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Thelonious Monk, b. October 10, 1917 / 2024

(image: Thelonious Monk, Monk's Mood, New York, NY, ca. 1956-1957)

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Insane things are happening on my grocery store post

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if yoko Ono had been a man they would sing his praises as the yaoi king that destroyed those infidel Beatles

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drawing docket

going to put ugly sticky notes on my laptop to motivate me to draw. here is the starting list

14 april 2025

18 april 2025

18 april 2025

this one is kinda cute.

19 april 2025

25 april 2025

4 may 2025

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I hate noticing how being aware that I have a woman's voice limits how I use it and limits my ability to talk back to people because I know it's not perceived the same as a man's - commanding, believable, threatening.

Living in Finland, the apartment building I live in has a common sauna (you need to book your shift). Several times when I have been in there, I have heard someone aggressively trying to open the door. I assume it's just someone trying to go to the sauna for free, testing if it's vacant. I hate that I find myself thinking, I want to yell fuck off, but then that person will hear there is a woman in here, alone. So I do nothing and swallow my frustration.

I have a neighbour who has an animal that makes quite a bit of noise. What annoys me more than the noise is him shouting "quiet!" at the animal whenever it makes a peep. I want to yell "you shut up!" at him, but I don't, because I remember my voice doesn't boom like his. Would he even hear it through the walls like I hear him? Would he give a shit hearing a woman nagging at him? So I do nothing and swallow my frustration.

This happens in public spaces, too. I'm afraid to speak up because I'm too aware that as a woman, I'm perceived as weak, vulnerable, shrill, and easy to dismiss. A man taking a stand with his voice evokes a completely different response in people, at least that's how I feel. I hate noticing that in situations like this, I ask my male partner to speak up for me if he is there, knowing that his voice will lend my thoughts more credibility than my own.

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If we could start a movement like this, it could really change things. I wish people thought about the power of boycotts, especially in a society that runs on profit and consumption. I think if people quit American-hosted social media it would be powerful too, as they run on ad-revenue. The more you scroll and view adds, the more profitable it is.

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trying to make my way through drawing my favourite georges...

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my non feminine demeanor makes being nice to feminine girls feel so creepy. i'm like *deadpan stare* *no inflection* i think you look like. really pretty today. your makeup... suits you. i like your.. hair. it's pretty. do you want to... uh. do you want my number? just because. we could do something. i mean. for fun. just fun. *plays with my hair awkwardly* haha. be my friend.

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theyre in a polycule

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millie did a lot of things wrong but it's stupid to blame her

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she needs peaceful and loving and quiet internet spaces where she can be encouraged to be a gentler and kinder person

no! good vibes liberalism will kill the patient!

she needs pointlessly contrarian bitter haterism to live.

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first date idea. i perform invasive surgery on you with no anaestheia

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there is only one person i trust won't abandon me. everyone else must go through trials before following me like youre psyche or heracles. Unless you're titmousetestified in which case please come back and talk about dirk to me

if you so desire you can buy me a redbull

here is the (rough) drawing agenda. i draw many people in beds and chairs and sofas and speakeasies doing... nothing really