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Happy WIP Wednesday!! Thanks to @blitzwhore and @tealvenetianmask for the tag!

I am still deeply fixated on my soft post-Sinsmas comfort sex fic 😩 I'm so excited to share this one but I don't want to give everything away, so here's a tiny snippet that I'm very proud of 👀👀👀👀

“O-ohhhhh… Blitz…” Blitz felt a purr building in his chest. It was something he had always tried to stifle when he was with Stolas. He hadn't wanted to give away how strongly—how much—those nights made him feel. Now, though, he let the gentle vibrations sweep through him; with every fiber of his being, he needed Stolas to understand that this was the only place he wanted to be right now. Here, tucked between Stolas's soft thighs, making him squirm and gasp and moan and feel, making his body light up until the whole world fell away and there was nothing else but them.

Tagging @bookishcatcafe and @neurospiczzzziee if you'd like to share!

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Happy WIP Wednesday!

This is a snippet from Chapter 2 of my 3-chapter smutty angst fic, Seal the Deal. It was hard to find a bit that's even remotely sfw. Enjoy Stolas being still fairly clueless about sex on their second night together and Blitzø being dense.

Now, the fluffy white of Stolas’s face was flushed red, and his feathers puffed up a bit, eye make-up running. He looked like such a delicious mess.  Blitzø ran a hand slowly down the owl’s neck and then traced his torso, through the fluff on his chest, all the way to the hip bones, which buckled up in response to his touch. He smiled when he heard the softest moan.  “What can I do for you?” Blitzø breathed.  “Hmm?” Stolas was lifting his head from the bed, and the moan stopped abruptly. Blitzø dragged his fingers lower and responded with a smirk. “Tell me about what you like . . .” “What I . . . like? I’m not sure what you mean.” The owl was looking off to the side, seemingly avoiding Blitzø’s eyes.   Was Blitzø not being clear? “Sex stuff you like to do. When you’re with someone, like this.”  Stolas shrugged apologetically. “Nothing’s coming to mind right now. Um . . . I’m not terribly good at giving directions.”  Blitzø sighed and kept teasing the sensitive skin beneath the feathers on the bird’s lower abdomen with his fingers. “You had a shit ton of ideas on the phone . . .”  All four of the owl’s eyes widened, and his body stiffened under Blitzø’s touch. What the fuck was Stolas’s deal? Was Blitzø doing something wrong?

I'm tagging @theradiodaemon and @stolitzsings who kindly tagged me the last two weeks and got nothing in return. Plus I want to see what they're working on!

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Some illustrations~

Soft stolitz

Stolas said sunflower seeds are edible

Stolassssssssss

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Eleanor Shellstrop and Blitzø Buckzo are the same person, exhibit A:

Blitzø: We both suck. You know who doesn't suck? Stolas. He is putting himself in danger to help us, because he, unlike us, is an amazing person.

Chaz: I didn't get into Heaven to go to school.

Blitzø: You didn't get into Heaven at all, shirt-for-brains.

Chaz: I just want to be myself.

Blitzø: That's a very, very bad idea. Do not be yourself. You need to be a better version of yourself, okay? And I do, too. And our only hope right now is this kind, selfless, amazing nerd. Think about that.

Stolas: Do you have to call me a nerd so much?

Blitzø: I said a lot of other nice things, okay? Toughen up, nerd.

(I put Chaz in Jason's place because it just felt right. No offence, Jason, I love you bby).

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This moment is burning into Via brain.

Her magic recreate that moment, when her dad hugs her; splitting his reflection off from hers through the neck.

Like he's been decapitated.

Looks like Via's magic goes out of control briefly because of her emotions over it.

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I'm a day late for the Apology Tour anniversary, but here's my favorite thing I wrote in the aftermath last year, and why I think the episode is so brilliant (despite still not really being able to rewatch it all the way through because of ouchies).

TW for the whole self-hatred topic.

I've held off on writing about this moment so far because so many people have been posting who get it, and I like to be original. But it's keeping me up at night- literally- so I have to talk about it anyway.

Stolas just poured his heart out, and Blitz is reaching over to comfort him. But he hesitates for a moment too long. In the background, there's this pop song playing at the party, and you can make out the haunting lyrics, "don't touch that pretty thing."

Whenever I rewatch the episode, I need to pause after this moment just to breathe. It seems to get worse every time.

(All of the expressions here are fantastic, as is the color scheme, but that's not really what I want to talk about.)

I identify with Blitz a lot, and I never like to see people bashing him, but it especially hurts after this episode.

Because I am Blitz in that moment. When your internal narrative (whether put into words or not) frames you as this natural disaster that flattens everything in its path, that creates messes for other people to clean up, that hurts the people you love the most- well, you carry that with you. Especially if when you express the hurt you hold inside, it comes out in ugly ways. You carry a voice that tells you to spare those you care about by making yourself unobtrusive, fucking leaving, absolutely denying yourself the chance to say what you feel, so that their lives can be better. But you still need people.

I'm going to stay rapt to this show for as long as it takes to see Blitz realize that he can and does make people happy by being in their lives and by being his truest self- and that his trauma and the shitty things he's done- they're part of him, but they are not his core. It will be worth all of this pain to arrive there. I need it.

It seems like "I make everyone's lives worse" will be in the next episode. It's going to be a rough ride.

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This moment is burning into Via brain.

Her magic recreate that moment, when her dad hugs her; splitting his reflection off from hers through the neck.

Like he's been decapitated.

Looks like Via's magic goes out of control briefly because of her emotions over it.

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Me: 🙂

Me: *remembers Stolas was a flawed, traumatised, neurodivergent, mentally ill abuse victim with no support network, and he still chose to step up and try his best to be a loving, doting, protective, caring, mature, and sensitive parent and to never put the weight of his pain on his child's shoulders*

Me:

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I want to talk about a kind of troubling reaction I've been seeing to both Apology Tour and Ghostfuckers among parts of the fandom. The person is usually a reaction youtuber but sometimes someone writing on tumblr or twitter. They say something along the lines of "oh, I'm glad Blitz is being forced to confront his crimes/traumas/pain. This is the only way he will finally heal."

That's not how healing works.

I know that reaction youtubers don't always have the most developed takes because they're . . . you know . . . reacting in the moment. But I think it's still worth talking about.

I'm going set aside the people who seem to believe that Blitz needs to be punished for his crimes, and address those who genuinely think that getting a tidal wave of his own trauma in his face is what he needs to heal.

There's an attitude in contemporary culture that traumas are something people need to confront. As in, put on a brave face and dive in like a big boy. I blame capitalism, rugged individualism, and all the pieces of media that tie up a character's arc neatly by having them confront their darkest fears and insecurities. It can put a nice bow on things, but it isn't really how healing from trauma works.

Apology Tour:

Blitz gets confronted by a shit ton of people who hate him, at least some of whom are his exes, who he feels he's personally damaged. The decor and party games are all about killing and torturing him. Verosika confronts him about how much he hurt her. Oh, and then he sees the love of his life, who he's just recently pushed away, making out with another guy- proof, in his eyes, that Stolas is happier without him. And this all reflects the underlying fears he already has about who he is as a person (shown to us by Truth Seekers).

So what was the takeaway? Blitz came to the conclusion that he doesn't always want to be like this (good, but like . . . worth this much pain?). He flops on his steering wheel (relatable). He stops trying to reach out to Stolas (uh oh . . . ). He spends A MONTH spiraling in his own misery and making a mess of all aspects of his life until he's dragged out of it by a caring friend.

The party doesn't empower Blitz to change. It knocks him down and fucking traumatizes him (seriously, images of Stolas from the party show up later in his trauma reel) too much for him to be able to do actually work toward said change. I suspect that if left to his own devices, he would have kept spiraling for quite a while longer. It's one thing to want to change, and another to try to do so alone in the aftermath of a pile-on.

Ghostfuckers

After Blitz drags himself out of his hole of cheesy ice cream and despair to "play sex ghosts" (escapism, again, still knocked down by Apology Tour), infester demon Rolando picks him out as an easy target and assaults him, yes, assaults, with horrific images of his worst traumas and fears.

Not to state the obvious, but Rolando isn't interested in helping Blitz heal. He's trying to kill the guy. He wants to engulf Blitz in his trauma to the extent where he's consumed by it and loses the will to fight back. And as some excellent posts by others have pointed out already, he very likely would have succumbed if not for Millie's support.

Millie helps Blitz get through the onslaught by telling him about what makes him great and how he's improved her life and showing him love and care. And by literally beating the fucking infester out of him. Because there's someone in him who's hurting him, who's re-traumatizing him against his will. She takes him away from the reel of horrible memories.

So . . . do I think that confronting traumas can play a role in healing? Sure. But only if it's consensually (which neither of these situations are) and when the person trying to heal is ready. And most likely in small doses. No one's going and successfully confronting every horrible thing that's ever happened to them in one go.

And in my humble opinion, it's not going to work (for anyone, but especially not for Blitz) alone and without a healthy dose of kindness and compassion (both external and internal).

Blitz has a long road ahead of him toward healing, and it's going to be hard work on his part but also require love and support from the people in his life.

In a wonderful moment near the end of Ghosfuckers, Blitz and Millie work together to get Blitz's wrecked van unstuck and push it back through the portal into Hell. I love it because it's so simple and it kind of tells us everything we need to know. This sweet and salty gremlin has a lot of work ahead of him, but he doesn't have to do it alone.

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Blitz and His "Fuck or Be Fucked" Worldview

There's been a whole lot of talk about Blitz and whether or not he's masculine (and why people assume he is) and what role(s) he plays in bed.

Then there was the penguin short, where he said this . . .

and we all got upset because it didn't match things we know and love about him . . .

I'm not writing this post to claim that he is or isn't exclusively dominant in bed (he's not- there's part of him that loves when Stolas is powerful and wants to get stepped on by him. OBVIOUSLY).

I'm writing it to delve a little into why this matters to him, and the clues are in how he talks to people all the time.

First of all, when Blitz is feeling his most powerful, he loves to boast about fucking people . . . in a violence way, not a sex way. BUT he always uses language that compares it to sex. Specifically, being the one doing the fucking.

He even kind of projects that attitude when Moxxie is fighting the boar creature . . .

Bitches and sluts and whores are people who lose. It's a gender-neutral term. Which ALSO just happen to invoke the connotation of these people (and boars and seals) being fucked.

Not so coincidentally, he also uses AFAB body part insults to condescend to or dismiss women he doesn't like.

And diminishes Moxxie's genitalia/suggests that Moxxie gets fucked when he's picking on him.

He implies something similar about sexual submission when Fizz is getting bullied by Mammon . . .

And when Blitz is losing, well . . .

Suddenly he's getting fucked and/or aggressive women are growing dicks.

So life is "fuck or be fucked." No matter his actual feelings about dressing feminine or about what's enjoyable in the bedroom, he looks at just about every interaction through the lens of who has the power. And connects power with traditional masculinity and sexual agency. In life, he's a top because if he weren't, he might get fucked. And getting fucked is bad, because then he'd lose control.

I have no doubt that "fuck or be fucked" has helped him survive. And people ARE out to fuck him over. But not everyone is. Cue Marina and the Diamonds lyrics. If you know, you know.

A little vulnerability, in the bedroom and/or emotionally, would be good for him. He's taking baby steps, and I don't think he'll let his guard down all at once. But I hope he gets more and more open to letting Stolas and other loved ones help him get there.

This was inspired by a conversation with @akirathedramaqueen, like a lot of what I post on here is <3. And thanks to people in a particular discord server (you know who you are but I won't list all of you) for encouraging me too.

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This 100%. He's catastrophizing, and who can blame him, with his personal history and the situation he was just in.

He already had his "he can get hurt?" moment with Stolas almost dying in Western Energy.

I think he's also fully inexperienced with this type of situation and has no reference except for the one right in front of him, where the punishment is getting beheaded right then and there.

There's no way he was dragged in front of a court before he met Moxxie in jail. He was just thrown in there.

I wholeheartedly agree with everyone who has pointed out that Stolas believing he would die in Blitzø's place highlights how oblivious he is to his own privilege.

But I also want to talk about how Stolas wasn't the only one who genuinely believed he, a Goetia, could die in Blitzø's place.

Blitzø's agonised cries are not the cries of someone who thinks their lover is making it out alive 👀

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How Helluva Boss is going to be released on Amazon~

As well all know Helluva Boss is going to be releasing on Amazon before being put on Youtube, and I heard from a mootie of mine who's subscribed to Viv's Patreon, that the plan for Helluva Boss going forward is this:

This news came right from Viv's May Patreon Q&A: Viv's current plan is for the first half of Season 3 to be released weekly on Amazon.

Essentially...

One episode will be released each week on Amazon, and the series will go on another hiatus once the first half of Season 3 is finished airing.

Meaning, Season 3 will most likely be a split cour with a mid-season finale, similar to Season 2.

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This makes sense- being that Viv confirmed in an interview last year that the first half of Season 3 of Helluva Boss was already fully written and recorded.

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This is so hot and sweet and intimate. Something about "you still with me?" puts my heart in my throat. I feel like Stolas has never had someone who checks in on him (who isn't a servant) in any situation before.

I haven't made enough progress this week to post a WIP but I'll try for next week! Thanks for the tag, and thanks for this snippet of fic!

Happy WIP Wednesday! I am once again thinking about my post-Sinsmas tender birdpuss eating smut fic 🥺

He allowed himself a moment to nuzzle into the pale plumage, letting a soft whine escape his throat as Stolas's feathers seemed to welcome him home. Face still buried in them, he pressed a kiss to the center of Stolas’s chest. Then, encouraged by the falter in Stolas’s breath, he moved down a little and kissed him again, and again... He trailed down the length of Stolas’s torso, feeling the bird tremble underneath him as he moved lower and lower. Now, sitting between Stolas's legs, Blitz's lips brushed against the waistband of Stolas’s sweatpants, and he paused. “You still with me, pretty bird?” He looked up at Stolas, noted the way his chest was heaving now. His eyes were hooded, but focused; in fact, they were zeroed-in on the place where Blitz’s mouth had brushed against his pants. “I'm with you,” he breathed. Blitz felt a soft smile turn up the corners of his mouth. “You want me to keep going?” “Please.” Fuck, Blitz could hardly believe this was real. He had been so sure, just a few months ago, that he would never touch Stolas like this again. That Stolas would never want him to. Shit, for months before that, he'd thought Stolas would never want anything to do with him outside of rough, kinky, admittedly incredible sex. But here they were, and Stolas cared about him, and being gentle didn't feel so impossible now. In fact, it felt…amazing. He delicately hooked his fingers around Stolas’s waistband and slipped the pants down a few inches, exposing the delicate lines of his hip bones. With just one look Blitz felt his pulse racing through his chest and between his legs. He thumbed at Stolas’s hips, traced the gentle V-shape that disappeared into his underwear. Stolas whimpered again. “Take them off,” he murmured.

Tagging @blitzwhore, @tealvenetianmask, and @theradiodaemon if y'all feel like sharing!

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HB S3 Crack Theory: What if its Focus on Addiction is as Much About Loona as it is Stolas?

AKA: We want Stolas and Loona to bond, and this would be a way to have that while HB breaks our hearts as usual. A very long almost 3k post, and a theory based on little show clues which might be very wrong but won't escape my brain.

TW: Alcoholism, binge drinking. CW: Vomiting

So I've had this theory floating around in my head since the HB team said that S3 will focus on family and addiction. I'll admit it is very much a crack theory, so don't @ me that it seems like I'm basing this off really meager clues. I'm aware! That's kind of how crack theories are.

Theory:

Stolas does indeed have an alcohol problem, but Loona has a more concealed, more consistent one and will be the individual in the Stolitz family who actually needs support. Stolas will surprisingly be the one to discover it and get her to open up about it.

Why Do I Think Loona Might Have an Alcohol Problem?

Because HB as a series has a habit of hiding information in small, unaddressed details that have more meaning when you watch them back later. And I've noticed a few things across the two seasons that might be hints...

HINT 1: Past History According to the snotty Hellhound in Queen Bee, Loona has already been puke drunk at parties before, to an extent of being shamed for it. She's already a distant outsider, and it looks like her destructive form of partying made her a laughing stock to some of the Hellhounds. It's also uncertain if her dialogue about being reminded was just trying to distance herself from this asshole, or if she was literally blackout drunk at the previous party and didn't remember it at all.

HINT 2: Brushing Off Self-Destrucive Behavior Loona had no concerns with Blitzø chugging the keg of Beezlejuice (which concerned even Bee) and went into denial that he was self-destructing at the party. This could have been just her assuming he was fine all the time - Blitzø always presented himself as bulletproof to the team. It also could've been her usual standoffish attitude, or her trying not to leave the party because she was finally fitting in. OR it could be because she really didn't see a problem with him going this hard, because she's done it before.

HINT 3: Handling Drunks Despite having no current friends and a very loner lifestyle in Queen Bee, she was pretty knowledgeable with how to handle someone extremely drunk. Her previous party experience might've been a one-time thing, or might've been a situation she found herself in more than we knew.

HINT 3: Hiding Alcohol/Casual Day Drinking EDITING IN THIS ONE IN THANK YOU @blitzwhore !!! At the beginning of Ozzie's, Loona was drinking on the job while reading a magazine featuring an article from Verosika, on how binge drinking was sexy.

There was also bottle of booze in Mastermind. This is the one that started the theory for me (because I totally forgot about the Ozzie's one). Loona had a bottle of alcohol hidden in her work desk. She specifically had it in a spot that no one else checks. That drawer was unchecked enough that she had the I.M.P. photo in there where Blitzø wouldn't scribble out his own face. There was no reason for her to have a bottle there unless she planned to drink during the workday (apparently AGAIN, as has now been pointed out to me), maybe when the rest of the crew was out on a mission and wouldn't notice.

HINT 4: Coping with Stress Via Alcohol After the Sinsmas battle, Loona was eager to turn the rest of the Sinsmas celebration to drinking. This could just be her trying to engage in the Sinsmas Hellhound gluttony, or could be a coping method she uses for stress on the regular.

NOT A HINT, BUT HONORABLE MENTION: The concept of Loona being hungover at inappropriate times was an idea they were toying with way back in the pilot episode. The pilot is not canon, and it might be a character trait they decided to scrap. I can't call it a hint. But I can present it as something that was a possibility for her from the start.

If Loona Does Have an Alcohol Problem, Why Wouldn't Blitzø Notice?

There are a few potential reasons:

ROSE-TINTED GLASSES Blitzø insists at basically every turn that Loona is perfect just how she is. He overlooks serious personality flaws and lets her get away with mouthing off to M&M frequently. This love was probably critical to her trusting him as an adoptive father, but it also means he's turned a very blind eye to her genuine faults.

PRIVACY Blitzø is a great and supportive father. He loves Loona unconditionally and wants to be involved in her life. But when he's not slathering her with physical affection and praise, he actually gives her a lot of space. This has probably been critical to her developing trust, but there are entire parts of her life he and the audience never see. We've never seen the inside of her bedroom, which to me is an indication that Blitzø rarely, if ever does either. She's able to go off to Bee's party with little more than a note on her door - no text or anything about where it is - and he doesn't question it. And again, her workspace is respected so much that she has that unscribbled photo of the I.M.P. crew in the top drawer.

Blitzø may have stalked M&M throughout S1 but always gave Loona explicit privacy throughout both seasons. If she has been concealing any problems, it would be a lot easier to do than people realize.

(Personal note, I bring the room and the drawer up because of experience with a close person in my life who hid their alcoholism this way. They would drink at night, hidden in their room, and store alcohol in their closet where it wouldn't be discovered.)

MORE OBVIOUS VS. HIDDEN ADDICTION It'd be dumb to skip over Blitzø's experience with loved ones and addiction. Cash, Barbie, Verosika: he's been around it plenty. But from our limited audience view, these addictions were more obvious. Cash was shown to be drunk and slurring from his first appearance, and Verosika was also drinking in hers. Barbie went straight from rehab to selling drugs from the human world as "honest work." Their addictions/relationship with drugs all show up regularly in their everyday lives.

However, Blitzø in The Circus didn't notice that Stolas had been literally gulping absinthe up until they were face-to-face. He was surprised to see Stolas binge drinking the same way in Apology Tour, as if it was his first time seeing it.

He's also had a long streak of convincing himself other people in his life were 'fine.' Until Apology Tour, it was easier for him to engage with Stolas believing that he couldn't be physically/emotionally hurt. He convinced himself that his shitty breakup tactic with Verosika was excusable until she forced him to realize how much it hurt. While he's been good at hiding his own struggles and self-hatred, he's not been good at recognizing when other people were doing the same.

If Blitzø Wouldn't Notice Loona Had a Problem, Why Would Stolas?

TAKING OVER HER SPACE In taking over Loona's job at I.M.P., Stolas is now using the desk and anything else she previously had. If there's more alcohol stashed, he will run into it. He's also sharing the apartment with her and Blitzø. If there are spaces that have quietly become "Loona's" over the years that Blitzø doesn't touch, he won't realize it. Stolas is also accustomed to everything he does being judged and unaccustomed to taking up space; I'd envision he'd want nondescript places to store items like his diary/smut journal. If Loona had any more alcohol stashed away in places Blitzø doesn't use, it's quite possible Stolas will discover it by accident.

FIRST-HAND EXPERIENCE If Stolas discovers alcohol being hidden around the office or apartment, he'll probably figure out pretty quickly what's going on. He himself is working with a binge drinking problem and knows the signs.

Stolas not only knows what it looks like to have private struggles, but he knows what it looks like when someone is hiding them. He hid his abuse, his depression, and possibly his binge drinking from everyone, even Via, for a good 17-18 years. He's accustomed to be overlooked and knows what it's like to conceal personal issues so his loved ones don't worry. He also has very recent experience on how that mentality does more damage in the long run.

Wouldn't Stolas Also Need Help With His Drinking?

Maybe. Recovery is a very individual process based on a person and what options are available to them. With Stolas, his drinking will likely be something he actively struggles not to slide into for a long time, if not forever. But it's uncertain whether or not he will continue the binge drinking. It is obvious going back over episodes that Stolas has an individual drink in hand frequently, so he might have a problem with daily consumption. But his binging seems to only come up specifically as a coping method. He starts by portioning with a single glass/cup and transfers to chugging the glass or a whole bottle when his stress reaches a tipping point. He's accustomed to not being part of 'the fun' and coping with emotional pain while no one else bothers to notice.

However, it seems like he already went between Mastermind and Sinsmas without alcohol. Going cold turkey while also going without his powers or his anti-depressants must have been one fucking combo, but the bottom line is he's likely been sober for weeks or a month as of the end of S2. And when Loona brings out the drinks at the Sinsmas party, he silently excuses himself out of the room. Given his emotional state, he likely knew he would end up binge drinking, so he left to avoid the temptation.

None of this means he's 'over' his alcohol problem or will never fall back to it or need help, but he's shown awareness that he doesn't want to binge around Blitzø and the I.M.P. crew. Loona turns to alcohol to de-stress in this moment, but Stolas knows it will make him worse and avoids it. Whether or not Stolas will also need help in the form of counseling or rehab, he's taken the first steps of recognizing his problem and removing himself from situations that trigger it.

If Stolas Figures Out Loona Has an Alcohol Problem, Wouldn't He Tell Blitzø First?

I really don't think so.

Blitzø is Loona's father, but again, Stolas knows what it's like to conceal issues and how frighteningly vulnerable it makes someone to potentially have them. He's also lived for a good 18 years with Stella, where he had to walk on eggshells and word himself carefully to avoid her anger. His personality approaches situations with scripted wording and attempts to be as unassuming as possible. After the post-Ozzie's conflict with Blitzø, he sent texts trying to talk about what went down, only to back off and assure Blitzø that he was just worried when Blitzø brushed it off. He doesn't like to press issues or make decisions for someone.

He's also used to choices he makes 'for the better' blowing up in his face: the trip to Loo Loo Land, the Full Moon situation, the divorce, the accidental hurt he caused Via, etc. He wouldn't trust himself to make choices for Loona. I'm sure he would want her to tell Blitzø, if his opinion comes up. But if anyone in the Stolitz family would be able to quietly, unassumingly discuss this with her without her feeling like she was being judged or pressured, it would be Stolas. Loona tends to close off at the first sign of judgement or pressure.

And I think Loona would be nervous admitting her problem to Blitzø.

Why Would Loona Be Afraid to Tell Blitzø?

Again, Blitzø is a great father. Despite Loona's anger issues and distant personality, his affections never wavered, and it's clear by the end of S2 the trust between them is basically unbreakable. Blitzø has experience with loved ones having addiction problems and even them needing rehab. He would know the obvious signs of addiction and the treatment process, and he'd want Loona to get better. So, why would Loona hesitate to get him involved?

BLIND AFFECTION Blitzø's unwavering love for Loona might make her uncomfortable opening up about this with him, out of fear that he might blame himself for missing it. She pushed him away quite a bit in the first season/early S2, but she's always felt she could act however she wanted and they'd be fine. But this is a serious problem, and he could think he failed as a father by his blind belief in how 'perfect' she was. Loona might have an attitude, but she does love Blitzø. And she's afraid of being abandoned, even if she logically knows Blitzø would never actually abandon her. She could be afraid of being the daughter who failed even given unconditional love, and she wouldn't want him to feel like a failure for not realizing if she had a problem.

OVERPROTECTIVE Despite the privacy he gives Loona, Blitzø is prone to overreacting and treating her as younger than her age. If she did have a serious problem going on, Blitzø would potentially blow his reaction out of her comfort zone and try to enforce drastic steps that she would resist. She has trust issues that would make it difficult to be open to counseling/outside help, and she would likely need gentle reassurance to go forward. "Gentle" is something Blitzø is capable of, but not when he's panicked about his precious Looney-Tooney.

And I absolutely can't see Loona doing inpatient rehab, which Blitzø might jump to since his ex-girlfriend and sister went that route. Rehab facilities might feel too similar to her isolation at the adoption facility and would dredge up old trauma. Adult Loona is only as functional as she is because Blitzø gave her a stable home life for the last 5 years. I think a rehab facility would feel like being locked away again: literally the worst thing for her.

PREVIOUS TREATMENT OF ALCOHOLISM Spring Broken was the first time we see Blitzø interacting with someone facing alcoholism. And it just so happened to be his ex, who he had an antagonistic relationship with. In multiple parts of the episode, he used Verosika's alcoholism as an insult and shamed her for leaving rehab. If this stuck with Loona, she'd be afraid to open up. Blitzø would never approach her this way, but she could fear that he'd stick her in rehab and not want her out until she was "better enough," despite inpatient care being a nightmare for her specific forms of trauma.

Why Would Loona Potentially Discuss This with Stolas?

Again, Stolas has experience trying to word things more gently and privately. And he's typically a follower, not a decision maker. If Stolas discovered that Loona had a drinking problem, his first step wouldn't be to plan what needed done. He would likely ask her what she thought she needed for help. Whether or not they brought the problem to Blitzø would be up to her. Again, he concealed his own abuse and mental health issues for years. He would want her to open up to Blitzø about it, but he doesn't have any room to demand it or decide to tell Blitzø on his own.

Drinking is also a specific issue he's struggling with, and I think he would be willing to divulge that to her, so she doesn't feel so alone. Their backgrounds are drastically different, and hers has more in common with Blitzø's, but she and Stolas have similarities. Both of them know what it's like to grow up friendless, the odd one singled out at events, the subject of derision among their entire social class. If Loona took up drinking to cope with her lasting stress or trauma, Stolas would understand it personally. He also knows firsthand how important Blitzø has been to becoming a better person after that, and how Loona would be afraid of hurting him.

Also, Stolas would likely feel invested in helping. He's probably going into S3 struggling with a feeling of uselessness: he's lost his power, his home, his status, his daughter, and most anything he feels gives worth to anyone else. He doesn't know how to function in normal working reality and probably feels like a complete failure at the moment. But this is a situation where he might not be useless: where his specific cheering-on-from-the-sidelines form of support would be exactly what was needed. As stated, he knows the longterm damage that comes from burying personal problems and not trying to change them. He would not want Blitzø's daughter to go down that route.

It would also be a parallel to Seeing Stars and the end of Sinsmas: Stolas reassuring Loona to keep trying would be a reflection of Blitzø convincing him to keep trying with Via. It would be a reflection of how Loona herself reassured Octavia that Stolas was trying, too. Stolas is someone Loona would be able to open up to without judgement, without drastic emotional responses, and knowing he wouldn't divulge the information to anyone without her permission. Stolitz family bonding, but in that uniquely heartbreaking Helluva Boss way.

Conclusion:

This is just a crack theory and based on admittedly not huge evidence. This could be making a mountain out of a molehill. I'm an expert at reading too much into things. But at least now it's out of my brain! Time will tell what comes for Season 3.

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Hey y’all, I spent about 10 minutes watching THAT scene in Truth Seekers at .25 speed for *reasons* and at the request of @tealvenetianmask I would like to share the fruit of my labour. For posterity. Enjoy!

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To Seal The Deal

Here it is! The first chapter of my three-chapter Post-"Murder Family" fic. In other words, stolitz's second night together. It's going to be an angst fest with a nice dose of smut when it's finished.

Thanks to @akirathedramaqueen as always for your wonderful editing.

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