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Regardless of your gender or sexuality, reblog this and tag your most hetero male trait. Mine is either obsessing over my Altima or sitting around watching TV shows about air disasters.

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lord of the wings ✨

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There’s a certain school of Benjamin Sisko characterization - sometimes that even crops up on my own posts - that I’ll summarize in broad strokes as the “chill and unbothered” interpretation of him. This manifests in a few different ways, sometimes with the idea that he just wants to relax and do his hobbies without getting besieged by his responsibilities, or sometimes with the idea that his male rivals get homoerotically obsessed with him while he’s apathetic to them and baffled by their investment in him.

As for the former, it is true that Benjamin Sisko is heavily burdened and at times liable to break under the strain, and that’s part of what is so deliciously compelling about his character. He begins the show traumatized and world-weary and seriously considering resigning from Starfleet, and he goes through another dark night of the soul after Jadzia’s death at the end of season six (and I’d say there are indications it’s still haunting him through the first third of season seven). And the show emphasizes the massive toll that the war is taking on him on numerous occasions.

But the other thing that is deliciously compelling about him is the way he grabs onto his responsibilities with both hands and refuses to let go, even though his resolve is tested over and over. This is demonstrated in episodes like Behind the Lines, where he can’t stand being put behind a desk while the Defiant goes out on missions and feels a desperate need to be in the thick of things (a restlessness that drives him to put forth the plan to retake the station in the next episode). And while he intends to build a house on Bajor, he is not planning to resign his Starfleet commission - he tells Ross, “I will go wherever they send me. But when I go home, it will be to Bajor.” He is committed to his duties and believes in Starfleet’s ideals, very strongly. And while he is tempted to throw aside the role of Emissary in Accession, he is driven to seize it back because of his own values (and in Rapture, he gets to the point that he is willing to put his health and life at risk in order to understand the visions he’s having). He feels an intense amount of personal responsibility and is loathe to cede that responsibility, and he’s sometimes outright zealous in his manifestation of those traits.

And it’s precisely that need to take the reins that makes him inclined towards personal vendettas. This is very apparent in For the Uniform, in which his pursuit of Eddington is extremely personally motivated. He resents being taken off the assignment to catch him, because it’s a blip in a twenty-five year service record, and he’s absolutely furious that Eddington outsmarted him. It’s an injury to his pride and a loss of control that he can’t countenance. His conflict with Dukat is less a matter of pride, but after the events of Waltz, Sisko still sees it as his personal duty to defeat Dukat when the time comes, because of his moral disgust towards Dukat and his protectiveness towards Bajor. He tells Jadzia, “it’s him or me,” effectively picking up the gauntlet that Dukat throws down.

All in all, one of his defining traits is that he is very passionately invested in whatever he designates as his realm of responsibility. There are times when he wants to get away from it all, and when he feels torn in two by his competing commitments to Bajor and Starfleet. But he keeps choosing to recommit, over and over, and feels restless and unfulfilled without some sense of purpose driving him. And he hates feeling undermined.

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"just write a little every day" ok but what if i write nothing for 3 weeks and then suddenly type like i’m being hunted by god

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embarrassment has good bones

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there's something incestuous about seasoning tofu with soy sauce

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I was part of secretsamol for the first time this year, and got to draw Es and Lye hanging out for mr_marielda on twitter!

(if you're a collector of magic stuff and your friend has SO MANY of her weird eyelashes anyway...cant you have just one..?)

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not even in a sexual way but i’m just craving affection because i feel like crap i just want someone to hug me for a couple of hours and tell me i’m going to be okay 

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I went to a library book sale this weekend and I found a very old book called “Electronic Life: How to Think About Computers,” which was published in I think 1975? I’ve been reading it kind of like how I would read a historical document, and it’s lowkey fascinating

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Star Trek: The Next Generation I "Data's Day"

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"these researchers published a paper on something that literally any of us could have told you 🙄" ok well my supervisors wont let me write something in my thesis unless I can back it up with a citation so maybe it's a good thing that they're amplifying your voice to the scientific community in a way that prevents people from writing off your experiences as annecdotal evidence

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Norbertine Bresslern-Roth - Lying cat (1920)

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birds that look like fruit <3

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i must not take it personal. taking it personal is the mind killer. taking it personal is the little death that brings total oblivion. i will face taking it personal. i will permit it to pass over and through me. and when it has gone past i will turn the inner eye to see its path. when the taking it personal has gone there will be nothing. only i will remain

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I'm the #1 time travel fix-it fan like yess send that blorbo back in time to save the future but destroy the world they knew in the process!!! let them give everyone a happy ending while they have to deal with leaving their versions of those people behind