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❝𝐏𝐀𝐂: 𝐌𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐥, 𝐰𝐡𝐨’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐚𝐥𝐥—𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐤 𝐚 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧.❞

Pick your poison (detailed).

Masterlist.

Author’s note,

Just finished my paid services if anyone is interested. Anyways, I was trying to figure out how to make this into a pac because it is so random, but what the hell, right? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Moodboard | Divider.

Pile I.

Channeled song.

“Sometimes, I like to think about the moon and the sun. How they align with one another, and how I align with you. How can we align with one another so well like the moon and the sun? Are we a God and a Goddess? Are we Aphrodite and Hercules? Are you my beauty queen, and am I your fighter?”

Your future spouse/person wants you to think outside the box more. Stop thinking in black and white, focus on your innermost feelings, and let yourself breathe. You don’t have to be a particular way; you can be every single way when you label yourself. You can call yourself serious and strong but sometimes feel goofy and sensitive. There is no specific way a label must be. You don't have to be right in everything you do nor follow what is right about a specific genre or a couple. You have to be right for yourself, but you can't be if you won't allow yourself to be contradictory. It’s not fair to you, nor is it fair during sex.

You want it one way, but when you do it that way; you can't handle it, and you do it another way, and the cycle repeats itself. It is okay to change your mind, but when you get your gift, you should learn to appreciate it. Appreciate me too, I need that right now, appreciate us.. we need that. I don't want to keep fighting with you, I love you lots, but do you love me lots?

Channeled song.

“I want to fight for us, I want to praise you, I want to love you—can you love me? Are we always going to fight with each other? Are we always going to kiss one another, have passionate sex, and then always argue? Is this the relationship you dreamed of when we were kids? Is this what you thought was going to happen when you accepted my proposal? Is this something that makes you happy? Pick your poison (your name). Are you happy?”

“I don’t want to think about cheating with you, but ever since you started to become abusive, I have—I’m not your abusive ex, stop projecting it onto me. I deserve better, and I've been fighting it with you, but you won't see it. I'm going to leave. And when I leave, don’t come chasing me again. I need that peace surrounding me, and you are my icebreaker that I don’t want. I don't want you, I don't, I don't, I don't—I want you gone. Just leave me.. le—”

A lot of anger surrounds your childhood best friend or sweetheart, a lot. When someone feels very angry, they don’t know how to put it into words, and the same can be said here. They want to say things to you that they will regret so you can feel the same anger, but at the same time, they want to do better and try to work it out. The issue is, it never will work out if you don’t change yourself right now.

You are at war with yourself, and you have become egotistical and nasty. It's very nasty that channeling your energy makes me feel nauseous, dehydrated, and sick. There is a lot of unnecessary rage within your heart, and yet you were in the wrong when this friendship ended, or this long-lasting relationship ended with your ex. You need to let it go and stop projecting.

You have someone who is going to be so loyal to you, and yet? It doesn’t matter because hurting them and sabotaging feels freer—makes you feel alive when it shouldn’t.

Channeled song.

“Tsk, tsk, disappointing yourself, cheating on yourself, is your poison. Imagine being your own demise because you don't believe in goodness? That you don't believe in happiness, in peace, or in love? How pathetic.”

Your mind is a walking paradox. On one hand, you want to love and cherish them, and on the other, you want to despise them for what they did. And no, this isn't about your future person, this is about loving you.

What is so disgusting about you that you cannot love yourself the right way? What is so daunting about you that you cannot attend to yourself? Because you are scared of people, because your social anxiety fucks with your pretty brain? Because God (metaphor) doesn’t love you, so you must hate yourself? What do you think your future person is going to think about this, and what do you think your inner child is going to see, knowing damn well the hardships they had to go through only to end up like this? Seriously?! You want to let your past self down and harm your HEALED inner child because you are afraid of happiness and peace??

Get a grip, get a fucking grip and yell at yourself, TELL YOURSELF that you deserve happiness, you deserve it, you fucking deserve it. Do you understand?? YOU FUCKING DESERVE IT!!!!

Do not sabotage yourself BECAUSE YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS AND I WANT YOU TO FUCKING DO IT. GIVE YOURSELF THE PEACE THAT YOU FUCKING DESERVE, GIVE YOURSELF THE HAPPINESS YOU FUCKING DESERVE. IT WAS TIME AGES AGO, BUT YOU REJECTED IT BECAUSE OF THIS. DO BETTER. Please.

**Remember this is from your future person. Just an intuitive thing.**

Channeled song.

Masterlist.

Pile II.

Channeled song.

When you think about monsters, what do you see? Do you think about your favorite comfort characters that you fantasize about (knowing they are awful people)? Do you think about your parents, about your siblings, or your extended family? Do you think about me triggering you to heal yourself? Do you think about the PACs you read that call you out on your bullshit? Or do you think about yourself when you made a fucking mistake and then go on a spiral when you don’t have to?

Do you like breaking your spirit to the point where you cannot come back? Do you like insulting yourself to the point where you cannot enjoy the moment? Where you cannot even allow yourself to masturbate to the characters you like—who they are is not something you should focus on. You are allowed to find them hot, everyone does it, and it is not—it does not make you a bad person. It’s okay to find them attractive, so stop being a dick to yourself. “Who do you think you are? You don’t even know who I am, fuck you. You are not worth my time. Let me throw you hate, you deserve it—”

It’s almost like you want to throw me this hate and yet.. in your heart, you know deep down it is about you. You don’t even know who you are. Who are you?? Tell me, who are you? I don’t know who are you, no one does, not even yourself, how could you do that to yourself.. was it something you deserve?

To not know who you are, to lose yourself for others opinions, and then make fun of yourself when you cannot become them? There is nothing to become, and there is nothing to go home to. How can you expect things from yourself when you are a shell of what they created? They broke you, broke every single thing about you, and yet, you never allowed them to. You become like others, you lost your confidence, but you can always get it back. You lost your happiness, but you can always get it back. You lost your purpose, but you CAN always make a new one. Our happiness, our confidence, and our purpose do not define us, OUR WANTS do.

Do you understand, my love?? Your character can determine who you are ON THE OUTSIDE, to OTHERS, but who you are on the inside, you wants… that determines who you really are. What do you really want to do, my pretty?

Do you want others to laugh at you, do you want to keep blaming yourself for it, or do you want to fight for yourself and become better just for you?

Channeled song.

What do you imagine when you think about fighting for yourself? What comes to mind for you?

Is it going on a quiet road trip when the sky is pouring with sweet rain? Is it coming home to see your loved ones praising you for your hard work? Is it knowing that you found a healthy partner sharing your hardships with you? Is it knowing that you can have healthy sex for the first time in your life and finally knowing what aftercare is? Is it finally learning how to educate yourself about sex, masturbation, and healthy sex? Is it constructing your dream home and living in it like Rapunzel but having it as your choice?

What is more appealing to you, my pretty, is it fighting for yourself or fighting yourself for others?

Masterlist.

Pile III.

Channeled song.

Thank you for ending a shitty relationship with your person. It doesn’t matter what type of relationship it was, but thanks for respecting and prioritizing yourself. We don’t know each other, maybe you follow me, maybe you don’t, it doesn’t matter. Thanks.

Your energy is so pretty right now. A lot of bad things would happen when you were with them, but you could not let them go because you cared. You cared way too much more than you should have. Sure, there were moments when things were so lovely with them, but having that shallow mindset made things hard for you to realize their bullshit.

You liked their looks, their body, their voice, etc., but never their personality. Their physical attributes made up for everything, and it was nice for a while until it started to become unbearable. Intuition tells me you craved to be with someone handsome/gorgeous like them for so long, kind of like a dream board or 16 wishes. It was good for a while until those wishes were fading away, and each time you wished for something else, another thing disappeared. If you have not seen the Disney movie, I recommend that you do—there are so many messages for you. The ending is something you must see.

Channeled song.

Your ending is short just as their love was for you. It’s kind of like you want to hear me praise you more or show you appreciation for what you did. But you need to do that for yourself; I cannot offer something that you lack.

You have to start showing yourself the praise and love you seek from others. Yeah, your relationship ended, but don’t make the same mistake you made in the beginning with them. Learn from your lessons and nurture yourself.

Masterlist.

#pile 3 #dammmn

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