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Host culture is wanting others to front because of Host Guilt™ and feeling like you're taking advantage of others and that you're "not letting them front" when in reality you are taking the responsabilities no one wants LMFAO

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I write this as a joke but we found someone new this morning.

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Mutual reblogs covert endo positive post: 10 dead, 8 missing

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system appreciation post btw. thats several friends in one body. what is there to fear

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trauma: *happens*

my brain, age 6: double it and give it to the next person

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The reoccurring theme of being unwanted in your childhood and seeing yourself as some kind of monster and how you feel like you have to move mountains to get people to like you

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shout out to systems with:

alters that use it/its !

alters that use neopronouns !

alters with multiple pronouns !

alters that don't use pronouns !

alters that don't know their pronouns !

alters that don't care about their pronouns !

genderfluid alters !

transgender alters !

non-binary alters !

xenogender alters !

questioning alters !

alters with 'contradicting' gender identities !

non-cis child alters !

other genderqueer alters i didn't mention !

being queer does not make you fake. an alter can be any gender, and use any pronouns. keep expressing yourself in ways that make you happy :D

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idk how much more on-the-nose my symptoms can get bc i really just described my experiences as "i recognize i'm dissociating but it doesn't feel like me. it feels like someone else is dissociating" like okay man do you want to take a minute to think about that or

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[sidles up to you in my shitty 2003 Toyota prius] Have you endured trauma of any variety lately?? You may be entitled to some fancy New Fuckers In Your Head! it’s a buy-one-get-seventeen-free sale right now, so don’t wait!!

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because i've seen a handful of misconceptions lately:

not every alter needs to split from trauma. after the initial split from anywhere ages 0-9* from overwhelming, ongoing trauma(s) to a child, they can split for whatever the brain feels is necessary, and with a highly traumatized brain, it's definition of "necessary" might not always make sense! this can be anywhere from a trauma holder for a specific event, to an alter that's just there to play video games.

i know everyone says it but i still see it around: you do not need to remember your trauma to be a system. that is why your brain split in the first place; so you can carry on with day to day life without processing what you went through every second of the day. "but what if i dont remember anything?" this is exactly what im referring to, that means the disorder is doing what its technically supposed to. (i say technically because of course, amnesia is never as clear cut as its made out to be.)

on that topic, dissociative amnesia can look like, literally, a million different things and you don't need to have full blackouts in order to have "enough" amnesia. certain alters might remember certain things better, or forget things easier. you might not realize you even forgot something in the first place until you try to remember it. you might seemingly have very little amnesia at first until you try to remember the plot of the show you watched the other day, what you seemingly wanted to work on a few hours ago or why you even wanted to do that thing in the first place, or how close you are with someone. *"hold on, 0-9? every resource says ages 6-9!" it is theorized that the brain finishes integration of the self from ages 6-9. this means that if you experience any sort of long term trauma before age 9, your brain might not have finished integrating, or integrated partially.

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BORN TO FORGET

WORLD IS A BLUR

I Am Memory Issues Man

410,757,864,530 FORGOTTEN PRECIOUS MEMORIES

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Shout out to those in in-sys relationships!

In-sys relationships are not only incredibly common, but can be incredibly healthy!

Shout out to those who formed loving another part already, or those who formed and came to find love later!

Shout out to those who are navigating relationships IRL while also navigating innerworld relationships!

Shout out to those who have sexual, romantic, queer platonic, and/or simply platonic relationships with some or multiple parts!

Shout out to those who view innerworld relationships as a form of self-love and recovery!

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Plural culture is going through something really stressful and instead of someone who can handle it fronting, you just dissociate like hell

- blurry

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Me: Can I even really call it trauma, though? It wasn't *that* bad, right? Other kids have definitely been through worse.

The men in my head that my brain created to love and protect me because I couldn't handle my childhood otherwise: 🧍‍♂️😐

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News Flash ⚡

A neurostructural biomarker of dissociative amnesia: a hippocampal study in dissociative identity disorder

Another study provides evidence that emotional neglect in childhood is the biggest indicator of DID.

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Heyyy DID/OSDD systems, do y'all ever experience different energy levels depending on who's fronting? Our host is extremely low energy, they feel like they've just run a marathon or held a plank position for an hour like 85% of the time, but then I'll get into front and be totally fine and able to do chores and dance around a bunch lmao, whats up with that?