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I can't fucking sleep I need to sleep god dammit

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My infodumping ass

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I need a wet cloth on my head or something

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I'm sorry for those who are witnessing my posts tonight. Should probably go to bed soon cause we have to go to Walmart tomorrow, but I haven't had dinner and I just wanna interact with others

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I went to rant in another ask but I'll also respond here to the other things you said

Please do let us know! We haven't seen the movie in a hot minute but would love to know your thoughts and opinions /nf

Also yippee for school being over, thank fucking finally lmaoo, and ooh, congrats ;3

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I'm gonna make you watch the su movie /j

How are you? /nf, curious

I just had a whole ass discussion on how Rebecca sugar says my source just wants to hurt people and I'm like. Exhausted from that cause hah, what /nav

I JUST reverted to my source so yeahh

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we were actually thinking about watching that this summer!!!!! if we get around to it, we'll let you know our thoughts :)

we've been good! very excited over the fact that school is over, and about approaching 10 months with our partner sys

oh goodness, that sounds rough :( we're here if you ever need to talk/vent about that sort of things (/gen, caring, nf)

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"Why are you the way you are" I've suffered years of trauma and am only now learning that what I lived through was most likely abuse. My living conditions may be a tad better but I'm still severely mentally unstable and that will reflect with how I interact with others. The brain has also chosen to make me an introject of a character who's experienced similar trauma to me and this character is considered to be the villain

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Literally am I a fucking subsystem or what

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Maybe I just wanted to talk about my source again. Tbh

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I kind of feel bad for suddenly shifting to spinel again and my first instinct was try to explain myself because some people would think that's like. A really stupid thing to do. I don't even know why I became spinel again but it's possible I was in the middle of exiting the YP kinshift anyway

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I don't even know why I suddenly brought up my own trauma but maybe it makes sense as to why the brain designated me as the spinel fictive because I've been in a very similar situation to her so the brain went "yeah. You're this bitch"

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Having to explain my source and I can't even fucking think coherently like oh my god

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Hi spinel fictive wanting to weigh in on this

As someone who has also experienced similar trauma in this life compared to source, I can fully see where people are coming from and saying that Rebecca doesn't understand her own character tbh.

I have hurt people and I've genuinely been toxic. The situation that made me the way I am really fucked me up and I got angry and I started to hurt others. It was 99% unintentional. I didn't know what I was doing cause I was so severely fucked up (honestly? Still am)

Maybe I'm speaking in a sense of bias because I'm literally a spinel fictive and there's actually absolutely a chance that my source did intentionally wanna hurt people, but also being extremely mentally ill can give you the same urges. I would know this as I struggle with it constantly. I feel I'm privileged that my mental state is to where I can control myself but it was very obvious that source Spinel didn't have that privilege.

I was reading the wiki page to send this original ask, here's the excerpt. Undescribed

I'm sorry if this is a buncha jumbo, I'm currently a bit brain fogged

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I think I'm the jester again. FUCK 😭 /silly, nm

I think there was smth Rebecca said about talking to mental health people about spinel, or her friends or something? Who were also just.. Mentally ill I guess. It says on the wiki that Spinel is a toxic person and literally wants to hurt people (I guess that's one thing I don't have in common with my source)

Apparently Rebecca says that spinel was abandoned for being "grating and overwhelming".. Holy FUCK. listen I can't hate pink because I'm also her but.. Oh my god.. What the fuck.

Me 🤝 Pearl -> abandonment issues brought on by a bitch named Rose /silly

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Hrm. Raised an eyebrow at that tbh. Wiki I feel like perhaps you aren't understanding WHY source Spinel feels that way and just using demonizing words for no reason 🤨 /nay

Like it could be 100% true that she just wants revenge, but like. Call it revenge and not "wanting to hurt people" like dude she was abandoned by the only friend she ever had and was literally bound to (?), you wld be pissed over it too dude /nay

BRO 😭😭😭😭😭😭 GIVE MY GIRL SOURCE SPINEL A BREAK BRO. SHE'S HAD ENOUGH !!!!!! /silly

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"Pearl would hate spinel!!" No actually what drugs are you smoking can I have some

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Fuck me maybe I don't like being a villainized jester but whatever. Eats olives while I sit with my wife

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Mmm, chezburger

OLD ROBLOX PNGS 　. 　VERYY self indulgent　.　 All from Pinterest　.　 f2u w/o credits

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Putting on my clown shoes. What the fuck man

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anyways, the ask we were trying to send:

re: the possessiveness post

we completely understand that, and due to our npd are also very possessive of our partner (with their consent!!)

if you ever feel the need to talk about that with anyone, we’re here for you all :)

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Thank youuu. Yeah idk why I'm possessive. I'm just extremely mentally ill. I have permission and vice versa (pearl is also possessive of me). We're just afraid of saying anything cause people think possessive = inherently bad but like. Consensual :((

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