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-- effluentBalatron [EB] began messaging tankedGnostomanic [TG] at 16:00 --

EB: //boxes your rocks!!//

TG: holy heckalump whats all this unrowdy blueberry bullshit crashin in my textbox?

TG: u really wanna go j boi azure i will take you out

TG: ....to a lovely lunch

TG: and see whats up with all this aggression

EB: you ...azure me you will take me down?

EB: :)

TG: alright nvm the gloves are on

EB: hehheheheh! wait, uncle! uncle!

EB: you wouldn't hit a guy with glasses would you?

TG: he doesnt wear glasses on his ass and seein how thats what im kickin i mean

TG: not seeing the relevance man

EB: i'm working up a good sweat over this now! i mean you've got your finger on the big gun and all.

EB: not to mention the big guns connected to your fingers, like through your arm joints and stuff.

EB: i am just a guy who likes to make jokes. a joke guy if you will.

TG: you sure know how 2 make a gal lay down her arms

EB: HAHA, NICE.

EB: anyways, how are you? i realized it had been a while since we chatted.

TG: ive been alright well actually a whole lot better than when we last talked

TG: so thats a definite improvement

TG: wbu flyers guys making changes one paper at a time?

EB: you did seem a little on edge back then, but i mean...i know the exact reason for that and it totally makes sense.

EB: >:/ and meeting some pretty harsh criticisms on the way.

EB: okay, maybe i need to find a graphic design fellow to take care of that part. haha.

TG: lol maybe juuusst maybe

TG: i wouldnt mind helpin out if those critics dont wanna put up while theyre not shuttin up

EB: dave offered but...i think he'd turn it into a joke and while i am all about jokes as i mentioned before i really do want people to take this seriously, haha.

EB: okay maybe COMPLETE seriousness is way too much to ask for, lmao.

EB: but like a tiny shred of seriousness.

EB: a nugget.

TG: a sliver of srsness

TG: cause it is honestly serious

EB: yeah, i mean ...we're just kind of a floating space town now for a while, and now we have a bunch of kids growing up so even if it doesn't seem like a big deal right now, it is going to be here pretty soon.

EB: we can't have general lawlessness, as much fun as it is.

TG: honestly me and my mom have like a little group type thing that we meet and talk about shit

TG: sometimes pertaining to our probs

TG: so if someone comes in then we could talk to em also

EB: oh, in my meeting iw as gonna look into settng up group therapy.

EB: if you guys already have a little one going, would you mind if we kind of made it official?

TG: nah i dont mind figure i cant make bar smoothies for everyone tho lol i can make it more prefessional like

EB: thanks roxy! that helps a lot actually.

EB: maybe my dad can go to those...

EB: i wish we had more counselers is all.

EB: i'm looking at the schedules and stuff, it's kind of unbalanced, haha.

EB: i don't suppose you can clone some, huh?

TG: well since u asked so nicely how can i say no?

EB: i am kidding please don't do that.

TG: too late

TG: the babies are in the tubes

EB: euuugh.

TG: as much as im makin that joke i dont think those are the best peeps to clone

TG: not like i dont want 1000 rosies but she also might clock me

EB: it gives me the heebie jeebies now, i must admit.

EB: obviously the world is better for me existing.

EB: but i mean, still a bit creepy.

TG: have u talked to anyone about it?

TG: not like its gonna make the vibes go away but still

TG: just to get it all out

EB: oh?

EB: uh.

EB: not really?

EB: maybe a little bit about it with jade.

EB: but it's not really a big deal!

EB: i'm just kind of being silly.

TG: i dont think its silly man its just weird to all of a sudden have something associated with you like that

EB: it's not really....sudden. i mean, i didn't know i was a clone until nightmare on clownstreet but i knew before then that things weren't exactly as i pictured them.

EB: i was kind of just ignoring it and being a baby about it though.

TG: cuz it made you uncomfortable to think about?

EB: it really did, haha. i feel bad for jade. i really put her through the ringer with that stuff.

EB: every time i would find out another new little piece of information i would kind of freak the fuck out, lol.

EB: but i am not being like that anymore because ain't nobody got time for that.

EB: how did we get on this topic anyways? wow. that is a lot of blue text.

TG: lol we got on the topic because you have a lot to stay about it man

TG: which is cool

EB: :P if you say so!

TG: i do say so dorkburger >:P

EB: it's hard to argue with 'dorkburger'.

TG: good! ur not supposed to

EB: oh yeah? well what about you? you didn't really give me the full rundown when i asked you.

EB: what's going on in the world of roxy.

TG: aww i dunno man ive just been doing the regular day to day

TG: peepin on eri and dirk

TG: make sure their ears are clean and not so stressed

TG: cleanin the bar

TG: bein kinda boring i guess lol

EB: it's not boring unless you're bored!

EB: are ya?

TG: eh

TG: ngl yeah

EB: well that's no good. :/

EB: you don't have anything to work on or anything to do for fun/

TG: uh i got my usual shit but i been thinkin about tryin to find something else to do

TG: i been goin to the beach but after that then what right?

EB: hmmm.

EB: well maybe we should hang out sometime while you're looking for something to do.

EB: two knuckleheads are better than one, right?

TG: i like the way u think :) could use an extra dosage of johnny every now and again

EB: have you tried out the VR room yet?

EB: i haven't gotten the oppurtunity. that might be fun.

EB: maybe i'll just camp out and watch you test weapons...haha.

TG: i actually do use it! its the fuckin bomb diggity

TG: we could def take it for a spin sometimes and BOTH test out new weapons

TG: virtual weapons

EB: hell yeah!

EB: it's been a long time since i've thrown my hammer around.

TG: john

TG: jay

TG: jbe

TG: boi blueskiski

TG: i could wink

TG: but thats also a rly sad implication

EB: oh....yeah that's more worthy of a sadface than a wink.

EB: hahahah.

TG: gdi john y you gotta leave me so torn like that

EB: lik dis if you cry everytim

TG: then ur gonna meme on me like some memer

TG: uve clearly been hangin out with the wrong crowds

EB: i'll have you know that i am very discerning about my memes.

TG: clearly by ur usage u got a taste for the vintage memes

TG: and dont get me wrong vintage is always classy

TG: but to meme on me of all peeps??? how dare sir

EB: nobody is safe, roxy. i meme on my own father.

TG: u need 2 be grounded

TG: right now

TG: im sending ur dad a memo

EB: actually please don't do that. there is a very real possibility i will be grounded.

EB: haha! i wish i was kidding.

TG: omfg really?

EB: ...maybe...

TG: big daddy eggs runs a tight ship

EB: tis a blessing and a curse!

TG: mostly a delish blessing

EB: yeah, most people think so. hehe.

TG: i can see why u wouldnt tho lol

TG: im gonna take py to get some lunch tho so ill hafta chat at u about ur stern pops another time

TG: a v easy thing to do tbh

EB: i think 'stern' is a little harsh. more like dignified.

TG: dignifine more like

EB: arrrrrgh. what....

EB: roxy no.

EB: okay, have a good lunch! bye!!!!

TG: lmao

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EB: >:/

TG: sorry jb thems be the facts

EB: no!!!

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2. Hate

Roxy’s hate could be either slow burning or explosive. She’s certainly not shy about voicing her dislike but whether or not she’s aggressive with it depends on the person. She actually doesn’t have very many people in her life that she thinks she’s hated. And she has people that she’s stopped hating. To gain her hate is to hurt someone she cares about or to seem like you will. She moves from there with how to respond to that person and their presence. 

20. Spring

Predictably Roxy’s second favorite season and it’s only second favorite because allergies. But it’s pretty and it’s not stupidly hot and it’s the beginning of the year and that’s basically new beginnings so there’s no dumb drama that’s happened yet. Spring is just so good, but fuck pollen tho.

40. Scent

If there’s one scent that’s stuck in Roxy’s head then it’s definitely the smell of the Derse slums where she used to run around and all the memories that come with it. She hasn’t encountered that smell since leaving and she’d honestly rather not think too long about how it was living there so she’d be perfectly alright never smelling it again. 

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HEADCANON PROMPT MEME: Send in a character and a number from this list and I will write a headcanon based on the word

Love

Hate

Hopes

Fears

Crying

Laughter

Travel

Dreams

Music

Art

Best Friend

Worst Enemy

Hair

Eyes

Hands

Smile

Scars

Winter

Summer

Spring

Autumn

Family

Romance

Orientation

Religion

Beauty

Sleep

Home

Bedroom

Sex

Death

Birth

Safe

Affection

Guilt

Sacrifice

Vengeance

Sympathy

Secret

Scent

Memory

Loss

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ROXY: *After seeing her mom go in the bar and leave in Mr. Egbert's burly man arms Roxy is, of course, going to smother her in unwanted attention. She doesn't know exactly why. Sometimes relapses don't need a "Why" she knows that but she also doesn't know if anyone else would be ableto relate like she would. Knock knock its Roxy*

ROXANNE: *She wasn't sure who she was expecting when she heard the knock, but regardless it made Roxanne frown. She was in the middle of playing an oversized card version of go fish with Russet when whoever it was interrupted them.* Mmmh. hang on one second sugar. *Roxanne put down her cards and stood up, leaving Russet looking very pouty as she chirred and waved her cards at her mom. They were in the middle of something h

ROXANNE: *But anyways, Roxanne is at the door now, looking pretty disgruntled as she opened it, but the scowl faded more when she saw who it was.*

ROXANNE: Roxy?

ROXY: howdy rowdy.... mind if i come in? *Small smile*

ROXANNE: Oh, uh. sure. *She opens the door more and stands aside to let her in. Russet turns to look at who was here to visit, do they need to be delt into the game too?*

ROXY: *walks on in and smiles at the baby, she's weak for those* hey potato potsticker

ROXY: whats the game? gin rummy?

ROXY: poker? vegas rules

ROXY: unless the jacks runnin with the queen we dont want him

ROXY: aces is the bases boys

ROXY: put ur money on the table or take the kiddie seats

ROXY: old jims got a tinglin in his trick knee

ROXY: lack lucks givin me a good whisper

ROXANNE: *Russet blinks up at her, saying nothing, and then just grins before picking up some random cards from the deck and holding them out to Roxy with a chirp.*

ROXANNE: *Roxanne shuts the door and then comes to stand behind her older daughter, smiling softly down at the small potato.* Nah, shes just getting the hang of go fish.

ROXANNE: Black jacks next though.

ROXY: *takes those cards and looks them over* thanks yamham

ROXY: sounds fun

ROXY: water we bettin? animal crackers?

ROXANNE: No bets yet, we're just learning game fundamentals right now. startin' with how ya' don't keep taking cards until you find the one ya' want. *She quirks an friendly acusitory brow at Russet, and the little girl hoarding all the cards babbles back in chirps and trills defensively.*

ROXANNE: Mhm. *Roxanne glances back to Roxy now though.* Can't be quite sure you came all the way here to play though, right?

ROXY: *shrugs* not really

ROXY: just checkin on a fellow uu aa buddy

ROXANNE: Uh. *Gee. Mmmmmmmm. Roxanne sure did get super quiet and tense suddenly.*

ROXANNE: Oh... y...eah?

ROXY: *She figured that* yeah.... *lets that trail off*

ROXY: i just

ROXY: wanted 2 tell u im here to talk and stuff

ROXY: cause shits hard

ROXY: i mean.... *squints at russet*

ROXY: its....

ROXY: hard

ROXY: im not a pottymouth i swear

ROXY: but idk talkin 2 some one that understands is why we started talkin

ROXY: i mean in that setting anyway

ROXANNE: *Harder then she probably knew.* Its okay. she hasn't even said any words yet, so i dont even think i would mind if she did start swearin'. well uh, not that i want my todler cursin' at the mail man or anything! not that we have one but you get the point right? basically its cool. *Ah yes, a good way to get off topic.*

ROXY: yeah... me and eri are kinda the same with py

ROXY: but i mean

ROXY: the talkin thing still stands

ROXY: segues aside *she dont wanna push it but also its important*

ROXANNE: *She nods and tucks some hair behind her ear.* Yeah, i hear ya'. *Internally she is panicking. No way would she admit to Roxy that she fell of the wagon if she didn't know, what kind of role model would she be? A worse one then she already was. But if Roxy did already know that she did want to try and explain herself. The internal war was real on if she should come clean or not.*

ROXANNE: .....so.

ROXANNE: Ya'just. came here to tell me that at th'drop of a hat?

ROXY: *choses her words as carefully as she can* well id rather catch the hat?

ROXANNE: Right...

ROXANNE: *She is silent for a few beats and then sighs.*

ROXANNE: Guessin' some kind of security set up then? in th'bar?

ROXY: the lllleast invasive security

ROXANNE: Cameras on the barstools or somethin?

ROXY: listen thats not really whats important here rn

ROXY: i just wanted u to know that im here

ROXY: and it happens

ROXY: could even trade embarrassing sentimental stories about it

ROXY: cuz idk thats what u do

ROXANNE: *Another sigh and she folds her arms, side eyeing sadly at Russet who as of right now has given up on the game it would seem as she entertains herself in trying to build the cards up into a house.*

ROXANNE: Ain't really anything sentimental 'bout what happened.

ROXANNE: It was a bad slip up i know. but its not happenin' again.

ROXANNE: Got more things to worry about.

ROXY: is it ur first one? *not accusatory, just asking*

ROXANNE: Since this attempt of goin' sober? yeah.

ROXANNE: But there have been some trial and error runs years in th'past.

ROXY: *nods* yeah

ROXY: cold turkeys hard

ROXY: its better than that weening shit tho

ROXY: that doesnt really work

ROXY: *makes a face*

ROXANNE: Got no clue how anyone manages this sort of thing though to be honest.

ROXANNE: Well i mean. i did manage for a while.

ROXY: u did

ROXY: and you will

ROXY: it happens yknow

ROXANNE: Yeah. i know.

ROXANNE: Heres hoping it doesn't again. *She doesn't sound or look one hundred percent confident that it wont though.*

ROXANNE: But uh.

ROXANNE: Look.

ROXANNE: Im sorry that you had to find out 'bout it.

ROXY: all u can do is try

ROXY: but its cool

ROXY: not really cool cool

ROXY: but id wanna know

ROXY: its good 2 have peeps around for it

ROXY: in the endgame anyway

ROXY: thats what were sposed to do not just cause aa buddies or whatever

ROXY: but us like together

ROXY: me u rose and auntie ruth

ROXY: lookin out for each other

ROXY: the lalonde ladies club mst be this jacked up to enter

ROXY: on wednesdays we wear pink

ROXY: no u cant sit with us

ROXANNE: *Okay, well with that kind of speech its really hard not to crack up at least a little. Look here comes the smile.*

ROXANNE: Some club.

ROXANNE: Never one i'd thought i'd have the honor of bein' in.

ROXANNE: But i'd be lying if i said i wasnt so many different kinds of greatful that i am.

ROXY: just wait

ROXY: it gets better

ROXY: hit me up anytime and i'll make u a drink

ROXY: personally

ROXY: anytime idc

ROXY: a smoothie drink

ROXY: or ice cream float

ROXY: make it all cocktail fancy

ROXY: i even do parfaits

ROXY: im movin up expandin my business here

ROXANNE: Dang are these perks of bein' a lalonde?

ROXY: even better its a perk of uu aa

ROXY: parfaits for every1

ROXANNE: Dang. everyone should go sober for those perks.

ROXY: thats what im sayin

ROXY: thats more for us tho

ROXANNE: This parfait bribery just might work, you should patent this as part of a twelve step plan.

ROXY: hot damn i should

ROXY: if u wanna wreckur bod with shit at least let it be good

ROXY: and i dont mean fruits

ROXY: i mean like

ROXY: big ass

ROXY: sloppy burgers

ROXY: breakfasts

ROXY: just food coma it out

ROXY: but then again it aint the healthiest alternative

ROXY: :P *gestures to herself* u eat 2 much you might just get too hot to handle

ROXY: beat biznatchies off with sticks

ROXANNE: *Snrk.* Hell yeah, hell yeah.

ROXANNE: But uh, thanks for coming over i guess. and being all supportive and stuff.

ROXANNE: Gotta' say never had that with my previous attempts at tryin' to quit.

ROXANNE: Its nice. means a lot too. *For more reasons then Roxy would know.*

ROXY: *stands up straight and opens her arms* heck then that just might make a hell of a difference if anythin itll be nicer

ROXANNE: *Is it prime HUG TIME??*

ROXY: *It ALWAYS is*

ROXANNE: *AW HECK.*

ROXANNE: *Shes going in for the hug then. Daughter prepare yourself.*

ROXY: *she' is prepped af, HUGS TIGHT. Don't gotta do it alone momther*

ROXANNE: *She returns the squeeze just as tight, tighter then she intended originally even. She hasn't hugged Roxy a lot, and that is something she wont ever stop regretting. But the moments when she did get to hold her daughter, they were the best and always filled with enough sappy mushy emotion to make Roxanne's eyes water like they were now.*

ROXY: *It's something they both want to make up for. Hug just to hug and not onl in these moments. Roxy tried to seep support and love into her mother with this hug. That she would be here, maybe that she understood a little. She didn't want to make this any more gross than it already is but she mumbles* (love u)

ROXANNE: *Some corner in her mind whispers "At least someone does." But fuck that voice shes having mother daughter time right now and Roxanne gives Roxy one more squeeze before pressing a soft smooch to her hairline.* (Love ya' too, hun.)

ROXANNE: *Also now Roxy might be feeling something clinging to her leg now. Or rather someone. Russet wants in on this big sister loving.*

ROXY: *The kiss is nice, it really is. Something she hadn't known she missed until she had it. Russet needed some love too though, with a snort Roxy leans down to pick her up* aww get in here and dont live like us plz

ROXANNE: *Russet is all smiles =8) and holds onto her older sister as she is picked up, and gives Roxy a big old smooch on the cheek too. Roxanne cant help but get more sappy emotional over that and wraps her arms around the both of them again.* Yeah please don't, russet. also don't be all sappy like me either.

ROXY: aaaaaa gross :P *group hugs*

ROXY: ill try 2 not judge that hard

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-- aesopianAlgedonic [AA] began messaging tankedGnostomanic [TG] at 18:33 --

AA: ROXY. HELLOINGS TO HER.

AA: WAS.

AA: I GOT MESSAGE.

AA: FROM HER, YES?

AA: IT IS KIND. TO HEAR SHE IS HERE.

TG: hey bab

TG: ive kinda been a moldy cheese dog n checkin on u

TG: but i miss u :(

AA: NOT MOLDY. BRAND AND QUALITY OF HER CHEESING IS EXCELLENT.

AA: THE MISSINGS ARE FEELING MUTUAL.

AA: SHOULD BE DONE SOMETHING WITH THIS

TG: say no more

TG: where u @

TG: im gonna

TG: hang out with u so hard

AA: VERY HARD?

AA: MAKING FOR INTRIGUING PROMISES.

AA: AM IN EAST COMMON ROOM. FOR SNACKING.

 ROXY: *HERE SHE COME. She's got a sylladex full of OTHER things that they can snack on also their drink on*

DAMARA: *Damara was only recently released from the infirmary, but she was looking tired non the less. Either that or angry. She was more snappy than usual, but so be it. She's fussing a little with her clothes as she stands by the vending machine, a thumb running over the skin below her eyes to make sure there's still makeup covering the darker rings she'd gotten. When Roxy IS HECKIN ARRIVE, she smiles.

DAMARA: One of the smaller genuine ones.* SHE IS ARRIVE. SO FAST.

DAMARA: TO MATCH THE HARDNESS?

DAMARA: THINK SO.

ROXY: *Roxy frowns a little seeing her but smiles also. Because there she is, she's gettin a hug. Roxy approaches with open arms* ofc thats the best way to come at u damzam

DAMARA: *She's too tired to cry, even with the incoming hug threatening to make her do so. Instead she takes a few steps towards Roxy to hug her back, tight and grateful. She laughs.* KNOWS ME TOO WELL. FOR KNOWING THIS.

ROXY: *Nice and tight and the warmest hug!* oh but of course

ROXY: *she just stays in this hug for a long while*

ROXY: *its LONG overdue*

DAMARA: *It is a good hug, and she is glad for it. Even if it is slowly approaching uncomfortable lengthy tiers. With a slight pet and rub to her back she slowly withdraws from it, still smiling.* THEN WILL HANGOUTS BE MUTUAL HARD. BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT SHE LIKES TOO. THE ROOTIN' TOOTIN' TIMES, AS SAID.

ROXY: *No this is OUR HUG jk, she lets Damara go and smiles at her then snorts*

ROXY: omg

ROXY: the rootiest and the tootiest u big sweet beet

ROXY: *heads on over to the table thats probably in ther and dumbs a stupid amount of snacks and bottled drinks all over it*

DAMARA: SHOULD HAVE BEEN WEARING GUNS. GETTING THESE ROOT TOOTS IN BETTER QUALITY. WITH THE SHOOTINGS AS THEY DO? *She doesn't remember her rooting tooting facts exactly. She heads over to the table too, head tilted.*

DAMARA: SHE IS VERY READY. FOR THE HANGOUTS, ISN'T SHE? *Small chuckle.*

ROXY: i am

ROXY: SO READY

ROXY: but also u got a lot to tell me

ROXY: and i got a lot to tell u

ROXY: *pats the chair* and we got a LOTTA goofin off to do

DAMARA: MANY WORDINGS FOR MANY TIMES. WILL BE MUCH SHARED. *Sets her butt down on that chair, smiling crookedly.* THE GOOFING? THIS IS BEST. GLAD TO BE HEARING IS LOTS OF IT TO BE COMING.

ROXY: ofc its what i do best *opens up some chaps*

ROXY: so first things first

ROXY: how u doin

DAMARA: *Well, she had been hoping that wasn't a question that would come up. She folds her hands in her lap, then soon fiddles with her skirt. Tries to be nonchalant, shrugging one shoulder.* IS ALL THE RIGHT. THE MOST CAN BE FEELING.

ROXY: so shit? *offers chips*

DAMARA: *Snorts.* NO FOOLING HER. *Takes a chip... And EATS it.* THE SHIT FEELS. THEY ARE REAL.

ROXY: im sorry 2 hear that damz but ur prolly sick of hearing that *chews on a chip also*

DAMARA: AS SICK AS SHE IS OF HEARING IT ALSO? *Eyes her.* KNOW IS MUCH HAPPENING.

ROXY: yeah..... * sighs* idk

ROXY: its just a buncha crap

ROXY: happening

ROXY: all at once

DAMARA: IS HOW THE CRAP SEEMING TO REVEAL ITSELF HERE. ALL AT ONCE. ONE PEEKING AND THEN REST FALLS. *Scopes out some snack cakes and goes for it. Looks at Roxy while unwrapping it.* STILL. EVEN IF TIRED OF THE HEARINGS. AM SORRY FOR HER TOO. THE HEARING AND HAPPENINGS.

ROXY: amen to being sorry and sick and also a lil tired *she's gonna toast snack foods with u damz*

DAMARA: BAD AMEN. BUT IS TRUTH. *Lil snack food toast.* MORE TOASTINGS FOR THINGS BEING NOT BAD SOON? IN TIME... PERHAPS.

ROXY: i hope so.... but idk with everythin goin on....

ROXY: well work it out im sure

ROXY: *gotta stay positive*

DAMARA: *Scoots closer to her with her chair to bunp shoulders with her.* IN TIME. FOR NOW? IS OKAY TO BE FEELING ALL BEING SHIT. FOR LITTLE WHILE.

DAMARA: BUT HOPE. STILL MUST BE THERE. IT IS GOOD.

ROXY: yeah feelin like shit its gonna be a thing for a while and its

ROXY: ok

ROXY: hope is also good 2 have

ROXY: i mean we made it outta hairy stuff before

DAMARA: VERY MANY HAIRY THINGS. IT IS TRUE. *She is tired of the hairy things though, very tired. But even still there's things she cares about. So deeply. It hurts to have something to lose, and have lost, but that she has things left makes all the difference.* HAIRY SHIT THINGS. BUT. MUST NOT SURRENDER. *Exhales, looking at her lap.* GUESSING SHE IS TIRED ALSO. OF HEARING THIS.

ROXY: actually i feel like im the only one thats been sayin it

ROXY: ppl have told me i was actin like a real wad

ROXY: and idk maybe i was

ROXY: a lil bit

ROXY: but its like i had 2 fight them

ROXY: to make sure they were safe

ROXY: like they didnt get we have to up the anty

DAMARA: *She furrows her brows a little bit. She had no idea other people were giving up too. It was hard seeing Terezi refusing to use her voice and blaming herself, feeling the general atmosphere of hopelessness. She sighs, leaning a bit towards Roxy.* THEN. WILL NOT BE QUITTING SAYING THIS. SO SHE IS NOT ALONE.

DAMARA: IN SPREADING SUCH WORDS.

DAMARA: BECAUSE IT IS TRUE.

DAMARA: THE ANTY WE HAVE. IS GOOD. EVEN IF... *Swallows dryly.* SOME.

DAMARA: NOT MAKE IT.

DAMARA: MANY MORE COULD HAVE NOT.

DAMARA: BUT MOST ARE HERE SO. CAN KEEP FIGHTING.

ROXY: *frowns a little and reaches over to hold her hand and squeeze* well keep on fightin

ROXY: and well make things better

ROXY: and well get better

DAMARA: *Looks down at the hand, then back up to her face and gives it a squeeze in turn.* THIS IS WHAT IS MUST BE DONE. FIGHTING BUT NOT... *Trails off, looking off into space.* NOT LOSING HEAD. WITH IT. *Like she always does.* FIGHT FOR BETTER.

DAMARA: NOT WORSE.

ROXY: yeah... we gotta stick together

ROXY: even if its hard 2 not lose ur head

ROXY: or get stuck in it

ROXY: idk

DAMARA: IT IS HARD. BUT WE ARE HARDER, NO? THE HANGOUTS NOW. THEY ARE VERY HARD. *Smiles at her and strokes a thumb over her hand. It'll be okay.*

ROXY: we are so gd hard *returns that smile*

ROXY: rock solid

DAMARA: CANNOT BE PUT DOWN.

DAMARA: TOO STRONG.

DAMARA: TAMED? CANNOT BE.

ROXY: why the fuck havent we done karaoke togeher?

DAMARA: *Well that came out of the blue! She seems amused though, despite the surprise.* DO NOT KNOW! MOST MYSTERY INDEED.

DAMARA: IT IS MUST BE DONE NOW.

DAMARA: WILL NOT LET HER SAY NO.

DAMARA: IT IS ILLEGAL.

ROXY: *somestimes you just gotta karaoke!*

ROXY: it really is illegal

ROXY: plz lock me up if i ever say no

ROXY: wtf

ROXY: idk

ROXY: i just think

ROXY: itd be fun

DAMARA: *Snicker.* WILL BE MOST LOCKED UP. ASSURE HER OF THIS. CRIMES OF DENYING FUN.

DAMARA: THE POLICE OF FUN? IT IS ME. ALL MUST HAVE GOOD TIMES.

ROXY: ooooh mrs officer ;P

DAMARA: *Waves her free hand.* NO SUCH WINKINGS. WILL HAVE NO EFFECT ON THIS MISS OFFICER. VERY TRAINED TO BE RESISTING VILES.

ROXY: oh DARN *snaps her fingers*

ROXY: guess ill have 2 get creative

DAMARA: *Snrk.* VERY MUCH SO. JUST BE REMEMBERING NOT TO BE GREEN.

DAMARA: GREEN NOT CREATIVE COLOR.

ROXY: damz

ROXY: damz

ROXY: shhh

ROXY: we dont

ROXY: talk about that

DAMARA: NO? IS SHE THE ONE THAT WILL BE DOING ARRESTING ON ME?

DAMARA: FOR SPEAKING OF SUCH GREEN AND UNFUNS?

ROXY: some memes u leave in the past dork

ROXY: theyve caused 2 many scars

DAMARA: *Puts a hand on her cheek in mock shock.* TOO WHOLE MANY? IS MANY TOO MUCH. WILL GIVE UTMOST APOLOGIES FOR BEATING DEAD HORSE WITH SUCH CRUELTY.

ROXY: as much as the horse loves it (i kno a thing about weird horses)

DAMARA: *Raises a brow and looks both amused and somewhat disgusted all at once.* THEN APOLOGIES EVEN MORE.

ROXY: *snickers and goes for some cookies* i forgive u

ROXY: of course

ROXY: of always

DAMARA: MUCH TOO KIND ON THIS INDEED. WHEN THE WOUNDS INFLICTED SO MAJOR. *Keeps looking at her though.* PERHAPS FORGIVENESS WILL BE GIVEN PROPER. WITH SONG?

ROXY: i wouldnt have it any other way

ROXY: woo me like its an old school musical

DAMARA: OF HIGH VARIETIES?

DAMARA: *Small pause.* THE SCHOOL.

DAMARA: NOT STATE OF MIND.

DAMARA: WILL NOT BE ADVISING THIS.

DAMARA: AS THE POLICE. IT IS ME.

ROXY: *snrk* dont do drugs kids

ROXY: ill listen

ROXY: dont wanna get on the bad side of the law

DAMARA: NONE DRUGS. THIS LAW WON'T HAVE IT.

DAMARA: WILL ONLY BE HAVING THE SNACKAGE.

DAMARA: AND CHEESE WORDS SUNG AT TOP OF LUNGS.

DAMARA: UNTIL EITHER THE SINGING. OR MANY THINGS CLOGGING UP SYSTEM. MAKING THE DROPPING HAPPEN.

ROXY: omfg

ROXY: gross

ROXY: :P

DAMARA: *Stares then just oh.* NO!

DAMARA: NOT SUCH DROPPINGS.

DAMARA: THE DROPPINGS OF WHOLE BODY!

DAMARA: *Genuine flustered this time, and not the fakey ones.*

ROXY: omfg!!!

ROXY: its ok

ROXY: *pats the hand*

ROXY: *what a heckin cute*

ROXY: *can't help but to laugh*

DAMARA: *Huffs, a bit maroon in the face.* DO NOT BELIEVE I IS SPEAKING OF SUCH DROPPINGS.

DAMARA: UNLESS TALKING OF SITUATIONAL SHIT. AND PEOPLE THAT ARE FULL OF IT.

DAMARA: APPROPRIATE TERM? I KINKSHAME THIS.

ROXY: damzzzzzzzzzzz

DAMARA: I WILL! UNFORGIVING IN THIS.

ROXY: what if their kinkshame is being kinkshamed

ROXY: then what

ROXY: whatll the law do then damz?

DAMARA: THEN THE LAW WILL DO REGULAR SHAMING. REGULAR SHAMING FOR SUCH NONSENSE DISPLAY!

DAMARA: WILL HAVE CUFFS. SIT IN JAIL. GOODBYE.

ROXY: *snnnkkkrr* hahahahahaha

ROXY: the people might not like that

ROXY: i mean

ROXY: what if MY kink is illegal tomorrow?

DAMARA: *Stares right at her, expression gone from serious to one less so. She raises a brow, smirk on her face.* WOULD NOT KNOW.

DAMARA: WHAT /ARE/ HER KINKS?

DAMARA: WILL CHECK LIST OF THOSE THAT ARE ILLEGAL.

DAMARA: CHECK THE MATCHES.

ROXY: maam

ROXY: MAAM

ROXY: i should give u the list of not kinks

ROXY: its so much shorter

ROXY: ;P

DAMARA: *Snrk.* I SEE.

DAMARA: THEN WILL BE TRUSTING ALL ILLEGAL ONES. BEING ON THAT LIST.

ROXY: mmmmm

ROXY: mayb

ROXY: who knows

DAMARA: *Long stare.*

DAMARA: WILL UNRAVEL THIS MYSTERY.

DAMARA: SHE WILL SEE.

DAMARA: OR. I WILL BE DOING THIS.

DAMARA: OF MANY LISTS. I WILL SEE THEM.

ROXY: ooooohh vouyer

ROXY: u gonna peep on me damz?

ROXY: my goodness

DAMARA: I WILL PEEP. *Nods.*

DAMARA: ON LIST.

DAMARA: THIS IS WHERE THE PEEPERS WILL BE.

DAMARA: WHILE YOUR BODY IS ELSEWHERE. IN SUCH ACTIVITIES THAT THEY DO.

ROXY: oh me oh myyy ive got a kink spy :P

DAMARA: THE ONLY KIND OF SPY THAT IS OF WORTH.

ROXY: amen 2 that sister

DAMARA: *Snrks. Also lowkey internal sweating. Oh Roxy, if only you knew... But don't. Please don't. Nobody should know about that part of her life.* VERY AMEN. MOST THERE IS.

DAMARA: SHOULD CELEBRATE, YES? WITH THE KARAOKINGS?

ROXY: hell yeah we should!

ROXY: wanna just do that here? :)

ROXY: got all the snacks ready

DAMARA: *Claps her hands together with a smile, nodding.* YES. HERE. IN NOW. IT IS PERFECT TIME. WHAT ELSE WOULD BE?

ROXY: *YESSS. She's just gonna pull a karaoke machine from her sylladex* good thing i havent put this in the bar yet!

DAMARA: *Star eyes at the machine. She wasn't expecting that.*HAVE THIS? AMAZING! COMING SO PREPARED FOR THIS HANGOUT.

DAMARA: CANNOT HANDLE HER HARDNESS.

DAMARA: IT IS SO MUCH!

ROXY: *flexes and wonks* it gets harder

DAMARA: OH! *Fans herself.* SHOULD HAVE BEEN COMING MORE PREPARED!

DAMARA: TO GET USED TO SUCH HARDNESS.

DAMARA: TAKES TIME!

ROXY: *just fuckin, giggles and plugs everything up* dont worry damz

ROXY: we got all evening

ROXY: i have faith in u

DAMARA: THEN WITH ALL SUCH TIME. WILL KEEP SELF DETERMINED.

DAMARA: THIS WAY I WILL BE DEFEATING IT.

DAMARA: TAMING THE HARDNESS FOR OWN.

DAMARA: *Closes eyes and nods seriously.*

ROXY: *jumps back on the couch with her, holding the remote and nudges* ur my hero damama

ROXY: talk about swooncity babe right there

DAMARA: *Keeps her serious expression even when nudged, hands folded neatly.* THEN MY TASK. EVEN MORE SERIOUS.

DAMARA: TO ENSURE THESE SWOONS IS STILL PRESENT IN FUTURE.

DAMARA: AND ALWAYS HAPPENING.

ROXY: you dont gotta work 2 hard ;P

ROXY: *nudge nudge nudge nudge nudge*

DAMARA: *Opens one eye to look at her while she is thoroughly nudged.* BUT IS WHAT SHE IS DESERVING FROM ME.

DAMARA: LONG AND HARD. AS WELL. VERY DETERMINED.

ROXY: yes i am v determined *nudges her sides*

ROXY: *eyebrows now*

DAMARA: *Turns her head fully to her, amused, her own eyebrows raising.* SO DETERMINED INDEED? HAVE BROWS BE GOING SO FAST. THE SWOONING MUST NOT BE VERY MUCH. SINCE SHE IS CAPABLE OF SUCH MOTIONS.

ROXY: *pokes her side now, poke poke proodddddsssssss* this is what i do when i swoon

ROXY: trufax

DAMARA: *Moves a hand to try and stop all this poking and prodding, it's making her squirm a little bit. Ticklish sides, pls.* SHE TRIES THE FINGERING? TO GET WORDS OUT OF ME? THIS WILL NOT WORK. MY DETERMINATION TO WORK HARD IS NOT TO BE DISTRACTED. EVEN BY THIS.

ROXY: oh yeah?

ROXY: what if i use

ROXY: *holds up both index fingers* two fingers?

ROXY: *poke poke poke TICKLES*

DAMARA: *Intensify squirm. She tries getting away from her, hands moving to swat at hers.* HER TECHNIQUE! CHEATING. TWO FINGERS? THIS NOTHING. BUT SHE IS BEING SNEAKY! IS NO FAIR.

ROXY: am i being sneaky..... *grins trying to get around her hands* or assertive??? >:) *pokes the butt then POKE POKE*

DAMARA: *She has turned her whole dang self around halfway to make sure those hands keep away from her side. Her brows furrowed. She is maybe pouting just a little.* SNEAKY! SNEAKY ASS! IF ANY COMBINATION! *Squeaks when she is poked on the BUNS! >:O* PLAYING SO FOUL! *Now she is the one that's gonna try poking Roxy!*

ROXY: hahaha! no way i am so playing by the rules! *trying to wiggling away from these hands but she's ticklish too. Who's gonna give first?*

DAMARA: CRUEL ATTACKINGS OUT OF NO THE WHERE! SHE IS VERY ILLEGAL. SHOULD BE PUTTING IN JAIL. *She is not giving up! She's a stubborn ram. It's a poke battle now.*

ROXY: *she's giggling already, Roxy is very ticklish* you cant jail what you cant catch!

DAMARA: *She is smiling, squirming away from the pokes whenever Roxy gets her in the sides.* BUT SHE WILL BE! VERY MUCH CAUGHT! IT IS ONLY FATE. MATTER OF TIME!

ROXY: *It just might because she's laughing and mostly tryingto shove Damara's hands away* noooooooooo

ROXY: i cant go back 2 jail

ROXY: i got four kids

DAMARA: *Damara is pressing on the attack! She is gonna try to grab those shovey hands.* SHOULD HAVE BEEN THINKING OF THIS! BEFORE ATTACKING OFFICER! EASY ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS AFTER FOOLISH ACTION HAS BEEN DONE!

ROXY: *giggles like crazy then starts laughing and flops back, her hands grab* FUCK

ROXY: you cant keep mehehehehehehehe--contained!

DAMARA: *She is grinning a wide grin, but one that is more happy than creepy. Keeps those hands grabbed and leaning over her.* OH. BUT SHE IS BLIND NOW? CANNOT SEE WHAT IS HAPPENING? SHE IS CONTAINED! BY ME!

DAMARA: NO MORE SNEAK FINGERS.

DAMARA: IT HAS ENDED.

DAMARA: SHE IS THE APPREHENDED.

ROXY: *keeps laughing until it dies down and just looks at the ceiling* gdi

ROXY: there goes my run

ROXY: ya got me

ROXY: tell my kids i said goodbye

ROXY: *looks at damara* i got got

ROXY: v hard

DAMARA: *Giggles a little finally.* SHE CAN TELL IT HERSELF. FINDING MERCY IN ME IN THIS MOMENT.

DAMARA: TO RELEASE HER IN HOPE OF CHANGING HER ACT. BECOME BETTER PERSON.

DAMARA: WITHOUT THESE SNEAK FINGERING HANDS.

DAMARA: *Lets go of her hands and sits back in the couch.* STILL. I AM WATCHING.

DAMARA: ALWAYS.

ROXY: *lays right here but lifts her hands and fingerguns at Damara* ur welc for the free show then

DAMARA: *Eyebrow raise.* SHE IS TAKING PAID FOR HER BAD SHENANIGANS?

DAMARA: MORE CRIMINAL THAN PREVIOUSLY THOUGHT.

ROXY: hey a girls gotta make a livin

DAMARA: BUT ROXY IS NO SUCH PERSON FOR CRIMINAL LIVING.

ROXY: im just super ambitious in everything

ROXY: including crime

DAMARA: SHE WILL CEASE THIS! NO AMBITION IN CRIME. IS NO WAY OF MAKING LIVING. TOO DANGER TO BE DOING FOR HER.

DAMARA: DID SHE NOT SPEAKING OF HAVING THE CHILDREN? THEN NO CRIMINAL ACTS.

DAMARA: TO LET THEM BE SAFE. WITH HER.

ROXY: ok but at least 2 of my four children are deadly dangerous

ROXY: keep gettin into trouble

DAMARA: NO EXCUSE! STILL IN NEED OF THE MOTHER. EVEN IF SMALL TROUBLESOMES. *Huffs, then looks at the screen. Gestures to it.* WAS THE KARAOKING? NO? NOT DISCUSSING OF HER BAD BEHAVIOURS.

ROXY: lol tru we were *they're actually big troublesomes. But she sits up and gets the controller* since u caught me ill let u go first

DAMARA: *Smiles at her.* BUT SINCE I AM GOING FIRST. AND WANT TO BE SEEING HER REDEEMED. FROM CRIMES. THEN DUET WITH ME. *Time to sing it like you mean it Roxbox.* 

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📱

Terezi:

yo hi rezzilution whats up 

or i guess if you wanna hang actually unless ur sleeping then sleep away

fuck i prolly woke you what with your sharp af senses and all so.... if ur awake why not hang out till u go back 2 sleep?

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📱(Kankri Roxanne)

Kankri:

hey so sorry i busted in on u i was just

worried about a lot 

about every one

i know u dont wanna weapon so im not makin u one but im still getting you something

and i think you might like it

or not lol who the fuck knows

Roxanne:

hi mom

um

im sorry for being a butt

a short butt

i know u wanted 2 help

so

yeah

sorry

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📱 (Damara.)

damz where are u wonder girl

im gonna be all up ur crev

like im not already

its like

one of my favorite crevs

ily and i know ur in double titty city in terms of support but im here for u

like that one busted up sports bra u save for laundry day

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john, daelos

John:

heyyyyyyy

so

sorry for bein all frigidy but i hope ur restin im gonna check on u either way SO I MEAN

Daelos:

hey man

so im glad ur volunteerin thats cool

just makin sure youre sure

also checkin in on you about other stuff

life feelins worms implantin in us superperson like powers

u kno touchin base

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📱

are u up? of course ur not im literally watchin u

ur all fish gapin and pys fist is in ur cheek its great shes sockin you good

(attached is the picture of pythia sleeping with her tiny fist mashed against eridan’s cheek) 

night mouth breather <3

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📱

Dirk:

hey hey mr cap so howre u feelin about this? are u sleepin or did you forget ur phone

idk im kinda worried not that u wont do a good job i kno u will

just hit me up or ill hunt you down or however u want it bb 

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📱(rose, latula)

Rose: 

rose wtf stop sleepin and come chill with me we gotta marathon sabrina the teenage witch and also bewitched and also twilight zone my couch misses ur butt and my drool misses your lap

Latula

yoooo latz r u sleep?????

gr8

im gonna poof in your room and touch everythin with my nacho fingers including

ur face <33333<

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📱(dave, vriska)

[Dave]

dave dave u brave gd soul check it

i just realized ur like the most vanilla hairless mof here ok bare with me

ur bros a horse ur wifes a dog ur dads a jackass ur soon-2-b step bros are a fuckin bear in ever sense of the word and some asshole bee like

like???

wheres it at how deep are u hidin it i know you got it in you you have one leg in furcentral and the other in denial and idk how long ur gonna hold that split my man

ur gonna be in ur late forties shyly peekin out the closet

what would u even be? a squirrel fuck thats cute

im gonna make ur fursona for u at 4 am dave its gonna be most adorable and 1000% accurate piece of poorly cropped imagery

(then in comes the text wall and live updates of how the photoshopping is going)

[Vriska]

(Video of the moment first mate was announced, zoom in on her face when Eridan is announced. Video cuts slowmo and hyper zooms in on her “Hello darkness my old friend...” plays from the phone)

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Send 📱 for a late night text from my muse.

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-- technetronicTactician [TT] began messaging tankedGnostomanic [TG] at 19:26 --

TT: Hey Roxy.

TG: hey dirkenson

TG: how u feelin

TT: Not bad.

TT: Been busy.

TT: But I've also been meaning to check in on you.

TG: its cool its been a busy time

TG: theres a lotta shit 2 do

TT: It's true.

TT: Still, gotta make sure to meddle in your affairs. It's important shit.

TT: How are your uh

TT: Current projects going?

TG: theyre fine

TG: im almost done with specibus upgrades for everyone

TG: and soon ill be workin on my experiements

TT: Cool, cool. Can't wait to see what you've got in store for me.

TT: Did you find a subject for your experiments?

TG: found a psychi troll rather than just the brain

TG: but that works too

TG: i also need a volunteer that wouldnt mind bein controlled by her in a contained environment

TT: Who is it? One of the Serkets, I assume?

TG: yep aranea

TG: i would prolly just strangle either of the others rn

TG: then im gonna ask kurloz

TG: he was mighty pissed about the whole endevour so im sure he wouldnt have a problem

TG: the only thing is findin someone that would let him to that to them again

TT: Right.

TT: Well... If you can't find anyone, I'd be willing.

TG: cant say that im really all for that plan

TG: whoa what a hypocrit its me

TT: I mean, it's your project. But I can handle it.

TG: i know you can

TG: hows ur head even feelin after everything

TG: and i mean everything

TT: I feel fine.

TT: I mean, I'm a little frazzled thinkin' about this new captain business.

TT: And I'm worried about a lot of folks.

TT: But mostly I've been able to focus on work... In a positive kind of way? Hopefully?

TG: yeah idk hes talked about it before

TG: so im glad hes takin time to try and reevaluate things

TG: getting work done is good tho at least when we get up and running well be better than ever

TG: see if that makes a difference

TT: I'm optimistic about it.

TT: Kinda itching to get out of here. So hopefully we'll be ready to get a move on by the time Eridan makes his decision.

TT: ... Do you know who he's thinking about picking?

TG: i never really asked so i dunno

TG: whoever it is i hope theyre up 2 the task

TT: Well... I talked to him about it earlier.

TT: Figure he'd get around to talking to you about it anyway, so I don't feel bad spilling the beans. But I think he's down to uh...

TT: You, me, and Jade.

TG: oh

TG: yeah i can see that

TT: Yeah. Now that I've thought about it, I can too.

TT: I also suggested we try another co-captain situation.

TG: i think thatd do wonders too

TG: just get some of the pressure off

TG: and it helps with the decision makin

TT: For sure.

TT: And then I wouldn't have to worry as much when he picks either of y'all.

TG: tbh i think jade would be the better fit for captain

TG: ur still in the runnings tho

TG: i believe in ur leadership skeills

TG: skills

TT: Eh. Not sure how I feel about being one of the choices.

TT: But... I can see it, I guess.

TT: And I'd accept it if it were offered to me.

TT: I know what I'd want to do.

TT: Still, pretty sure everyone knows how crazy I am.

TT: Not sure they'd want me in charge.

TG: yeah but i think they also trust u

TG: like you wouldnt really charge alla us headfirst into nothing or do anything risky

TG: ur a smart dude whos good under pressure

TT: Maybe you're right.

TG: *ofc ur right

TG: i got u

TT: Ah yes. Thank you.

TT: Covering my rear, as always.

TG: i do what i can

TG: speakin of i had some plans im gonna send you them just some extra shit for the ship

TG: dont stress over it but just lemme know as soon as u can so we can start

TG: its a pretty big project so four hands might be great for it

TT: Oh yeah? Sounds like fun.

TT: I should be able to make time for it soon.

TG: ill send it 2 u later this evening

TG: hmu if u need anything

TG: i really oughta get back to this work i watched a movie with py and eridan so im behind where i wanna be rn

TT: Ah yeah.

TT: Well, don't work too hard, alright?

TG: im not no use goin hard and makin mistakes ill have 2 fix later

TG: u take care too tho

TG: ill see you around

TT: I will.

TT: Later, Roxy.

-- tankedGnostomanic [TG] stopped messaging technetronicTactician [TT] at 23:04 --