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Sometimes the most broken one is the most vocal one.

Yusha Rizvi (via wordsnquotes)

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The worst pain is being homesick for arms that don’t want to hold you.

it aches (via confessing-emotions)

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I love this

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This is the best thing I’ve seen in a while!

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don’t lose a woman that has seen your bullshit and still loves you.

(via lomasdope)

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If I cry in front of you, believe me, I reached my limit.

(via red-white-blondee)

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It’s not that you should never love something so much that it can control you. It’s that you need to love something that much so you can never be controlled. It’s not a weakness. It’s your best strength.

Patrick Ness, The Ask and Answer (via thelovejournals)

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When you’re in love you don’t have to do a damn thing. You can just be. You can just stay quiet in the world. You don’t have to move an inch.

Charles Baxter, The Feast of Love (via thelovejournals)

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social experiment..........

put ur sign and opinion of salt and vinegar chips in the tags

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You are going to be so much more than ‘enough’ for someone someday.

Unknown (via wordsnquotes)

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♡ 20th July I count my lucky stars I have you in my life, no one compares to you and no one will understand how much love for you I have and how much I care about you. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. 24th July You make me shiver, and tingle. You make me happy when I'm sad and happier when I'm already happy. You and only you make my day better. Nothing on this earth makes me as happy and as excited as you do. Talking to you makes my day, being with you makes me feel whole again. 31st July You know you make me feel like shit, you make me feel bad about what I eat and how much I eat. And you know that's not ok, I give you so much leverage when you diss me but the way you go on about what I eat makes me unhappy. Stop. 3rd August So last night you said that I've gained weight, "only a little bit" and then you blamed it on the pill. You have never hurt me more then now, you have made me feel fat, disgusting, and not good enough to be with you. Now I don't even want to see you, I'm just a self conscious blob. You have been hinting on it for weeks and I so knew but to say it and mean it made my heart drop. I just can't believe you would even bother to keep bringing it up. I can not stop feeling anxious, and I'm so hurt. You have really done it this time. And you know what makes it worse, after that comment, I was really upset and wasn't being the nicest person, BUT of course you had to bring yourself into this and say shit like, "I didn't actually call you fat, let's just change the topic, it's definitely from the pill" and then you have excuses for me to stop being angry. "You've called me fat so many times!" YOU HAVE GOT A SIX PACK FOR FUCK SAKE!!! You know I joke around. And then you say you don't want to do this anymore, you hate fighting every night and you're sick of it. "Stop calling me" I'm crying. Distraught. Trying to understand what you're saying. "So you don't want me anymore?" Sorry. I don't know! Yes I do I'm just sick of fighting. ITS A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP THATS WHAT FUCKING HAPPENS! Then you actually answer and I have to fucking make an agreement to stop fighting and I HAVE TO APOLOGISE. Me. "I hate texting at night I just want to chill, I hate how you text back so fast, just stop it." All I ever do is try to make you happy and I can't, I don't know what I can do anymore. I'm lost, what if I'm the only one trying in this relationship and the world is trying to tell me that, me trying is not how it goes and it's not okay. What if I'm ignoring all the signs around me that are saying, "Why are you apologising for something you did not do? Why are you so unhappy but you refuse to actually believe it? Why are you being stuck in this dismal thought that Z is actually in love with you?" Why are you doing this to yourself Yanah? - written while sick in bed, crying and thinking of nothing but not being here anymore 8th August I am unsure of your feelings. I am hooked to you. In love so much I would happily scream it to the world. But I am unsure about you, you have no effort and I struggle to hear how you feel. I love you, but I want someone to love me just as much. 9th August Sick of this stupid playing hard to get shit. Or maybe you just don't love me as much as I thought anymore, what the fuck am I meant to do. 11th August Last night we were officially over. After a year of ups and downs. We are done. I'm not going back, I'm sick of you not knowing your feelings and I'm sick of being used and I'm sick and tired. That was our last chance. Im not coming back now. And I don't want you to either. It was so much fun knowing the other side of you and being with you and being in love with you, but know I have better things coming. Thank you for everything... I will ALWAYS be in love with you. 13th August I saw you last night, I don't know what you feel. You probably don't care, at all. And that's what hurts the most. I miss you but at the same time you can go get fucked. Was over it long before we ended, thank you for making up my mind. 14th August After countless times telling myself not to even touch you I couldn't resist. You're fucking amazing. I have no words. We kissed and I know i still love you. 1:42 I wonder how you are feeling right now, do you still want a break or are you craving me back? 15th August We made up, and last night you opened up more then ever. And you called, scared about Harley, and I answered, told you everything would be okay and I said if you need me call again. I fell really hard asleep and didn't get your next call. At 1:15am, I'm sorry I was just really tired. I love you still. 26th August I stayed over at yours and we went to Cooly and every time we start hanging out with people you lose interest in me. You don't wanna hang out, you don't talk, you got cooked and you wouldn't even talk to me. You don't love me at all. Even worse when we got home and you just ARGHHH, I'm worth so much I hate this, I could give you the world and you don't want any of that! Fuck this night, this has made me never want to sleep again. 28th August Dad found out I stayed at yours. He found out I said cunt. I don't know which is worse. But either way spending time with you makes me regret nothing. I will love you forever. 29th August Thanks for messaging me, ignored once again. 11:19pm I told my dad I loved you today, and I do. With all my heart and all my soul. I don't understand how I could fall in love so easy and so hard. He just rolled his eyes and probably thinks I'm a lunatic for falling in love at such an early age... But so what? It will never matter how old you are, what race, hair colour, or amount of tattoos anyone could have, love will never stop until you have fallen over the top and into it. I don't think it's fair that I have to sit up at nearly 11:30 and having to explain to myself that "he's just tired", he "needed some sleep." I don't believe that, but for some strange reason my mind just ticks and switches off at the thought of being angry at you. And it won't be me this time who breaks up with who, I regret breaking up with you. I really do. I don't know if we would be better off, or we would hate each other more, maybe I'd be in love with somebody else who treats me like a total princess and never ceases to amaze me, but here I am, awake at nearly 11:30 and in love with a boy who hasn't discovered how he feels yet. It's hard watching people you love rip you apart. My dad, tries, but now I notice he doesn't try as hard lately. Maybe I'm a failure to him, that hurts to write. All I have ever wanted to do was make my dad happy and proud, I have lived up to his expectations ALL my life. I have lost friends and gained new ones over his opinion, his opinion that shaped my mind to judge someone so easily on their outer appearance. And maybe that's why I resent him so so much right now. I hate the way he tries to make me laugh, I hate how he constantly tries to strike up a conversation with me, and I hate how right now at this very moment I have tears in my eyes because I know that I hate how my dad treats me, not even that, I hate how he controls me. But deep deep down I just miss the way he used to look at me and smile when I made him proud. One day I want to tell him without starting to cry, because every time I try that's all I do. I cry, and I'm weak, and I try to look tough on my outer but I struggle with things and I don't have many close friends because no one likes me enough to put up with me. I'm constantly trying to make people like me that never will. And I will do this for the rest of my life, I will try and fail, and I will try another time, and I'll probably keep failing for the rest of my life. "You're doomed to fail," similar words to what my dad said to me this afternoon when he went on about how I fail at school and I don't try at anything anymore. I don't really wanna live at home anymore but at the same time I don't want to move away from my dad. He's the best and worst thing in my life and I love him with my whole heart and soul but I can't say I haven't thought about how my life may be if he weren't here. Maybe it's my adolescence that makes me so rebellious. Or maybe it's the fact that I want to live a life that doesn't fit into anyone's standards, a life that I invent. 30th August How shit does it feel to know we just ended and you don't even fucking care. I still wanna be with you. And I made that evident with the last 5 paragraphs I just sent to you. God I embarrass myself in front of you. You know what I want from you, I want you to talk to me in real life and on messenger like you enjoy it, I want you to seem interested in me and what I have to say. I want for you to ask me to hangout or at least when we half organise I want you to actually rock up. I want you to love me like I love you, and I wanna be your girlfriend so so bad it's killing me. I love you with everything. 31st August I don't know what I can say anymore. I feel... I don't know how I feel. I want to be yours, but at the same time I'm so sick of how you don't want me anymore and how you just wanna wait. What if I wait and then after footy you don't want me? Or even worse, you say you do but you act like you don't. I just want to feel loved and I guess that's a lot to achieve. I don't know why you don't want a girlfriend, maybe it's me, or maybe it's because I'm annoying or maybe it's what you truly say it is; You want me but you just aren't ready. If you take longer then after footy I don't think I honestly will be able to wait, I mean I love you, but I hate how I just so easy run for you and offer my whole heart and soul up to you, and you chuck it in the trash. 27th Feb Fuck love, it gets you no where.

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I will always respect the friend that has the courage to stand up to me and tell me when I am wrong. For that is the friend that truly cares.

whatifgodisacat  (via wnq-writers)

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