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#with him. and he knows im fucking queer. he knows our grandmothers queer. and he still pulls this shit
the-gayest-sky-kid · 6 months
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my brother keeps being a bitch on purpose and it's really not helping
#my therapist says hes probably doing to feel better about himself and it's like. fuckin hell dude#because like. look im not saying i dont poke fun at him either right#but i like go think i dont go below the belt in terms of shit???#like i love him im not going to call him genuinely stupid or ugly or anything.#hes good at math and pretty capable. even if he incinerated mac n cheese once and we had to get a new microwave#but he keeps going up to me like (aether) whats a×b? oh how do you not know that instantly? are you stupid?#its because (extremely personal issue) LOL (deep cutting personal issue again)#and its like look ive never been good at mental math stop being a fucking jerk over me not knowing fuckin 9×7 off the top of my head#and i keep telling him to drop it and shut up but its just spurs him on more because its funny to him#and he keeps bringing up other shit like being queer or being trans specifically because he knows its upsetting and its just fucking funny#he loves to say people with weird pronouns and think there's more than two genders should kill themselves because he knows it makes me angr#with him. and he knows im fucking queer. he knows our grandmothers queer. and he still pulls this shit#and i cant say anything because when i do i get a whole lecture about how hes my flesh and blood and i should treat him like such#and im the asshole for suggesting he act like it for once#i love my brother and im proud of his achievements but i cant keep fucking doing this#and i know its my fault because hes a stupid kid and going through typical middle school boy bullshit#and seriously getting hurt by whatever a middle schooler says is downright pathetic#but it fucking hurts to hear someone you held as a baby and defended say people like you should kill themselves#and it hurts to have them fucking push a topic that upsets you for their own amusement#swearing cw#aethers rants#cw vent#personal posts and stuff idk
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Multipart Commission work - Harry Hook x reader - Prince behind the Pirate - part 13 - arranged marriage
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*mild cursing*
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You slammed your car door shut, shoving in the keys and starting the car. You screamed in frustration for a moment, shoving on your seatbelt and putting your car in reverse.
Driving off to your grandparent's castle. Your leg bounced nervously the entire time, you were going to have WORDS with your grandmother.
Who did she think she was, forcing you into an arranged marriage?! You knew your parents didn’t know, they would have stopped this nonsense as soon as it was suggested.
You rolled into the driveway, unbuckling your seat belt and getting out of your car, slamming the door behind you. You stomped up the steps and pushed open the doors, somehow slamming them against the walls.
“LEAH!” you screamed, not bothering to call her by her suffix. the servents around you jumped in fright, jaws dropped and eyes wide as they watched you rush by, murder in your eyes.
Your grandpa stepped out of their shared room and raised his brows, having never seen you this mad. “what did she-?”
You just grit your teeth and sidestepped him, turning and giving him a tight-lipped smile “sorry grandpa, this will be a talk between me and Leah, now if you will excuse us~” you slammed the door in his face, whirling around to look at your grandmothers horrified face.
“HOW.DARE.YOU” you seethed, stomping up to her and slamming your hands on her vanity “AN ARRANGED MARRIAGE?!?!” Leah’s brows dropped and the horror left her face, going back to lining her eyes.
“oh don’t be so ungrateful, Jordan will be a great suitor for you, he has the claim to Atlantica and then the whole ocean at his command, he will rocket our family status back to where it was, his parents already agreed to it.”
“i.have.a.soul.mate, Leah!” you hit her vanity with every word, glaring holes into her head “Harry! You know this! Im not doing this! You can't make me!”
Leah's eyes turned to you with a glare and a sinister smirk “if you don’t, your little pirate will never see the light of day again”
Your breath stopped in your chest….what? she-she was using Harry-what? “but if you do? I'll sign your little document for more villain children to come over. But” she held her finger up “you can never, see the pirate filth again, or else I'll make sure he gets sent back to the isle.”
You stumbled back from her, hands reaching up to your anchor necklace, the edges biting into your palm “so its up to you my little granddaughter” Leah stood, walking over to you and cupping your cheek. “either marry Jordan and your little pirate leaves the isle with his friends, but you never see him again, but! You know he is safe and happy in Auradon~ or” she walked around you, whispering into your ear. “you leave him and every single child there to rot”
You let out a sob, feeling hot tears trailing down your cheeks “so what will it be my dear” she cooed, brushing a loose lock of hair behind your ear.
“i-i-“ you hiccuped, covering your face and falling to your knees, biting your lip, tasting iron on your tongue “I’ll do it”
“Good!” Leah clapped her hands “you and I will be visiting Jordan and his parents next week!” she sat back down at her vanity, painting on her lipstick “now, if you don’t mind, your grandfather and I have to get to a meeting” you stood on wobbly legs, dragging your feet to her door, watching your years hit the floor “oh and (y/n)?” you stopped, your hand just clutching the doorknob “from today you will cease contact with Hook, your little letters will only be for the pirate girl for her dumb demands” you sniffed, giving her a shallow nod “good”
You opened the door slowly, shaking your head at your confused grandpa “my dear whats-(y/n)!!” you ran off, holding in the painful sobs as you ran out of their castle and into your car.
You quickly started it, ignoring your grandpas calls as he ran outside after you “(y/n), little princess whats-“ you drove off, gasping for breath as tears blurred your vision.
…how dare she?
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You let out a silent scream as you fell to your knees in the sand, you rolled into your self, face in your hands and arms tucked into your torso as you sobbed. You couldn’t breathe.
It felt like the world was crashing in on you, dreams of you and harry fading away, the getaway house by the sea, the three little kids with his bright eyes, your father and Harry snickering at stupid jokes, Harriet letting Audrey paint her nails as CJ attempted to bake something with your mother.
It all faded to dust.
You gasped as you sat up, blurry vision staring up at the cloudy sky, the sent of the sea melding with your tears.
“how am I going to tell Harry” you whimpered, clutching your shirt, trying to lessen the pain in your chest.
“oh god….my Harry” you sobbed, falling back into the sand and letting another rush of tears overtake you.
You never even got to truly be with him.
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You sat in your bathtub, the steam from the water surrounding you. It would have felt nice if you didn’t feel so numb.
For the past hour, you had been back in your dorm, you had tried to think of ways to dupe Leah. But everything ended with harry being stuck on the isle.
You didn’t want to leave him to die.
Even if it meant sacrificing your life with him.
Because if it meant he was safe and away from the isle, you would be happy for him.
“(y/n)? are you in there?” your sister called from the bathroom door, “you haven’t been responding to my texts! And you got a letter from harry” you didn’t respond. “(y/n)….please you’re scaring me!” she knocked on the door harshly, her tone dropping into a worried pitch.
“it's unlocked” you called out, just loud enough for her to hear. Audrey stepped in, gasping at your pitiful curled up form in the tub.
“oh! What happened!?” she dropped Harry's letter on the counter, dropping to her knees next to you and wrapping her arms around your shoulders.
You were silent for a moment, feeling another rush of burning tears at your eyes “(y/n)?”
You let out a broken sob, turning into her shoulder and let out a hoarse scream. “(y/n)!!” Audrey gasped, pulling you into her side tighter and pressing her cheek to your head “wha-“
“gram-gram-“ you choked, blubbering through your words, unable to speak through the lump in your throat.
“grammie? What did she do??” Audrey cooed, running her fingers through your wet hair.
“she-mar-fuck” you cursed, wiping your nose with your wrist and pulling back, punching into the water, splashing you and Audrey. “our fucking grandmother, blackmailed me into an arranged marriage with Jordan, saying if I didn’t agree to it, she would never sign the document for the new vks” you seethed, anger seeping back into your bones, tears still trailing down your face.
“WHAT!” Audrey screamed, standing up and staring wide-eyed at you “she-wha, WHAT?!” you shook your head, looking at your knees.
Audreys shoulders dropped, the fire she always felt from you was just….gone…
She slowly sat back down, tugging you back into her arms.
“I’ll find a way to fix this” she whispered, kissing your forehead “she can't do this”
“she already did” you sniffed, resting your head on her shoulder
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Harry bounced his leg nervously, the fabric barge had finally arrived, along with (y/n)s reply letter to his last one.
But as he stood by, and waited as the barge was empty.
The courier never arrived to give him a letter. Harry frowned, kicking a rock near his feet.
He perked up as one of the lads that usually gave him his letter, walked over to him. “here ya go”
Harry looked at the letter, raising his brow as the usual scrawl of his name was missing. “uh, is this from (y/n)?” harry asked, taking the letter and flipping it over. “yes, it is, now if you excuse me” the man smiled and gave a slight bow, walking back to the ship.
Harry frowned down at the letter. Every single letter that had been from (y/n) had his name on it, why was this one different.
…he was overthinking it, maybe (y/n) was just in a rush to send it and forgot to write his name? he ripped open the envelope, quickly taking out the letter, his shoulders dropped.
His name didn’t even pop up, the entire letter was to uma….maybe she didn’t have time to write back to him personally? Maybe she didn’t get his letter??
….something was wrong, he didn’t know what, but something was wrong.
He folded the letter and stuck it back in the envelope, running towards the chip shop.
-end of part 13-
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theshelbyclan · 3 years
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HEYYYYYY I saw you got some really mean anons in the passed and Im really sad about that and I'm glad you didn't turn off anons because I read your roma and wanted to ask you about your siblings. ONLY IF YOU WANT TO! Im really curious what they're like... LOVE YOUUUU
Hey love 😊 Well I’m really glad you’re trying to convince me not all anons are mean, and I know they’re not really, which I why I still allowed anons...
So to be clear my grandmother was Roma and I did grow up with the traditions and we were on the road when I was a kid. I think I mentioned it before but my parents had 5 kids and I’m nr 4.
My oldest brother is now officially old like 35, I had to think there for a second, sorry 😂 he travels full-time, does odd jobs in carpentry and paints, and has three kids with him on the road, so I’m an aunt! Which is kinda brilliant I have to say ❤️ he was a weird kid, very quiet most of the time, but oh so stubborn. You couldn’t influence him in any way and he’s such a non-conformist. He’s very tall, the darkest out of all of us, long hair and doesn’t give a fuck about how he looks... We were really close growing up and still are ❤️
My second brother is 34 now, they’re really close in age, and he’s basically an idiot. When we were little I fought with him a lot but we also got into trouble a lot too, because we’re basically the same 😂 we always thought he’d end up in some crazy situation, but he went to uni (he’s really really smart though so no surprise there), studied history and teaches kids now 😊 this also makes sense because kids have always loved him. He’s kinda short btw, which he hated when we mentioned it (LIKE ALL THE TIME) what else to say? He’s a brilliant, brilliant boxer...I miss him like crazy when he’s not here... because we are really close
Then there’s my older sister, 31, who is like the queen of the family. We always say she’s the prettiest, because she’s so calm and regal in a way, and her hair is a lot lighter than the rest of ours (yes there is some internalised racism in that statement I know). She’s the wise one, constantly tells me what to do and never ever just leaves me alone 😂 I love her to bits, without her I would’ve probably ended up in jail... and she’s the one with the most normal life right now, with a husband and a kid and a steady job etc... really proud of her ❤️
Then there’s me and I was basically the problem child of the family, the queer mess, whatever you want to call it 😘
And then there’s my youngest sister who’s 19 right now! She just sort of came along when my parents really weren’t expecting it anymore. She’s basically all of ours favourite because she’s cute and she fucking knows it. Spoiled af, not even by my parents but by us 😂 she still lives and home, but she manages to get us all together every now and then. VERY family oriented... and she’s smart like my brother ❤️
So yeah, there you have it! We’re very different, all of us kinda stubborn and not easy people to deal with, we all miss being on the road but we don’t all travel full-time anymore. But when we get together, it’s the most delightful chaos you have ever seen ❤️❤️❤️
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hello it is once again time for my end of the year wrap up. this should be... interesting
january
finally finally got to have a happy apartment experience!!!!! tried out tea drops which are dope. there was a fair amount of stress revolving around APO induction and the musical rehearsal, but we made it!!! partied hardy (the infamous tess in the washing machine incident) kelli was watching always sunny more often than not. i wore some arguably bad clothing but ya know. gays. we tried to take off my closet door (it did NOT work). the beginning of the goose saga! there was a sleet storm so kelli and i made some popcorn and watched mike birbiglia’s new special. darci, kelli and i went out to eat and then ended up in babcock playing air hockey before watching videos with kai who was on duty. PEP BAND???? some good memories formed there. dogs in the library! got bullied by my library boss to put gas in my car and i sent her a video of proof that i did it “daddy long legs” “stop. what?” “the musical” (i do love timothy) i actually practiced my instrument lol wild. WE (becky, celeste, timothy and i) WATCHED SPIRIT and got wildly drunk -- the origin of “[redacted] [redacted] who???” which is my favorite joke.
february
MORE PEP BAND im actually really glad i spent my last few college months dicking around with the band. one man drumline!!! kai made some good tiktoks in our apartment! miss hanging with them it was really fun. oh i hung out with sam and celeste watching movies “he was a boy, she was a dolphin, can i make it anymore [strangled dolphin noises]” OUR MICROWAVE HANDLE BROKE OFF while kelli was gone man that entire apartment was falling apart (hey dumbass grab from top) -- a list of things that were broken in our apartment: fridge light, front entry light, showerhead, phone. the birth of the beans insta!!!! got hit on when i was at taco bell with timothy by being accused of being trans (taco bell guy was not far off to be fair). oh the improv posters as compared to the posters i built for an organization fair. went out and got daRUNK at what appears to be wandas. really struggled with my period. cut hair with kelli n darci. MOZZ STICKS. “you still a lil bitch???” oh we did kpy pal-entines!!! where we ate good food and watched the princess bride!!! i received the plush goose. there was a possible bombing at the bank next door to where we rehearsed for band. aw i went on a tommy’s date with becky that was cute. they tried to STEAL the QUESO. disagreed with a curb and still have those scars. worked a horrible gig at the theatre. closing shifts at the library baby! middle school tours EW more library dogs! fish hooks song oh my god. drunk mash nights!!! i rewatched HAVEN and had lots of feelings. actually got drunk alone a lot which was Bad. however michael malloys birthday! watched choir concert at work lol. stats final whilst drunk!!!! becky got a piercing
march
here things go downhill rapidly. hit up the trains at least once. oh late library nights with timothy!!!! the best nights i miss hanging with him while at work. struggled with my car. went on a college sponsored adventure to a back alley farm. SCURVY FEARS. opening shifts that were lonely. oh celeste played plague and named it covid and won lol yikes. the infamous apartment cone. we stayed up long enough to see the sunrise on literally the last day in college I would ever have. that was good. I FOUND OUT KELLI HAD GLASSES im still pissed. came home indefinitely. went to st patty’s day at brookes with karrigan and that was SO much fun (this was before things seemed real) the best part of that was the irish pub owner who happened to have a son that went to my college. got my mom onto tik tok. took a gay lit class. can’t believe i took daily fckn walks around the pasture who was i. hosted virtual meetings for apo and played around with the closed captioning. that was fun. shaved my moms head lmaooo. worked on my capstone which im like super proud of? i wish i could have directed it but say law vee. 
april
BAGPIPE CORPS INTERNATIONAL. virtual band wreaked havoc on my animals mental health. my grandmother would always bug me while i was working which i understand now was misplaced love but it was so irritating at the time. we had library meetings once a week or so that was vital to mental health. hosted a really fun “panel” about queer identity for my queer lit class that was able to educate a lot of people. having a capstone class with am*lia was a nightmare. watched a cirque du soleil show for free and lost my mind. wrote a comedic monologue that i suffered through. suffered through papers and projects. worked on a project with celeste and kelli and we had SUCH a good time. i hosted several jackbox nights for both apo and kpy. that was SUCH an exhausting experience. also uno and drawful with the uno group (kelli would win 100% of the time). ranted about group projects lol i struggled. OH THE MOVE OUT DEBACLE i really went off the deep end. kelli’s virtual birthday!!!!
may
we had so many good jackbox nights. academic showcase and honors convocation happened wherein i was name bronco award winner and that really wrecked me too lol. we had a sunday crew hang out for library workers. clarinet game night too! i tried so hard to build community during covid and im not altogether sure i accomplished it but ya know whatever. watsky broke the record! made my “aced it” grad cap which was so FUNNY and still is tbh. becky taught me how to do makeup. took grad pictures at an abandoned farmhouse lol OH MY GOSH BEAUX ARTS AND APO SKIT i was so proud of that night and annette said it was the best one we’d ever had. wish i had done more but we did it boys. also got VERY drunk for it lol completely redid my room. bc it was NASTY. the way i write papers is so SO funny to me. had our last capstones class and then dressed in grad outfits for our last lit meeting . graduated and got all my stuff from college finally. went shopping with timothy, had el puerto with becky (i think?). oh the infamous miller moths UGH shit is nasty. THE FORMING OF BANJO SHRIMPS occurred on may 24 2020 and that was the absolute best thing to come out of this year. started working at my dads agency which was the absolute worst thing to come out of this year. attended my first protest in cos which was good and healthy. started protesting regularly after that. my most poignant memory was laying down in front of city hall and chanting “i cant breathe” for 8 minutes. 
june
it snowed???? i was angry. part of my job was reading my dad’s email and there was some WACKO shit in there. went to brookes for pride as a surprise which was cute n fun. had a horrible interaction with a client. the appearance of the bigfoot statue!!!! we had a vanilla beans hang out. there was a WILD storm that literally made my hide out in the office. 
july
went on a bonkers rant about america bc fuck this place. helped mom out with homework. we had several clients get divorces which was messy. went to a Bad party where i was angry the whole time. went to the top of pikes peak with my grandma and saw many much bigfoot things. we got a GOOSE he hated us so much. oh there was a night where darci and kai came over and we hijacked kelli’s spotify and communicated that way it was SO funny. took a video of the dichotomy of man bc of my long ass leg hair and short ass head hair. shaved my head to the BONE and tried dragon fruit. GOT NIKO ON JULY 24 my sweet sweet boy lil bat looking motherfucker. got denied for life insurance for mental health reasons. 
august
went back to hc for a birthday “party” and to see the band. did a lot in that weekend (stayed with timothy’s family, helped becky move, met kelli’s look-alike, saw timothy and karlie’s new house!!! had lunch with kellis family which is closest to “meet my parents” i think i’ll ever get lmao). got my prof headshots and hate every single one of them but more for self esteem reasons lol. neighbors got goats and my mom lost her marbles. got trapped in traffic on the way back from hc. niko had crackhead energy. oooooooh documented gender crisis. ma got more chickens. went to a birthday party for a high school friend and was just... so out of my element. its weird. took off my grandma’s bathroom door bc she had knee surgery. started a full time job as my grandmother’s caretaker (love working for the family business lol).
september
went to breckenridge with a friend!!!!!! spicy times lol. cleaned the cupboard. had a birf. turned 22. cas finished her drugs!!!! and felt much better. we did a charcuterie board for my birthday which was very fun. Got a mixer set!!! went to hc for homecoming and graduated!!!!! surprised celeste and hannah with a celebration party for them (it was a lot of fun). came up with my BEST joke (summa cum laude). got called tf out for my gender crisis via tarot. got the goose game!!!! played the goose game!!!!
october
applied to chicago center!!!! will now be working there for a year!!!! this was the first documentation of banjo shrimp nights. surprised my dad for boss day by working with the team to fill his office with balloons. house sat for dad’s friends. started taking showers in the dark. went to celestes and made PASTA wow got very drunk and while she slept i just explored a strangers house. voted!!!!! wow. finally (finally) started to accept that i was maybe agender. had a snow day but i couldn’t work so that was fun. had halloween with banjo shrimps where i dressed up as david rose. that was SUCH a good night. participated in ace week!!! then, dressed as radar for actual halloween and had monumental. worked a volunteer haunted house and like... actually did pretty good?? felt like a real adult!!!!
november
so many things happened in november. i finished miraculous ladybug on netflix. had another bad interaction with a client bc the customer is always wrong. shaved my head. PRESENTATION NIGHT to distract from the election lmao what a good time. had so many emotions about the election. then biden won and we lost our damn minds -- video called with celeste and becky to celebrate (with the reminder that we know that this doesn’t solve everything but it was such a huge sigh of relief). started watching the last kids on earth. made more PASTA and soup! got my GHOSTY TATTOO. kahoot night with the banjo shrimps lol. watched the supernatural finale with kelli (what good memories) rewatched 3below good shit. got the chicago job so i quit being an insurance person!!!! brooke came for thanksgiving!!!
december
i dont wanna talk about it but i finally started watching unus annus (theres an archive its not the same but it provided me wild amounts of serotonin). “call that invisible split dye”. crimmus. had a video call with people from high school i rarely if ever see. this entire month has been a fuckin blur my guys but i’m so excited for what’s next. in two days i will be in an apartment in chicago. i will be reunited with my best friend in a little under two weeks. i cannot emphasize enough how excited i am for this next chapter. so yeah. that was my year. im sure there was more memories but that’s what the sideblog is for lol
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