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These two <3

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blushing sakura in every episode (◕‿◕)♡ [11/?]

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it's them it's him

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kitties on the bed

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yotha faifa and mom thoughts (this is a bit long)

i'm late to the convo but i feel like i've seen a lot of strong emotions abt them that i'm not sure i agree with. (disclaimer: i know they made changes from the novel that clearly didn't need to be made)

for one, their mother separated them at a young age, taking faifa away from what was already familiar to condition him in a new environment with a new family, becoming attached to his mom as a result (when he wasn't before). she does all this only to upend his life once more, where he has to recondition himself in an environment that had already become unfamiliar. so faifa's "survival instincts" kick in where he has to adapt to others in order to feel like he's seen and belongs. so repression becomes second nature, as he doesn't want to come across as selfish or unlikeable by expressing how he actually feels (bc to him, his true feelings abt his mom and yotha would hurt someone's feelings)

faifa's dilemma is complicated because there's a thin line between being friendly and people pleasing, but wine is the one who teaches him how to separate the two. yotha, who could've done more of an intervention for faifa considering he was aware of this dilemma, was also still affected by their separation as kids. when he asks faifa in ep 9 abt whether their mom's decision hurt him, faifa lies his way out of the convo.

this core problem of avoiding the problem isn't faifa's fault, nor is it particularly yotha's. faifa tends to subconsciously protect his mother's feelings even when he feels hurt by her. it's dealing with the grating paradox of wanting your inner feelings to be "figured out" by someone, but not wanting to express them bc you're afraid of how you'll be seen once you do. more so if you're used to being the person people turn to.

regarding yothagun, faifa's sacrifices are still his own decisions, but it's all a product of his conditioning. i feel once you've made it a habit, it's easy to turn yourself into a martyr for others when you think you're doing something good for them. especially if others take your habit for granted, which is what his mother does. yotha's problem is that he also takes it for granted, even while he tries to warn faifa abt it at the same time. and it's this martyr habit that makes it look like he doesn't know love, that makes yotha worried he'd hurt wine--which, kinda did happen, but it wasn't as crazy as yotha described; faifa didn't "hurt" wine so much as make him afraid he'd lost him.

so yotha is kiinda right and wrong abt faifa's understanding of himself and his feelings. yotha saying faifa doesn't know how to love isn't him saying that he knew from the start either. like, it's true that faifa doesn't know love at first, just not in the same way yotha "doesn't know," and by the time yotha says this faifa is already confronting himself.

while yotha isn't ready to face what loving someone looks like on a fundamental level, faifa "doesn't know what love is" because he doesn't know how to direct certain feelings/actions towards someone rather than people as a whole. yotha learns to be selfless and faifa learns to be a bit more selfish. those are two different problems, and the script kinda made it seem like they were on the same level. i think this is where they missed the mark on the delivery, bc it's unnecessary to have yotha say this more than once while faifa is being a green flag.

it's clear that at the start, yotha is lost. but while faifa is just as lost, two things happen simultaneously: he doesn't express that he's lost, and people don't notice. this is something yotha learns, i guess--that he has to kinda fight back against faifa's own words if he wants to know his true feelings and help just as much as faifa has to understand it's okay for him to express himself. both things can happen together.

(but apparently faifa is too nice and too satisfied with his relationship to say any of this in detail to yotha or their mom lmao. love him tho <3)

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if u are reading this i am pouring positive vibes on u from a lil watering can

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(smoking that faifawine joint pls help)

finally caught up to p10L and faifawine has undoubtedly my fav story arc....by far. (i'm sure this isn't an unpopular opinion.)

screenwriter and og writer was in their BAG with them fr. not only is it rare to really see a couple communicate so much and so well and freely, it's rare that their conversations are so distinctly specific. their banter is so interesting because they catch on to the underlying meaning of the other's words. especially with the whole pretense of flirting tips, which is such a funny pretense to begin with because they've faced each other earnestly, clearly and without pretense from the start. faifa doesn't know much about (romantic) love before wine, but after wine, everything is so second nature that he doesn't even realize he understands all of it.

it's so smart to have an introvert x extrovert story where *both* learn from each other and learn to break habits that place them in repeating emotional cycles. (it's such a canon event to have an introvert see through an extrovert's exterior and vice versa.) it's so smart to have them be so seemingly distinct and unusual on the outset, to then have them essentially create a language between them that only they can speak.

from "your heart isn't broken, it's just a little chipped. i'll fix it" to "don't hang up until you see my face" to then "would it be wrong to kiss you" and "love is being so damn happy to see him rejecting someone else to be with me"???? even worse, from "the world brought two people with problems together to share them with each other" (wtf was this line like idek anymore) to "i hate that notebook. i hate counting down for our story to slowly end" and "we love each other so much, don't we?" then "i never understood why people fall in love until it happened to me." all in true romcom fashion. i don't know if i can get over the fact that faifa, utilized quite a bit for comedic relief, has quite literally the best dialogue.

like yes, some clichés are present as they will be, but they're done so well bc none of it is done for drama's sake (ironic bc of those episodes), but for the sake of the characters' own growth. it really is special to have characters like faifawine, and they're special to me not just bc you can feel through the screen that they love each other, but bc you can clearly understand why. and you can feel that they're in their own world as two people who really, really see each other.

tl;dr i love them so bad

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Strawhat women :)

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here are some flower people

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once buck comes out and settles into a relationship with tommy i’m sure they’re inevitably going to hang out with eddie at some point and i’m lowkey curious about which one of them will feel like the third wheel because somehow all three of them fit the bill for that

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Ciize via her Insta!

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okay. i'm less emotional now lol. i don't want day to be blind. he wasn't born blind either, so it's not like it's outside the realm of possibility. i think day making choices for himself is the right way to go, and it's great that he was able to choose for himself to get the surgery and have it be successful. (i was happy day could finally see mhok but they brushed by that so quick i felt cheated 💀)

but for me, the last-minute twist feels a bit forcefully curated to create a "nice ending" as if it wouldn't have been so otherwise. like yeah, if day could choose, he'd chose to be able to see. it's supposed to work as an ending because it's his choice, he now has trust and love in those around him, all is well. he has things to take good care of. but for me, it's the fact that the writers chose this to be the "end goal" for day's story. bc it's at the end of the story it feels like a way of being like, "ok! he's not blind anymore guys. story's done there's nothing more to tell." maybe i'd feel differently if it happened earlier in the show, but they put an emphasis on him having to wait a long time for a donor (while also saying it could happen tmr..bc of living w hope. hm maybe i'm the problem lol).

it just feels annoying like thematically, like his blindness was a means to an end. a literary vehicle to highlight a bigger moral message. so maybe my problems are my own, and simply story-based. but if the goal was to draw attention towards eye donation so that less people have to go through what day (and others) did in the first place, i guess it was successful.