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Primal passion

The primal passion of a teenage tribal servant, Shibu Santhal working in the household of the collector an IAS officer, Mr.Chatterjee. His wife, Mrs. Karuna Chatterjee was a Miss India before marriage. Mr. Devidas Chatterjee was plain, slightly dark. He was a bright young officer in the IAS cadre which is treated as the top cadre of administration, in centre and state services. His wife Karuna came from a rich status educated in best convent schools and colleges in India. Devidas came from a lower middle class, his father was a temple priest who perform religion function and ceremony for the village as well as the household of the rich in the villages around. After competing in IAS, he became a collector within five years. He attracted applications from many fathers who were rich and in high position, eager to marry their daughter to a collector without any other consideration except his position but with sizeable dowry.

Karuna came in his life in happy and harmonious marriage. She was earlier an English teacher in an elitist school but she gave up her job which didn’t match the status of a collector’s wife! Devi and Karuna loved each other but were a contrast, in personality. Devi was a plain looking, bright and beautiful, very orthodox and religious whereas Karuna was beautiful, lively and seductive. She was intelligent but pensionable, fond of parties, club and tennis.  

Devidas, on the other hand was conservative with a strict moral code. And fixed ideas, how a woman should behave as a wife; a collector’s wife in family and social circles. Being bright in academics, Devi could study in good school with scholarship. After completing his masters in mathematics, he competed with a high rank in IAS and became a collector very soon. Coming from low middle class in a small town and thrown suddenly, in the elitist circle of high officers and their friends, with a round of parties were dancing with some alcohol was the norm. Though a misfit, he still had to join the mainstream of such glittering life in Bombay. But, he retained his conservative core and some religious, rituals and worship.

And he was laced with jealousy, as his wife moved in the elite and ‘liberal’ lifestyle. He couldn’t stand, his wife sipping a glass of wine or dancing in the arms of someone else!

He had secured her on the strength of his position, bright career, a reputation as a tough but effective administrative officer and collector. He was known for his integrity. He tried to impose this qualities and discipline on his staff and to some extent on his wife. He wanted her to avoid parties, drinks, dance, cards, club life and a dress code which was conservative when she appeared in public. Though, she was allowed to wear fashionable outfit, gowns, etc when she appeared get together and at home. She did try to modify her life, but only to some extent.

Her own house was a sprawling flat in Bombay and a bungalow in the district posting. His image of a woman was a devoted wife, mother and homemaker. There was no child yet on the scene. Devidas accepted his wife to be pure and virginal and wanted her to be remain so, without any taint in her character and fidelity. She was faithful to him, only a little flirtatious.

On the nuptial night when Karuna didn’t scream or display any bleeding, Devi was a bit doubtful of her premarital virginity. A friendly doctor told her that presence of a hymen was no test of virginity and he should trust her.  Still a sense of ambiguity persisted and this made him a bit more suspicious of her liberal and flirtatious manners.  His friends joked about his conservative and possessive attitude to his wife. Sometimes, this joke stuck in his mind. He condescended to do a bit of ‘wriggling’ on the dance floor but didn’t touch cigarette or a drink. He was known as a saint among his friends.

Shibu a tribal boy of 16 was sent by his father who was a strong, dark and well-built lake a black god. He proved to be very good domestic hand and was very serviceable and functional. He soon became almost a part of the family, especially close and informal with Karuna who liked him and his skills in cooking, shopping and occasionally giving a head or foot massage. He was a man Friday, useful in all season. Devidas often came home for lunch and a bit of siesta, in the company of Karuna.

Devidas and Karuna trusted Shibu totally, in matters of money as well as discipline and good behaviour. Shibu was about to cross his teens, was changing in his physiology, looks and hormones. His primal teenage sexuality was coursing through his veins and didn’t know how to deal with it and it was disturbing him as well. Karuna use to teach him in the afternoon, manners of civilised society as well as his subject so that he could clear his ten schooling, privately. The physical and informal proximity with Karuna often sent tremors of excitement and body heat. Karuna was dressed at home mostly in a translucent gown which didn’t conceal her figure and curves. She often asked him to give her a foot and head massage. And sometime even back massage before her luxurious session of bath, in shower or in tub! She use to hum and sing while bathing lazily. She of course bolted the bathroom bus Shibu could imagine the whole provocative scene inside. She came out wrapped in bathroom gown or a big fluffy towel to do her dressing and some makeup before the bedroom life size mirror. This scene was fully visible to Shibu who watched from a corner, invisible to Karuna. This was a daily ritual in which Karuna and Shibu indulge, unknown to each other. She of course treated Shibu almost as a serviceable pet, totally ignorant of his teenage physiology and burgeoning sexuality provoked by Karuna’s beautiful and exciting presence, exposed to him in full seductive glory. Sometimes, Shibu could see through the chink in the bedroom door, carelessly closed, the hot bedroom scenes between Karuna and Devidas. This at night use to provoke so much that he took recourse to chilled shower or a couple of ice cubes in his mouth. He of course dreamed of love making with Karuna who was like a mischievous fairy playing with his body.

One day, he discovered dusty pornographic books and pictures on the top of the bathroom rack. This was further advance in Shibu’s inner amorous journey.  Shibu after his pornography section could restrain himself no more and he silently climbed to the ventilator of the bathroom. And had a full view of Karuna’s luxurious bath. Karuna bath was over and she wrapped herself loosely with a bath towel and came to her bedroom before the mirror. She had not closed the door which allowed Shibu to enter in an impulse. Karuna’s towel had fallen as she stood up to face the situation. He took the naked Venus and made furious animal love soaked with primal passion. Her resistance if any was over powered by Shibu. And it is difficult to say whether it was a rape or with some degree of consent or even enjoyment from Karuna’s side.

Before the orgiastic animal mating was over, Devidas entered the room. He had come for usual lunch.

Three life were change after this event, irreversibly for the worse. The fall out of this tsunami of relationship was surprising. Devidas, full of shock and rage, pulled out Shibu from the room and handed him over to police on charges of personal assault and stealing. He didn’t want to bring sexual assault in his complaint as will create an avoidable scandal. The police promptly put him custody and then arrest. After a good thrash on, Shibu could put up no defence, police knew how to frame him up and send him to jail for two years.

The relationship between Devidas and his wife Karuna was showered and embittered, he had a gnawing suspicion that Karuna was part of the event with some consent. He could not digest this betrayal of sexual infidelity. Karuna was shocked first by the animal passion unloaded on her by Shibu which was not able to fight effectively and secondly due to high moralistic anger of Devidas who became cold and uncommunicative. Karuna was perhaps angry with herself, Devidas and Shibu. Devidas didn’t drag the matter in court for rape, adultery and divorce for fear of scandal. But the relationship froze to the extent that they were separated in body and mind, if not legally! Any attempt of Karuna to explain that it was Shibu who assaulted her and there was no question of any consent fail on deaf ears of Devidas who didn’t have very high opinion on Karuna’s fidelity, considering her liberal, friendly and flirtatious nature. Though, under the same roof, they live like a strangers with hurt and grievance against each other. Karuna slowly passed into depression and Devidas became more strict and devoted to his office work. Shibu on the other hand was racked with guilt due to outburst of his animal passion. He was serving the harsh jail term with a sense of guilt and puzzle at his predicament. He was treated often with punishment by the jail staff as per the instruction of police on behest of Devidas. Devidas took to drinking and Karuna took anti depressions and sleeping pills. When the stress of living under the same roof became intolerable, she went to her own family which was puzzled by this turn of events and Karuna’s depression. Of course, Karuna didn’t share any details of the event and the aftermath.

In this way, life lingered on for all three, for months and even years. Karuna had showed no signs of getting out of her depressive gloom. It was discovered she was pregnant.  Devidas was not in touch with her, through letter, telephone, visits etc. He didn’t even come to visit her on receiving the news of her pregnancy. His forbid and wounded imagination had a suspicion that it was Shibu’s child. On his part, Devidas sank further in his drinks and loneliness with tormented by emotions of suspicion, betrayal by his wife. Due to his deteriorating performance, he was suspended. Due to a serious error on signing a contract, he became more morose, isolated. After delivery of the child, Karuna sank deeper in her depression which was now reinforced by post natal blues. Her family persuaded her to go back to Devidas with the child. Perhaps, it might heal the rift between them. But the situation worsened, Devidas didn’t take any interest in the child as he had a lurking suspicion that it might be Shibus’. The child became as miserable without any care and cuddling as its parents. A couple of months passed in this darkening situation. One day she found some divorce papers in the cupboard of Devidas. She was so hurt that she signed it for agreed divorce without going to court. A few days passed, one night when Devidas came to her room in search of the divorce paper, he found her in a dangerous condition. She had gulped a handful of sleeping pills to commit suicide. She had written a suicide note which read, “I am committing suicide on my own without aid and abatement of anyone…. I can take life, no more… Please forgive me, if you can… I was always loved you and being faithful. I love you still… that event was an accident of outburst of primal passion in which I had no part. Here is the DNA report which will show that the child is yours… goodbye dear Devi….” The last two lines were difficult to read as they were wet with tears of Karuna and now with Devi. He took her to the best hospital and got her out of danger, pumping out the poison. After a few days, she fully recovered. There was a sunshine of happiness and clearing of shadow of any misunderstanding.  The child was surprised by the happiness of the parents who cuddled him.

After a month, there was a surprise visitor. Shibu with his wife and a child of a couple of month. After bowing down to Devidas and Karuna, he told his story without any grudge for being jailed, “I know…. I committed something grievously wrong… I have been rightly punished for it…. And, I pray that you both forgive me…. I got married to this girl in jail where she was imprisoned for some crime…. I don’t bother what… we got married and have this baby born in jail… we are going back to our village… we have come to seek your blessings….” It was a grand and happy reunion of the three major player, Devi, Shibu and Karuna and three addition guest, Shibu’s wife, his child and child of Devidas. The children giggled as Shibu left with his family with a wedding gift by Devidas.