#uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh ye

[arokaladin]

anyway I kinda want to ramble about internalised arophobia for a bit because earlier I was joking with a friend and implied friendship is better than romantic love and immediately felt horrible as if id said something completely contrary to reason that was likely to upset her. and for a bit I was feeling shitty because like. have I really not made any progress? there's still a huge part of me that sees romance as inherently better than friendship. That’s why it feels bad for me to ship my main ship as a qpr/soft romo even though I really really really want to, and even though I'm actively trying to talk about the characters that way. theres? a lot to unlearn and I haven't managed to unlearn much yet, but I am in a place where at least I recognise whats harmful to me. even though I impulsively want to ship characters based on stupid shit like allos do (and even more than they do I think, since fandom culture forced shipping at me and I basically Had To Ship but? didn't think that way, never will, and therefore just partnered people off on arbitrary basis, which has become a really hard habit to break) I now know I don't have to and I can fight the urge and explore complex platonic relationships instead and not have shipping conversations that bore me deep down. the other thing internalised arophobia means for me is that I often basically have to Hard No things that technically should be a Soft No just because I need time to unlearn them as a Hard Yes. like soulmates? I think could technically maybe kinda work for aros if you changed a lot around in the au and spent lots of time worldbuilding but. I am Not in the right place to do that and first have to unlearn that soulmates are good and real and a hundred other amatonormative things. working through all this shit actually really sucks sometimes because half of me really wants to like things and knows it would be so much easier but the other half knows they'll hurt me and its really really hard work and I don't want to have to do it but! it will be better for my mental health in the long run just as building more freindships and talking to you guys about my opinons has been. I'm also really looking forward to being able to dig up my own real feelings after the amatonormativity brainwashing has all been washed away. because like,  back when I was dealing with stuff a lot worse I really subconsciously equated qprs as a backup option now that I realised I could never have a romantic relationship. so I think after ive worked through that (and uh. the mess that I am after qpr number one turned out like it is, you all know about how I freak out if I try and label shit now so that's fun) I may discover some interesting true desires for qprs, including whether at the core of it I really want one or not. So yeah right now I;m still dealing with a lot of confusion and guilt and I hate it a lot and I'm having to fight the part of me that says not bothering would be better but I think I'm heading in the right direction sorry for this incoherent wall of text.

[vyragosa]

the number of comics there are out there of hakunon and archimedes tenderly talking at night uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh it’s a yes don’t be anniversary servant you can’t be or i’ll kill you myself

[boobiemom]

There's great dubbing directors like patrick seitz. For dub to be good, it must stick to the source material, both in what is said and the context. Also, if needed, any changes must keep the story and context intact.

my favourite edit will always be the shadow realm in Yugioh. It wasn’t a thing originally.

“THE FLOOR BENEATH US WILL SHATTER AND THE LOSERS WILL FALL INTO THE SHADOW REALM” - yeah i bet, it’s totally not them falling to their death in a department store.

“THIS CLEARLY LETHAL BUZZ SAW WILL CUT-- OUT YOUR SOUL, YES! IF YOU LOSE THIS’LL SEND YOUR MIND TO THE SHADOW REALM” - yep that’s gonna cut off my fucking legs, pal, I get ye

That shit’s just funny to me because even as a kid I was like “Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh they gonna die????”