#we as a society and culture can unlearn our systemic fatphobia to the point that its doable to turn someone away for being

[toytulini]

hit tag limit on the last post cos i started talking about roller coasters again 😔

[nightcoremoon]

I felt really uncomfortable at pride only because of a tent with a giant sign that said "foreskin feels SO GOOD, stop circumcision today!" the reason for this is, well... that feels really kind of... antisemitic. and also, I feel a bigger issue than male circumcision is female circumcision so it was also kind of buying into the misogyny in certain sects of radical Islam by being silent about that. and also I still have issue with public pride stuff being so overtly sexual when queer kids are present, and it really fucks things over for them when society is already so ready to take anything they can to support their vitriol; same reason why I feel uncomfortable by seeing dildos and shit. I mean, I know that allosexual queer people wanna be proud of their sexuality and stuff but equating gay pride with dildos is not only ace erasure but also buying into the false belief that kids and young teens shouldn't be able to self identify in the queer community because it's directly associated with fucking. which isn't AT ALL the intention, but it makes it so much harder for them because they've got to deal with society's bigotry in a way that adult queer people don't have to deal with. it's kind of ageism in that regard; adulthood privilege, if that's a thing. which I believe it should be since the fat community (if that's what they're called; body positivity movement isn't really linked to that in an intrinsic way, it's just a popular part of it) are tacking fatphobia onto queerphobia & racism & antisemitism & misogyny & ableism (as if they're equatable to systemic oppression (which is a different topic entirely that I'm not gonna get into now)). children aren't able to make the same decisions adults are when it comes to their gender identity and expression and other stuff like that, even though identity as a concept is brought into our psyche way before a lot of other things: before our fucking TEETH come in, for christ's sake. but i digress. [edit- read this passage with a critical eye plz] in the long run, it maybe would be best to stop circumcision. it doesn't affect hygiene, and the Torah/Quran/Bible passages that talked about circumcision are all in the bits that the (alleged in the Jews' (and maybe Muslim's, honestly idk very much about Islam) case) messiah Jesus said were no longer relevant, and even if the books genesis leviticus exodus et cetera old testament stuff were still relevant today, we're all going to hell because tattoos and trimming facial hair and women speaking in churches and being born gay and eating pork and shellfish and wearing clothes of mixed fabrics and being raped or sexually assaulted are all equally bad, which is a bunch of fucking bullshit. this could sound like I'm being an antisemitic piece of shit for saying their belief system is wrong, BUT... those books are 60% translation error and 30% editing by the corrupt as all hell papacy/vatican, at least as far as the western world knows, so western jews and catholics and baptists and a whole host of outdated, broken, and worthless systems of belief are just flat out wrong anyway. but only certain sects of certain parts of certain faiths. circumcision should definitely be a choice that adults can make for themselves, but infants do not consent. I feel you must be at least of legal age to at least vote or get a tattoo or buy lottery tickets to consent to any kind of surgery performed on your body (aside from life altering things like cleft palate, appendicitis, kidney transplants, sexual reassignment surgery for people old enough to have a gender identity strong enough to induce gender dysphoria, etc), the exact same way I feel we should handle any baptisms or things like that. because I fucking hate seeing 5 year olds get baptized when odds are they might not even still be christians in a few years, because I can guaranfuckingtee you that the kind of parents who would let their kids get baptized that young are the kind of parents who coerce their kids into doing so, inducting them into their religion turned cult. and I feel the exact same way when conversation turns to circumcision. do you know why? because I was. and I wish I wasn't. I deeply, deeply wish that I had my foreskin, because as much as I've told myself I should be comfortable with my penis as it is, I wish it was easier to tuck, which it would be if I still had my foreskin. tmi warning, btw. and I get that it's part of Jewish upbringing and culture and heritage to circumcise their babies and have a bris because their God says that it's encouraged to force your kids to being raised in a certain way and take away all of their potential future autonomy and brainwash them into also being Jewish, but god damn it, I disagree with it wholeheartedly and would not choose to follow Jewish belief myself. however if anybody would dare to tell them they can't do it themselves or are less of people and deserve to die because of it, those people can go fuck themselves since you can disagree with a person's lifestyle and not be bigoted against them in some situations. religion is a lifestyle choice, but sexuality is not. [Keep in mind that most of my knowledge of Jewish culture is through my grandmother's Christian lens so I probably talked out her ass for the majority of this whole entire passage.] so I mean. I agree with the sign. I also disagree with the sign. I'm torn in two. I've got points of view that will probably draw the attention of a lot of Discoursers™ who will all call me a nazi and tell me to kill myself again. I'm literally saying that entire systems of belief for a lot of religions are bullshit. I'm criticizing some logical faults in certain fundamental aspects of cultures I don't have the authority to speak about. I said things that can and WILL be taken the wrong way. but do you know what separates me from bigoted assholes? I know that I could be- and more than likely am- wrong about at least one thing I said here in this post. If I am wrong about something, anything: if I misunderstand, and don't have the correct information for anything at all, please let me know. My experiences are NOT universal and I have experienced the world through a very very VERY narrow scope. I'm only human; my brain is only capable of operating on information it has. So if something said here strikes a chord with you, please tell me so that I can unlearn that particular piece of ignorant bigotry. I don't want to be prejudiced against, discriminatory against, or aid the oppression of, any group. But if you know what's good for you don't just attack me because that's not how to talk about shit like adults. Ask for clarification, don't just take all the things I say out of context. Let's have a civil and rational discussion about intersecting bigotry, and how things aren't all just in black and white, and how opposition for one type of perceived bigotry can, in the right lens, be framed as being supportive of another type of perceived bigotry. To summarize: I'm conflicted about a sign. I'm conflicted about sexualization the LGBTQ+ I'm conflicted about fatphobia inclusion I'm conflicted about ageism I'm conflicted about the autonomy of children I'm conflicted about many religions I'm conflicted about religious corruption I'm conflicted about baptizing children I'm conflicted about aspects of Judaism I'm conflicted about my opinions but I'm NOT conflicted about the way to talk about things rationally online also I wrote this coming off of a suicidal depressive low at 4:00 in the morning while hopped up on caffeine after a very emotionally turbulent night and full of shitty non-food, so I may come to regret saying a lot of this later on in the morning, and apologize in advance if I super offend anybody over a misunderstanding of what I said, or a lack of foresight on my part, or having an opinion reinforced by society's love to brainwash us into being really bigoted against minority demographics. this surprise rant is also not even mostly written by me, I dissociated like two minutes into writing half in the middle of the first paragraph hence the probably reason why it went WAY off the tracks and I didn't get back until writing this current sentence you're reading now. [bracketed remarks got written right now]. don't send hate anons, we're all hopefully more mature than that. in all honesty this whole post might get zero attention whatsoever because my followers clearly don't care much about my personal life since I have to guilt trip them into validating me most of the time. I'm gonna wrap this up because it's just so fucking long right now and I'm STILL FUCKING WRITING MORE and it's 5:15 in the morning and I have to be awake in three hours. all because I hate myself.