper the blade ig

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