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[theunconciousmind]

about me

୨୧ I’m married - @matt-hew05

୨୧ I like reading, writing, watching films and shows, drawing, self care, fashion, norman reedus, makeup, video games, listening to music and my vinyls, and shit posting on here

୨୧ topics/things I enjoy: history, philosophy, occultism, mysticism, esotericism, fashion design and modeling, cults and religions, bdsm, literature, writing, movies and cinematography, zaza, photography, exploring, WW2, non current politics and political history, tattoo art, being a weird creepy fag, norman reedus, ancient history, 2000’s pop culture and anything y2k, weapons and guns, anything paranormal, poetry, and cars and motorcycles

୨୧ I freely block literally anyone

୨୧ my visionaries: lana del rey, norman reedus, lady gaga, vincent gallos, amy winehouse, paris hilton, jim morrison, snooki, marilyn monroe, tom hardy, shalom harlow, clara bow, gabriette, megan fox, jeremy scott, mads mikkelsen, aeysha erotica, and father john misty

୨୧ my favorite movies include: marie aintonette, the bling ring, buffalo 66’, lolita, priscilla, six ways to sunday, donnie darko, jennifers body, black swan, johnny 316, psycho, sixteen candles, fight club, perks of being a wallflower, texas chainsaw massacre, american psycho, uptown girls, the phantom of the opera, the shining, saw, legends of the fall, the notebook, 500 days of summer, etc, etc… ( I have tons of other movies I really like but these are the ones I can’t live without )

୨୧ my favorite musicians: lana del rey ( and her unreleased obviously), die antwoord, air, alex g, lil wayne, chief keef, amy winehouse, crystal castles, father john misty, aeysha erotica, kendrick lamar, kmfdm, life lover, chet baker, johnny cash, deftones, j. cole, fiona apple, 50 cent, imogen heap, korn, lou reed, marina, a$sap rocky, modest mouse, 2pac, nancy sinatra, eminem, katy perry, ke$ha, system of a down, princess chelsea, weyes blood, elliot smith, big thief, adrienne lenker, black box recorder, norman reedus, sufjan stevens, boygenius, pheobe bridgers, ethel cain, faye webster, video club, machine girl, radiohead, the weeknd, led zeppelin, sade, cocteau twins, kanye west, the doors and jim morrison, childish gambino, the velvet underground, lady gaga, nicki minaj, sublime, the kinks, the smiths, korn, tool, type 0 negative, etc, etc… ( I listen to a LOT more artists but these are the ones I can’t live without )

୨୧ my favorite authors: ottessa moshfegh, earnest hemingway, donna tartt, vladimir nabakov, leo tolstoy, fyodor dostoevsky, j.d. sallinger, norman reedus, f. scott fitzgerald, anne rice, franz kafka, oscar wilde 

୨୧ my favorite fashion houses/designers: chanel, dsquared2, yves saint laurent, cartier, jean paul gaultier, jeremy scott, agent provocateur, chloé paddington, moschino, miu miu, paco rabanne, 

୨୧ my favorite artists and drawing inspiration: simone legno, akira uno, nell brinkley, fukai kuni, norman reedus, akami watabe, toko ohmori, vampberry ( on insta ), and gustave klimt

୨୧ my favorite/current shows: gossip girl, gilmore girls, breaking bad, the walking dead, supernatural, american horror story, south park, house md, buffy, devilman crybaby, castlevania, new girl, and real housewives ( I have plenty of other shows on my to watch list… trust )

୨୧ my discord is rosiedollie, I promise I’m somewhat nice and love talking to people so reach out if you want

୨୧ I have another blog for my writing and a03 works but it’s under heavy renovation so I’m waiting to tag that account in this post

୨୧ I also have other accounts such as a Spotify and Pinterest but again both are under renovation but I will also be putting those @‘s in this post when ready they’re ready

୨୧ I love my friends… top of my list, the sweetest girl in town: @fawnesque-vanillyee

@legoghini

[educatedsimps]

— you are my sunshine, sakusa kiyoomi

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sakusa kiyoomi x anorexic!reader

**TRIGGER WARNINGS: EATING DISORDER (anorexia), slight nsfw (light petting with no penetration, NC16 at most?), swearing PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU MAY BE TRIGGERED BY THE ABOVE TOPICS. please exercise some self-care and enjoy some of our other fics instead! we'll see you in our next post <3

a/n: i really NEEDED TO do this. doing this for my sanity 😭😭😭 - yves

content under the cut!

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine," you sang as you drove along the expressway.

"You make me happy, when skies are grey," Sakusa, comfortably seated in the passenger seat, sang in response. He gently squeezed your thigh.

You let out a breath with a smile on your face. That day was an exciting day for the two of you. It was the match between the MSBY Black Jackels and Schweiden Adlers, and Kiyoomi had been a ball of nerves for the past week. So to show your support, you decided to drive your dear passenger princess, Sakusa Kiyoomi, to the Kamei Arena Sendai Gymnasium.

You had spent half a day at the office and the other half dolling yourself up for the match that evening. Kiyoomi frowned at the sheer effort you had put into looking good for him at the match. He grunted out something along the lines of "getting distracted by how pretty Y/n is" and how "You have to be less pretty or I'll have to learn how to fight with my bare fists". You laughed at the thought of your husband trying to smash someone's jaws with his fists when he hated any physical contact with strangers.

After kissing him goodbye at the back gates leading to the MSBY locker rooms, you went to the Ladies and touched up your lipgloss infront of the mirror. As you looked at your reflection, you thought to yourself, maybe I do look good.

Ding!

From: MSBY girlies + Keiji <3

Miyu (Atsumu's GF) [6.43pm] Y/n pookiee~ Are you here yet?

Keiji (Bokuto's fiance) [6.44pm] We're at the VIP section, Row 1. The security guard knows who you are so he'll show you the way in later. You sure you don't want us to come find you?

Kira (Meian's wife) [6.44pm] ahhh can't wait to see you, Y/n! XD

You smiled as you read their messages.

You [6.45pm] I'll be alright, thanks! I'm heading up right now Excited to see you guys too :>

They had been planning to sit together since the start of the new season, after Kiyoomi had formally introduced you to the rest of the team.

As you reached the VIP area, you immediately regretted agreeing to sit with them. Your self-esteem shattered the moment you saw them.

They were drop-dead gorgeous, with their perfect makeup, in their perfect outfits that hugged them in all the right places. They looked straight out of a fashion magazine. It was something about how feminine they looked, and the way they all smiled sweetly when they saw you. So inviting and loving. They were the boys' partners after all.

But they've got to have flaws, right? That's only human.

Their smiles felt genuine, and you could see glimpses of their partners in them. Some were rowdy, hugging you when they saw you and treating you like one of them. They asked you questions about yourself, even getting drinks and snacks for you and including you in the post-game party at Bokuto's place. For a moment, you felt like one of them.

But how can a whole group of people be so damn perfect?

God, how you hated how inferior you felt. The differences between you and them became even more apparent when you saw the post-game pictures that had posted on Instagram. You had only gotten their Insta handles just a day before and were already on the verge of unfollowing.

It was insane how out of place you felt as they sat there so pretty in just their partners' jerseys. Somehow, they still managed to look so good. Unlike you.

Eventually, your brain churned out only one reason - it all came down to how small and delicate they looked compared to you.

How they looked worthy to be the lovers of the MSBY players. How they were pretty enough to be their partners.

It was crazy enough that you were comparing yourself to the Akaashi Keiji. How alluring he was, even just sitting in the same area as you. He was even more beautiful up close, there was something deep within his psyche that was so magnetic. It was evident that he took care of himself, with how his dress shirt clung to his thin waist. You can't help but admire him, and you wondered if your own clothes would ever do you the same favour.

If only you had a waist as small as his.

It scared you how the need to fit in with them became so acute. The hopes of not being the laughing stock of the group fueled the waves of self-hatred that you hadn't felt since high school. You were bullied for being chubbier than average. Teenagers were brutal, especially to anything they perceived to be different.

Obese. Katsudon. Pork planet. They were corny, sure, yet shivers ran down your spine at the memory of those names. Not long after, you started having nightmares of that darned high school. The same bullies, the same by-stander classmates, and the new addition of Kiyoomi in his high school uniform with disgust in his eyes, telling you to break up with him. His back faced you whenever you asked for the reason.

It's because of how fat you are. He'd still love me no matter what right? Right?

And every time you woke up from one of those nightmares, you would wake up sobbing.

Yet every time, Kiyoomi still seemed to be blissfully asleep. You knew he'd always have trouble sleeping before an upcoming match and with him looking so at peace, you never had the heart to wake him up.

He doesn't need to know about this. I'll tell him when morning comes.

But you never came round to telling him about the nightmares. The seeds of doubt from those recurring nightmares started to sprout inside you.

You stopped finishing your meals. You started running with Kiyoomi in the mornings to "spend more time with him". Lunch breaks at work were replaced with attending the pilates class across the street. The cans of Celcius in the fridge were depleting faster than ever. Your daily coffee order changed to an Iced Americanos with 4 shots of espresso.

And when the number on the scale dropped, the grin on your face was evidence enough of how light your heart felt. Nights were long when you spent the first hour waiting for Kiyoomi to fall sleep before you shimmied yourself out of his warm embrace to count the flaws of your body with your reflection in the full length bathroom mirror. With how your waist measurements dipped along with Sakusa's compliments of how much healthier you had become lately, your were giddy with happiness.

But God, did it hurt when you realised you had seemed 'unhealthy' to him in the first place. He could have just called you fat, it's not like you would've crumbled, right?

Hit with the sickening realisation that the voice in your head was right all along, that it was even how Kiyoomi saw you, your tears mixed into the shower water one day after a pilates class. You were glad that your husband was busy at practice and wouldn't come in to take an impromptu shower with you and see you in this wretched state.

Please, please, please, don't prove I'm right.

⊹₊⋆☁︎⋆⁺₊⋆ ☀︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆☁︎⋆₊ ⊹

"You'll never know, Dear. How much I love you~,"

Your husband sang from the kitchen as you hugged him from behind. With his beefy back against your face and him cooking breakfast, it felt like a blessing so surreal. You wished you'd never have to leave this position.

It's a late Saturday morning and you and Kiyoomi had agreed to have your usual stay-at-home date.

"Eggs?" He looked over his shoulder to you hugging him like an oversized stuffed toy.

"Maybe just egg whites today. I wanna try a new brand of yogurt I got yesterday with the granola I made this week," You replied, stifling a yawn

He nodded in acknowledgement and fetched the carton of egg whites from the fridge as you detached yourself from him and took the cutleries and dishes out of the dishwasher.

"How have you and the girls been? And how's the uh, pilates class you said was kicking your ass?" Kiyoomi asked as he plated his scrambled eggs.

You took the low fat, high protein yogurt out of the fridge as you replied, "It's fun, but I definitely understand why Pilates was made for prisoners."

His eyes were obviously judging you as he laughed to himself. "It can't be that bad. Definitely not as bad as our training when Meian-san is in a bad mood."

You could only sigh with a roll of your eyes. You retorted with an elbow jab to his side, "Why don't you come for class one day and we'll see about that, Mr. I'm-So-Strong."

He squirmed with the frying pan in his hand and a spatula in the other, swatting you away like a fly. You stepped away to giggle at the sight of him using his spatula like a sword in Barbie and the Three Musketeers.

When all was done, the both of you sat down at the small, 4-seater dining area in your home and continued chatting about how the week had gone.

"Itadakimasu!"

And the first thing that Kiyoomi dug into was your yogurt. You stared at him, offended. He ate it as if he was the one who had bought groceries that week.

The moment the yogurt touched his tongue, his face turned as sour as the yogurt he ate. With his face all scrunched up like that, you couldn’t help but let out a small giggle as you took the second spoon of yogurt from the same bowl.

“Y/n, I have no clue what’s so nice about this- this bowl of cold, white... glue," he looked at you in pure astonishment.

“That’s because you're supposed to eat it with fruits and granola, Omi-Omi," You stated simply.

You didn’t have the guts to tell him that you were more worried about exceeding your 600 calorie count for the day than how shitty the yogurt tasted.

"Atsumu's rubbing off on you..." he grumbled, making you giggle at the way his face scrunched up at the sound of Atsumu's nickname for him.

After breakfast, the two of you moved over to the sofa to browse Netflix for a show to watch. As usual, Kiyoomi had the remote control in his hand and the other on your thigh. Catching a glimpse of the wide smile on your face, he noticed that your thigh seemed a lot smaller and more toned than before. He glanced down at it, though his face didn't betray his shock.

Since when did your thigh get so small?

"Y/n, you like the size difference between my hand and your leg? Is that why you're smiling so much?" he teased, smiling as you blushed crimson.

"Didn't realise you had a size kink," he whistled, grinning as you slapped his bicep playfully. He tightened his warm grip on your thigh, making you gasp. Your hand reached for his shoulder as you swung yourself from the sofa and onto his lap for a peck on his lips. You could feel him smiling into the kiss before you pulled away.

"Seducing me this early in the morning, babe?" he said, poking your nose lightly with his finger.

You smirked teasingly at him as you moved your hips against his, making him groan softly into your ear.

"Maybe," you drawled, tracing his jawline with your finger before going in for another kiss. This time his lips trapped your tongue, sucking on it greedily. Dopamine rushed to your head as your innocent kiss became a steamy tug of war. His hands ghosted your abdomen and you suddenly became hyperaware of it.

Fuck, he can feel how fat I am.

You instinctively flexed your abs, in an attempt to stop him from feeling the folds of ugly fat around your stomach. His hands held your waist firmly as his thumb traced your abdomen, before coming to gradual stop.

Kiyoomi broke apart from the kiss, leaving your swollen lips to chase after his, but his forehead leaned against yours to signal a stop.

"Babe, what was that?"

Your heart was beating wildly in your chest, and you weren't sure if it was from the make-out session or his realisation that...

"What was what?" you returned, looking at him with your best attempt at puppy eyes.

You were cold sweating by then, but you hoped he wouldn't notice.

"Are those… abs?" His eyes flew wide, his attention all on you. His eyes were filled with curiosity and oh, how they glimmered so beautifully.

You wished upon the stars you'd never have to lie to those eyes ever again.

"Of course, I just thought maybe you'd like to see a different side of me... a little sexier," you averted his gaze, guiding his hand towards the hem of your oversized shirt.

He lifted your shirt and you saw how his cheeks turned an embarrassing shade of red. Burying his face in your chest, he tilted his head up to meet your eyes. "God, I have no clue what to do with you, Y/n."

It was quite evident what he wanted when you felt his shaft become more prominent through his home shorts.

And the rest became a memory you keep with joy. 

Please, please, please, don't bring me to tears when I just did my make up so nice.

But all that joy didn't last when you woke up the next morning, scrutinising your body in front of the mirror.

How could you let him see this? This slob of a body?

Shame clawed at your throat as your fingers tugged at the fat of your stomach. You placed your palm over your collarbones, and they felt sharper than they used to. You knew you'd definitely lost the weight, but the greed to look more dainty than ever had you in a chokehold.

These thighs look so fat. Your arms are so flabby. Gosh, even your armpits are fat. It's hideous.

You're hideous.

And nothing but regret and guilt kept gnawing at your insides like a feral beast. The only solution you came up with was to grab the biggest shirt in the house - his MSBY jersey - and the sweatpants that covered your legs entirely.

In the following days, when Kiyoomi tried to remove any article of clothing from your body, you grabbed his hand to stop him with the excuse that you were tired. But truthfully, your new routine had been wearing you out more than you had anticipated.

His next match was with EJP Raijin on another Saturday night, with crowds roaring from both sides of the arena. You let yourself loose the moment the girls called your name across the hall, running over to hug you.

Your defenses go down as you shared a laugh with the others. When they offered a pack of chips from the snack table, you hesitated. But your inner voice reminded you that you had been fasting since the previous day, so you take the bag of chips with a smile. You felt lightheaded and giddy when a couple of the girls compliment your figure - it was the happiest you'd felt in the past two months.

The hunger pains were worth every bit of this happiness.

During the match break, you found yourself talking to the EJP players' partners as well. When Atsumu's girlfriend introduces you to the other girls and guys, your attention went directly to Suna's fiancée. It's obvious that she was a much smaller build than the other girls but the way her dress hung off of her made you gulp nervously. Your brain was strangely and subconsciously wired to recognise her as competition. She was quiet and elegant, small but eloquent. She was everything you wanted to be.

"Oh, mineral water's fine with me," she said with a smile when you offered her a bottle of Coke Zero.

GUILT GUILT GUILT

It made you choke back tears when you realised how fat you were behaving. Or how bloated you looked right then, with all that carbonation and salt.

And those thoughts immediately got rid of any joy of that day. When you headed home, you tried your best to look happy after Kiyoomi had served the winning goal, but your mind was plagued with the nagging thought of how you had let yourself slip.

Later that night, after snuggling in with your husband and making sure he was fast asleep, you snuck out of his warm embrace. His biceps were so warm, and being sandwiched between his chest and his arm made it hard to leave when it was the best place to be.

You left to burn off the calories from the snacks you had binged on earlier that evening. As you left the bedroom with a yoga mat in arm, you were determined to complete the new routine you had promised yourself in the shower. You wished you could do it without any problems but recently, you had been seeing black spots and felt lightheaded every time you did any physical activity. It was a bitch to have to stop for awhile before continuing your exercises.

The moment you stepped into the shower, sweaty and tired, you didn't notice your husband stirring awake as the warm water hit your body.

Kiyoomi was confused when he woke up to his arm cold and the absence of your body pressed against his. He had been itching with nerves those few months when he realised your behaviour had started changing around him. And that same anxiety only heightened when he heard your sniffles coming from the shower. It was the first time you became so reclused from him. At first, he was worried that you were wringing yourself dry from the amount of work you had, but he later spiralled into thinking that it was because you were falling out of love with him. 

When he heard the bedroom door click open, he hurriedly pretended to be asleep.

Beep. Silence. Beep.

Your sigh made him itching to hug you and ask what happened. But the sigh following the beep of the weighing scale made it clear to him that the number on the weighing scale had somehow upset you one way or another. You approached the full-length mirror and peeked again to make sure your husband was still fast asleep.

You lifted the jersey above your chest, throwing it off to the side of the bed where you slept.

Kiyoomi honestly thought you were about to climb into bed topless (don't ask, he was not in his working mind). But when you stood still in front of the mirror, scrutinising your body like a piece of meat at the market, he could tell that you weren't heading to bed anytime soon.

You pinched at every corner of skin you could find. You looked at the woman in the reflection, and all you could see was the poor girl in high school. Fat and ugly, unlikeable and pitiful.

You then turned to your side, hoping to find comfort in seeing a flatter stomach.

In the dim lights, Kiyoomi could see the outline of your emaciated figure and the faint outline of your ribcage was enough to make him open his eyes fully in shock. The bruises along your spine made him wonder if he had been too rough with you all those times you were intimate. The way your hipbones jutted out were enough to throw him into a pool of anxious thoughts.

Maybe he should talk to you about it tomorrow.

But the last straw was when you muttered under your breath about how fat you still were.

No, he had to talk to you about it ASAP.

The bed creaked as you crawled back into his arms and he wrapped his arms around your waist. He never remembered your waist being so small before.

"Can't sleep?" you asked, turning your head towards him. His eyes opened to see your face in front of him.

He was sure the moonlight was playing tricks on him. Your face had harsh lines that he had never noticed, your nose sharper than ever and eyes bigger than before. Your collarbones peeped out of his jersey, more prominent than he had ever seen.

Fuck, how did it get so bad?

He knew you were trying to get fitter but he never realised you were developing something beyond just healthy habits. Kiyoomi could only blame himself for being so absorbed by his recent matches. For not noticing you were harming yourself.

He nodded and you snuggled into his chest, your arms wrapping around his waist comfortably. His thumb ran down your back in an effort to calm you both. Chills ran down his spine when he felt every ridge and bump of your vertebrate. It made him question how he had never noticed everything come crashing down.

"Babe, you okay? Aren't you be happy? Your team won today's match," you looked up into his eyes which were filled with concern. His eyebrows were furrowed in deep thought.

"How... how did you get so small?" he breathed.

You gulped. Things could only go south from here.

He continued. "I didn't realise it but when Atsumu mentioned it last week, I couldn't help but notice how much weight you've actually lost. Is it even safe to lose this much?"

He held you like you'd slip through his fingers at any moment, like water in a broken plastic cup.

You tried to avoid the topic, tried to look away but he wouldn't let you.

"...Atsumu? What did he say, specifically?" your eyes turned cold the second he mentioned his teammate.

What did he have anything to do with this?

Kiyoomi sat up against the bed frame before sighing deeply. "He was just asking if you were okay, 'cause you didn't seem as energetic as usual. And you can't argue with me, you have lost quite a bit of weight."

You knew that it was taking a lot out of him to talk about this, especially since he was never a confrontational person. It had to mean a lot to him, for him to face a situation like this head on.

"I'm-"

"No, Y/n. You're not fine. Have you been eating well? No, scratch that- have you been eating at all?"

You could feel the waterworks about to start, you felt the back of your eyes warming. Your fingernails dug into your palm, as if you could physically stop the tears from falling.

"I... I ate just now. With the girls," you whispered.

"A Proper Meal, babe. Not one of those 'girl dinner' crap you used to pull in college," he gritted out.

You let out a breath.

"2 days ago. Dinner," your voice cracked, and the waterworks had officially begun. Shame erupted in your chest.

"Fuck," Kiyoomi cursed under his breath.

He couldn't believe this was the same Y/n that would drag him out to enjoy their favourite foods together after a tiring day of practice and work. The same Y/n that enjoyed cooking together with him. The same Y/n that had monthly competitions with him to see who could finish more sushi plates at the conveyor belt sushi restaurant down the street.

It was the same Y/N that deprived herself of any food for days because she saw nothing but ugly, unwanted fat on her emaciated body.

Kiyoomi was speechless. He blinked several times, willing the tears welling up in his eyes not to fall but it was useless. You saw the way his tears rolled down his face along with his sharp intake of breath. He had never thought his wife would do something like this.

The guilt of not noticing what was happening to you was eating him alive.

He managed to calm himself down slightly before doing the only thing he could think of in the moment. He pulled you in and held you tight.

"Please," he whispered. Hugging you close, he begged, "Please don't take my sunshine away."

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[keithsandwich]

Enchanted

~ Part 1 ~

Pairings: Keith/Maeve (OC), Yves/Beatrice (OC)

Summary: The story of how Keith and Maeve first met, and Beatrice and Yves reconnected after a long time apart. In the first part, Beatrice invites Maeve to a party.

Tags: Modern AU, Text!Fic (Maeve's POV).

Notes: @bicayaya and I decided to tell this story of our Modern AU in a few parts, and we're going for something a little different. For the first part, the story is told through a glimpse of a chat between Beatrice and Maeve, but the next ones might be through Insta stories, headcanons, drabbles, a mix of everything... Who knows? It's gonna be a surprise! 🤭 They can be posted by either one of us as well, so stay tuned! Hope you guys have fun! ~

Part 2 →

Taglist: @olivermorningstar @queengiuliettafirstlady @candied-boys @fang-and-feather @strawberry-scum @m-mmiy @hellecat @nightghoul381 - let me know if you want in or out on my taglist!

[themoongirls]

230708 | chuuo3o instagram post - Chuu, Yeojin, Yves, Gowon 🐧

Unnie taught how to decorate Insta for a vibe

Apply it right away🫰🥴

So cute very perfect

[gildedkyoo]

| The Life of Never B4 |

| INTRODUCTION |

\ My very existence is as still as a lake interrupted by a skipping rock /

€ Kyo | Tae

€ 17+

€ Black | no racism silly billy

€ INFJ

€ MLM | MLW | not looking for a rls.

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\ I just need space in the monotony I fenced around myself /

€ I like radiohead, mitski, laufey, lily chou chou, fiona apple, cocteau twins, jeff buckley, daniel caeser, wave to earth,

€ for small(er) artists, I enjoy esha tewari, parannoul, se so neon, yves, raveena, bami, orange flavored cigarettes, betcover!!, and tokenai namae

€ this account ( my only tumblr account ) will act as an app where I post my opinions , photography , and poems I’ve written

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\ The ache of the wanting of the past

When the breath was my first instead of last /

€ Racists, homophobes, transphobes, pro-ana, MAGA, porn accounts, anti-feminists — DNI.

€ I will likely follow back ! Always looking for new friends !

Tiktok : Gildedkyo | Insta : Gildedkyo | Airbuds : Gildedkyo

[hotchology]

yves POSTING about performing new on her insta. making little jokes about it. she wants me to die.

[dnd-writes]

realistically speaking what WOULD happen if one of the girls had a boyfriend?

I get a bunch of asks about different girl groups that I don’t know which ‘girls’ you’re really referring to so I’m just going to default Loona. (Warning: yap ahead)

To begin, I’ll briefly go over the two boyfriend rumors regarding the Loona members.

1. Heejin. This is a weirdly funny one. So Heejin was doing a vlive and she accidentally scrolled to a picture of a some blonde guy’s foot and ~some time ago or whatever~ people figured out (or speculated, idk) the password of Heejin’s ipad which was 970531. Putting only those two things together, people came to the conclusion that she was dating D1ce’s Jinyoung cause he had blonde hair and his bday is May 31, 1997. But then BBC quickly denied the rumors and said the pic was her cousin or something. For some reason, BBC handled this rumor in like a few hours but it takes them days or so to fix other things.

2. Choerry. Honestly, I barely know much about this one, this rumor just came and went, the rumor was she was dating some former producer or whatever.

How is that relevant to the question. Answer—it isn’t, I’m just yapping cause it’s almost 6am and cause I want to. Anyway, onto actually answering the question.

First of all, Loona is like, gay af so if they were to have boyfriends, the fandom would be in shambles (though the sane fans would still be supportive of them of course)

Second, the damage would vary depending on which member is revealed to have a boyfriend.

1. Chuu - Catastrophe. She’s like the k-pop gay icon. Heart Attack is an iconic gay song and, c’mon, this is Chuu being talked about. She assumes everyone is gay, she would look at two guys/girls hanging out together and her first question is “Are you dating?”

2. Yves - Also catastrophe but just a slightly lesser amount. Yves is in a glass closet, likes/comments on a lot of posts from pretty women on insta, her song choice, outfit choice, and the like just scream gay

Now that I finished Yves and Chuu, I realized that I couldn’t really make a proper case argument for the rest so I’ll just put them vaguely on a scale of catastrophe to mild.

Heejin - leaning towards catastrophe

Hyunjin - leaning towards catastrophe

Haseul - leaning towards mild

Yeojin - close to mild

Vivi - mild(?)

Kim Lip - close to catastrophe

Jinsoul - close to catastrophe

Choerry - near the center

Gowon - leaning towards mild

Hyeju - leaning towards catastrophe

Obviously I’m getting a couple of these incorrect but that’s essentially the ‘gay-scale’ of Loona

Also before I finish, I would just like to add that most of these are things I’ve read from (mostly gay) orbits on twitter, so this isn’t the ramblings of a random straight guy but more so a (poor) summary of insights from people who are actually in the lgbtq community.

[yexiwuu]

230707 - 230708 yves fromm chat log translation

may contain inaccuracies pls credit @yexiwuu when reposting

full translation under the cut

2:57 PM KST

y/n

have a nice day

🫶

it's really hot today ㅜㅜ

be careful.ᐟ 

🍎 i'm listening to Ai loona singing to spicy, it's funny

wow

send it to me too

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

ah there is a character limit, i see

okie

oh wow

this is my first time seeing ours

it's interestingㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

ah so my voice sounds like that

it's possible so it's more scary

🍎 unnie what are you up to

i'm going to cut my bangs soon

they've grown a lot

yibu who looks innocent without bangs

will return someday, too ㅎㅎ

huh the picture didn't send ..,

4:06 PM KST

˗ˋˏ wow ˎˊ˗ at the bathroom of the dentist's office

i was going to wear my necklace but i dropped into the sink so

thankfully, the female staff took apart the drain and rescued the necklace

but there was no pop up stopper in the sink

so as soon as it was taken apart, there were 2 batteries and ˗ˋˏ wow ˎˊ˗ so many different items

they all came out together

yves: thankfully, my necklacee unnie-yah: drain edition ❤️mom❤️: ㅡㅡ yves: ㅜㅜ ❤️mom❤️: hermes-fished-out-from-a-pit-hole

ㅠ ㅠ

cold sweat dripping down

it was gifted from a fanㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅠㅠㅠ🥺🥺

even then, my mom asked me if i was wearing pajamas

but if seen in person, it looks so cute

my clothes

i'm not talking about myself

i'm wearing it

with long jeans skirt though

i bought them yesterday

picture send

[pic 1]

please

it sent

i cut my hair

🍎 that shirt looks like the same shirt worn by the person who you uploaded on your story when the lawsuit victory article came out;;;

heok

i'm nicole kidman today

i cut my bangs with thinning shears so

if you see me in person, it looks cute

.ᐟ

but it seems that you all hate my clothesㅜ

cries cries

it's cute if you see them with my jean skirts thoughㅡ ㅡ

you think my style changed a lot?.ᐟ

i guess it changes bit by bit as i age

but i was always a vintage girl

i wasn't able to show it to you all until now

since i am going to show it a lot now, it is different from my stage side

so i do get why (it's different)

ㅎㅎ

also there are so many

clothes that i like so i guess it's more like that

if i'm told to wear a practice outfit then

yes it'll be completely different

you agree, right ㅋㅋㅋ

[pic 2]

it's my first time with a long jean skirt

fyi, it comes down to my ankles

i got this for a good deal yesterday so it's really nice

someone said that

my feet kind of look like danaka san

i just saw how i was standing like that

it was really windy so

i wanted to show my bangs but

that was the best i could do ㅎ ㅜ

it's kinda like the mmt yves pose

mmt yves is that photocard

it's called the banpo xi (반포자이) pc (t/n banpo xi is a super pricy apt complex in kr so calling a pc banpo xi means it's a super expensive pc..)

anyways it's funny...

does anyone have 반포자이 pc

i don't have it either

wow do you have a lot of them? (in quantity)

amazing

shouldn't the price have fallen down by now

yup i like carrying it (pcs) around

hehe

🍎 does sooyoung also get mad like my dad when watching soccer..?

yup i get mad a lot

aren't sports supposed to have that (type of) feel to it?.ᐟ

but when i watch while i'm eating

it gets difficult for me as i'm unable to multitask

11:19 PM KST

[pic 3]

go send right now

everyone, you did well today

🤭💚

i'm into yellowish green these days

anyways i guess it is that?

someone said that i cut my bangs while facing it away

[pic 4]

if i see it like this?

i like it.ᐟ

should i upload it as an insta (post) today.ᐟ

230708 12:30 AM KST

i uploaded it

i would like it if you guys get used to me changing the thumbnail of my ig post if i don't like it

whew ~

now the colors look complete

the soccer stadium field really stands out right

when it matches with the yellowish green then i feel at peace

1:17 AM KST

my bias amongst newjeans babies is

"hyeinie"

has risen to the throne

💗🧎‍♀️

from bias wrecker

to becoming my bias

originally my bias was hanni baby who is so pretty

ㅜㅜ

but when i look at hyein, i find myself saying "she's so fricking cute ㅜㅜ"

turning point was

hyein baby singing youth by oohyo sunbaenim

my heart was in pain while watching it

my current situation bias hyein baby bias wrecker hanni baby

they're really really like healing cutie babies..

🍎 i heard that tottenham has been trying to recruit a lot these days

suddenly tottenham

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

˗ˋˏ wow ˎˊ˗ 2% battery

2:57 PM KST

y/n

have a nice day

🍀

END

[godza]

yves put a loona song on her insta post and everybodys commenting saying girl the boycott! quite silly

[myminazinha]

Tem como você postar as lockscreens da Yves do penúltimo post dela do insta?

só com por favor e obrigada meu bem

[ashauyel]

meanwhile Yves plans her daily insta post like it’s a military maneuver and if a pretty woman compliments her in the comments she replies back like “unnie I will kill myself”

Kim Lip insta posts are so fascinating she’ll post like twelve pictures of her serving cunt and then caption it “hey” or something like it was nothing

[vyvesvi]

@ Loona fans who only support OEC: 🙃🔪💢🔇🙅💨💔🖕🐍🔇💔📍🖓🙃🚥🚫👊🗑💔🏹💢🔪🚫🛢🙃✂😑🔇🐍❌🙅💢🗑💔🔇😑❌📌🖓🔇💨😒💔📍🚥💢🛠💨🔇🚫🔪🖕🚫💢😒✖👎🙅🛠💨✖🔪😒🔫🚫📌🔪👎🗑💔📌✖🙅🛠❌💢🚫😤✂🖕😤💔🚦😤🙅🛢⛏😧🔇🐍🔫🔇🗑💔❌⛏✖🔫✂😧🚫🖓❌🏹🚫💨💢😧💔🚦😭🔪👎😭📌🔇✂📍💔✖💨🔇👊🐍🔇😭❌🚥😡🙅✖🚫🖕❌🚫🔪👊🚫💢✖🗑💔🔪✖😡🏹🐍🙅💢🖕🛠💔🔇💢😡🚦💨🚫💢🔪💔📍🚫👊✂🛢

[wormtoasty]

honestly if yves isnt a snake i Can And Will Cry

[themoongirls]

• yvesntual (Yves) instagram story, novvog (Gowon) instagram story

- [[In group chat)

Yves: Kkyaak annoying

Hyunjin (replying to Yves): ㅋㅋㅋ]

Caption : 🖤

- ["Hyunjin" in the groupchat:

"Hurry and post happy birthday on your Insta Stories so I can get all 12 members on my Highlights

A request

It's my birthday wish

Please"]

Caption : Happy happy birthday Kimyunjin...^^🩶

• withaseul (Haseul) instagram story, vivikhvv (Vivi) instagram story

- Happy birthday Aeongie😻

- Cool-tone personified

H B D

• yeojin._.o_x (Yeojin) instagram story

- Happy birthday to our leader🩷

© translation - orrery_nim

231115 | LOONA 🌙

• 0ct0ber19 (Heejin) instagram story, zindoriyam (Jinsoul) instagram story

- Bbangjinie hbd

- Happy bday Kimyunjinㅋ

• chuuo3o (Chuu) instagram story, lnxexu (Hyeju) instagram story

- Happy bday neighbor🕺🏻💛💛💛

- ["ctd Kim Hyunjin" in a groupchat:

"Hurry and post happy birthday on your Insta Stories so I can get all 12 members on my Highlights

A request

It's my birthday wish

Please"]

Caption : Ha......🤦🏻‍♀️Congrats~~~^~^^🔥

• kimxxlip (Kim Lip) instagram story, cher_ryppo (Choerry) instagram story

- [[In a group chat]

🌙Kim Hyunjin (replying to 🦋: ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)

"Unnie why are you just laughing and not posting

Kim Lip: Posting.]

Caption : Happy birthday 😉ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

- Happy birthday Kim Aeong unnie 🥳

© translation - orrery_nim

[goldemas1244]

Guys...

The exes are coming back...

(Copied from my Insta, goldemas1244 if you wanna check it out. I post less there.)

So it seems that, in a sense, Zhask X Yve is canon! It's obvious she DOES care for him and he's very playful with her. It seems they usually get into this situation. AND Jawhead automatically brings him to Yve when all's said and done! Given how she phrases it, we can tell that it was BY REQUEST which means Zhask finds SAFETY and STABILITY with Yve.

Finally, after all those light-years of chasing and trying to kill each other, they're doing good together! You'd think she'd have killed him by now like she's always wanted to but no! Despite how close she is to ending it all right there (this has probably happened multiple times), she hasn't killed him!

I guess since he's fixiated on living in the Land of Dawn, he's no longer a threat to the universe. Essentially, the equilibrium is maintained and her job is done. Of course this could also be a cop-prisoner buddy system. She watches over him (and gains feelings), he proves beneficial to her. But then again, isn't that just marriage in general?

I bet she stays over at Kastiya II doesn't she? Out of the both of them it's clear he's the only one with a canon home. She's probably in love with the little spawn isn't she? GAH MOONTON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING US THIS INTERACTION YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

[atrirose]

HI YVES !! (such a pretty name!!) just wanted to drop by and say hi since we haven’t talked in a while ! oh and this is @/fairyjunn idk who saw but i chanced my url recently lol

how are you?? also your theme and everything you post is always so so aesthetic i just love it <33

HI MOON ( plz ur name is pretty too ) yeah I'm sorry I'm so inactive but I was waiting for u to be on online or maybe u were and I wasn't 😭😭 im pretty ded at all my socials till September but we can share disc or insta hehe!!! also noted. love the new user its so cute 😍