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Mini Fic Recommendation List

For those who want to get into the pairing, or ship-enjoyers revisiting classics, here are a few of the many Guili gems I've found over at Ao3. It's nowhere near all of them though... Might have to make another list later on.

How Mortals Live by cinnar is a 2.5K word T-rated angsty oneshot about mortal lives and Guizhong's death by Zhongli's hand. Guizhong/Zhongli. It's absolutely magnificent.

Kind? by trains_arent_real is a 8.6K word T-rated angsty fic centered on Zhongli's past, Guizhong's influence, and seeing the world through his eyes as he grows. Guizhong/Zhongli. It's one of my top favourite Guili fics ever.

broken stone, stolen death by tofu_of_anarchy is a 1.7K word T-rated angsty one-shot where Zhongli dies instead of Guizhong. Guizhong/Zhongli. Heartwrenching read.

old friend by sakuriis is an M-rated 5.7K one-shot about Guizhong and Zhongli's first meeting. Guizhong/Zhongli. This is the first Guili fic I read, and it's the one that made me love them.

flowers, tea, and everything in between by pastelpetals is a 4.8K G-rated Modern AU where Guizhong owns a flower shop and Zhongli opens a teashop. Guizhong/Zhongli. This was so cute. Happy fic to end the list.

Enjoy!

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poems to read while having breakfast at the heartbreak hotel

I know I am but summer to your heart (Sonnet XXVII) by Edna St. Vincent Millay

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why (Sonnet XLIII) by Edna St. Vincent Millay

Time does not bring relief (Sonnet II) by Edna St. Vincent Millay 

I Am Not Yours by Sara Teasdale

[you fit into me] by Margaret Atwood

You by Carol Ann Duffy

Be Near Me by Faiz Ahmed Faiz

Blessed be the spectacle by Lev St. Valentine

You Are Tired (I Think) by E.E. Cummings

Hope you're well. Please don't read this by Lev St. Valentine

To Say Dark Things by Ingeborg Bachmann

Lilichka by Vladimir Mayakovski

Love and Hate by Elizabeth Eleanor Siddal

Sanctuary by Jean Valentine

the winter sun says fight by Peter Gizzi

The More Loving One by W. H. Auden

A Primer For The Small Weird Loves by Richard Siken

Dirty Valentine by Richard Siken

Morning by Frank O Hara

We Don't Know How To Say Goodbye by Anna Akhmatova

You'll Live, But I'll Not… by Anna Akhmatova

from “An Attempt at Jealousy” by Marina Tsvetaeva

The Last Toast by Anna Akhmatova

In Dream by Anna Akhmatova

Mad Girl's Love Song by Sylvia Plath

Talking In Bed by Philip Larkin

He wishes for the Cloths of Heaven by W.B. Yeats

La Belle Dame Sans Merci by John Keats

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i hate being omniscient

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now i haven't finished the dream thieves yet (i'm like,,, 7 chapters away from finishing) and i think this may contain spoilers???? but i'm not too sure yet. i'm basically gonna word vomit. i'm sorry for not using any quotes, i wish i could but i only have the ebook version and a very limited storage space on my phone where i can only have ~two books downloaded

like a normal person, i enjoy listening to video essays, see what creators want to explain to their audience and leave with a certain view, try to come to my own arguments about certain points in the videos, see if i can apply some points to other aspects of my life etc etc. (this was the type of shi that helped me with my eng lit essays rip i miss alevels) and like a normal british citizen i looked up stuff about classism in the uk. in the end, i found a video essay about classism in general and how the ultra rich try to mimic being poor to get away from their hard issues that comes with being rich (which, frankly, is probably a lot less compared to someone who is working class).

recently, i was talking to my friend about specifics in the book about certain characters and i remember we went onto the convo of making music playlists for the characters. they said "it's gonna be hard for adam [...] cuz his whole thing is about being unknowable" and it always struck me with how unknowable he truly is when reading his character because his character is intrinsically linked to his working class background. (context: i'm a middle class child of immigrants who built themselves in the uk)

it's very clear the kind of social commentary stiefvater wanted to make using adam's character with how isolating and alienating it can be coming from a working class background trying to assimilate yourself into a society of those protected and privileged enough to not have any problems with accessing opportunities. how class is a huge obstacle between interpersonal relationships and feeling safe enough to be vulnerable with your issues with being working class. how difference in class can cause one-sided shame because of the meritocratic society we're living in. how, no matter how much money you earn or how many connections you can make, your attachment to your working class identity can be enough reason to aim for something supernaturally larger than yourself.

it's evident that other characters overlook adam's social class because he's a "self-made man" (or smth) and mainly because he's their friend: adam. however, when we get a chapter in his pov, class is a driving factor in how he interacts and views everyone. we can see the privilege gansey and ronan have for being able to not even consider class as an intimidating aspect about themselves to a normal person, but it's everything to adam in the sense that he feels like his earned money doesn't give him access to a similar respect.

now that i truly think about it, it was a good idea for adam not to join them in monmouth manufacturing because it just feels like they're... mocking him in an indirect way? they have the ability to choose to live in a nice place and instead chose to live in a random, run-down building because it seemed aesthetic. adam was forced to live in a rundown trailer because that's all they could have afforded. i know gansey had good intentions for wanting adam to join them, but everything that he likes as an aesthetic (monmouth manufacturing, the run-down camaro, eating mint leaves instead of gum) can seem like he's flaunting the fact he can choose that lifestyle without any consequences.

back to the point of the meritocratic society (which we usually assume in books that take place in a similar world as our own) creating shame because of their class: the assumption that because someone has worked hard to earn what they have gives them a right to be proud. but this is the opposite for adam as he fights with the fact that he could have maybe be seen as even more equal to gansey if he had just been born with wealth.

we can frame it as, maybe, despite gansey's desire to appear working class, it only broadens the distance between him and adam. it only worsens adam's difficult relationship with his class shame despite probably wanting to be more relatable or even laid-back.

when reading the second book after his sacrifice, i was confused as to why adam was so un-adam-like. i mean, in the first book i didn't really understand him because of his huge insistance that his class makes him inherently inferior to everyone he surrounds himself with and i don't see class as an issue myself.

however, his sacrifice basically was watering the seed of ambition that was planted when he decided to aim for aglionby. it becamse clearer to me how much this opportunity to be superior, even if it's supernatural and terrifying, is important for him understanding in what he thinks he lacks. by those thoughts of what he lacks, he thought that this chance to be cabeswater's channel could be a way to compensate for his inferior social class. or something.

anyways, thank you for coming to my ted talk. this is not proofread, and my sister keeps nagging at me to shower. also i simp for gansey do not think this is me trying mischaracterising him i'm just trying to understand the theme of class in this series and having gansey as a figure to compare to is literally integral.

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skip to loafer really said “be yourself and true friends will find you.” it took us by the shoulders and shook, “everyone struggles, so be kind.” “it’s ok to fail and make mistakes.” “as long as you try, that will be enough.” then it said, “keep going, keep getting back up.” skip to loafer, “your feelings are your own.” “i love you regardless.” it cradled our faces and told us, “go at your own pace.” “you are allowed to have fun.” they said, “your past does not define you and it does not hold you back.” then the manga, “it’s ok to feel that way, it’s okay” and “i want to keep coming back home.” “we’re all a bit different now.” hand in hand, “you’re not alone, you don’t need to be” “be someone who makes you happy” and skip to loafer just keeps saying, “maybe you’re not unlovable maybe you’re just 16.”

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maybe it'll be a good thing if i go to a different university 🤔🤔

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“she doesn’t call me every day like she used to. we both have our own friends and boyfriends. will the number of days when we don’t think of each other increase? but that’s okay”

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skip to loafer matching icons

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skip and loafer character wallpapers drawn by the author, misaki takamatsu

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the feeling of being undeserving strikes again!!!

i know it's just a feeling, but i hate it. i don't think i deserve all of the things i have today. i feel like i've lied to everyone and they don't seem to mind it if they knew.

i don't think i'm deserving of any love. i feel like my friends would do better without me; they deserve someone who's less awkward, less over-bearing, less condescending, more gentle, more wise. More capable of loving, and being loved.

i love my friends, and i know that they would br upset if i just dropped them n left the faces of the earth to make sure they're alright. but they all deserve someone better than the shell i am. i'm merely a shadow of their perception.

i would talk abt my fanily but i don't think i should.

i wish i was more, and i wish i was less.

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i think the neat part about college compared to secondary school is that the older students are actually more approachable and are fine w/ interacting w/ us younger students instead of being intimidating n bullying yr 7s. like,, i'm apart of a volleyball club n the older kids are so cool??????

they don't mind if i'm shit at it n try to teach me. :'-((( thank god for them or else i would have combusted from embarrassment.

i wanna get better n they make it seem like i can n so i will!!! thank god for college where the ppl have matured more, or at least have learnt when to keep quiet

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i want to know if my older brother wants to sink down to my father's feet and cry for him to hold him, like i would if i had the chance. i wonder if he misses the holds of reassurance from my dad's safe arms, if he misses the proud pats on his shoulders from his calloused hands, if he misses the nightly kisses on our foreheads from his chapped lips. does my brother miss our dad at all? does he miss what used to fikk our childhoods? or am i clinging onto whatever child love my parents reserved for me then?

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the veraverse by george deValier

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he's so cute

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"And you are my sacred book. My poem."

—Umar Timol, from "Blood", translated by Susan Wicks

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Shoreditch, Holly Warburton | Crush, Richard Siken