#verse: or the gates of eden will be shut to you ~ { joseph post-fc5 verse }

[general-kalani]

{ @kaiju-crimson-storyandask WHJAKDHJKA I SEE WE'RE GOING THE ANGST ROUTE- }

"Not anymore, Deputy. We have each other. You are my family as I am yours. You just have to accept that. There is no fellow Deputies to help you. There's no Dutch. There's no Miller. Only me, your Father."

[general-kalani]

{ @kaiju-crimson-storyandask SO YK HOW I SAID I WAS GETTING CLOSE TO THE RANDOM STARTER- }

"Fuck... My head... Annabelle where did we put the Panadol again?.. We in the hospital this doesn't look like our house? Wait did we go to one of your friends houses? I didn't pass out did I? I... I'm sorry I said I'd get better at managing that."

[general-kalani]

{ @threadsandwings sent in; ♬

Prompt from here! }

"Amazing grace... How sweet the sound... That saved a wretch... Like me~

I once was lost. But now I'm found.

Was blind but now... I see~"

[general-kalani]

{ @starvingtongue liked for an angsty starter!

Muse currently holding my braincell: Joseph Seed }

His siblings were all gone, he'd killed the Deputy in a blind fit of rage in the bunker...

The loneliness would be maddening. Even God did not speak to him.

Perhaps the death of the Deputy was what he orchestrated too. God had told him his family would die. Why not kill the last shred of humanity he had remaining too? John... Jacob... Faith...

What was he to do now? This bunker was so quiet, the broadcasts had shut off weeks ago.

He'd remembered gloating about the fact he was right to the Deputy.

A sigh as he looked over at the dead body in the corner, strangled to death.

Maybe this was all God's punishment for him... Maybe he still hadn't truly atoned for his sins, that was most likely the issue.

Hell, when The Watcher appeared to him... He wasn't fearful. He wasn't startled.

Just another hallucination of his fragmented mind, or at least he assumed so.

"I'm going insane... First I think I'm talking to my siblings again and now some other worldly being is here... This bunker's going to make me lose it."

[general-kalani]

{ Continued from here with @unforgivendivine }

Why was Yeshua always right? To give insight that he didn't know he required? The fact this man was so comforting in his words, his gaze... His hand blast it.

He couldn't help but lean into that hand. His eyes were unfocused with a quiet hum.

He supposed what brought on this moment of weakness was the fact that he had this anxiety hit sometimes. A remnant of his old life.

Something he couldn't kill off completely and it made him detest himself.

"Then I doubt I'll ever really know what love would be." Though he looked to the tattoo of his wife on his arm. Gently running his hand over it...

But was that even love? Or was it God's punishment for him to seek something that would never exist for a man like him?

A deep sigh of his own. The answer would elude him as he looked into Yeshua's eyes. Searching for something before dropping his gaze once more, hands swapping to hold onto the Wrath carved into the skin on his left arm.

"Or is it that I'll never be free of such confines that will never let me see or hear such love, if it even exists?"

[general-kalani]

"Judge can you stop harassing Ethan? I mean it's funny, I'm not going to enforce the rule for you to stop but. For the moment?"

"WHY ARE YOU TAKING THEIR SIDE I SHOULD BE-"

"Because I like your older sibling much more and I'm sorry but you're being very bratty today. Timeout."

"THIS PLACE IS A NIGHTMARE!"

[general-kalani]

{ @valiisthea sent in; "Sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is crushing down on my shoulders." - Cole @ Joseph 👀

Prompt from here! }

"My child." It was soft, though demanding of attention. Though his hands were held out to the other he did not touch the others face. Not yet, not unprompted like that.

"Tell me your woes. I will not judge, I have felt that way before long ago. But when you speak about what plagues you and your mind you will find that the weight lifts. Tell me what haunts you. It will ultimately be for the best for you."

[general-kalani]

{ @fantasycorrupted sent in; [SACRIFICE]: the sender cups the receiver's face tenderly to distract them, right before shoving them out of the way (to safety) and facing an attack alone in order to buy the receiver enough time to escape. (now it's my turn to throw Kamael/Joseph angst at u)

Prompt from here! }

The cupping of his face had certainly distracted him. Probably the most intimate thing either of them had done so far physically.

And yet...

He'd grunted after being shoved. A shake of the head as he looked up to Kamael. "No... No Kamael NO!"

How fitting that the building he was shoved behind had its sin read avaritia.

"I can't lose you too Kamael we can get out of this together!"

He was going to peek out, to try and drag Kamael with him but the sudden gunfire had him hiding back behind the building.

His fear... Why was he so fearful of what might happen to Kamael? Why was he so distraught over it?

An attempt again to try and get Kamael back to him, another hiding. His brows furrowed. This was insane. He couldn't help, he couldn't assist...

"... I'm sorry... May you forgive me."

Finally he started running away, retreating. Fleeing.

He didn't want to see the betrayal in Kamael's eyes when he'd started going to the dock and to the boat, anything to survive another day as Kamael was so nicely presenting it.

And he prayed...

He prayed God kept him safe.