theafterlifeofgob

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damn feelings

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i think im loving this man a little bit too much, and its starting to hurt my own feelings.

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Can’t believe i waited for a week for this day.

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i ran to the supermarket earlier to grab some food for the week but i caught myself stuck in the cleaning aisle. Now, looks like im not meal prepping for the week, maybe prepping for a general cleaning weekend?

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Everyone who knows me personally knows how special birthdays are to me. To me, birthdays are like my own personal New Year - but unlike New Year, where everyone is celebrating, birthdays are when I get to celebrate the day with the people I truly want to be with. Short but intimate.

And just like New Year’s, during birthdays something in me dies and something new is born; these are the things I need to let go of, and things I want to carry forward with me. It’s like a quiet reset.

Im putting another candle on the cake but this doesn’t represent just my age; it’s about all the memories made, lessons learned, and adventures still waiting to be lived.

Here’s to celebrating life 🫶🏻

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Go get yourself a partner you can open your heart to completely.. someone who listens, understands, and never makes you feel like you’re “too much.” I know i can be a little dramatic sometimes, but i see it as a sign that im deeply in touch with my emotions. And the best part? My partner never makes me feel wrong for it. He handles these moments with patience and kindness, making sure i feel heard and valued. With him, im not afraid to speak my mind or show my heart, because i know he’s there not just to listen, but to truly understand and help clear the clouds away.

Its a kind of comfort that feels like home; and im endlessly grateful for it.

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Iba talaga yung feeling pag kakagaling lang sa vacation— especially if it’s an international trip. It’s usually a mix of emotions: disappointment about going back to a struggling and corrupt country, sadness for many reasons, one of which is having to return to reality, ubus na ang pera kaya kayod nanaman sa po tayo sa work. But what I want to focus on is the good part: happy memories from the trip, joy from the experiences of different activities and food, and a sense of growth from everything i’ve learned — whether it’s about their culture or something new about myself.

That’s what i love about traveling — it teaches me things, helps me grow, and honestly, just gives me something to look forward to. Kaya ikaw, i-book mo na rin yan!

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95% packed. So tired.

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first time visiting Bali. bukas na yung flight pero wala pa akong naeempake. excited naman ako pero katamad pa kumilos lalo naiisip kong marami pa akong deadlines later shift. ahkkkk

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the only food i wanted to eat when im really reaaaally down is marshmallows. most of my friends knows this — if they see me with a pack of mallows, they already know im not doing well.

and today, i need one. im about to cry and i dont want to walk into a convenience store with red eyes. ahk.

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was it the weather or am i just too lazy to do chores today? i just want to sleep, cuddle, and maybe get some kisses? ahk anyways - my man is not coming over, so never mind.

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What!? Damn

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pics taken from one of the weekend dates with my man

(lowkey wanting to go to Vietnam)

ever since my man started doing a strict diet, the only place I can think of for eating out is a Viet resto/cafe - since they usually have balanced meal options (plus good coffee too). these recent dates kinda trained my tongue to crave a specific taste — it’s becoming a habit. im not complaining tho - but do u guys have any reco resto that’s calorie-deficit friendly and guilt-free? i need more options. Haha!

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It’s my pinsan’s 18th birthday. Grabe, ang dami na palang ganap sa debut no? Nakita ko rin online that aside from the usual 18 roses, candles, and treasures, meron na ngayong 18 blue bills, lipsticks, shoes, shots, gadgets, and so on (depende sa theme or sa amats ng debutant)

Sa birthday ng pinsan ko, I was chosen as one of the "blue bills." Naisip ko lang, It feels a bit compulsory to give 1k. Don’t get me wrong — okay lang sakin magbigay ng pera sa pinsan ko, but I don’t think it would feel the same if it were someone I’m not close to. Besides, 1k is 1k. Medyo curious rin ako, sino kaya nagpauso neto? at bakit kailangan 1k? Pwede naman 500? 100? etc. It kind of proves the point ng isang post online na parang budol siya, kasi 1k is our biggest currency, right?

This makes me think one of the wedding tradition - where guests pin money on the newlyweds’ clothes - pero the big difference is, walang fixed amount. If you can only give 100, oks lang. Pero sa debut, minimum of 1k kasi nga “blue bills.”

I also looked into the cultural background of this tradition. Originally, the debut had only three parts: roses (for men), candles (for women), and treasures (any gender). This whole tradition is actually a Spanish influence - same with the wedding money dance. Wala lang. Share ko lang. Nakita ko lang ‘to while looking for the origin of this tradition.

Well, its good to know din how we embrace these traditions and add our own Filipino touch, which makes them feel truly ours. Ang galing lang how these are passed on and continue to evolve from generation to generation.

Pero sa totoo lang, in my personal opinion, habang nagpo-progress ang tradition na 'to, I hope we don't lose sight of the guests' experience. I know we’re all doing these things to celebrate our daughters’ “legalization” into adulthood - and yes, this has already become part of our culture, and we respect that. Pero sana, as the tradition continues to evolve, debutante’s parents also consider the guests. Baka kasi if we keep adding more and more unreasonable “18 somethings,” dumating yung point na instead of feeling honored to be included, the guests might feel burdened or pressured. Imbes na ma-excite, baka matakot pa silang mapasama sa list.

'Yun lang. Bye.

Dami kong gustong sabihin pero teka… idlip muna.

Eto na muna, okay? Pahinga over daldal. Bye.

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this weather is seriously tempting me to cancel my weekend plans

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Whenever I have a heavy heart - which honestly doesn’t happen that often - so when it does, I know its something real. And when that feeling hits, I always make it a point to write it down. It could be with a pen and paper, or just in my Notes app.

It really helps me most of the time. I might cry while writing, and thats totally fine. Thats just me being real and sitting with my emotions. If I’m writing something directed at someone, I dont always send it. Sometimes just getting it out is enough to make me feel okay already.

But if its something about my partner, I’ll usually end up sending it so we can talk about it. Still, I dont send it right away. I know myself - I get overly emotional, especially with my partner - so I like to wait a bit. By the time I’m ready to send it, its usually way shorter because once I calm down, I look back and cringe a little at how dramatic I was.

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I think i heard it from Inka - that she schedules her emotional breakdowns. Funny thing is, I feel like im already doing that without even realizing it.

I mean, why would I suddenly burst into tears the moment I logged off from work?