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Historians and politicians in the early 20th century used to blame overseas Chinese for leaving China, and chose to ignore the fact that overseas Chinese had contributed (remittance) substantially when New China was formed (mainly 1911 to 1949). Thai Chinese alone remitted the same amount as Malayan, Indonesian and North American Chinese combined (50 Million silver dollars) in 1932. How and why the Thai Chinese were able to contribute this much amount is still a mystery to me. . . Nonetheless, the chinese-ness in overseas Chinese are still celebrated world-wide, perhaps that's what makes Chinese Diaspora a thing of beauty. (at Phuket, Thailand) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtyEnsFFLXl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nonhar9w4h2c

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This feeling truly sucks.

Sometimes i wish i know what i really want and why i am feeling all these. One moment i wish i didn't have to travel for such a long period of time, the other moment i wish i didn't have to come back to sg. 

This feeling truly sucks. 

一个人旅游都没比被一群人围绕来的孤单。

Moreover, i’m still unemployed, waiting for a reply which i might never get. All these just come crushing down on to me when i am still so emotionally distressed over the fact that i hate this country and its people, but cant get out of it. 

Such irony.

Those days i spent travelling alone in Europe and Tokyo will be the apogee of my own adventure yet. I hope there will be more to come, provided that i secure a job and that i have the determination to travel. 

Words cant describe how amazing those 20 days were, even though i was alone for 90% of the time, but i wasn’t lonely, not a single bit. I felt liberated and i really love it, the novelty, the liberation, the people and everything that i can’t sense in sg. 

I thank myself for making the move to try out new things, venture into the unknown. Now i just wish i can snap out of this distress and get the job i like.

30 December 2018

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看似是放开时 偏偏总记起 每张照片 每一阕歌 每一个日落就像末 They say 25 years old is when you reach your quarter life crisis. Indeed, this year has been eventful. But I think I will still be grateful to my 25 years old self when I'm 50. If not for the courage and motivation to try out new stuff, I would still be who I am when I was 18. The past 20 days was truly brilliant, from Berlin to Barcelona to Tokyo, meeting people from all over the world, learning the culture of people from all over the world. I even got to try a Syrian dessert from a fellow Syrian that was trapped in the airport because of the shit service from Aeroflot. It was amazing though, a pity that have to go through all the shit they're facing now. The best thing about Berlin was its history, I've never seen a country with such a deep history, you can literally learn a thing or two from anywhere in the city. That is perhaps what made Berlin amazing. Barcelona, on the other hand was full of surprises. That's where I met the most number of people and learned so much about the culture of other countries. If Berlin is a city of history, then Barcelona would be a city of art. Gaudi's artwork is everywhere it's hard to miss. Apart from the art and scenery in Barcelona, the late night talks will be the thing I miss the most. Amazing how people from around the world can come together and talk about all the good and bad we've experienced, just like old friends do. It's hard to hate on Tokyo, the 2nd time was something different. Queued up for the the Michelin restaurant in Ichiran, which was pretty shit tbh. The onsen experience was an eye-opener for me (literally, because I've never seen so many dicks in my life). The best thing about Tokyo is that it reminds me how thoughtfulness can shape a country and its people. With its current birth rate, I think Japan will become a myth in the future. Life from now will be different, but the life lessons learned and adventures ventured at the age of 25 will forever be at the back of my mind. My heart is full, even with bad days. If I could restart 2018, I would do all the exact same things. More of such adventure in the future? Hell yes. Doing it all alone? Fuck yes. https://www.instagram.com/p/BrwGoKIl00s/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hzkbmtjz9dp5

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我藏了好多话没说 以为这就是成熟 就连后悔眼神不能躲 嘿此刻我真的想你了 (at Japan) https://www.instagram.com/p/BruK1Sjlk1t/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4tylldqeaqr0

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Festiveness in the capital #shibuya #tokyo #japan (at Shibuya, Tokyo) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrsAnQQFRTd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1h5zgzlc3of6q

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This is my paradise. . . I know what you wanna ask, but the answer is no. #saitama #kasukabe #crayonshinchan #蜡笔小新 #tokyo #japan (at Kasukabe, Saitama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrrMV4sFBPf/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gslgd6avxbk2

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“看似是放开时，偏偏总记起，每张照片，每一阕歌，每一个日落就像末日” #harajuku #tokyo #japan (at Harajuku) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrpQG2Gl4D6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1cc8awurw0sx1

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#Asakusa at night #tokyo #japan https://www.instagram.com/p/BrmzAuulf8V/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kywl3t75v3cb

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I don't know if I've tagged the correct location but the rabbits are cute but arrogant. #akihabara #tokyo #japan (at Bunny Palace) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrmuSwLFd34/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3b3o6stsekzz

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#tokyo #japan #ueno (at Ueno Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrmS998FddU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=z7u6he0esupx

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乱中有序 #shinjuku #japan_vacations #tokyo https://www.instagram.com/p/BrkbmzKlGKz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1vh6dx5gs1tia

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#reflectiongram #japan #tokyo #kiyosumishirakawa (at 清澄庭園 / Kiyosumi Garden) https://www.instagram.com/p/Brj0RTWlbKd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ljohxiu1k0y2

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Barcelona was amazing not just because of the sceneries, but because of the people I've met throughout my stay. Such precious experience to learn about the culture and way of living of people around the world. Although I've only been to 2 countries in Europe but it seems like I've learned so much about other countries in Europe as well, makes me wanna visit so many places in the world. I'll definitely miss the people more than the country. All the late night talks, the spontaneous visit to the Latino club and the trip to #tibidabo. #barcelona #spain (at Barcelona, Spain) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bra4ajmFqj0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18t07kpcv7tr9

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“爱熄灭了等，心围一座城” #gothicquarter #barcelona #spain (at Gothic Quarter, Barcelona) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrXijNallpU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1a5n4akypf4jt

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The many faces of #sagradafamilia #barcelona #spain (at Basílica de la Sagrada Família) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrVMnFvF9-q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=n0gon2x42sct

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巴塞罗那的每一处都是惊喜，每个角落都是高迪的杰作。 #barcelona #spain #parkguell #larambla (at Barcelona, Spain) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrStfIel_aF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=9r3urqvu7kgb

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Berlin was something different, but kinda boring. Very similar to Singapore in the way that they have a lot of immigrants (all look the same to me anyway). My Airbnb host was a Frenchman and he's probably the best Airbnb host anyone could ask for. The cakes that he baked were awesome, and I would go back just for his cakes. If only Berlin was a little less gloomy (ffs raining everyday), I guess I picked the wrong time to visit Berlin :/ Danke #Berlin ;) (at Barcelona, Spain) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrQXZB4lY7p/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x373zdmo20io