#who is resilient and intelligent and funny and also self-centered and moody and flighty and vain and arrogant and overly sensitive

[sachermorte]

It’s genuinely really sad to me that you can’t see how wonderful you are. I think you’re intelligent, funny, handsome, talented, and incredibly resilient. Genuinely. I apologize if I’m making you uncomfortable - you are of course welcome to delete this - but I wanted to tell you. I think you’re really cool and anyone would be lucky to have you. - crush anon

You're really sweet. I mean it. It's very kind of you to say things like this.

I suppose it comes from living with myself all day, every day? I mean. I've heard that I can be difficult to live with more than once, so it stands to reason I'd also have a bit of a time with it. I see the full picture of myself rather than the incredibly polished and aesthetically tweaked version I'm putting out into the world.

I present myself in a very particular way. I'm very careful and intentional about it. And people will get close to me, very close, based on the impression they get from *gestures vaguely* all of this. I'm not doing intentionally to deceive people. This is genuinely just the only way I know how to walk through the world and feel good about myself. So people get the wrong idea from time to time, and then get upset when they get little glimpses underneath the surface. Takes anywhere from a few months to a few years. I suppose I try to preempt that by disclosing all my less-than-charming traits beforehand. Although people still find a way to be surprised.