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070 Shake - Modus Vivendi

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Get that October cartoons watch list ready

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When you start to respect yourself, you also start to recognize who doesn’t. Friendships watering down, clashing with people you used to get along with, discovering some relationships/dynamics aren’t for you— it’s all part of growing as a person and realizing what is and isn’t what you want or need. It doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong with you or that you’re doing the wrong thing: new habits, new boundaries and a newfound self-respect often require reevaluation.

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yeah I’m totally fine I just need to set myself on fire

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Safia Elhillo, from Home Is Not a Country; “Boys”

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sleepy girl aesthetic 💌

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the fact that I have to be in the “right headspace” to do even the simplest tasks. absolutely humiliating

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its so fucked up that optical discs straight up rot though right? something about digital media just feels like it shouldnt be susceptible like that to the forces that govern the physical world and yet discs rot as if theyre an organic thing

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when w. h. auden said “evil is unspectacular and always human” and ursula k. leguin said “this is the great treason of the artist: a refusal to admit the banality of evil and the terrible boredom of pain”

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Mary Oliver / Princess Mononoke / Bertolt Brecht / Comic by @catadromously

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revolutionary girl utena + flèche, mary jean chan

[ID: excerpts of a poem interspersed with screencaps.

excerpt: 

History

At the age of thirteen, I wielded a blade because I had a firm grip, I was in love with Shakespeare, and the school team needed an épéeist. When my mother flew to Linz to watch me go 3–4 down against a former champion, she gripped the railing until her marriage ring was folded into flesh.

screencap: Juri attempting to wrest Utena’s rose crest ring off her finger.

excerpt:

Strategy

You never duel against the same person, even if it is the same person. On the piste, once the blades are tilted upwards to signify respect, you recalibrate to thwart their every move. She was disarmed by my tears, a timeout to breathe through the yellowing bruise on my pale, yellow skin.

screencap: Juri clutches her chest after Utena breaks the chain of her locket.

excerpt:

Footwork

Changing into school uniform felt like cross-dressing. I took my time: removing mask, then chest protector, lingering at the breeches. The day I learnt to lunge, I began to walk differently, saw distance as a kind of desire. Once, my blade’s tip gently flicked her wrist: she said it was the perfect move.

screencap: Juri and Utena lunge at each other during a duel, swords crossing.

excerpt:

Parry riposte

My greatest weakness: the riposte. In the changing room, the girl I was about to duel said I smelled of bitter gourd. We were practicing the flèche. Inevitably, I collided with her, a blur of entangled blades. I glimpsed her wry expression through our masks’ steel mesh: her gleaming, smiling lips.

screencap: Shiori and Juri in silhouette, falling away from each other.

excerpt:

Grip and point control

French or pistol grip: one offers stability, the other more room for surprise. Before I came out to the world, I asked myself: French or pistol grip? Now, you say: You’re a great lover. Thank years of hard work on point control – how two fingers manoeuvre the blade’s tip – a flurry of sickle moons.

screencap:

Juri in profile, holding a badminton racket.]

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fairies, yoshitaka amano, 2006

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did you know? did you know?

you should have known.

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a list of some bi books

(that you can read for free)

Bisexual Politics: theories, queries, and visions, Naomi Tucker, (1995)

Bisexuality: a reader and sourcebook, Thomas Geller, (1990)  

Women and bisexuality, Sue George, (1993)

View From Another Closet: Exploring Bisexuality in Women, Janet Bode (1976)

Bisexuality: The Psychology and Politics of an Invisible Minority, Beth Firestein, (1996)

Closer to Home: Bisexuality & Feminism, Elizabeth Reba Weise, (1992)

Bi Any Other Name: Bisexuals Speak Out, Loraine Hutchins & Lani Ka'ahumanu, (1991)

The Very Inside: An Anthology of Writings By Asian and Pacific Islander Lesbian and Bisexual Women, Sharon Lim-Hing, (1994)