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“People who talk less frequently notice more.”

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some advice for writing fighting scenes/adrenaline (mostly pertains to inexperienced characters in fight scenes):

fix y'all timing. realistically paced does not mean really slow.

metaphors > similes

verbs leading in a sentence unless you decide that it doesn't sound right.

short and/or choppy sentences, easier and quicker to read, they'll get the point across faster and keep up whatever fast paced scene you're writing.

in a fight don't focus on the surroundings bc if you're thinking you might die you prob won't think "wow what a cool sunset" unless you're planning on yeeting the opponent into the sun.

use good verbs PLEASE. punchy verbs, do not hedge, please god do not hedge.

people in fights, esp if they have no experience, are going to be terrified. there is only so far you can go before you realize "oh my god, i can die". adrenaline. does not make you a really good fighter. it makes you very very very scared and unable to think very well.

to clarify, you might be faster (read: fear + adrenaline = fast, jerky movements) or maybe stronger, but. if you are scared. that adrenaline will not turn you into an experienced fighter.

very easy to do illogical stuff in the heat of the moment, esp if you think it'll get you out alive. absolutely things that'll land you in jail. you are not thinking straight in the moment.

your brain wants you to live. you're going to want to run (if you're not experienced in fighting, which the character in the fight scene absolutely was not), if you think you're going to die, best believe your brain is going to do just about everything to get you out of there.

note: this is (probably) if you're not used to fighting/have no training, if you lose your shit during fighting someone's going to get very hurt, either you or the other person. and by lose your shit i half mean go berserk and i half mean losing your nerve and control of your body and all that.

punches, esp if they hit bone (like skulls), and esp if they hit hard, will cause knuckles to split and bleed. throw a punch too hard/too off and miss and get hurt.

punches/kicks in the gut will absolutely fuck you up. like, if it lands and it's solid, you'll be lucky to only keel over. i also cannot explain to you how much they hurt. you. will not be able to breathe very well. you might heave. you probably will, honestly.

i genuinely cannot stress to you how much someone will not remember a fight that well with a fuckton of adrenaline, how their decision making, unless it's mostly instinctive, will not be that great, and how adrenaline does not make you a good fighter. you're more likely to trip over yourself than land a one hit k.o.

the aftermath of adrenaline is fucking exhausting. you could very well collapse right then and there. shit, you just might.

your heart won't really calm down that easily after a fight/a case with adrenaline. esp if you're stressed. five minutes is Not Enough.

rage crying while shaking horribly is one of the worst feelings ever and it's also probably hard to describe too. adrenaline and this together feel like absolute shit.

and you're gonna be shaking for some time after. five minutes is not enough for a scared person to calm down, regulate their heartbeat, and resume normal thinking. the heartbeat part especially, an irregular/incredibly jumpy heartbeat well after a fight is both uncomfortable and scary.

don't ever tuck your thumb into your fist in a punch. that is how you break thumbs.

also wrap your hands before you box, your skin might rip a little and uh peel if you don't.

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I know not many ppl read this, I just need to vent/rant, whatever you call this

I kind of moved back to mama becausa of covid, restaurants are closed and classes are online so I don't have a job atm and to save money and help her and my grandparent with chores and going to the store and such. They live in the same house, but different apartments and my mama has no guest bedroom, so i sleep in my grandparents part of the house, in their guest bedroom

My mama is set to have a operation and to to the hospital for up to two weeks (it's serious, that's why they even do this now) and she only can have one perso who can visit her for that time. Afterward she needs to be home for around 6 weeks ... i love my mama but i really don't want to help her 24/7 because she'll be on bedrest

So now the operation is in two weeks and she still works a lot and when she isn't going to her 2nd job after 5pm she eithee goes to her boyfriend or he comes here.

I have nothing against him, he is kind and caring and gentle and much better than my papa. To me he is just a little bit weird, he has some quirks that throw me off

Anyway, i usually eat or cook a few times each week or we drink tea together or go to the grocery store. Sometimes we just watch tv together when her bf isn't here

I never say they spent to much time together, but like last year mama complained i wont spent enough time with her when i'm here.

So i changed that.

Today i asked if we could to into the city together, but she had some extra work to do and didn't had the time for it.

Okay, no problem, even though i wasn't amazed about it and told her so

I missed her call and called her back to ask if we could spent some time together tomorrow, getting a coffee to go or whatever. After all we haven't spent much time together this week and usually they have no big plans for the weekends

I WAS WRONG.

She already promised to visit her bf parents for coffee. No, she won't cancel that to spent some time with me

I like his parents and they already consider me their grandchild

Mama never even thought to eiter invite me along (ask them, they wouldn't mind) or consider getting that cup of coffee around midday, their coffee-thing starts at 3pm

No, she flat out said she doesn't has time for me tomorrow and couldn't understand why i'm so upset about it

I don't ask her to do something with me on days she works long.

I don't ask her if we can do something together when her boyfriend is here

I KNOW i wont be the person that can visit her in the hospital, that would either be her mama or her bf

I just want to spent some time with my mama before she goes to the hospital and as long as stores are still open and cafés can serve to-go (it could be that they have to close down too, if the numbers or new-infections don't go down)

Or we won't be allowed to go out except to buy essentials

And she wonders why I'm upset about it. After she didn't had time for me today

I don't want her to cancel everything or don't spent time with her boyfriend, she just didn't consider i might want to spent some time with her, with my mama, just us two

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I talk to him (nearly) every day. Now with everybody staying home we are in the same group on Discord ... every day. Normally some other friends are online to, but they're vanished, I'm not sure what they do the whole day. Anyway ... We talk to each other, still about everything. My aching joints, him not going outside beside buying food. Me running and doing tummy/back workouts. Us playing video games. Him: the new animal crossing. Me: call of duty & horizon zero dawn. Us listening to each other talking to our families. Watching animes (him) or crime dramas (me). Me reading every day and him watching videos on YouTube. My mom asked me why i don't drive over to him and spend some time. That was before we were forbidden to go outside and now I kind of regret not doing it. Not because I think we are going to get sick or so. I just do, because it would me nice to have someone. To know he's mine.

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I went back to college the next day and while we don't text we talk nearly every day on Discord with some other friends.

I hadn't heart from him for a few weeks and started panicking, thinking he was avoiding me

I finally grew a pair and asked if he was still alive, for him answering he had some internship at a university lab before regular classes started.

We talk again, just not about us. I want to do it in Person but sadly the next time i'm home is for christmas.

I'm kinda running out of time, cause his best friend tries to hook him up with blind dates. I'm so screwed

I like being alone, but right now I could use a big hug and someone to cuddle with ... and that being said, I don't like being touched. Not by family or friends, not even accidentally by strangers

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I'm studying at a college hours away and all of my friends are going to university in our hometown, so I don't see them that much ... sometimes i'm just home for a weekend, sometime i stay a few weeks.

The last time i was home he asked me if i want to watch some movies (he likes animes and always trys to talk me into watching them) and playing something on the ps4. I didn't knew he cancelled our friends on something that was planned for weeks. They didn't knew i would be home and invited me last minute, around the same time he cancelled them ... yeah so my best friend thought we were up to something 😅🙈 we met the next day and was disapointed to hear really nothing happend.

I thought about hugging him when we said goodbye. They all know and respect most of the time that i don't hug or touch and i wanted to see how he would react. In the end i was a chicken shit and had a internal freak out and just f***ing waved at him. WAVED!

I like being alone, but right now I could use a big hug and someone to cuddle with ... and that being said, I don't like being touched. Not by family or friends, not even accidentally by strangers

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I have a not-so-secret-crush on one of my friends ... like, all of our friends know about him. Beside him of course. Or maybe he knows about it - nobody knows. The men are all like "we talk, just not about our feelings"

I like being alone, but right now I could use a big hug and someone to cuddle with ... and that being said, I don't like being touched. Not by family or friends, not even accidentally by strangers

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There are some ppl i have no problem hugging. My best friends, a few random people I like and don't know that good

I like being alone, but right now I could use a big hug and someone to cuddle with ... and that being said, I don't like being touched. Not by family or friends, not even accidentally by strangers

[talkative-introvert]

I like being alone, but right now I could use a big hug and someone to cuddle with ... and that being said, I don't like being touched. Not by family or friends, not even accidentally by strangers