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♡ sea bunnies! what a vast range of colors, shapes, and sizes these guys have!!

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When I was a TA for the freshman art class in senior year my students really adored me. It was so sweet. I’d had classes that were more ambivalent toward me but these guys were all about me.

I loved working with that teacher too. He was the kind of crunchy art nerd whose own kid didn’t know what candy was, who loved bird watching and wearing tweed. We’d chat while they worked and it was just a three hour pleasure rather than work.

When the class switched from charcoal to gouache a devil medium, the evilest watercolor, the students struggled. We’d have in class painting where they’d spend the whole time trying to mix one color instead of just accepting something as good enough and trying to practice other skills.

So one day I showed up to my shift and announced, “I have stickers. If you get color down for the whole composition, you get a sticker.”

They wanted. The stickers. So bad. Students who had agonized before about keeping lines neat and perfect plowed ahead. The first student to call me over I tsked at. “Putting grey on everything doesn’t count,” I chided, “I asked for colors on each object.”

The classroom worked in furious joy, young adults who had seen my bird and cactus stickers and gone feral. The teacher was flabbergasted. “Why do they want stickers? They could just buy stickers…”

I held up my water bottle and showed him a tiny 3D bubble sticker the program director had brought to my game teams space last week. “You never grow out of wanting to earn a sticker.”

By the end of class everyone had a sticker. There was more visible improvement in the work too, which surprised them since they’d been rushing. “Gouache looks terrible before it looks good. It’s okay to start messy and then refine.” The teacher had said the same thing but looking at their frantic sticker paintings they finally saw the truth of it.

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Finding out that World Athletics pays $100k every time a new world record is set so so Mondo Duplantis has just been setting it 1cm at a time from 6.17m to 6.25m in the past 4 years is so funny??? Finessing 1 million dollars 1 cm at a time even though he can clearly go higher at one shot???? #respect

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It actually bums me out that astrology has persisted through the years as the standard BS divinatory practice that people really buy into, when it so easily could have been ornithomancy instead.

We could’ve had hipster girls trying to predict the minutiae of your life using an intricate chart that details how many herons or crows you’ve seen in the past year. Instead of asking what’s your sign on dating apps people would be like how many birds did you see on your way to work today. I cannot stop thinking about what could have been.

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hey i haven’t been on here i’m so long. I’m still alive, just was going through some hella rough mental health things. I also made a different tumblr for nsfw purposes and have been on there mainly. But i just wanted to say hi again and that i’m okay

oh also! i go by honey now and use they/them pronouns!

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Do you ever wonder what happened to the weird girl from your middle school?

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I think the counters at popular chain coffee shops I won't name should be replaced with a fully covered area where customers can't see the employees faces or what they're doing. I'm talking once ler levels of obfuscation. The counter should look like this

secondly, the whole enclosed area should constantly emit various steams and smokes like a horrible machine, and employees should be encouraged to make as much conspicuous noise as possible. I want customers to walk up to what is basically a steel wall on a steel counter, nervously place their order in a microphone, hand over their method of payment through a small door, have it returned, then the cashier slams shut the door, they hear an absolute cacophany for a minute and their drink and receipt are unceremoniously slid out the very same little door in the wall

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why do i let myself catch feelings so fast… i knew when i introduced him to O that he’d like him so much more. wish i was more special.

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me: yeah i’m confident in my body, i’m just not confident that i understand fashion well enough to make it look like i know what i’m doing as far as pulling off femininity goes. i often enter clothing stores and can’t find anything i think would look good on me so i just lose my confidence and leave without trying anything on

new gender psychologist i’m getting to know: i mean that sounds like a pretty feminine thing to worry about to me

me: 

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hey, this is probably overstepping, but are you okay? Do you need someone to talk to?? If it was a joke, sorry for taking it seriously. But in case it wasn't, do you have someone to talk to. you don't have to answer this ask, obviously.

nah i’m not. thanks for asking. i’m looking for some care, either therapy or maybe a psych ward, but money is spread thin rn and my insurance doesn’t cover squat so i’ve just been trying to tough it out. but thank you, genuinely. it’s nice to hear someone worry

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my birthday is in a few days and i don’t want to celebrate. i don’t want to remember how old i am or how much of a failure i am.

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time traveler hyping themself up for the 1920s: it's the great war not WW1 it's the great war not WW1 it's the great war not WW1 it's the great war not WW1

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i think i would rather encounter multiple women who take astrology too seriously over even one guy who genuinely believes in sigma/alpha/beta male bullshit

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So many TV shows/movies depict the Epi Pen as a total solution for anaphylaxis...it's not. The Epi Pen gives you 30 minutes to get to a hospital where they can save your life. TV makes it look like you just have to use the Epi Pen and then the crisis is over. Do people without allergies or a loved one with allergies know that an Epi Pen only buys you time? The more I see this on TV the more I worry...

**Maybe you should reblog this because I'm actually worried that most people don't know.

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“humanity is inherently selfish and bad” bbbrrrghuhjfkg. humanity is seeing a stranger’s grocery bag break open on the sidewalk and harvesting fruits and veggies from the branch-like cracks of the asphalt for them, just because you can. humanity is helping a lost child find their mother on a crowded beach, looking for the ladybug-patterned parasol with their hummingbird-small hand in yours. it’s an elder’s fingers wrapped around your arm as you help them up the stairs because the elevator is broken, and feeling like you’re doing exactly what you’re supposed to be doing, like this is what you would’ve been doing had you been alive centuries or even millennia ago. there will always be a heavily pregnant woman who will smile at your when you give up your seat, a nice blind man in the fruit aisle who will ask you to please pick the riper plantain for him, a tired cashier whose face will light up when you compliment their tattoo sleeve. humanity is connection

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i’m quiet honestly suffering terrible rn and i have no motivation or drive or ambition anymore and i literally don’t know how to motivate myself and i’m kinda scared that i’m just stuck and can’t get myself out so i’m just gonna figure my shit out idk but i’m just. ugh idk