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[twiyoriz]

one panel in the manga that will consistently ruin me is where twilight is getting an apple tart for his fake wife (who really likes apples) and a nut cake for his fake daughter (who happens to particularly enjoy peanuts)

yes, they’re in a fake family, and all of the members of that family understand that they are in a familial relationship with him out of convenience. however, twilight doesn’t act like his family is fake. he has no need to remember his wife’s favorite fruit and daughter’s favorite food if they’re in a fake family. and yet, he doesn’t act like his family is fake. he tries. they all try.

one could argue that twilight was doing this to uphold his image as a doting husband and father, but any bystander wouldn’t know that. he’s a man at a bakery stand alone, and anyone can assume that he’s simply there after a long day of work to indulge in a few sweet treats. twilight could have also easily bought pastries solely for himself, but this is emphasis on how his daughter and wife never leave his mind. even if it’s a fake family, they have a real bond (pun intended). they have lived together, they have grown together, they’ve learned to be a part of a family, and they’ve experienced the highs and lows of daily life together.

living life in such unstable families and absent presences of parental figures makes it hard for them to recognize it, but this is truly what a family feels like.

& this is simply another point to add onto the list on how twilight is doing virtually everything “for the mission”

EDIT: THEY ANIMATED IT??? RIGHT AFTER I POSTED THIS WOW

[yumeka-sxf]

A chronological analysis on Twilight and Yor - Part 8

*This is part of an ongoing post series. If you missed the Introduction/Part 1, click here*

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The next day, Yor's incredibly low self-esteem resurfaces, not only from the events of the night before, but also from Anya commenting that she's a bad cook (it's subtle, but Anya was probably going to say something about Yor's true identity when she read Twilight's mind and realized he was suspicious of Yor, but then thought better of it).

In Yor's view, not only can she not cook, but she couldn't even go through with the kiss, and it was only thanks to Loid that everything with Yuri was smoothed over in the end. She misinterprets him being suspicious of her as him being upset with how useless of a wife she's been.

@greatwyrmgold suggests that Yor has impostor syndrome and/or social anxiety, and I agree with that. We saw a bit of it early on when she saved Anya from the thugs who wanted to steal her Eden uniform, where the only thing she could focus on after was what a failure she was for destroying the groceries in the process. @twiyoriz pointed out another example way back when she first met Loid at the tailors. When he commented on how pretty she was and she started to pursue him before finding out he had a child (and probably a wife too), she never thought he did anything wrong by flirting with her – she only blamed herself for almost asking out a married man. It's even worse in this episode. She can barely concentrate at work and ends up confiding in her coworkers about her situation. She even thinks about giving Loid some of the money she earns from her assassin jobs so she could be useful to him.

It's interesting to note that during her encounter with the fake SSS officers, Yor only starts to revert to "assassin mode" when Franky makes a grab at her. But even then, her response is that he shouldn't touch her because she's a married woman, not because she doesn't want to be touched. She then goes further by threatening them if they do anything to harm Loid or Yuri. As usual, she really only loses it when someone threatens a person she loves, but not when she's the one under attack. Even afterwards, she never blames the SSS officers for totally screwing up and almost making a false arrest…all she can think about is what she did wrong – almost getting arrested and almost attacking a government agent.

ProfessorViral made some good points about this part of Yor's character in his video analysis . To summarize, Yor dedicated her entire life to raising Yuri and ensuring his success. This more or less became her purpose in life, and because she never had time for other "normal" relationships like with friends or lovers, the only purpose she could see for herself is how she could be useful to him, which she was by becoming an assassin. But when she took on this new role of (fake) wife/mother, because of how she had lived her life until then, she can only see her worth in terms of her usefulness to Loid and Anya, just like with Yuri. She doesn't know how else to live besides being useful to others, yet the people she wants to be useful to don't need the one thing she knows how to offer: money from her assassin jobs. Because her assassin profession holds no benefit to them, she assumes being a "normal" wife/mother is what she has to be instead. Even though Loid and Anya never demanded this from her, outside influences, like her coworkers, the Eden interviewers, and the SSS, do – while she gets nothing but adoration in the Forger household, outside of that she's bombarded with expectations of what a wife/mother should and shouldn't be. Because of all this, she becomes conflicted, which only worsens her imposter syndrome.

Twilight does well keeping his emotions in check throughout this episode. But what's interesting is that, while he denied feeling guilty about being suspicious of Yor, when Franky tells him to keep his emotions out of the picture, he doesn't deny anything. He pauses for a moment (a pause in the anime, while the manga adds an extra panel of his placid expression to signify a pause) before bantering with Franky about the fake mask he was wearing.

But this won't be the last time Twilight doesn't try to deny feeling emotions for his (fake) family when someone brings it up. And yet, remember how quick he was to deny anything flirtatious about himself and Yor when Anya mentioned it? There's a lot of moments like this that show that Twilight is much more likely to lose his composure around his (fake) family than with anyone else. I think at least one reason he's quicker to dismiss his feelings in front of Yor and Anya is because he knows if he let's any deeper emotions show, they may feel a need to reciprocate, and that will only make things more difficult for when he eventually has to leave them.

When Twilight finally meets up with Yor, he sees how depressed she is. She even flat out tells him that she's useless because she can't keep her own clothes clean (something he's to blame for).

It's here that Twilight returns the confidence boost that Yor gave him not too long ago when he started thinking he was a failure as a father. While it's again debatable how much of what he's saying here is just "for the mission" stuff (since he can't let Yor get depressed) it's obvious his remarks about how exhausting it can be to always put on a performance, is spoken from the heart. In this case and many others, while "for the mission" may be the reason Twilight says many of the nice things he says to Yor, Anya, and others, what he actually says are things he truly believes in, especially when talking about a broader topic like this.

Twilight is momentarily thrown off his groove when Yor tells him that she's glad she married him. For the first time since he started being suspicious of her, he looks noticeably surprised at something she said.

He was probably expecting just a "thank you" or "I'll keep doing my best." As I suggested during Yuri's visit, at this point he may be starting to feel something for Yor, so the fact that she so sincerely said that she's glad she married him right after he put her through such a bad situation, probably poked at his conscience. His expression immediately darkens (a sign that his true feelings want to surface) as he recalls Franky's words about him feeling guilty for suspecting her. He then tightly clutches the bug in his hands before throwing it away, then suggests that they get a cake to celebrate their one-year wedding anniversary – all of which are subtle but clear reactions that show his satisfaction at not having to be suspicious of her anymore.

This is all just more evidence of how well Twilight and Yor complement each other, not just as parents to Anya, but for each other as individuals. While their core values and morals of wanting to do good in the world are the same, their personalities and how they view everything around them is vastly different. As also mentioned in Twiyoriz's post, Twilight, being a spy, always expects the worst from others, is always suspicious, and as such, refuses to let emotions cloud the reasoning skills he needs to survive. Yor, however, is the opposite – she always sees the best in others, will always put blame on herself first, and she reacts by emotions before reason. And yet, when Twilight was trying to overanalyze Anya's studying motivation and his own ineptitude as a father, Yor brought in the much-needed emotional side of things that he was missing. Likewise, in this case, when Yor's emotional instability was getting the best of her, Twilight's words helped her put things in a rational perspective that she never would have thought of on her own. A balance of strictness and rationalizing, as well as emotional understanding and support, is needed not just in parenting, but in a relationship as well.

Continue to Part 9 ->

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[twiyoriz]

they seem a tad bit closer than the manga drew them out as..

they are literally within kiss distance; one little nudge from anya or bond and they are OVER. this is the worst case of slow burn i've ever encountered they are RIGHT THERE. all the romance animes with slow burn do not compare to whatever twiyor has going on like i need them to genuinely do something where yor isn't drunk, yuri isn't going crazy, and twilight isn't doing it "for the mission". can twilight reserve an anya head pat (tm) for yor i'm absolutely going crazy. the way this anime is a slice of life action anime and the main characters are like two protagonists in a romance where everyone and their mothers want them to get together... tatsuya endo please hear our pleas

[twiyoriz]

Loid and Yor are the world's most supportive parents. One time Anya had a play in school, Loid would cancel his missions in a blink of an eye and Yor would take a day off from City Hall and informing the Shopkeeper to let her off from assassinations for one day because her daughter will be performing in a play and SHE NEEDS TO BE THERE TO WITNESS EVERY SECOND. They'll cheer the loudest and will spend the rest of day roaming in the city with their daughter and gets her everything she wants.

And Anya is just happy to be around her parents and that's all she needs to be happy.

anon im so sorry this is so late but im finally posting this bc im finally done with finals WEEE

BUT THIS IS SO CUTE considering that this is the first time anya’s felt such support and love from anyone i know this means so much 😭 compared to her classmates she’s never had that fear of no one showing up because she knows that they’re smiling with a camcorder of some sort in the audience.

i feel like loid and yor also end up becoming everyone’s honorary parents too, but mainly yor. she feels absolutely terrible for the kids with busy and wealthy parents that never bothered to show up (cough damian cough), so yor always brings a bouquet of roses to give out to anya’s classmates (and gives non-bone crushing hugs if they want some) so that they feel included and recognized as well :)

in loid’s case, he finds this to be a surplus of information. he immediately goes into twilight mode, but seeing his girls be so happy makes him think that work can be put off for now. (it would be weird to ask these six year olds such serious things anyway, he thinks) instead of discreetly interrogating these rich children who are offspring of the most powerful people in the country, he gives them a high five and a “good job”, watching fondly as anya and yor interact with the other kids

i definitely agree with you on the fact that they would spoil the hell out of anya omg… i feel like what happens though is that anya just asks for peanuts and then wants to go home to play with bond because she’s too tired (same).

but its a guaranteed that anya will be hearing her and her classmates' performance replaying for weeks on end bc twilight and yor cannot stop gushing over her 😭

[twiyoriz]

this is so.. TWILIGHT like this is the most twilight loid forger father (but for the mission) thing i’ve ever seen in my life

that one headcanon where twilight ties up anya’s hair in pigtails bc everytime anya’s with him her hair is up in pigtails i’m so miserable everywhere i go i see THEM

plus the dog just has very Anya Forger Facial Expressions. does anyone get what i mean man i don’t know maybe finals burnout is catching up to me

also pls feel free to send me sxf headcanons because i want to talk to people about spy x family so so sooo bad

[twiyoriz]

This isn't a big deal, but on tumblr you don't have to censor words like kill. Not censoring is actually better for those who might want to blacklist that word for themselves

a lot of people mentioned this in my last post so i just wanted to say thank you for letting me know!! and i’m very sorry i didn’t do it sooner 💔 i also had a few people tell me that the smaller text is harder to read for others so i have changed that as well. thank you for telling me!