#watever. im gonna get up and shower -_-

[boxheadpaint]

no amount of medication will make me not start clawing my own head from the persistent vacuum-like hum outside. can make a diary post though.

took monitor off today, the skin under one patch was totally fine but the skin under the other seems to have had a less good time. that left patch was the itchier of the two, but i wonder what the exact difference was. can take a normal shower again though so im just not gonna worry about it. need to build up the resilience again to block out the heart palpitations too. i want nothibg more than to lay down and curl in until my chest doesnt feel so tight against the beating.

small things have gotten under my skin lately, mostly having to do with my surface computer. its always been a fickle beast to use, but lately its just seemed more like a chore. the back panel that i could use to prop it up has broken off, and my brain still thinks something is wrong with the pen cursor position no matter how many times i calibrate it. this mostly affects how i draw in ms paint, which is immensely frustrating and confusing.

i wish i wasnt so tired. theres things i want to do, genuinely i want to clean the living room or store things away or talk to my friends but i am just so so so exhausted physically and it doesnt go away no matter what i do or how much sleep i get. i keep having upsetting thoughts and struggling against thinking about them and how i affect others. i have Barely drawn the past... idk, few? two weeks? i drew something yesterday for the absol stream and i scribbled in my sketchbook but they were barely anything and still took great effort to just Not Fuck It Up.

i dont want to avoid it but i dont want to talk about it either. all i want is to feel at Least alright again. but instead i feel like a damn boulder, or a bunch of brittle sticks. id like to think that actually yes an extended depressive episode can be brought on by allergies and if i took a benadryl id suddenly feel like myself again. And probably also fall asleep but thats allergy meds for you.

4/9/2024, Well Watever

[mukuharakazui]

it's so funny that like 4 yrs ago my friends @ the lunch table were like "how are u half white and not white passing in the slightest" oh mama mia besties if u could see me now

[cleaduvalls]

i watched “spy kids 2″ twice in one week and here are my thoughts

she wasn’t the president’s daughter in the last one

im not sure the ride would let you go up without the key

nice hats

i want those…. things

i think you can tell who they are????? without 7 layers of zoom glasses???

a child….. can tell the president…… what to do????? great idea OSS

i miss floop 😔

God i hate the giggles…. giggleses? giggles’s???? whatever i hate them

since when can carmen hack

what does ralph stand for. the subtitles have letters but i dont think its ever touched upon

and i OOP-

“infolink” dont you mean a private email server

yes carmen he has a weird laugh get over it

at least SOME of the kids are gonna say yes to champagne

why does juni know ballet

great job felix

HEY FELIX IS BACK

he saw the text change. he saw the electric shock. why did he not say something. he clearly knows

thats nepotism, my friends

oh look they have all died

get wrecked magnet dudes

OH!!!!!! HELICOPTOR HAIR!!!!!

i dont think a magnet strapped to your head is enough to keep you attached to a ship

in a state of chaos while the spy kids are PROTECTING YOU, why would you get mad when a spy kid, WHO IS PROTECTING YOU takes something TO PROTECT IT

floops fooglies!!

since when do they have a treehouse

“retirement” you’re EIGHT

ok hes TEN but SAME DIFFERENCE

wait thats illegal

ukata? dont you mean utica? i keep calling it utica in my head

i think someones gonna see you, ralph

why was the ukata assignment metioned BEFORE the transmooker was taken if its centered around the stolen transmooker?????

JUNI!! AGAIN!!! HOW CAN YOU DO THAT

machete!!!

it has 2 watch bands. i hate it

where did juni get a rubber band machete elastic wonder????????? he only gave it to carmen 

yeah sure “accidentally”

“im not your uncle” youre a close family friend and they told their kids to call you their uncle. therefore youre their uncle. deal

garys face is so stretched on the window. if i had a crush on him i would stop right then and there

I T S  F L O O P!!!!!!!!!!! love that dude

his hair!!! its gone!!!! :((((((

his tailcoat is like…… sticking out

why is minions voice back to normal

i miss floop again😔😔😔 

WHATS A REBREATHER

ig its another breathing think but you dont need oxygen tanks??? i would like one please

imagine if youtubers did the inflate-a-suit challenge. thatd be wack

“oh great. im fat” i feel that every day my dude consider yourself lucky

those camels weren’t there 3 seconds ago

ooooh nice desk toy. i want it

no donnagon youre gonna kill them

wow great job ingrid

the mustache is back!!!!!

oooh nice sleeves ingrid

yeah carmen that was junis fault

oh no your gadgets dont work. the horror

those stairs are dumb

that was a good shelter!!!!!! h*ck you carmen

wow. a rock

oh my God giggleses take a shower

SEE THATS WHY WE SHOWER AFTER FALLING IN CAMEL POOP

ok so maybe broken gadgets arent great

oh no they died

so when did the time skip happen

stop yelling

is that steve buscemi

“nice to meet you, tired and hungry” spoken like a true dad

hahaha monkeys in a barrel. i have some of those

yeah “accidentally” alright buscemi watever

oh we’ve seen em. they’re all puns

except slizzards. those are dumb

oh no he died

“do you think God stays up in heaven because He too live in fear of what Hes created?” yes he does. we’re gross

“whats the difference” nothing really

diy dental work seems like a bad idea

you get captured every movie step up

wait nvm its just the in laws. whatever same difference

ooh nice pen buscemi

i want one of those scooters

nvm i want a slizzard they’re not that dumb

how did she get a heart-shaped tv screen

awwwwww, she likes juni!!!!

yeah!!!!! hold your ground greg!!!!!

wait why is juni white, his moms at least half hispanic and his dad is like all hispanic

“a big sacrifice” youll see them in like 2 days chill

i like the noise when the chips go offline

the inlaws are so passive aggressive im living for it

you got the map wet. great job

actually yes there are lving skeletons. theyre just covered in meat

jUNI NO

oops

thats how you know you messed up

carmen died it think. i looked away and i dont wanna rewind

oh shes not dead nvm

awww juni made a friend!!!!

hes not a centaur hes not a horse

oh no the spider died

H*CK YEAH CARMEN

ITS THE RETURN OF SHIITAKE MUSHROOMS

ew donnagons giggling

“i have no idea” me too buscemi, me too

youre not funny, donnagon

GREAT JOB CARMEN

why are the rubber bands so tubular and plastic-y and shiny. i hate it

hhahaha spork

thats not how rubber bands work

nice tent

r u n doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

F E L I X  N O

what DO those things do???? theyre clearly not just heavy

yeah you can argue with that youre just a COWARD

dont!!! announce your moves!!!!!! he can hear!!!!!

THIS IS RATED PG INGRID

again????? how has he not been fired

YEAH ROMERO!!!!!!

YEAH ALEXANDRA!!!!!!

oh he did get fired

ew garys gross

gertis chill tho

:D YAY GREG!!!!!!

jUNI NO

yeah alright whatever juni

WELL YOU DONT HAVE IT A N Y M O R E

bye buscemi!!!!!!! you should date floop

ralph!!!

OH!!!!!!!! I HAVENT SEEN THIS BEFORE!!!!!

HEY SHE STOLE FLOOPS SONG D:

i still miss floop 😔😔😔 love that dude

wait it was never called the island of lost dreams. it has nothing to do with lost dreams. just an island