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Birthdays are fun. 🎉🎉🎉🎶 (at chateau chill zone)

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Night shoots. Sponsored by Starbucks. #themonroes

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Day 1 of #TheMonroes. Meet Cece.

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Today. 4pm. UCB Franklin. Be there.

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Beyond excited to start on #themonroes with @nikikoss and @torrankitts. #dreamteam

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"There is nothing to writing. All you have to do is sit at a typewriter and bleed." Finally. Thanks @mrvintagestore.

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Read this a million times but finally crossing Big Sur off the bucket list as someone once said "the best teacher is experience and not through someone's distorted point of view". My phone will be off for the next few days.

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"Sweet Dissolution"

Very exciting news! It's a wrap on "Sweet Dissolution" a film I wrote and directed starring Will Wallace and Melissa Archer. Now it's straight into pre-production for the next project #nofilter.

Directed and written by: Tammy Vo Cinematography by: Dan Buonsanto Sound by: Thomas Corkran Styled by: Lisa Catalina Hair and Make-Up by: Leah Rutledge Produced by: Level 9 Special thanks to: Anna Christie Starring: Will Wallace and Melissa Archer

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"This is a simple-minded play about men who enjoy killing - and those who don’t." #sundayfunday #vonnegut #happybirthdaywandajune

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Here it is! The Visit California ad I shot with Level 9. It was one of the most fun experiences. Incredibly proud of the work that we've done.

Director: Lisa Catalina

Director of Photography: Cat Sullivan Editor: Tammy Vo Starring: Tammy Vo

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Today I got to watch a script I'd written get made by incredibly talented people. I could not have done it without them and I could not be more thankful.

To see others take my project even more seriously than me is both humbling and inspiring. I’ve wanted to create work for myself for longer than I can remember. It’s my main goal in this business. More than just act, I’d love to be able to produce projects close to my heart and to be able to tell the stories I want to tell.

This is a beginning.

Directed by: Sig Culhane Cinematography by: Peter Catey Styled by: Lisa Catalina Produced by: Christina Jones Starring: Lucas McGarvey & Tammy Vo

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It's the end of the year, a time to reflect on the past and plan for the future. Except I've decided to skip reflecting altogether. What good is dwelling in the past? I've been on this journey for over a year now. I am almost where I want to be, but almost isn't quite good enough. It's failure better worded.

Let's focus on the future.

This weekend I am filming my first script with an incredibly talented group of individuals. To see others take my project even more seriously than me is both humbling and inspiring. I've wanted to create work for myself for longer than I can remember. It's my main goal in this business. More than just act, I'd love to be able to produce projects close to my heart and to be able to tell the stories I want to tell.

This is a beginning.

There are a handful of projects I have planned for the next year. I spent this past year making plans to make plans without actually doing anything. I won't do that anymore. I won't allow myself to delete pages upon pages just because I don't feel as if I'm good enough. I'll finish a story even if it wasn't what I'd hope. Failure means I did something.

This next year will only be spent in good company, my core group of friends who inspire me as much as they motivate me. Our weekly writers meeting has been the catalyst for my newfound optimism. I am beyond excited to experience what lies ahead.

I am ready for a year full of disappointments and regrets if only because I tried. I will become what I deserve.

Watch me.

xx Tammy

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Today, exactly six months after my move to Los Angeles, sitting in a dim bedroom at 5am, I have unfailingly found myself, and despite the certainty drilled into me by Neruda, I find myself wildly disappointed. I’m trying to comprehend what's possibly both the happiest and most bitter hour of my life.

The past six months I’ve struggled with this idea that I was ‘losing myself’. I’ve had my beliefs tested and my values pushed to new limits. I’ve changed in both good and bad (– although most might argue bad) but every experience, every emotional failure and consequential mistake has been a lesson. Change is a part of life.

I don’t want to explain myself to anybody. I don’t want to keep questioning and redefining myself. I don’t want to worry about who I am or how others view me. After all, a concept of self is absolute bullshit if it doesn’t line up with reality. I don’t want to keep building up these accidental lies.

Self-awareness is important but self acceptance is crucial.

I’ve spent so much time hating Los Angeles and the changes it has inflicted upon me that I haven’t been able to deal with what’s important. I’m here to learn and adapt and grow. I need to take pride in my accomplishments rather than question my failures.

In six months, I have found both an agent and a manager. I have secured representation across the board. I have found lifelong friends who are endlessly supportive and I’ve never been more appreciative of my family. I have learned more about my passions and have never been more focused.

I am always battling between allowing myself to be excited over the little things and quietly keeping mum because I know I will do so much more. If I have accomplished a lot these past six months, I promise the next six will be even better.

It feels weird to be this sentimental over a period of time but six months feels like a tremendous landmark when I think of all that I’ve come to learn.

Los Angeles hasn’t become that magical destination I was hoping would sate my inner wanderlust. I will never want to settle. What I’ve come to terms with is that Los Angeles is where I need to be. Even during the worst of days leaving has never been an option.

I came here hoping to find myself but now I realize there’s nothing to find. Realizing that is both liberating and depressing.

Damn you, Neruda.

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"I'm a cliché."

It's a phrase I've been repeating ever since I decided to take a leave from college to pursue acting. It's less harsh than "I'm insane" and less lame than "I'm an actor". It's a self-deprecating, self-aware disclaimer that I've clung onto hoping to convey 'hey I'm already judging me, so you don't have to!'.

In an attempt of self preservation by not taking myself seriously I'm afraid that, in turn, no one else seems to be taking me seriously either.

Call it my last breath of naiveté or my first gasp of optimism. It's time to embrace the cliché.

I'm moving to Los Angeles.

The decision has been rash as all of my decisions generally are and I will be the first to admit that I am full of bad decisions. Still, nothing has felt more right.

I have to thank every kind soul I've had the fortune of working with in the Twin Cities film community. I cannot thank you enough for how much you've helped me realize how much I love what it is that we do. I am also beyond overwhelmed with the support of my close friends and family. You make it so easy to be fearless.

I leave tomorrow filled with equal measures of fear and excitement both equally focused and lost. But half the fun will be finding my way. 

xx Tammy

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From things that have happened and from things as they exist and from all things that you know and all those you cannot know, you make something through your invention that is not a representation but a whole new thing truer than anything true and alive, and you make it alive, and if you make it well enough, you give it immortality.

Ernest Hemingway, Interview with George Plimpton

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let's try this again

Let me begin by reminding you that I do my best in 140 characters, not lengthy paragraphs with scattered thoughts.

I've had such an identity crisis with this Tumblr. What started as a personal blog turned into a fashion blog, an Andrew Garfield appreciation blog and, for some time, a blog for my silly Moleskine doodles. It's time for me to commit to an identity.

This Tumblr will now be a space for me to record the daily activities of my personal life, consumed confections and whatever else I find inspiring.

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