#which is fine and to be clear I’m not delusional I’m just an introject with a weird sense of reality vs fiction | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

stayathome-ts · 2 years

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The problem with accidentally viewing your life through a semi-fictional lens due to context is that you start applying that to the present as well as the part, and often reality doesn’t work that way, except when it does and that just confuses the whole thing.

#context being my memories feel as real as my life now and I have trouble mentally separating them #it’s easy to see myself as like.. idk just part of another story that feels just as real #which is fine and to be clear I’m not delusional I’m just an introject with a weird sense of reality vs fiction #they’re much closer and blurrier for me #other context for why I’m making this at all is that we might be getting a job at a local newspaper as a cartoonist or illustrator #and my knee jerk reaction was oh of course we’ll be working at a newspaper that’s perfect (and rolling my eyes)#and I realized that was rude of me once that was out of my mouth but our host didn’t really care much about that #so it was fine #and then I realized the reason why I said that is because my separation between how fiction works and how reality here works is all mixed #and it gets confusing being self aware like that

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