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this too shall pass

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Robe à l'anglaise ca. 1780

From the Metropolitan Museum of Art

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Green was the silence, wet was the light, the month of June trembled like a butterfly.

Pablo Neruda, from "XL" 100 love sonnets (university of Texas press, 1986)

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some of you guys are so fucking 19 years old. i wish you well but god have mercy on your souls

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does anyone hve any sin recommendations i just fell from the garden of eden five seconds ago

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Spirits of the Flowers

ceramic tiles from 1880

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“What if we were normal about men” every time i walk past a man i send a psychic shockwave directly to their prostate just to remind them it’s there

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Philippe Mercier (b.1689 - d.1760), ‘A Girl Holding a Cat’, about 1750, French, oil on canvas, currently in the collection of the National Gallery of Scotland, Edinburgh

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— Holes, Eileen Myles, from ‘I Must Be Living Twice, New & Selected Poems 1975-2014’

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During gay pride, early 1980s.

photo & caption by Mariette Pathy Allen [website] [instagram]

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Godesses of night in paintings

Auguste Raynaud (French, 1854–1937)

Auguste-Alexandre Hirsch (French, 1833-1912)

François-Léon Bénouville (French, 1821-1859)

Americo Pedro (Brazilian, 1843-1905)

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You know, I'm starting to think my struggle with productivity is not the worst part of ADHD.

Like, I mean, that's the part everyone talks about, right? It's the most famous part of ADHD--you can't sit down and do the boring, non-stimulating, dopamine deprived work. Your brain wants to do anything, anything else.

But, at least for me, that doesn't just apply to work. It applies to play.

I can doomscroll twitter and tumblr with the best of them, sure. I can read tvtropes, and check discord a million times an hour and google random crap, but when it comes to actually like, playing a video game? Reading a book? Watching a movie? It's just.

So.

Freaking.

Hard.

And even when I start playing, even when I'm enjoying a game, I'm constantly fighting the urge to go and do something else. To check my phone, to go and search something up, and, most dangerously of all, to start mucking around with the graphics settings. I can't ever get absorbed into a game, can't shift my brain from "jumbled mess" into "immersed" and--

The thing is.

That means I can't rest.

I can't break the endless buzz in the back of my head, I can't ever really stop thinking and inhabit this escapist fantasy. I can't stop investing energy into my buzzy brain, and so--

Like.

I don't have a recourse to burn out.

ADHD burn-out is probably the second most talked about part of ADHD, but I think this is a big factor that people don't talk about as much, or at least not in these terms. It's not just that you can't get stuff done and keep worrying about it, it's that you can't rest.

You can't treat the burn out.

And so it just. Piles up.

And up.

And up.

Until you collapse.

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🐉🌿 seeking the green chapel 🌿🐉

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‘full movie watch free online’ was in the early 21st century a kind of prayer

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is this finally the end of the long 2016?