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euargh · 1 year

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I love Spamton and the Addisons so much. I write my bad fanfictions with them a lot to pretend I have a friendship family such as theirs to block out the reality of how alone and mistreated I am irl lmao. I badly wish a friendship family like the Addisons, but that can’t happen and won’t exist so... fictional world to reside in it is then. Yes, I am a VERY sad person, lulz. Speaking of which, oh man it’s Christmas Eve, I better work on another chapter of the Addisons Sitcom. I need to have Pink want to be the center of attention and break everything in a comical manner. I don’t know why I like making Pink this blood thirsty person while remaining elegant. It’s just funny to me. but oh man I also need to complete the secret santa giftart. arughskj art is always such a chore for me. wish it were fun and easy like it is for most people. I only find writing to be fun for me, depending what it is. Like having to respond back to people or RP’s is also a chore at times. urgh, hate how my brain is so... lame and finds everything a chore nowadays. Drank this energy drink and now I have a migraine.

#rambling #blogging #excuse my excessive ramblings #probably the energy drink #which i'll end up burning out quickly and lay on the floor and not accompliish anything #why do i enter these things only to not complete anything #i suppose to give myself something to focus on and do so i won't feel empty #then i don't do anything #urghhhh i'm so lame euarkdjkfj #anyways i have cartoon network's livestream playing in the background christmas specials #having a bunch of noises playing at once helps me focus sometimes #do i have adhd? urghhhh #i once tried to have a serious conversation with my sis' on that because i was upset at never accomplishing anything and always being a mess #then she responded with 'EVERYONE HAS ADHD' so i went quiet and it's probably why i don't seek help and suffer #and the doctors down here are sexist and would probably say 'oh it's a women's problem' like before when i was bleeding out my asshoole #i hate people and everybody down here #lmaoo excuse my rant i am grumpy today #maybe i'll make a margarita to calm my shit down

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