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a thing that I mostly hate from you:

You said so but you didn’t do so

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Bali of Enlightenment

After 5 days in Bali, I got many tips from my friends. Actually I did tell them particularly for those who have similar cases like me. 

I know she is evil, she is a bitch, and she is a liar. Anything she did to me is horribly evil, my friends even can't believe that she was so evil to me. Doesn't have feeling, heart, and logic they said. 

Yes all i know right know that: she is a bad girl, evil girl, moron girl, bitch, anything negatively. I still can't believe but this is the truth. I deserve someone better, and you don't deserve a good man. That is why you already picked up a bad man who also was cheating with his ex and maybe you soon. 

Believe in karma, karma does exist, and get ready to be punished by your karma. 

My friends said: love just makes us blind, how can you fell in love with her: an ugly-faced-old-woman like her she has many similarities with D***h Y****w then suddenly I realized that's true, many my friends told me that too but at the time i didn't take an action about it. Now i realized what they meant, and I won't do the same errors. I deserve better, a good beauty-catholic-woman who would not cheat like she ever does

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The Facts

We are now detached! Many friends told me: how could you be with her? In my opinion you are too “gorgeous” compared to her. She is decent, having no great shapes, and an old-faced girl. Well I just answered: that happened because of love, I loved her so I committed to be with her in deepest of sorrow and happiness. That’s why I wanted to be with her. love make us believe there are no other ways that can guide us to our “logical thinking” even if you are a cold-blooded human.

I don’t even believe if someone says “I am the most logical person and I am the cold-blooded person” yet still want to be with you with all those scars you had even before you were with me. It is love that makes people change.

Do you remember when you gave me a piece of paper containing the word “I like you” after we had our community service? I said “I don’t like you, I don’t even love you, All I know you are just my partner but I am enjoying my time to do our activities” But suddenly, I changed my mind because of love attacks. Some people in Java says “Witing tresno jalaran soko kulino” means “Love comes because of get used to” Don’t even feel that you are “that ok”. Look what you have been missing to be detached from me. If regret comes just keep it in your mind and try to change your shitty attitudes. If you love someone, keep fighting! strive just for her/him and stick to the commitment! Learn by doing not to repeat the same errors.

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About love and the person

It’s been a long time since I didn’t open this tumblr. But today I write this post because of sorrows that I feel after I broke up.

We built dreams together, We was happy af, We had a destination to be the one, We knew each other and tried to understand each other needs, We was a love. That was the first time I thought that the relationship between us is super whole-hearted. Since we met and did a deep conversation at Panties Pizza after I was back from Bali. We wanted to fight all the obstacles including our “faith”. Of course we do have different religions (as in Identity Card), but in the time that was not the problem for being “the one: us”. We tried to dig how to get married with a partner that have a different religion in Indonesia and it’s able to get married with this kind of circumstance. No longer that that day, a month later you were being so different. You like other person and you want to commit with him. I don't know exactly what happened with you and him in the days when I let you to meet him. The one problem which make me curious was when you met him just two of you and you spent 7 hours with him on a dating. Eat, walk, and chat together and you brought him to me, yes, in front of me. I felt kinda there’s wounds inside my hearth and both of you kept shredding my wounds. I cried so hard, no where to run for me. After all, I still love you, you are the person I need in my life to fulfill my life with happiness. I know it because you make me pushed to be a better version of me. I finished my thesis just in time and i looked for jobs immediately because i want to be with you as a home/you said that i am your home too. Now, no need long time for both of you, you have found your new happiness with him. do a daily routine and also more intimate. You dumped me like shits you dump everyday, you are not open again with me, you don’t want to share your stories with me anymore, and those all go to him, your new partner. Is it coincidence? or planned? or revenging? I don’t know. You said I changed. Did not you change? I felt you changed like before I changed. It’s when you just go back to home instead of go to my place and ask for forgiveness when I pay you for a dinner (Gulai Ikan). Easy for you and not easy for me. You got your new partner, I got my loneliness. I will try to be like this until I found something that I should be. Hurt? yes. Sad? Of course I am. I was looking for some women to be your replacement. When I got it, I feel like I didn’t match with her so I get back to my stance for being alone. I never ask my friends to help me out. Let me feel this heartache and the wounds. God will always help me, and I know it. I will not look other women to be my “get-away” from you. Because I know it is revenging and I will hurt the woman. I won’t do that! I Know I can and Jesus will always help me! YES!

I realized love is never wrong, but I have chosen a wrong person. Moreover, I have been loving you this much and I regretted my decision to be in deep love with you and committed to be with you (as the one). You are evil and I am stupid just because of your deceit

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Nogizaka46 12th Single uniform has been revealed :D love the uniform 

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Hello! long time no see :) this account will be active again but since i draw up from 48G, now i do only following nogizaka46 and other idol members. so gimme a chance tho (o^_^o)

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Translation of Matsumura’s Apology on RECCOMEN! (2014-10-08)

Ikoma: We’re live from the Cultural Broadcasting Station. I’m Ikoma Rina from Nogizaka46 with…

Matsumura: Mastumura Sayuri. Here is our…

Both: RECCOMEN! (lit. recommendation)

Ikoma: Shall we get started? Matsumura Sayuri of Nogizaka46 has something to tell our listeners. Are you going to be okay, Macchun?

Matsumura: …Yeah. I’ll be okay.

Ikoma: I’ll be watching you from here, so [you’ll be okay]. Do your best.

Matsumura: Okay.

Matsumura: Um…let me start off by saying thank you for letting me use this time to talk to all of you. …I’m Matsumura Sayuri of Nogizaka46. (pause) Um…I think there are many who know what this is about. An article about me was released in this week’s Shukan Bunshun. (pauses) The things that were written in the article…. (pauses). There are a lot of things that aren’t true. Even I was surprised when I read the article. (pauses) I am truly sorry that I have caused trouble to all of the fans, members, and staff. I am very sorry.

(pauses) The person I met with wasn’t someone I met through work. I was worrying [about something] and that was when he saw me on the streets. He called out to me. …I normally don’t do this, but I ended up going to dinner with him. We talked about anime, manga, and our hobbies. The two of us…weren’t in an intimate relationship at all.

The day that photo was taken, I was stressing out over a lot of things and ended up drinking a ridiculous amount of alcohol. …When I look at the photos again, I ask myself why I did such stupid things like that. I can’t believe I did such stupid things like that. (starts crying)

I am so sorry.

When I met with that man, I hid a lot of things about myself and used a fake name. I didn’t know that much about him. I didn’t know he had a family. And to learn that from an article like this, I must apologize to his family who I caused so much trouble to. I feel terrible.

…How should I put this? I didn’t know much about him. I thought of him as a person who I could talk about my hobbies to. I personally…(sighs and pauses) I am very sorry that I have done something like this.

Because of this incident, I am very sorry for the trouble I have caused to all of you. I am truly sorry about this and feel terrible about it.

Ikoma: Were you able to say everything you wanted to?

Matsumura: I’m really sorry Ikoma.

Ikoma: Even I was surprised about the article. [Note: Ikoma speaks in third person here in the actual dialogue]

Matsumura: Me too. I can’t believe it.

Ikoma: Hm…well, we were able to hear what you wanted to say, and I think a lot of people are listening in right now. How these listeners are going to take this is going to vary by person to person. How they define “good” and “bad” are going to be different. I have a lot of thoughts about this too, but after hearing this from you in person, here’s what I think: you’re a friend who I’ve been with since the very beginning [of Nogizaka]. By “friend,” I mean you’re someone who I will support and protect—although I don’t know how well I can support you.

But you can’t change the past. All you have right now is how you fight your battles. And after you’ve thought a lot about what happened, here you are sitting in this radio station apologizing to the listeners and staff. I can’t tell you what to do. I think there will be more stressful times ahead and you’ll cry a lot, but listen, I’ll be here to listen to your worries, your stories, and whatever else you want to talk about.

I mean, (laughs) I’m younger than you, Macchun, and there are some things I can’t help you with. But I’m here for you. If there’s something I can help fix, I’ll help fix it. You’ll be reflecting on your past actions, [and I know it’s going to be hard] but I’m here for you.

Yeah…I want you to look at yourself and be thankful for everything up until now. I mean our 10th single got released today after all. We’re not going to end here right now. And you, Macchun, you’ll be taking responsibility for our future events, [activities, concerts, etc.]. …Don’t worry it’s not just you who’s taking responsibility for the future of our group.

I’m going to make Nogizaka46 better. I’m going to put even more energy into the group! Let’s work hard together, okay?

Matsumura: Since this article got published, I haven’t been doing anything at all even while I was in my house. …I watched Nogizakatte Doko? at home and watched the 10th Single Hit Campaign at Mt. Fuji. After reading the member’s blogs, everyone wrote, “Let’s do our best!” I kept asking myself why I did something this stupid? Why was I so dumb?

Ikoma: You dummy! You’re really a dummy.

Matsumura: I know. There are also fans who read the article and started commenting on my blog. …There are fans who wrote kind things, so…(pauses)

Ikoma: Well, let me just say this. Ikoma will always be on Macchun’s side. Let’s just keep working hard together. Let’s keep moving forward. I think working hard is the best option right now. What do you think?

Humans make mistakes after all.

Matsumura: I can’t believe I did this. I keep beating myself up over it. Why did I do something this dumb? I love my fans, and why did this happen during such an important time period [the 10th single]? I can’t believe I did all of that. I am truly sorry.

Ikoma: I think Macchun has said what she wanted to say. Please continuing watching her from here on out. [Some people won’t be won over by words] so just show them. Show them [how dedicated you are]. Action over words.

The segment ends with Ikoma asking if Matsumura was really okay or not. It wasn’t that important so I left it out.

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Never expected the single to hit the 412k mark.

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Matsumura Sayuri and Ikoma Rina broadcasted their radio show, RecoMen, on which Matsumura issued her apology for the incident that just occurred.

First of all, this is loosely translated from a transcript found here of Matsumura’s apology. I’d like to post some more of the RecoMen broadcast...

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Weekly Playboy 2014 no 17 (digital magazine)

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Moe's G+

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Big thank to everyone who gave a vote(s) for "Seijun Philosophy". Today, It's on 1st place at AKB48 Request Hour 2014. Minegishi Team 4 as the second generation of team 4 has made it (first generation of team 4 Hashire! Penguin at first on RH last year). 2 years in a row Team 4 placed at first place! Awesome! So............

TEAM 4 TEPPEN TOTTANDE!!!!!!

TEAM 4 SAIKYOU!!!!!

Omedetou Minegishi Team 4, especially to Nishino Miki :)) 

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Oh well, good statement :)) Welcome !

[If I’m the person I am now, is because such a lot of people has been supporting SKE. I’ll end up being transferred but, bringing with me SKE’s spirit, I’ll work hard so that one day I’ll be able to say “I’m back”.] - Kizaki Yuria.

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The funny of you. No one can't replace it :) My hope this year you will be the 1 of the 16 members on Undergirls! How many will i give a votes? LOL. Simply, I'll do the best like yours