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Oh the dread. Call it innocence. Call it being blissfully unaware. The plot holes are many, and they be coming. I like to think as my job being learning how to invent convincing lies on command while bullshitting my way through a story that would otherwise not make sense without the literary smoke and mirrors, so to speak. Also, learning how to distract your readers from the leftover plotholes (since every writer has them) and to bring out that oh-so-sweet "Suspension of Disbelief".

Navigating plot holes can get much more chaotic if you're writing fanfiction. You're not only juggling your own plot holes, but the plot holes of the OG author. Fun shit, that is. At least if canon compliance is your jam in the moment.

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a bright spring path

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Design graphics Geya Shvecova (Glitter Stars) Archive_240321

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i miss vhs tapes and cds i miss feeding my computers and tvs yummy treats. now theyre eating nothing. theyre being born without mouths

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Take me to the dark woods, the unknown , for all the answers i seek lies there.

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I'm not tragic these days, I don't weep, but I feel alone, biwildered, far from you, far from everything - nothing has any meaning.

-Simon De Beauvoir.

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" I'm afraid of getting older. I'm afraid of getting married. Spare me from cooking three meals a day - spare me from the rent less cage of routine and rote. I want to be free.... I want, I want to think, to be omniscient."

- Sylvia Plath, 1949 at the age of seventeen

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In the moments of despair, I sit back on the window sill and watch the deep blue sky and imagine all the possibilities that could exist if you've never broke my heart.

For the hours, I wonder what my life would be like if you've never left. You were my home, you were my happy place. And now, I feel homesick and nostalgic for the unknown. I feel empty and void.

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All the MBTI characters together :D Men and women versions !It's so satisfying to see them all on the same pic ! 🥺💚Also sorry for being incative aah I missed this acc so much ! What's your MBTI ? who's your favorite ?  I'm INFP ! my favs are INFJ & ENFJ ! ^^

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Hi Saku! I'm such a huge fan of your MBTI fanart, especially your adorably witchy depiction of INFJ women (which is my type!) My partner is an INFP man, but I so rarely see ships/art of INFP men and INFJ women, even though I think this pairing is so, so compatible and dreamy and romantic (speaking from experience). I was wondering if I could request a commission of an INFP man and INFJ woman in your style? I can send more specifics <3

Here it is INFJ x INFP ! 🥺💚 One of my favorite ships aah ;w; Thank you so much for commissioning me ! To draw you and your partners personality I hope you like it !

🔻This piece was for Pā|est1ne Charity commission 🍉

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A lovely MBTI commissions I had the honor to work previously 💙 Thank you so much for commissioning me ! @orchid-tea-party🙏

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omg are you really sakura-streetfighter on deviantart? your drawings are one of my faves in the whole fandom, I was sad to come back and find your account deleted. glad I found you here :)

Omg someone from deviantart ? Yess I am ! thank you so much omg your support through all these years , it really means a lot ! Are you from the MCL fandom ? ^^

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got told at lunch "you feel like Tumblr Incarnate" and i had to tell them i've been here for 13 years and counting. i was here three years before dashcon happened. i saw the mishapocalypse. i survived the gigapause. i've been here longer than the shoelaces post. i've been here since it was hipsters versus fandom and i played both sides extensively by overdoing the sepia filters on everything and making my own flashing galaxy gif edits for my fandom posts. i'm every tumblr. it's all in me

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A ShiSaku piece based on a fanfic : Serendipity and Strawberries by @stargliders ‧₊˚ ♡

• Also drawn specially for winter season since I haven't done any of it before *smh*. Just a light fanfic yet enjoyable story consist of fluff in modern setting, definitely perfect to read during the winter. Do send lots of love to the writer when yall have the time to read them~ Happy holidays~! ✨🎄❄

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In fact, I googled “Was George Harrison autistic?” as soon as I saw the video where he talks about his reaction to Lennon’s death and I must tell as a neurodivergent, I found his reaction and explanation very autistic.

Hey I've been thinking about this a lot and I wanted to ask you, do you think George was on the autistic spectrum?

Hi there, I apologise for such a late response.

You know, I've thought about that as well. A lot actually. I've been told I could be autistic but haven't been officially diagnosed, so I won't speak on that, but I am neurodivergent. One of the things which drew me to George in the first place was the fact I could relate to certain qualities he had which point in that direction. Namely the way he became obsessive about his interests -- immersing himself in research, watching the same films and tv shows over and over again, losing track of time, using them as a way of connecting with people, etc. and a strong desire for perfection in himself.

Examples of what I'm referring to:

"The thing about George -- and we all feel it strongly now that he’s gone off us -- is that he plunged into things. Whatever he got into, whether it was the sitar and Ravi Shankar or the Maharishi, he walked right in and never looked back." — Marianne Faithfull, Memories, Dreams and Reflections (2007)

"George had a really curious mind, and when he got into something he wanted to know everything." — Olivia Harrison, Rolling Stone (2011)

"When [Olivia] first met George she didn't know what George was talking about half the time, he was always quoting Python or ‘The Producers’. He used to say to Olivia ‘Ah my little Swedish bombshell’ which she explained she obviously didn’t look Swedish, but it was a line from the movie The Producers." — Olivia Harrison in Sydney, Australia (2005)

"Maybe there was just too much to do, but the house and the garden became an obsession with George. He found out everything there was to know about Sir Frank Crisp, how and why he built that extraordinary house and garden, why he wanted to re-create the Blue Grotto of Capri and build a mini Matterhorn in the Oxfordshire countryside. He wanted to get inside Sir Frank’s mind and fit into his old boots, and he seemed to want to do it alone. I can be obsessive, but then I get bored and need a change." — Pattie Boyd, Wonderful Tonight

Whether any of this actually means George was neurodivergent I don't know. It's always made me wonder though. It's difficult because not only do we not know George personally, the concept of there being a wide spectrum didn't become mainstream until after he died. There's such a lot of information nowadays which wouldn't have been available to him.

What you also have to consider is the influence of other factors such as experiencing extreme fame at a young age, growing up in post-war Liverpool, his family, and his introverted personality. He was often said to be very sensitive about his privacy and personal space, but I think most introverted people would struggle with that and being secretive was a common Harrison trait. He struggled to succeed within the school system even though he was smart, but he also grew up in a free-thinking household which would've made the rigidity of the outside world harder.

On the other hand you have quotes like this one from Olivia:

Q: Did George separate his private life from his life as a musician? OLIVIA: He didn’t separate anything, he knew no boundaries and was very open about everything, sometimes excessively so. Sometimes he said very funny, but rude things, and when I pointed it out to him, he just said, ‘I don’t have a private life, I just don’t know when you can say something.’ — Süddeutsche Zeitung (translated by Andrea of harrisonarchive) (2011)

What interests me about this is the last line where George says he "doesn't know when you can say something" and that he attributes this quality to being famous. The thing is, we know from various anecdotes he acted this way long before he was famous, and therefore it's unlikely to be the reason he had trouble knowing what was socially appropriate. His mum, Louise, had a reputation for her bluntness as well, so you could argue he got it from her, but I'm not sure that would hold up long into adulthood and after engaging in as many circles as George did. You also can't rule out the possibility of Louise being neurodivergent.

I've noticed all these parts of George come up repeatedly when his friends and family talk about him in every stage of life, and the suggestion he couldn't control it is mentioned several times as well, mostly by Olivia.

"When he opened up to you, he opened up completely. He didn’t know how to do things in half-measures -- which was really positive and sometimes really detrimental to himself." — Olivia Harrison, Mojo (2011)

"George really said everything that crossed his mind. I used to say, 'You really can’t get a thought to your brain without it slipping out your mouth.’ And he was painfully honest. It was an endearing trait, but sometimes you hoped that he wouldn’t be quite as honest as he was going to be." — Tom Petty, Rolling Stone (2002)

To reiterate what I said before, I'm by no means qualified to diagnose anybody and don't claim this to be concrete evidence. However, I hope it might encourage people to take a deeper look into understanding George's behaviour. I find that because there isn't a traumatic childhood to point to, he's not given the benefit of the doubt or afforded the same sensitivity as the other Beatles. People are much quicker to assume he acted out of spite and analysis of him is shallow.

Thank you for the question and giving me a chance to pull my thoughts on this together! If anyone would like to add their thoughts please feel free to share.