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perceptivehands · 2 years

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people don’t want to be around you when you’re mentally ill because you’re too boring or exhausting. it only works as long as you keep your mask on (but even then it might not be enough), if you let it slip they notice how flawed you are and start to neglect you. in truth they don’t want to be around someone like that. so you can’t even confide in anyone about how miserable you really feel because you don’t want to ruin the little thing you have with them otherwise you’ll be left with nothing. but what’s the point in upholding friendships if you can’t be your true self around them?

#i'm this close to giving up bc what's the point really #i'm constantly worrying i'll never be enough #but i can't be optimistic; cheerful and social 24/7 and fake my way through it #it takes too much energy that i don't have #the few times people thought i was 'cool' (in a good way) and then they hang out with me more and find out i'm anything but #sorry for the constant disappointment #but i get one wouldn't be around someone like that i get it #so why bother trying #how do you trust people that aren't actually interested in you as a person #what else you gotta do to get past that surface level friendship bs #i usually post shit like this on reddit but i can't be arsed anymore lmao #tbd #(gonna regret this in the morning i'm sure)

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