#warfared

[deathmimedream]

So.

After seven months, my sibling is now cancer free, and home for outpatient physical therapy and occupational therapy as well.

It’s been a long, stressful, scary trip we never wanted to take.

He almost died, multiple times, from complications and infections.

I’m still in therapy to deal with my horridly narcissistic mother, and it’s going well. But the past months of my brother’s illness have been very stressful for all of us.

Then, Yesterday I found out a childhood friend passed away unexpectedly.

We’d even dated, and stayed close, but the time dealing with my brother’s illness caused me to drift from my socializing and I didn’t know he had passed a month ago until last night on a Facebook post as I updated friends and family that my brother was home again.

It was another blow to deal with, despite good news there was a post saying a good friend was gone, far too young and too sudden.

I spent the entire seven and more months feeling tired, stressed and I am certainly aware I said and did things that were upsetting.

At least I am now my emotional state and mental state are in a place to process everything better.

@alastors-radioshow I am sorry for things I said and did, I was so stressed and upset and just…angry that I took it out on you and others unnecessarily. I didn’t know how to express what was going on with my family when we got the diagnosis of my brother’s illness.

We had been told he might be dead in a month, and being so close to him made it difficult to bear and I lashed out.

I was trying to cling to people who I could see and touch, talk to and hold as my world fell apart around me.

and I needed and wanted to be there for my brother during this mess, afraid to lose them, him, and those closest to home.

Therapy has helped.

I’m sorry you and others were targets of my frustrations and anger in my uncertainty of thinking I might loose another family member a scant five years after losing my father, whom I was also close to.

I needed to learn to grieve, and accept that my already small family was about to be hit by possible devastating loss once more.

I’m lucky the doctors treating my brother were successful in curing him, despite the illness leaving him frail, he’s alive, and he’s home.

It’s been a hell of a tough ride, and I read messages, even if I didn’t have the energy or emotional stability to respond properly to any of them.

Do I regret things I said? Things that I did or didn’t do?

Yes.

Do I regret taking time to work on my own needs, being with my family, and rekindle connections with those close to home ?

No.

But I do miss you, all of you.

@strikers-saloon

@sharp-shooter-no-more-moxxie

@warfared

@do-these-eyes-look-human

[iomadachd]

@warfared asked: “It doesn’t have anything to do with trust. You don’t have to tell me. But I’ll listen, if you do.” ( aurora > phantom )

Noticing Trauma sentence starters (accepting)

Phantom kicks their feet back and forth, legs dangling where they're sat on an equipment case. It's not ideal, but it's away from the hustle and bustle of setup.

They tip their head down to look at her over top of their sunglasses, tail twitching in distress before stilling again.

They want to tell her. They want to talk about it, but they're not ready. They're not sure they ever will be.

"Mm, it's enough you sit with me, 'Rora. What would I do without my summ'ning bestie?"

[lusttoke]

@warfared [ TXT: Col. Vargas ] Definitely not, coronel [ TXT: Col. Vargas ] Respectfully [ TXT: Col. Vargas ] 😘😘🍑

[TXT:Nico] Your ass. My office. NOW!!!

[bearstruck]

He does not speak as he enters @warfared sleeping quarters. But he does throw the door open aggressively, offering more force than usual. Empty gaze falls upon Mishka as he stands in the door frame. For a moment, Aleksandr considers leaving, the two weren't close, yet a final interaction that was more than just watching his comrade be escorted off of the base, a brief moment of eye contact followed with a nod that silently meant ❛ good luck ❜. He brushes off the feeling of awkwardness with ease as he steps into the room, sitting down on the bed beside Mishka.

He doesn't look at him as he fingers his pocket, pulling out a pack of Belomorkanal cigarettes. Digits flip open the pack, removing two. Aleksandr doesn't ask Mishka if he wants one, instead he just pushes the butt of it into his lips, then places one between his own. He takes out his lighter, flicking it quickly to light his, yet instead of passing it to Miska or allowing him to take out his own, Aleksandr instead gently brushes his index finger and thumb against the other's jaw, beckoning him to turn his head. He then presses the tip of his cigarette against Mishka's to light it. A grand gesture from the boy who represented Novokuznetsk.

❝ You think the American scum have better beds in their base? ❞ He'll lead the conversation in their native tongue, thinking that Mishka would enjoy being able to speak Russian before having to hide the language. ❝ And did you learn how the American's reload? I've heard stories about how they found spies just based on that alone. ❞ His eyebrow raises slightly after the question leaves him. He can't help but wonder what would happen if Mishka got caught, and if it did how soon would it happen.

[pseudowar-archived]

Anyone who had the (dis)pleasure of meeting Gary 'Roach' Sanderson in the morning were often subjected to one of the few warnings and life lessons regarding him: he was not a morning person. Sure, he was pleasant to talk to, and he eventually did perk up as the minutes ticked by. Awareness coming to dark eyes, lighting up often a very grumpy face, as coffee filled an empty stomach - but that took time, and he hadn't had enough of it that day.

Point proven in the way he blinks bleary eyed at Gaz's clear cheerful mood. The recognition not quite reaching his eyes until the other man sat down across from him - their feet and shins knocking together thanks to his semi-slouched position - and even then, his features didn't quite light up. Usual perkiness muted by a late night and even later morning - a mission that had run too late, and a heli ride that had been too cramped for even him to sleep through it.

Roach stretches in his seat, rolls his head tiredly, and then hums a quiet hello. One hand running across tired eyes as the other scratches at momentarily exposed stomach - at a line of dark fuzz that trailed from his belly button downwards. And then? A jaw cracking yawn, followed soon by a silent, signed greeting. 'Morning Kyle.' He pushes himself upright. 'I miss anything fun?'

@warfared ; ROACH for GAZ starter call

[pseudolife-archived3]

Dirk is... Pretty, for a man of his damage. Not pretty enough for her standards, but pretty enough for the average person's. Blond curls and big green eyes, and shoulders broad and built well enough to carry all his trauma. He was more than a damaged little thing, he was cracked. Right down the middle. All of his existence raw and open and painful, an exposed nerve to a world that wanted nothing more than to pluck at it. Twist it between rough hands, and make him sing for it.

Fujiko liked that. She didn't like the dog, or the way he looked twitchy sometimes, like a pathetic little thing looking for it's next fix, but she liked him. She liked how malleable he was, how pliant, how she didn't need to use sex to get anything from him - no, all she needed was to make him look good, and the rewards came pouring in like a heavy April rain.

"Dirk, darling," And as always, Fujiko starts soft, gentle, voice somehow clear despite that, so that he could hear her. "If they bother you so much, allow me to answer the phone from now on. I can woo a mother as easily as I could a father."

@warfared ; FUJIKO for DIRK starter call

[tooxldtorememxer]

@warfared wrote: ❛  let's be normal. see bad movies, sneak a beer, and watch tv.  ❜ ( aurora > cory )

( Text: Aurora ) Frankly, I don’t think we have to sneak anything. ( Text: Aurora ) But sure?

[prettytm]

what sort of things does your muse look for in a partner?

what sort of things does your muse AVOID in a partner?

Shipping meme :: Accepting

what sort of things does your muse look for in a partner?

Are we talking about what draws him in physically? Because that's so much easier to answer. Brains, cleverness, wit, someone who doesn't bore him. Please take a look at his current partners. They're all spicy in some way. Hell. A lot of them just as dangerous and deadly as he is.

Now.. If we're talking about what he'd actively look for in a partner? As in, if he's out there seeking one? As if he's actively like.. Yeah, a relationship seems nice! Nada. Cause Billy doesn't seek out partners. Not since Frank broke him. They just sorta.. Happen to him? Either they're slow burn, the kind he currently has with @shesboundtobruise, @brooklynislandgirl and @manufactoredxbyxdesign. There's plenty of bumps in the road [cause everyone involved is stupid as hell] but one day he finds himself in a committed relationship.

Then there's ships like with @lt-ghxst. It all happens so fast if he stops to think about the lead up? He still has no idea how they've gotten from point a to point b. But fuck him if he isn't in love something awful.

And sometimes I think it's sad he doesn't have that ... Well, no he has the need and the desire to be loved. But he doesn't have the urge, because again he's broken, to seek out someone.

what sort of things does your muse AVOID in a partner?

Stupidity? Boredom? Again. I'd like to stress.. Emotion. He really does try to avoid it at all costs. He's just not ready for it until it's punching him in the face. And even then? Call him Elsa. Conceal don't feel.

[pseudolife-archived2]

🔥 + ass ( roach )

🔥 + a word and I will write a NSFW headcanon for my muse

What the fuck Elliott? You just came right at the man??

Roach is an ass man, you've heard it here first. Well, probably not first, but this is my confirmation to everyone that yes, he likes butts over anything going on in the chest area. His first real girlfriend in high school was into gymnastics and it kind of ignited something in him - he likes butts. And legs, those too.

You might be wondering, Oh Anarchy, what else are you going to ramble about in this post, and you know what, I'm just going to talk a little bit more about Roach and butts because ELLIOTT brought it up.

Really, he doesn't go around checking out everyone's butts, especially on base. He's a respectful guy, a good guy, he's not a horny little gremlin. In fact, Roach's libido is pretty on the eh side since he joined the forces - he hasn't actually been in a relationship, serious or otherwise, basically since he enlisted. But, if it's brought up, he will look, okay. So you bring that upon yourself if you talk about butts and thighs in front of him -

Okay. Unless you're Ghost. This rule doesn't really apply to him because I mean. It's Ghost. He fills out pants. He makes dad jeans look like a thirst trap and he brought this upon himself by walking around looking like that.

No, seriously though, Roach isn't a pervert. He's respectful of other people, especially his teammates. He doesn't look at their bodies sexually, because that's kind of weird. He also really, really has never been attracted to a man before Ghost. But, let's face it, Ghost has kicked his ass so many times in sparring that it's a miracle Roach's notice of his ass has taken this long.

Regarding his attraction to butts, he's just into them. Squeezing them, and what have you. God, he's really vanilla, like embarrassingly so? Lack of experience, only having real experience with a high school girl (that he wanted to marry), he's kind of just. Gentle and a little bland. Anal sex? Never really considered it before. Boo.

[kingfishered]

[TEXT] - you’re gonna laugh, but can you pick me up at the police station? ( gaz to soap )

𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐒 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

[TEXT] - you’re gonna laugh, but can you pick me up at the police station? // @warfared

[TEXT] HUH???? [TEXT] GAZ. [TEXT] yes i'm coming but ???? [TEXT] does cap know????

[deathmimedream]

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[iomadachd]

@warfared liked the starter call

Trick r Treat - Day 12: A roaring bonfire in the distance on a pitch black night, with dark silhouettes crowded or dancing around it

It's the perfect night for a bonfire, at least as far as Copia is concerned. The cold hasn't set in too hard yet, and he's willing to indulge a few things in the spirit of October.

Such as Dewdrop's need to build a bonfire that might actually be illegal, but it was keeping the others warm. Dewdrop seemed to be enjoying himself if the raised arms and yowling were any indication.

Although, on second listen, that might actually be Swiss.

He reaches out almost absently, sensing Mountain before he sees him, touching his Earth Ghoul's arm.

"Eh, between the two of us, we can probably keep them from running into the fire, yes?"

[pseudowar-archived]

"I'm a very good pilot, Sergeant." He's Russian, so he's not pouting, he's just... Looking insulted.

@warfared ; NIKOLAI for GAZ starter call

[pseudolife-archived3]

@warfared ; nsfw headcanon meme

🔥 + mask for wrench

The mask stays on during sex.

I am now realizing I am making a reference only one person might know, shit, okay...

Wrench is an extremely awkward man, though he may not appear so. At twenty-eight (his canon age for WD2), he's a complete mess when it comes to meaningful relationships. He's gangly, he's loud, he has a tendency to ramble about weird shit, and he doesn't know how to flirt with people without some aspect of violence added.

Hell, he doesn't know how to talk to people without some aspect of violence in the mix.

Fact is, Wrench had a rough upbringing, and to add to that, he is terribly insecure. He has a birthmark on his face that he used to get picked on for, and it made him a very shy, very awkward guy. He never takes the mask off outside (the FBI literally stalking him and not ever getting a glimpse of his face proves this) and when it comes to relationships? The other party has to be aware of the fact that the mask will be on for a majority of the time - or at least so in the beginning - and most people would never settle for that.

The problem is... He's not good at starting meaningful, intimate relationships. He's good at quick, messy fucks where neither party talks again - and usually it involves someone who has a mask kink. So...

The mask stays on during sex. Because otherwise, his anxiety would probably prevent him from getting it up.

[tooxldtorememxer]

@warfared wrote: ❝ i'm laughing because you're laughing! ❞ ( aurora > cory )

“But I can’t stop!” whenever he almost stopped, it subsided into giggles, only to be catapulted straight into belly laughing because he looked at Aurora, who laughed or giggled too, and the spiral continued. It was Dewdrop who had given him the joint, told him to smoke it, hush-hush his father would never know. But Cory was certain all of the Ministry had heard him by now. He knew alcohol and nicotine had no effect on ghouls, but apparently, enough weed had some but it would most likely wear off far quicker than an hour or so.

“Take it, take it I don’t want it anymore!” he still laughed as he shoved it at Aurora, urging her to take it before he dropped it onto his bed and set it on fire or something. Besides. If he was doing it, why shouldn’t she be doing it?