“What if we make two men who hate each other and an unfortunate rich boy and make them travel across the RDR2 map while avoiding an apocalypse-level monster invasion?” - Doeiika, at some point.
Go read The World by @doeiika / SourApplechips on AO3.
Under the cut is art involving blood / gore… also a brief reference to Blood Under The Snow by Amras.
To be the protagonist is to be changed (physically and or mentally).
i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.