#unfortunately im too self conscious to do theater

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hi it's almost 2 am and I'm thinking of youtubers I liked when I was younger so I'm gonna yell about random encounters video game musicals now nobody asked but I don't care this is my house ah shit it devolved into ace attorney again please help those gay lawyers got me in a GRIP I CANNOT ESCAPE THEM

do y'all know random encounters. those video game theater people. those people were so so so close to making me a theater kid.

phoenix wright the musical fnaf the musical hell yes I even liked their 60 seconds musical despite the fact that i personally hate 60 seconds (it made me really paranoid of nuclear war I couldn't even hear a plane without crying after that when I was younger oops that's more of me being an idiot than the games fault though so I'm not blaming them)

they're awesome even if I don't like a lot of their musicals as much anymore I admire their dedication to making so many good props and going odcostumes and scripts for these games even if they're not like big production this is really impressive for like a group of. idk not a lot of people but they have guests on a lot so

and also a lot of their songs still slap I mean like. stranger things have happened my own little nightmare wright is wrong don't play this game fran bow paperboy they all sound good to this day hell out of all of these songs I only know one game ace attorney (well at the time I first heard them I didn't. but now I do) but I still knew what was happening in them kind of

I still have the lyrics to a lot of these stuck in my head after years especially that part in phoenix wright the musical where edgeworth just starts making a cool rhyme dissing phoenix even harder than he already was:

"forgive my lack of tact but wright knows little more than jack cause he's a wacky crackpot quack exactly that a backward hack in fact in spite of been said in light of Wrights quite empty head Mr Wright is wrong!" will live in my head forever. it has for like 4-5 years anyway it's gonna keep going strong

and also "mr wright please do desist! disrupting court! we get the gist! no need to constantly insist OBJECTION!!!!" has also been in my head for so long. you can probably tell what my favorite musical of theirs was/is now lmao after getting into ace attorney it's only getting stronger tbh

and for some reason I never cared about don't play this game when I heard this when I was younger???? whoever voices franziska in that song has an amazing voice oh my god I love this song so much it's great

I'm going to get my ace attorney friend to watch this now he needs to see it she knows it exists but they didn't see it yet. idk how but I've gotten them to watch 2 object shows I can do it /lh

I kinda hope they do a apollo justice one I think they said they were thinking about it but idk if they will. it's alright if they don't I love the phoenix wright one we have anyway

anyways bye I'm going to sleep soon hopefully I've been awake since 7:30 am

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safnsfk so ive been sleeping for most of today cuz my menstral cycle started and im cramping up like a motherfucker and wanted to sleep the day away

just woke up from a really interesting dream that like legit inspired me to like make a story out of this or SOMETHING cuz wow there was a LOT happening and it was literally just a movie my brain decided to spin up for me and it was GOOD and just akjsfbakjsf

ANYWAYS stickin this under a read more cuz its VERY lengthy, and also givin a warning that there’s hospital talk

so in this dream, i was playing the role of someone named Della Lune, but they just liked to be called Lune. they were a kind of wild child, absolutely feral, would pick a fight with bullies in their high school to get them to stop bullying someone else. one day, they see these bullies picking on their crush - a skater guy named Benjamin Deebold, or BJ - and Lune immediately jumps into action, and scares them off. bj’s impressed, and thanks della, even gives Lune his number to call if they wanna just chill and hang, which they do a LOT of.

unfortunately, BJ tells Lune that by the end of the school year, his family is moving to another state. Lune desperately wants to tell BJ how madly in love with him they are, but doesn’t want to scare him off before their precious time together is up, so they keep it bottled up as much as they can.

on the last day of school together, Lune gets the courage to write BJ a note declaring their love, signing it as ‘secret admirer’, and sticks it in BJ’s locker - but they get so nervous about BJ finding the letter that they get sick and are sent home, so they never got to give BJ a final goodbye face to face, cuz his family has to leave right after school ends. they convince themselves that by that point, BJ must hate them for whatever reason, and decides its best not to text or call him ever again.

fast forward to about 20 years later - Lune’s been completely on their own cuz they broke total contact with their family (dream decided not to clarify why). during whatever job they’re working at (again, dreamy weamy bullshit vagueness), they get severely hurt, and are taken to the hospital.

they survive, but due to the severeity of their injuries, and cuz they don’t have any emergency contacts, the hospital has Lune stay there for an extended period of time until they’re completely healed.

during this time, Lune makes friends with their nurse, who we’ll call Mick (cuz i dont remember what his actual name was in the dream). cuz Lune is so doped up on heavy pain meds, Mick is in charge of wheeling them around the hospital campus, showing Lune all the different places this like super hip hospital has.

one of the places this dream hospital ends up having is this like MASSIVE “activity center”, where it can be converted from a gym with a huge pool in the center to like a theater or concert hall of sorts?

and at the top of some flight of stairs overlooking the area is this like concession bar of sorts, where all sorts of food and treats and drinks are sold, manned by only one guy who is just known as “Hippy” by everyone, cuz of his long blonde hair pulled back into a loose ponytail and his super chill and friendly attitude. even his nametag just says “Hippy”.

turns out, “Hippy” is actually BJ

when Lune meets “Hippy”, there’s a moment between them where they both just look at each other silently. BJ immediately recognizes the person in front of them as Lune, even goes so far as to try to casually initiate a conversation with them by going “Damn, Lune, what was it that finally sent you to the hospital?”, like they haven’t been separated for over 20 years

unfortunately, Lune’s mind is so SO fogged up from pain meds, they can’t seem to figure out how they know "Hippy” - they KNOW they know this guy, but they don’t know HOW, and what’s worse is they don’t know his real name, despite it being on the tip of their tongue.

so Lune shakes their head and just says “Ah...sorry...I don’t think I remember you...but I want to remember.”

this is where some REAL convoluted dream bullshit started to happen, most of which i either can’t remember, or is just WAY too fuckin out there to connect to the overarching story LOL

basically, “Hippy” decides to keep his real identity a secret from Lune, and even tells the entire staff not to tell Lune what his real name is. like Lune, BJ thought he fucked up their relationship somehow, and decided it best to not talk to them. but, he kept that secret admirer letter all those years, knowing that it of course came from Lune, and hoping that, someday, they’d meet again, and he’d get to tell them that he shares those feelings.

but with Lune being all fucked up from their accident, BJ doesn’t wanna like make it super weird and be all like “DO YOU REMEMBER ME NOW IDIOT?!” - he’s willing to take it slow and natural with reforming their relationship, and just dropping little bitty hints here and there to try and jog their memory. he tells himself that, even if Lune never actually remembers him from their time together in high school, and doesn’t want to be romantically involved with him, that’s totally fine - so long as they can just be friends in the here and now.

of course Lune absolutely has the hots for “Hippy”, even without remembering their past together, but just like back then, Lune is too self conscious about admitting their romantic interest in “Hippy”, so they don’t say anything outright...but they do attempt to flirt with Hippy as innocuously as they can....which of course is not innocuous at all LOL

several months later, just a few days before getting discharged, Lune unfortunately still hasn’t completely remembered who “Hippy” really is.

as a sort of “Hail Mary” move, BJ decides that its now or never, and plans a romantic first date for the two of them the night before Lune leaves the hospital, which includes secretly leaving the hospital for the day.

at the end of the day, after having a quick swim in the pool, the two are just chilling at the concession bar in the totally empty activity room, casually eating candy bars and drinking some soda. “Hippy” tells Lune that he’s got one last surprise, and hands Lune a near exact copy of their love letter, only this time, it’s signed as “Your not so secret admirer - BJ”

this FINALLY jogs Lune’s memories, and they can finally confidently put a name to “Hippy”’s face.

“BJ...Benjamin Deebold,” they gasp. “you’re telling me, after all this time, you never once gave up on me? that you wanted to confess that you loved me too? christ...this is some grade A genuine fairy tail bullshit, isn’t it?”

BJ just smiles and says, “mmmm not quite...”

and he cups Lune’s chin and gently moves in for a kiss.

“there. NOW it’s some grade A genuine fairy tail bullshit.”

they both have a good laugh, and then quickly move towards making the FUCK out with one another to relieve some EXTREMELY heavy sexual tension between them.

and then some more weird dream stuff happens that just kinda started to segway into a completely different dream, and that’s when i woke up

but yeah god i just.....really really love this idea and concept and REALLY wanna run with it in some way, shape, or form idk

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Do you hate your weight? only for potential health risks, because im terrible at keeping up a diet and exercising  

Have you ever struggled with a mental illness? im almost definitely sure i am right now, although ive never been officially diagnosed

Do you prefer listening to music or watching movies while you blog? music, always music

Serious question, peanut butter or Nutella? why not both?

Have you ever stepped on a snail? i crushed one with my fingers accidentally, but i have never stepped on one

Do you prefer baked potatoes or mashed potatoes? baked potatoes are too rough imo, i like mashed potatoes but not all the time 

Do you prefer ankle socks over regular socks? no, absolutely not

Last movie you’ve seen in theaters?

Rogue One, it was pretty good tbh

Would you ever go backpacking across any country? No, Never

Would you prefer to travel around the world by yourself or with a friend? with a friend, or group of friends, i feel like going alone would be too scary

Do you like breadsticks? theyre pretty good, although im not really into them

Do you usually wear shorts around your house all year long?

i used to, now i wear pants all year long, unless its inconvenient to do so

What state were you born in? 

new york

Have you ever had a nose bleed?

i think so yeah

 How far away do you live from your birthplace? 

i live on the opposite end of the country, 

Do you have a weak stomach? im weak to dairy, and only if i have a lot

Do you know anybody who has been diagnosed with cancer? yeah, a lot of people i was close to over the years were diagnosed with it, and unfortunately, theyve all passed on

Would you ever meet someone in person that you met online? yeah, if i trusted them enough, and i had the budget to meet them

Have you ever had to take care of an intoxicated person? never, and i pray that day comes later rather than sooner

What is so appealing about ‘Twilight’? its 2017.

Have you ever considered becoming a lawyer? yeah, maybe as a possible avenue into politics, but im not so sure abt that at the moment 

Do you *really* like donuts? donuts are a luxury item to me, 

Do you think Disney World could ever get old? ive never been to a disney theme park so i really dont know, doesnt sound like the type of thing id like to go to tbh

If you could, would you hookup with the last person you texted? define “texted”

What are your favorite things to spend money on? albums usually, or gum

Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight? depends on what you consider a phone

What do you usually order on a pizza? nothing usually, although theres this one pizza place nearby that has barbecue chicken pizza and while it makes my intestines fall out of my body and strangle me to death its so good

Do you and your boyfriend/girlfriend fight a lot?

dont have one to argue with lmao

Who’s the first person with the letter “m” in your contacts?

mango, my partner in slime

Which would you rather have a new puppy or kitten? a kitten!! 

How old will you be on your next birthday? 19 babey

What color are your underwear? white, im basic

Do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people? 

sometimes but im usually under the impression that no one looks good when the eat around other people and im an ugly gremlin naturally so it really doesnt matter to me

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