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the ultimate price of anaxa's achievements is to be forgotten. in this essay late-night ramble i will

every one of anaxa's character stories ends with an indication that said story will be forgotten. for his first story, he snaps out of a flashback. his second (an experiment log) mentions that the original has already been destroyed. the third is an improvised speech -- never recorded, never practiced -- and the fourth story literally states that it is "One of the echoes in Anaxa's memories after the Grove had fallen, which vanished because nobody discovered it".

over and over again they tell us that there will be no record of his achievements, nobody to remember him when he's dead. and the heartbreaking part is that anaxa can come to terms with sacrificing his body, but he can't come to terms with sacrificing his memories. because anaxa desperately wants to be remembered. in as i've written, it's mentioned that he's able to laugh off his failures because his achievements will grant him a legacy that lasts for generations. and look at his experiment logs -- how organized they are, how diligently he must keep them, all so that his efforts are preserved. and, of course, why else would he insist on being called anaxagoras? to shorten a name is to forget something, and he can never risk that. because memories are all he has; having lost his family and sacrificed his physical form, what else is there?

but the thing is, anaxa has to be forgotten to succeed. in his last character story, he says this:

Yet, I have not lost enough… In comparison to what I pursue, I have not lost enough to fulfill the law of equivalent exchange.

so he knows he still has to lose something else. and later in the same story:

My future students, if you see these words, it proves that my endeavor has failed at the final step.

"if you see these words, I have failed." and in the context of his destroyed experimental logs, his interrupted flashback, his improvised speeches, we understand that the final price anaxa must pay is his legacy. the law of equivalent exchange is claiming the one thing he has worked towards all this time.

anaxa knows he's arrogant. but i'd like to think it's a desperate, tragic sort of arrogance, like the flare of a fire as it finds its last piece of kindling. please look at me. please remember me before it's too late.

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the drip finally stops

(this sound hit a lil too close to canon, it's scary)

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Phainon, who has spent weeks working up the courage to even sling an arm around Mydei's shoulders after a good mission, agonizing over the possibility of rejection and risk of straining the entire dynamic of the Chrysos Heirs' team: "H-Hey, great job in today's battle!"

Mydei:

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May triumph always be yours, Mydeimos.

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haha thats so funny [face gets gravely serious] but were you not a staunch and trusted ally i would have you executed for such a joke

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until we meet again

comic-musing based on hsr 3.2 quest

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anaxa redesign

it bothers me how out of context most amphoreus' designs are, they don't look like they belong to their land 😭

next redesign: mydei

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yeah I ship Aglaea and Anaxa(goras) idk I just think there's a lot of lore we don't know about them yet bc the 3.2 quest had more focus on Castorice's lore rather than an in depth expansion on Aglanaxa's dynamic (plus their Titans being lovers and Cerces shipping them while they're trying to avoid each other is funny)

idc if people disagree w the ship; they're entitled to their own opinion, as am I and if you don't ship them then don't waste your time commenting about it, but the consistent mischaracterization of Anaxa (and Aglaea by extension) irks me

they appeared to hate each other at first in 3.1, that gave birth to the divorced couple memes, but 3.2 reveals that they actually don't dislike each other and find the other to be really admirable–it's just that their ideals clash with one another, which is not indicative of personal hatred.

Upon reading his thoughts, Cerces gives the audience an insight to how Anaxa actually feels about Aglaea: "...you think quite highly of her, no?" to which he'll respond (in EN anyway) with a little stutter, the only time his present voice isn't steady. Later, Aglaea basically says she respects that Anaxa can stand opposed to the world unwaveringly.

these two do not dislike each other, I feel like assuming they do undermines the complexity of their relationship and what's revealed in 3.2–that for all they scoff at each other, they're really not that different from one another with their self-destructiveness when it comes to fulfilling their goals, and even respect the other for it–and oh, they hate that they do, because, well, pride. It's actually a really interesting dynamic to think about, and it doesn't necessarily have to be romantic, even if it has undertones of it.

I also just think that it's neat that Aglaea is the demigod of Romance but is the stoic™ and has more similarities to the Greek goddess of wisdom Athena with her leadership and being a voice of reason, while Anaxa, chosen by the Titan of Reason, is driven by love and passion: he loved his sister so much he sacrificed his eye to see her again and never let go of the dromas plushie she gave him, he takes pride Phainon, Castorice and Hyacine as supported by extra material, he's passionate in his research and teaching.

they are foils your honor

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phainomenomenon

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To love Mydei is to be unable to forget him.

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Farewell...

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anaxa wip💚💫

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Round 2 of crème de la crème. Rip wind archer 🙏

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playing honkai star rail after not being able to for over a year is kinda crazy. bc i got this game when it came out dude, i knew all the characters. and now im looking and i'm just like "wow i have so much to learn about all of you"

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from that tangled scene

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I'LL CRUSH YOU.

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the whole world on his shoulders :]