thebusinesssystem

[thebusinesssystem]

i really like ur system name

sincerely, a business major

Thanks, friend!

[thebusinesssystem]

Shoutout to systems who feel like they're faking because they can't remember their trauma. I promise that you're not faking, you're so so valid. It's normal not to remember your trauma. That's the whole part of DID/OSDD - to keep you safe and help you survive. You do not need to remember your trauma now or ever to be valid.

ENDOS DNI. THIS POST IS NOT FOR YOU.

[thebusinesssystem]

You know that little voice that has come up in your head at times? The one that has told you that you deserve better? The one you likely dismissed and maybe ignored?

That voice was right. Please try not to dismiss it so much.

[thebusinesssystem]

[thebusinesssystem]

Hey anxiety, I see you. You're trying so hard to protect me, I really appreciate that. Though, right now there is no real danger. You don't have to be on guard. But, if you want to stay for a while that's fine too. Nonetheless, you are safe. We are safe.

[thebusinesssystem]

our system has two moods:

clown car,

or "day fourteen of The Silence. the radios have long since stopped working, and i write these entries to keep myself and the slow, steady, dripping of the water company. i have officially been without human contact for weeks, and i fear the decay of my very soul"

[thebusinesssystem]

Even if what you did today seems like a "baby step", you can still see it as a victory, because healing is a long and strenuous process for many of us. No step is insignificant.

[thebusinesssystem]

Even if you know you can survive something, even if you know you’ll make it through like you always do…

It’s okay to feel it. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to scream. It’s okay to feel that it’s not fair it’s happening to you. Because it’s not.

You’re going to be okay. You’re going to survive. You’re going to make it through like you always do. But it’s okay to stop and have feelings about it.

[thebusinesssystem]

honestly you shouldn’t feel guilty or ashamed or embarrassed for leaving a hobby behind or for picking up a new one. hobbies are supposed to be fun. you’re supposed to be doing it for your own sake. do what brings you happiness and quit what doesn’t. live your life

[thebusinesssystem]

reminder that you are enough just as you are.

you don't need to change or be more productive or do more to be enough.

you always have been and always will be enough by simply existing and being you.

[thebusinesssystem]

you’re allowed to just enjoy things, without being fantastic at them.

[thebusinesssystem]

i'd rather give aid, accommodations, and support to someone faking a disability than neglect a disabled person because they "might be a faker".

[thebusinesssystem]

You know that disorienting sensation you get when you're waking up from a nightmare and trying to get your bearings and remember where you are and what time it is?

Sometimes I abruptly have that exactly sensation even though I have been awake for hours. Out of the blue it will feel like I have just woken up and moments ago I was dreaming of being somewhere else.

I usually have this mixture of memories that are both true at the same time. 20 minutes ago I was eating dinner, but I was also dreaming of being chased by a monster. Both are true. I remember both. I was asleep having a nightmare, but I was also eating dinner.

I think this is one of the most confusing DID/Dissociation related things I experience. I don't really know what to make of it. I think it happens when parts who were "asleep" inside come into awareness and blend in with me and our awareness gets all blended together.

[thebusinesssystem]

Nothing more punk than someone who is in pain all the fucking time and just continues to exist.

[thebusinesssystem]

The truth is there is no trauma that’s not valid. If you’re asking if your trauma is valid, it’s always “yes”.

Trauma isn’t about the specific event(s) that caused it but is instead about the impact the specific event(s) have on you.

[thebusinesssystem]

You don't need to be perfect to be worthy of anything: to be recognized, loved, or considered successful, or to be good at something. You are enough as you are. Take that risk, you can do it and you will do it well while having a great journey.

[thebusinesssystem]

“I don’t know, what if I’m not really a system? What if I’m faking it? It makes a lot more sense if I’d just been really lonely and hurt as a kid and my brain made up a person to put all those bad feelings into so I could live my life normally.”

“… wait.”

— a conversation I have with myself at least thrice weekly