#yappapocalypse

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hello my dedf1sh kinnies

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me when im not one of those super popular artists that only draw once a month and never speak to their fans OR EVEN one of those super friendly artists that are popular because they know how to interact with people and stay on trend

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finished an animation. pressed export. it turns out audio was muted. cry

edit. ITS GOING LIKE 0.0001 m/s I swear the loading bar isnt moving. at all. like a snail actually I look away and look back and it has moved 1 Millimetre. also more edits if there is news

edit number 2 electric boogaloo: writing this on phone because the puter hates me

edit number 3 electric booger pee: the puter still hates me and i thought we were putting this behind ourselves but it decided to be a little brat and trick me into thinking the export was going well only to crash at the last percentage

VIDEO IS SAVED!!!!! MY PUTER AND I ARE BESTIES

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mmmmmmm theres something about dedf1sh and paul being siblings (HEADCANON) that are opposites of eachother, like dedf1sh not meeting school expectations and not catching up and then paul who’s a prodigy in everything… mmm thoughts…

down to their hair colour which is a reverse of eachother (dedf1sh has blue to red and paul has red to blue. or like. purple idk)

and one of them escaped while the other one didnt its just muah. muah chefs kiss I love the siblings

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me when I want to make a dedf1sh themed ask blog but idk how to imitate characters ahhwhehwhhhekj

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waaaaaa I wish I had a distinct artstyle that I dont even need to have a signature and people will just know its mine

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THE RANDOM PIECE OF HAIR/DUST/FREAKING LIKE. NEEDLE??. strange piece of mysterious small dark coloured object THAT WAS LODGED INSIDE MY GUM IS GONE!!!!!!

i feel so FREE

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ah. whoops. 4000 already

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unpopular opinion: I dont like fundamental paper school or whatevr its called

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NEW BANNNNERRRRR

i love dedf1sh

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rrraagaghhhhhhh im trying to finish an artfight attakck but i cannot

12 characters????? more than 12 characters….???? 16?? charavetrs

just. bye uagghghghj

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crusty musty round rat creature (my dog)

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just went into greyscale mode on my drawing tablet by accident and then I went out of it

i didn’t know red was so red i never realis)ed

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me when a person tells me a tiktok reminded me of them and the audio and visuals are marina and the diamonds primadonna from electra heart

WHAT DO THEY MEAN BY THAT HHUHHHH

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beware! large amounts of yapping ahead!

okay its time for me to complain about people because my journal isnt cutting it for my standards in actually wordvomiting everything before I sleep

yay so theres one girl in my class, all stories I could ever say always start with “so there is one person in my class” im not original and neither are they because theres like 10 different boys and they all look and sound the same to me I havent memorised their names after 2 years and 3 of them have the same last name

okay so theres this one girl in my class and y’know how theres always a duo in a trio and apparently im always the one leeching off of other peoples friendships because im always the new person at the school for whatever reason and im probably never going to have a genuine friend group because either i dont try enough or people in schools absolutely suck (im leaning towards the latter option because I dont wanna blame myself)

OKAY im the singular loner oh so sad person in the trio and the other 2 people have so much in common like hey theyre family friends and like the same music and talk about men all the time and never strike a conversation with me and im the person who they pair up with and talk to when theres a task which we are in groups of 3s

so a teacher brought in taylor swift merchandise and I saw one of those light up wristbands and apparently the other 2 ppl who I *think* im friends with also like taylor swift (more than me, because im a wretched fake fan or whatever) and one of them says if they can have the wristband because it was the only one from the eras tour the teacher had and then she offered to buy it off me for 20 bucks and hey you know where this is going

she hasnt paid me in the half a year since that and I keep reminding her and she keeps telling me to remind her and she keeps on going “im gonna pay you next week I promise” like shut up if you’re not gonna keep your promise just say it. if you dont have the money literally just say it and next time we walk to your house you could give the wristband back

but actually the audacity like last week for her to say “why am i even paying you for this its just a bracelet” when we already agreed on it and i may be extremely petty but she could have said its freaking worth is only 5 cents or whatever and then her attempt to GUILT TRIP ME because her allowance is only a dollar everytime she does a chore?? and the fact she said oh just ask [the other person in the friend group] to pay?? like hey hello what this is just between you and i

and the fact that the other person in the friend group stands up for her is just ouchh what yeah I know them two were besties since they were in the womb and maybe even in a past life they were actually intertwined plants or whatevr

and they talked right in front of me just back and forth “oh you dont have to pay her its not worth it” “real friends dont owe people things its just out of kindness” and im like HEY IM RIGHT HERE BEHIND YOU and the fact they kept checking behind them to see if I was eavesdropping which was so incredibly easy because they were literally talking so loud I swear my life is recorded or something and theyre speaking loudly so the viewer can be in on the drama

and maybe im making drama out of nothing but these two CALL ME BESTIE and every single time i call them out on a fault or something and im like thats not what you said earlier BECAUSE EITHER THEIR MEMORY IS WACK OR THEYRE LIARS theyre just like “oh we’re joking” like what the hell you cannot use jokes to get out of situations

even when im not having a good day and trying to not engage in conversatjon as often theyre always like “why did you talk like that” like huh I didnt know I wasnt allowed to stop smiling for a while

i mean theres more stuff and im still gonna say it ive asked her [the uhh first one] if im interesting or not and she replied yeah sure and when asked why she said oh you say animal facts sometimes like HEY IM AN ACTUAL PERSON and the most interesting thing about me is that I say animal facts sometimes like hey look at me im an encyclopedia its literally like when teachers call me “their little calculator” or whatever also EWW this is why I dont like pet names they suck

so am i overreacting?? yeah

should I be thrown against a wall? yeah

can i sleep? no thats why im writing this

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oouughg wow i just got a memory flashback of those seven second riddles…

like as a child (7 to 10 years I thinks) I couldnt watch those riddle videos bcs they were scary enough?? like if you watch them alone in a bedroom and you basically couldnt hear your parents and it was silent other than the train that came by at random times then YES ITS SCARY

also yeah sure, the ones by bright side were bad but TED ED RIDDLES WERE WORSE and they always had some sort of world ending prompt, which now I think was very creative, but back then whenever I watched the frog riddle, everytime it said “incorrect answer number #” or showed a skull symbol to represent a wrong turn WHERE YOU DIE I would get one of those little spine chills (very nice, would recommend, it really helps with when you sleep alone /sarcasm)

AND OH MY GOD wow i was just sitting alone doing my normal writing things and whatever holiday homework and then it just BAM i cannot hear anything and im like IF YOU DONT FINISH THIS QUESTION EVERYONE DIES AND YOU’RE THE LAST PERSON ON EARTH TO SURVIVE THIS APOCALYPSE AND YOU GET TO DIE OF STARVATION (but in my head because I dont usually talk outloud)

so uhh yeah im gonna stop typing my hands are tired