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MAISIE PETERS in the music video for John Hughes Movie (February 26, 2021)

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learning about calories ruined my life. the knowledge of the calories in every single food haunts me food isn't food to me anymore it's a number

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MAISIE PETERS in Sydney, Australia (March 21, 2024)

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I just started a med for migraine prevention called topamax or topiramate, and my dr put me on it specifically because it also helps with weight loss and I told her I’ve been gaining weight and I’m super active and no matter what I do I just can’t seem to lose weight.. I eat right (no fast food or soda) and I walk/run 10 miles most days at the track and I started taking it like a week ago and I don’t feel hungry anymore like ever.. I start taking double the dose today and I’m excited. I didn’t eat for 24 hours the first couple days I was on it and didn’t even realize. And my dr wants me to start intermittent fasting and she wants me to do a 24-35 hour reset fast to start. I finally found a dr singing the same tune. I’m sure she wouldn’t be thrilled to hear how far I take it.. but I’ve only had 200 calories today and I’m not at all hungry. I love it. I felt like I was starting to struggle with binge eating again so it’s really coming at a good time…

My boyfriend has lost some weight so I can’t wait for us to both be slim soon. He’d never say it out loud but I know he likes me better at a lower weight. I want to lose at least 35 pounds.

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Me when I gain

Me when I maintain

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I’m heavier than I’ve ever been.. I feel so disgusting. My dr thinks I gained all the weight back cause of my birth control.. I stopped taking it a few weeks ago.. i want to literally rip my fat off and burn it. I wish I could make myself puke like I used to.. I know that’s a really bad thought to have.. but it’s honest anyway..

I’m so defeated right now .. and depressed.. and anxious. And I just hate how shitty the weight gain makes me feel…

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the hardest part of this disorder isn't the hunger, it's struggling to decide how much to eat, when, what to eat, whether or kot to eat at all. There's too many choices, none of them feel right.

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Being skinny isn’t just for pictures. It’s for living without chains that hold you back by the skin, preventing you from having joy in your life. It doesn’t matter what season it is, there is always something that will be better if you are skinny. So don’t give up. And lose that weight.

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I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE!!! continues not only living like this but in fact gets actively worse with time

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Every time I look in a mirror: fat

Every time I move: fat

Every time I eat: fat

My hands, my chin, my arms: fat

My thighs and hips: disgustingly obese

My reflection: a blob of fat trying to shape itself into a person

I don’t even look human

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When I wake up I'm not telling myself ,,It will be a perfect day". First my scale has to decide.

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Me: Math is important to me.

XYZ: Why?

Me: Because my day depends on numbers

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We're Ana, of course we're wanting to be as skinny as it possible

We're Ana, of course we're weight ourselves every morning

We're Ana, of course we're stressed every time when sb wants to hang out

We're Ana, of course we're lying about our eating habits

We're Ana, of course we're thinking we're to fat

We're Ana, of course we always feel not sick enough to be sick

We're Ana, of course we're comparing ourselves to others

We're Ana, of course if we eat less we feel better

We're Ana, of course happy after fasting

We're Ana, of course we don't want to be healthy, we want to be skinny

We're Ana, of course we usually feel we don't deserve to eat

We're Ana, of course every time we're binging we're feeling unvalid

We're Ana, of course we're counting calories

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@maisiepetersnetwork​ event: love songs favorite love song by member (collaborative edit)

the last one -> @cascadeoceanwave funeral -> @good-enemy john hughes movie -> @antoniosvivaldi glowing review -> @cascadeoceanwave adore you -> @good-enemy the party -> @starstruck2010