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I refuse to be that person again. I will never let that happen again. I will never go through that again. Never fucking again.

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Am really replaceable, am i not?

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I should be in your room right now, lying in your bed right beside you. We should be kissing passionately by now, Marcus. You should be whispering sweet lies in my ear by now. We should be touching, and we should be fucking by now. But I got terrified, I’m sorry.

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“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.”

— Andrea Gibson

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If twenty one was a daily battle field, god-willing, my twenty two is a daily victory. Much of my goals and dreams were achieved during this year. But more importantly, healing and peace finally open its doors once again. It was a year filled with happiness and breakthroughs, and it would have not been such without all the people who loved, supported, and accepted me. Thank you for the opportunity of sharing this life with all of you. I pray that i get to also share a wonderful 23rd year on earth with everyone.

To twenty-three, i hope life will make you happier. To a more joyous, fruitful, loving, and peaceful year ahead. Happy twenty and three for me 🤍.

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He awakened desires I never knew I had, and fulfilled a hunger I didn't know existed.

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“And love is when someone who even knows your scars, stays to kiss them.”

— Benjamin Griss

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I long for his touch, his kisses, and his company.

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Today i shared a part of me.

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I missed you Gelo, but i guess my yearning and longing ends right here. I wish you well in life, always 🥺

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Have i told you that i missed you? I missed you more than words, and i regret that decision every day.

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Whoever the fuck is thinking about me all night, i hope youre happy 😭. I cant freaking sleep.

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In my, i still want to remember these moments even if it poured salts into the cuts it made.

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I used to only see this through the photographs and videos that you had sent to me. I only know about this mountain through the stories you told me about. So, coming here, it was both familiar and unfamiliar. It was familiar because I saw you every step of the way, and unfamiliar. After all, you were not the person I walked with, hand in hand, while I navigated this very mountain.

Nonetheless, I am happy that I no longer remember Makiling through your videos and photographs, not through your stories. I now remember mailing the way I walked; I breathed, and I sweat my way up, and I had fun my way down. I will now remember Makiling, remembering you.

I hope you come and visit Diliman, and I hope it reminds you of me, too, the way I remember you here. In that way, I’m at ease that it was only fair that I became a memory because you are a memory.

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I hope to see you in flesh. I hope to look straight in your eyes. I want to hold your hand. I want to know you once again. I know this is such an impossible bargain, but i pray to see you tomorrow, Gelo.

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and also wonder why, its easy to forgive you even youve never ask for one, and even if i deserve a sorry.