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WOW 😲

I’ve been working with @clevcrew for 6 weeks now and I’m down 11 lbs 😊 my clothes fit me way better and that makes me happy.

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Here’s a picture of my pointy butt

Jacket: @v3apparel code: V3NIKA for 10% off

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Yeah I didn't use my passport for the first time until I was 24. I guess maybe if you live in a place (like Europe or close to the US/Canada border you might use it all the time, but down here in Australia it's a long way to go to leave the country and my parents sure as hell couldn't afford it.

I always find it really confusing when I encounter people who don’t have a passport. Like…how is that even possible? Especially people who are 18 or older and can just go get their own passport. It just baffles my mind that in 2015 there are people without a passport and I’m on like my fifth, I think?

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They are kind of totally different programs...

I can’t decide whether to do CRUSH60 or Kayla Itstines Bikini Body Guide?

Do any of you guys have an opinion on either of these that could maybe aid in my decision?

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Eep I'm so happy for you! I just got back on my horse after 6 months off riding and honestly how did I last this long. There's nothing better. Good for you lovely xx

These past few days (lol more like weeks/months) I have been overwhelmed with confusion and emotions of all kind. I’ve felt so lost; like I have no direction at all. I’ve had waves of joy and waves of crippling sadness. I’ve been stressed, overwhelmed, and completely out of sorts. 

Who am I? Who do I want to be? Where do I want to school? Is my major right for me? Will I do a bikini competition again? Should I go back to riding consistently? Where is the future taking me?

While I don’t have all the answers, hell I don’t even have half, I can say that I feel strings pulling on my heart and I strongly believe that I need to follow that direction. 

The other day I had rice krispies cereal and put real sugar in it. Not zero calorie artificial sweetener, but real, sweet sugar. It sounds dumb but that moment was very eye opening for me. 

When I was younger I used to eat rice krispies with sugar alllll the time. I didn’t even think twice about sugar having carbs. I’ve realized that while competing, counting macros, and focusing on bodybuilding has been an incredible journey for me, it’s also taken so much from me. 

Having knowledge about food is wonderful, but it’s made my life very… different. Every time I put something in my mouth I am acutely aware of its macronutrients and even if I’m not plugging it in MFP, I’m subconsciously tallying in my head. It’s often taken away the joys of eating with other people in my life or going out in fear that I won’t be able to track what I’m eating or drinking. 

Getting back on my horse yesterday made me remember what it was like to focus on goals other than what I look like. To want to be strong to improve my riding and not to look aesthetically pleasing. I’m realizing more and more that solely focusing on how I look is exhausting and frankly it’s making me miserable at times.

I’m excited to get back into riding and to compete (in a horse show) in two weeks. My heart will always be with horses and I’m wondering what direction my life, interests & goals will head towards in the future. For now, I’m going to take a step back from bodybuilding so strictly and start working out for fun again. Maybe i’ll count macros on some days but honestly I just want to enjoy my life and focus on something more than my body. 

I’ll still be in the gym & I’ll still be trying to make progress with my lifts, but I’m not gonna sweat it if I miss a few days or if I want to go out for dinner and drinks with friends or my mom. Life should be spent doing things that make you happy, not stressing about every little thing. 

I truly hope that this is my “balance” and I feel comfortable and excited about this decision. Just wanted to share.

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Crush day 3, round 2 complete 👏

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Alternative Style Blog. ♡

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I fluctuate between not wanting to eat and loving how I look lean, and wanting to eat everything and grow a butt and it’s frustrating and I’m pretty done with these thoughts

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That embarrassing moment when you try to work out through a sore calf muscle and end up with a muscle tear :-/

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2 years leg progress. 👌🏼

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me too tbh

A collection of selfies in my favorite selfie spot at le gym

Instagram: @fitnika101

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The potato has been genetically modified ever since scientists realized they could fight back blight that caused the Irish potato famine

ALL citrus fruits are GMO hybrids of the pomelo, mandarin, and citron- the only 3 original citrus. 

Most people have no idea what they’re talking about when they say they’re against GMO’s. No idea. 

We need to get around to realizing that genetic modification isnt contamination, or carcinogenic chemicals, or sludge, or evil godless mutations. They aren’t horrifying and they’re grown natural just like everything else. 

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omg I just started binge-watching that yesterday. It’s blowing my mind.

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Can I pls have your abs? K thx bye.

And post run feels. I’m a dork 🐨

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Taking a different approach to lifting at the moment because I need to halt muscle growth and focus on fat loss for a little while. I’m seeing results - I’ve definitely leaned out in the last few weeks (thank you exams being over and cortisol levels returning to normal), but I’d estimate by BF% to still be in the high 20′s and I’d like it closer to 20%. So, I’ve upped my longer cardio sessions, dropped back on lifting and added in some high-intestity yoga. Current plan is:

Monday: Yoga and HIIT Tuesday: Rest Wednesday: Minimum 40min steady state cardio (this week I ran 4km) Thursday: Upper body day - concentrating on shoulders and chest. Mostly variations of bench and OHP with some side/front raises and chest pullovers thrown in. Main lifts high weight, low reps and accessory high reps moderate weight. HIIT afterwards. Friday: Lower body day - Squats, deadlifts. Accessory work with incline leg press, glute bridges, hamstring curls and sumo squats.  Saturday: Am on night shifts Friday/Saturday night this week so will most likely be a run as the gym will be closed by the time I get up. Sunday - Rest, although I’m going out to my horse to do some conditioning work with her in preparation for ending her spell so that could potentially end up being a LOT of hard work.

Am eating at a significant deficit, and it is HARD. But it will be worth it! In about a month, I hope to have lost a few % BF and will return to Crush.