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For me if it happens (And it hasnt for a little bit so thats good) I remind myself its my anxiety lying to me and try to talk it back and if I can't I do a thing! Try expaining it when you have to ask and cannot talk it back be like "Hey so my brain is doing this thing where it glitches out and tells me people I care about hate me and its decided to target you because I care about your opinion of me. I try to talk it back normally but right now I'm just not able to, please understand this is not on you and was not caused by anything you did. Can you do me a favor and tell me you don't hate me so I can tell my brain to shut up easier and be happy? I don't really really belive you hate me but my brain is trying to lie to me. The easiest way to solve this is just to ask. And like if you only have to do that ocasionaly and they deside to hate you then perhaps they should be more understanding

They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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The Tears of Emrys

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Some knight!Merlin bullshit I've been thinking about lately (a lot)

Wip

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Bbc Merlin episode 7:

Completely normal about Merlin running through the forest after being zapped by lightning and getting a concussion, OBLITERATING two people, then fucking diving into the lake to pull out heavy armored Arthur.

Completely normal, yes.

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とりあえず初投稿～

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I am apsoulty convinced that EVERYONE in cammalot besides Gwen, Arthur, and Merlin thought they were a threesome. It came up in a fic of mine once. (Spoilers for the fic: "Our Stars Still Shine Together" ahead) It was supposed to be this touching scene in my second arthur returns fic where Elyan (Temporarily brough back) Accepts Merlin and arthur arre together (For context Arthur knows Gwen and found sometone else after he died and belives she deserved to find that happy future after him, but is still worried how Elyan will take him being with Merlin now.) And Elyan just goes "Wait you were not all three together back then?" And I just go laskdjaskdjaskd because I DID NOT PLAN THIS REACTION.

(That fic litterally had characters blindsiding me the most times of any fic. Now I'm just used to it.)

I'm sorry, but there is no way the other servants don't think Merlin and Arthur are fucking. Merlin constantly insults Arthur in front of his men, shows up late to his job all the time, half-asses it when he is there, and Arthur not only doesn't sack him, he shows clear favoritism toward him. If my coworker did all that I would be like, 'He is fucking our boss for sure, and it's the dicking of the prince's life, because that's the only explanation for why he just puts up with Merlin feeding him rat and constantly undermining his authority on top of not even being good at his job.'

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...Is it that time already

Summer is here! Where did the time go, eh? Us Mods are gathering once again as we crawl out from our hibernation. We're wiping the sleep from our eyes, well-rested and ready to plan this year's whumpfest!

Keep an eye out for graphic updates, a refreshed FAQ, and of course, your chance to pick your favorite tropes to be included in this year's list!

We hope your blorbos have had a relaxing summer, because Whumptober is returning soon!

Stay tuned x

- Mods Yenn, Vanne, Kitty and Surro

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My mom called Merlin, Aladdin. Idk how to feel about that! But! With a friend of mine we are trying to start a Etsy Shop :D zero idea on how ti link it yet but enjoy the tiktok ig. Also one day i will figure out how to not butcher the quality :<

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✨More Gay Things on BBC Merlin✨ episode 11:

*Sigh* every time I start a new episode and wonder how can bbc merlin get any gayer, surely last episode was gay af already - they prove me fucking wrong because BOY OH BOY-

“I trust him with my life” MY GUY

“Didn’t know you were so keen to sacrifice your life for me” BUDDY

“I’m glad you’re here Merlin” or whatever he says

Sure, let me, THE PRINCE, just drink this poison to save my SERVANT because I’m not in love with him

IM GOING FUCKING FERAL OVER THEM

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I am also a pink girlie! ALSO why do picrews never have long dresses? So yeah Long dresses and wasit length aubern hair with tennis shoes is my MO. I am also pretty much so pale I glow despite the part of my heritage I connect most strongly with NOT having that as usual and my mom looking VERY VERY VERY diferant in coloring. (Jokes were made as a baby about me being my dad in a bonnet.) (As I grew I gained more traits asoosiated with my mom in other things besides coloring) @places-across-time @calamity-talvi @mysticsoldiersailorhylia @247merthur @saurix5

@oakfiddle @akelafang @shana-rosee @shitsandgigglezz @herstarlight

Did a picrew, thanks to someone's oc i saw a while back

picrew: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1469769

pressure tags: @amirmeavid do the fucking picrew bastard.

no-pressure tags: @fe3lthethunder @cepheusgalaxy @juudaimes-true-form @sarah-ankh @irohs-tea-boy and anyone else who wants to try

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full on my twitter ;-)

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“How could you recognize me

after all these years?”

“What a stupid question.

I was born knowing you.”

Dedicated to @thiamsxbitch

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Rearanged the Arthur loses control and hugs Merlin in a relief scene for maximum emotional impact.

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do you ever not write for so long that you’re almost afraid to? like what if I’m dumb now

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behind every gay person is an even gayer person