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Hello to my 22years old self

This photo was taken year 2012, during our college field trip after my birthday. Hey self! know what you still haven’t change after 5 years. You are still that reserved, pessimistic, introvert, shy, overthinker, low self-esteem girl! You haven’t change. Ahmm.. nah! you have change a LITTLE.. you become more independent, loner, braver, and wise? I think so? hihi you overcome those adult thingy, (adult responsibilities) ALONE! So YAY for that! 😂 Happy for that! *tap my back* “i’m proud of you self” ☺️

Last quarter of 2016 when you learned how to cook! by yourself! #selfthoughtlahat! oh no!, by the help of Youtube too haha thanks for the socmed sites and Google. lol! I survived 2016 because of that.. and I also learned to do household errands alone! I bet you never thought you can do it ALONE! Nah YOU CAN lady! You’re just so scared and coy. hihi and yah paranoid. haha! But I wont deny it was hard from the start. I can still remember myself struggling buying veggies, fish, meat, etc. in the market without even having any idea how to distinguish whether its good/fresh or not haha! common sense nalang! 😂 and look at you now I still struggle lels! hahaaha!! And by the end of 2016 you decided to review and take the board for the second time though you’re still in doubt and scared. You low self-esteem lady! You really don’t trust your self! I pity you for that.

And April this year (2017) yeah you FAILED the board AGAIN. You’re upset, frustrated, depressed, sad, devastated OVER OVER AGAAAAAAIIIIIINNNN?!?!! C'mon! It’s not yet the end of the world! *am i speaking to myself? nope. this is just my conscience trying to lift my spirit up*

You started 2017 not bad at all, you made new friends whom you met from Review Center and Fridge Multimedia. so cheer up! And I can say you cook well now. Much better than last year hihi 😁 You learned how to budget your money.. you’re wiser now than before when it comes to money. And hey I know you currently like someone, someone who is impossible to like you! hihi *mahilig ka talaga sa mas bata sayo nuh? pero mas matured mag-isip* hihi

You met him year 2014 I guess when you decided to take a break and go far away from stress from home. (you know what i mean and what i am talking about) 😊

It was a cold, boring, monotonous night? day? afternoon? *i forgot* for you.. you were sitting in a sofa, busy watching a movie that I can’t even remember the title.. and he was very tired from work, he was wearing all black, (black long sleeves, black pants, black shoes), he seems sleepy and really very tired that time. Then suddenly he sits beside you, he decided to sit in the sofa where you were seated coz’ he can’t find any chair. You were shookt and felt awkward for a moment.😰😱😓 You were like “who on earth is this guy? who gave him permission to sit here? beside MEEEE?!?” *note sarcasm* “he have no choice dude! he was so tired!” And thats it you started noticing him ‘til you become curious about him, you even stalk his FB after that. lols! *crazzzyyy!!*

Why put this story here? I guess coz’ I still like him and I miss him. So after 3 years you went back to that city were you met him, to review and take your board exam, in different house but still the sofa was still there. haha He’s still the same.. he’s still funny, shy and aloft. Can’t blame him you are a bit scary, you look masungit, mataray and snobbish. tsk! So mahihiya at matatakot talaga siyang lapitan at kausapin ka. But I know he still remember you after 3 years. *ayieee kinilig ka naman?! ulol!*

So there you go that was what happened for the last 3 years! ahm.. I mean its not complete but those were some of the highlights I guess of my life for the past 3 years after I quit my work back in Cavite. (lang kwenta! di ba? haha)

I just want to say to my 22y/o self you still haven’t change. Isip bata ka pa rin.. medyo nagmatured ka na ng kaunti.. konti lang! hihi malungkutin ka pa rin madalang pa rin kitang makitang naka-ngiti at masaya. sigh.

Please promise me that this 2018 smile often you’re prettier when you smile I swear! (ayeehh! ngingiti na yan!) ☺️😊😀😁😂😓 haha! and be strong.. be very very STRONG.. keep going self! keep going! never ever give up! always choose to do good to others.. and PRAY ALWAYS. I know you are struggling 'til now I know you are still hopeless of what is happening to your life.. I know you are still worried about your future.. please wag ka na masyado mag-isip, kalma ka lang sa sarili mo! ipaubaya mo na yan kay God.. just do what you need/should do and just let God guide you.

Always remember to LOVE YOURSELF #selflove, live life to the fullest, LOVE LIFE, be more passionate to arts, do more of what makes you happy, improve not for others BUT for you self!, if you have to impress anyone that is no other than yourself but don’t be so hard, loosen up! enjoy your life! I love you self. I love you!! *hugs* 🤗😘

12/30/2017

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So how should I start to end this bloody year? Yes, it was a bloody 365 days. This year, I asked myself "How long will I survive?""How should I deal with these things/people?" Because you know what, I didn't feel anything for me to take a rest even just a bit.

Yeah I love being busy but THESE BUSY LIFE IS MORE THAN WHAT I EXPECTED. There are times that I really want to boost my tears away from my eyes and heart so logically speaking, I want to give up. 

But NO! HELL NO! I am a fighter so I need to finish the challenges in my life. And besides, I have lots and lots of inspiration. My mom, my friends, even money. So why should I give up if I have them? 

Sometimes 2014 is cute but most of the time it's bullshit. But I'm still thankful and I am also grateful because even though there are so many tragedies came out whether it's personally or not still, Rainbow shined down on me.

This year, I became matured enough to face all the tasks even if its risky or complicated. Now I really know the true meaning of Handling a situation perfectly. 

3 days from now, another chapter will open. Let's face it Bolder and Fiercer. I know that all of us here had a great 2014. So let's make another year Precious and Brilliant so that other people will be dazzled because of you.

May I ask, Do you really need to change yourself? 

2014 Starting to Log Out | Brandon Silverio

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Year Ender Blog 2013

Here I go again with another year ender blog. As I have from the past, I won't be calling this a thank you and a sorry blog anymore, just to make things a little different and since nothing much happened this year.

If I would have to rate this year from 1 to 10 with 10 being the highest, I would rate it 6. If I didn't graduate this year, it would be lower than that. I can say that this is not my best year, and I do hope that this would be the last of it but, I can still say that I am still pretty lucky compared to all the disasters that happened in the rest of the world, most especially with my countrymen who experienced such a worldly devastation.

This year has been really tough, since I have been officially freed to the 'real world' as many would call it. Yes! Finally! I graduated from college after all the waiting because of being stalled for one year and then I was like, "Now what?" As I have blogged through the course of my unemployment period which I'd rather call the dark ages, I had a really hard time looking for work. I got vacant for six meaningful months, which I regret that I didn't use for working out, bleh, but yeah. God is good and he generously granted my wish. I prayed hard for that one wish, that I hope that I would get a job at least before my birthday, and boy did God really granted everything on my birthday. I got accepted to all three jobs that I applied for! I didn't land on the one that I really, really wanted, but hey! It's still work. Well, I like my work, I really do, in all fairness :) I am happy to be where I am but I can't help for asking for something better.

Since I am set out to the real world, I learned so many things, things that you can't simply learn from the four corners of a classroom, indeed, Adventure is out there, and out there I go, and these are the 7 most important things that I have learned so far.

1. Hard work pays off

Sometimes, it's not always the brains and the charms that work their wonders, hard work still prevails among other things. You should learn how to focus on your goal and keep pushing and keep trying until you get it.

2. Responsibilities are harder when you get older

I don't know about other people my age, but my responsibilities somehow got heavier than before. I felt like, there's no space for screwing up and you have to carefully think of your decisions before it's too late.

3. Patience is a virtue

For the period of time that I was jobless, I learned to be patient and to let go of the things that will just hurt me. Clinging on to them will not do me any good.

4. Money can be really powerful

There was a time when I became so broke that I feel like I'm going to be sick. It might seem pathetic but it's true. I was scared with how much I adored money and buying things for my happiness, which was really wrong. I then realized money's true use and that is not for my self gratification but for helping others in need. And oh, at this point of time, MONEY IS REALLY HARD TO EARN.

5. People pleasers don't always have it good

I must admit that I used to be a people pleaser because I thought that things would be better that way, but no. You will be more respected as a person who follows his/her own beliefs than a person without their own stand in life.

6. Learn to be contented in life

This year, I learned more about being contented, that sometimes enough is just what we need.

7. Continue to be positive

There have been a lot of people who noticed how a happy person I am and it felt great. What's even better is that, my positivity can be contagious which made me a little proud of myself since I've always wanted to be THAT PERSON, a person that brings joy to everyone.

This year has been full of rough patches and it has been a year of getting lost to a lot of places, a lot of realizations and a lot of things. I have lost and became even more confused with who I wanted to be. But then, when I watched Awkward's episode where Jenna had to write an essay about who she wanted to be, it gave me a lot of inspiration and realizations. Along with reading my friends' retreat letters, I discovered who I want to be, not fully but at least I have chunks of ideas. I want to continue to be the positive girl that people know of, the one that can give them a laugh or two and somehow give a smile on their face. As for my career path, I realized that I want to be a technology journalist. I do hope to be one in the future.

But for now, I am still hopeful for next year and is still up for the challenges that the Lord may bring.

To those people who have been down in the dumps this holiday season (just like me) since everything seems to be so festive and merry while theirs is far from that, don't worry, in just a few more hours, everything will be over and would be back to normal, but I still hope that your next holiday season would be better than this.

Still, as the optimistic girl that I am may the next year be a good one for everyone most especially for the Philippines.